Gabriel: The COVID-19 risk group speaks out

I have physical health problems I have

mental health problems I have complex

PTSD from medical trauma

it is super traumatic to go through the

medical system and diagnosed it is also

traumatic to go through it as a as a

queer person I am I'm a trans non-binary

person and I'm also queer in my

sexuality as well and going through the

medical system that way was difficult

and I also because kind of those because

of through those experiences or however

it happens in the brain I also have

anxiety and depression and so this

quarantine is really really really

affecting my mental health I feel like I

reverted in my mental health like I took

like three years back in steps of like

my mental health progress within like

the month

when the quarantine happened our

services for disabled people in their

homes were cut so I don't have any way

to do laundry I am walking pretty well

right now which is nice but by in a few

hours I'll need my walker and in a few

more hours I'll only be able to use my

wheelchair and because because of that

thought increases the stress that

increases the anxiety that decreases the

self-worth when you look over and you

see a giant ass by a little blonde tree

that you can't do yourself

Canada's decided to get people who are

laid off $2,000 a month and it's not

changing anything about the disability

system except giving us a one-time

emergency fund of $100 because that's

gonna go real real far it makes me feel

so devalued in my society our triage

protocols are that it that if you have a

chronic illness or even a that if you

have even an intellectual disability

that you're cannot consider you're

considered lower on the list for a

ventilator literally causing like

eugenics and like that has really really

impacted by mental health like knowing

that if I do get this that I won't get

the ventilator the medical health

complex is just being is just it's

ablest racist like anti indigenous

elf-like but it's literally telling me

that like it's more advantageous for

them that I should die just because I

have the disability

were systematically devalued that our

life is considered less than yours in

the way the system is built in the way

the system is practiced and in the way

that many people treat us and even in

the way that you may subconsciously

subconsciously be treating the people in

your life around you and right now we're

particularly sensitive to those things

so if you're talking to a disabled

person right now and you say something

that usually doesn't get you a little

clip back but you're getting equipped

back from us on that because you said

something that wasn't ok we are gonna be

quicker to correct you right now because

we're under attack and that this is not

an attack on you it's an it's an attack

on the way that we as a society talk

interact and include disabled people and

if by doing that we have to attack

language it may seem like you're

attacking a person but impact and intent

are different and if you've caused an

impact that is not your intent here the

way you the person is actually saying

here that your intent was genuine and

wonderful but that your impact was

different change the behavior and go on

and if we can all continue and choose to

do that and choose to do that in a

loving way and in a way where we forgive

each other for when we get to fiery or

when we do something that's truly wrong

like put in a freaking triage plan that

says that we don't get a ventilator we

can say we're just sorry and fix it like

that's what I'd like

able-bodied people to know you can just

say sorry and fix it