I have physical health problems I have
mental health problems I have complex
PTSD from medical trauma
it is super traumatic to go through the
medical system and diagnosed it is also
traumatic to go through it as a as a
queer person I am I'm a trans non-binary
person and I'm also queer in my
sexuality as well and going through the
medical system that way was difficult
and I also because kind of those because
of through those experiences or however
it happens in the brain I also have
anxiety and depression and so this
quarantine is really really really
affecting my mental health I feel like I
reverted in my mental health like I took
like three years back in steps of like
my mental health progress within like
the month
when the quarantine happened our
services for disabled people in their
homes were cut so I don't have any way
to do laundry I am walking pretty well
right now which is nice but by in a few
hours I'll need my walker and in a few
more hours I'll only be able to use my
wheelchair and because because of that
thought increases the stress that
increases the anxiety that decreases the
self-worth when you look over and you
see a giant ass by a little blonde tree
that you can't do yourself
Canada's decided to get people who are
laid off $2,000 a month and it's not
changing anything about the disability
system except giving us a one-time
emergency fund of $100 because that's
gonna go real real far it makes me feel
so devalued in my society our triage
protocols are that it that if you have a
chronic illness or even a that if you
have even an intellectual disability
that you're cannot consider you're
considered lower on the list for a
ventilator literally causing like
eugenics and like that has really really
impacted by mental health like knowing
that if I do get this that I won't get
the ventilator the medical health
complex is just being is just it's
ablest racist like anti indigenous
elf-like but it's literally telling me
that like it's more advantageous for
them that I should die just because I
have the disability
were systematically devalued that our
life is considered less than yours in
the way the system is built in the way
the system is practiced and in the way
that many people treat us and even in
the way that you may subconsciously
subconsciously be treating the people in
your life around you and right now we're
particularly sensitive to those things
so if you're talking to a disabled
person right now and you say something
that usually doesn't get you a little
clip back but you're getting equipped
back from us on that because you said
something that wasn't ok we are gonna be
quicker to correct you right now because
we're under attack and that this is not
an attack on you it's an it's an attack
on the way that we as a society talk
interact and include disabled people and
if by doing that we have to attack
language it may seem like you're
attacking a person but impact and intent
are different and if you've caused an
impact that is not your intent here the
way you the person is actually saying
here that your intent was genuine and
wonderful but that your impact was
different change the behavior and go on
and if we can all continue and choose to
do that and choose to do that in a
loving way and in a way where we forgive
each other for when we get to fiery or
when we do something that's truly wrong
like put in a freaking triage plan that
says that we don't get a ventilator we
can say we're just sorry and fix it like
that's what I'd like
able-bodied people to know you can just
say sorry and fix it