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I have physical health problems I have

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mental health problems I have complex

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PTSD from medical trauma

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it is super traumatic to go through the

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medical system and diagnosed it is also

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traumatic to go through it as a as a

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queer person I am I'm a trans non-binary

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person and I'm also queer in my

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sexuality as well and going through the

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medical system that way was difficult

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and I also because kind of those because

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of through those experiences or however

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it happens in the brain I also have

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anxiety and depression and so this

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quarantine is really really really

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affecting my mental health I feel like I

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reverted in my mental health like I took

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like three years back in steps of like

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my mental health progress within like

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the month

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when the quarantine happened our

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services for disabled people in their

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homes were cut so I don't have any way

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to do laundry I am walking pretty well

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right now which is nice but by in a few

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hours I'll need my walker and in a few

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more hours I'll only be able to use my

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wheelchair and because because of that

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thought increases the stress that

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increases the anxiety that decreases the

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self-worth when you look over and you

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see a giant ass by a little blonde tree

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that you can't do yourself

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Canada's decided to get people who are

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laid off $2,000 a month and it's not

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changing anything about the disability

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system except giving us a one-time

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emergency fund of $100 because that's

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gonna go real real far it makes me feel

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so devalued in my society our triage

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protocols are that it that if you have a

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chronic illness or even a that if you

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have even an intellectual disability

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that you're cannot consider you're

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considered lower on the list for a

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ventilator literally causing like

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eugenics and like that has really really

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impacted by mental health like knowing

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that if I do get this that I won't get

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the ventilator the medical health

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complex is just being is just it's

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ablest racist like anti indigenous

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elf-like but it's literally telling me

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that like it's more advantageous for

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them that I should die just because I

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have the disability

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were systematically devalued that our

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life is considered less than yours in

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the way the system is built in the way

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the system is practiced and in the way

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that many people treat us and even in

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the way that you may subconsciously

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subconsciously be treating the people in

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your life around you and right now we're

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particularly sensitive to those things

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so if you're talking to a disabled

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person right now and you say something

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that usually doesn't get you a little

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clip back but you're getting equipped

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back from us on that because you said

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something that wasn't ok we are gonna be

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quicker to correct you right now because

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we're under attack and that this is not

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an attack on you it's an it's an attack

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on the way that we as a society talk

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interact and include disabled people and

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if by doing that we have to attack

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language it may seem like you're

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attacking a person but impact and intent

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are different and if you've caused an

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impact that is not your intent here the

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way you the person is actually saying

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here that your intent was genuine and

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wonderful but that your impact was

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different change the behavior and go on

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and if we can all continue and choose to

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do that and choose to do that in a

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loving way and in a way where we forgive

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each other for when we get to fiery or

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when we do something that's truly wrong

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like put in a freaking triage plan that

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says that we don't get a ventilator we

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can say we're just sorry and fix it like

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that's what I'd like

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able-bodied people to know you can just

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say sorry and fix it