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He Won't Forget the Past—The Work of Byron Katie

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    My, something about my controlling and harsh
    critical husband I feel stuck on working with
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    the turnarounds.
    Iím still confused. So,
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    Anyone have a harsh critical husband or wife?
    Okay, and what do they, what does he say that
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    is so painful?
    ìI canít talk to you anymore.î
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    Do you love silence? Do you love peace?
    Absolutely
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    Well heís the perfect husband for you.
    Thank you
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    Anyone else?
    When he gets really upset heíll say like,
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    ìYouíre not a decent woman.î
    Youíre notÖ
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    A decent woman
    Okay, so thatís simple. When youíre at home
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    alone and you have the blinds shut because
    you donít want anyone to see you, what is
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    that about?
    You know, when you go to that bathroom in
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    a public place, why do you shut the door?
    And Iím just showing you how my mind plays
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    with things because I hit this one years ago
    right away.
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    Stephen had to teach me to shut the bathroom
    door because whenÖwhy do I tell these things?
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    He came in one time, years ago, and I was
    doing the school in the wonderful desert and
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    I had several staff, they were woman, but
    that wouldnít have affected me I guess, but
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    I was working with all these staff for the
    next session and he came in and I was in the
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    bathroom doing my thing and they were all
    there just, we were just taking care ofÖ
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    We were having a staff meeting basically while
    I went to the bathroom.
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    He was horrified.
    And as love would have it, I support Stephen.
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    So, decent also is a matter of definition.
    Yeah
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    Oh good
    What honey?
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    What did she say? I mean, Iím not following
    this one.
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    So you be the husband.
    Okay
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    Yuck, youíre not decent.
    Oh honey, tell me more. Where specifically?
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    What specifically?
    You donít close the bathroom door when you
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    pee.
    Thatís true.
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    And you also need to cloth yourself better.
    I can see your cleavage and your butt crack.
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    Oh wow. I can see thatísÖYeah, thatís so.
    Really? Like, thatís it?
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    Well if itís true, heís right.
    I mean if my butt crack is showing and my
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    cleavage showingÖ Heís a keen observer.
    I mean, okay, see if you can hear this:
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    Love is never boxed in.
    It never excludes.
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    Itís your heart.
    I have a big thing about manners and decency
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    and all my stories about that with my daughter
    and my former step-daughters and stuff. So,
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    Iím constantly saying mind your manners and
    shit.
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    You know, as egos would have it, we just marry
    within those little culture bubbles. So weíre
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    all safe.
    Thatís not right or wrong. Itís just unnecessary.
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    Love crashes all the boundaries.
    So, I might say, if you donít have the table
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    manners then you were indecent.
    Yeah, and I think, well you know sweetheart,
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    that must be very painful for you.
    And Iím very open to buying pants with different
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    waistline, higher things and Iím very open
    to better table manners and I think it would
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    be a lot of fun to take on that apparent identity.
    Wow
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    And see if it helps you at all.
    Can I say something?
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    Itís actually deeper than that when he gets
    really upset heíll say like, ìwhoreî and
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    thatís likeÖ
    Okay so say to me; heís really upset.
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    He would just, he would just say like, ìYouíre
    just a whore.î
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    Oh, yea.
    And that hurts.
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    Yeah, but you know, if you know yourself itís
    not going to hurt honey.
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    But, still if you have like a specific happening
    in the past, and you know he refers to that,
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    then it hurts.
    Yes, so a good old Judge-Your-Neighbor Worksheet
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    or five or six.
    But I tried.
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    Well, you know, do you have a worksheet now?
    Yeah, Iím not with him anymore, but physically,
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    heís there.
    You know, this started out as light, and I
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    hear where you are. Itís really painful.
    It really hurts, but I can tell you in my
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    experience, I look just like you, I felt what
    youíre feeling, what I imagine that youíre
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    feeling, pain, hurt, crushed.
    And today, ifÖ
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    Today like in your position, if someone called
    me like a whore. I would say, ìYou know,
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    only this morning. I said yes to you so youíd
    bring me coffee.
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    You know, I just, Iím a whore whore whore.
    You know, Iím always bartering.î
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    If someone you really love says, ìYou whoreî
    doesnít it hurt?
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    Well you know, I would just sit down with
    that person and say, ìtell me everything.
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    Where is it that youÖWhy do you see me that
    way?î
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    And he could come up with some examples that
    I absolutely agree with.
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    Yeah, and then?
    And then, maybe I would cry and think, ìHe
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    know me so well, I feel so connected to him.î
    And then?
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    And then he stays with me or he doesnít.
    But if he always blames youÖ
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    Well I would question: He always blames you.
    And if I called you a whore out of a state
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    of anger or hurt, I would not like myself.
    So I may come back with something even stronger.
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    Thatís what guilt is like. Itís what pain
    is like. Itís what fear is like. Itís what
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    lack of kindness is like.
    When I donít like me, I donít like you.
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    And if Iím unkind to you, thatís what Iím
    left with.
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    I appear to be mean and Iím only frightened.
    Thatís all thatís going on.
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    Love is all thatís ever going on.
    So, would you like to do a worksheet?
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    Okay, bring it up here. Weíll seeÖWhat did
    you write?
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    I am upset with Bal·zs because he doesnít
    want to forget the past and brings it up.
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    Do you want to step into this parlor?
    Yes please.
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    Letís do The Work.
    So, he doesnít want to forget the past. Is
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    that true?
    Itís a yes or a no to those first two questions.
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    Yeah. Yes.
    He doesnít want to forget the past.
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    Can you absolutely know that itís true that
    he doesnít want to forget the past?
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    Yes.
    So, how do you react, what happens, when you
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    think that thought?
    I get nervous.
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    I become afraid of losing him; that heíll
    just leave the relationship.
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    I get angry sometimes.
    Anxious
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    I feel bad. I always remember why he doesnít
    want toÖwhy heís calling me the whore; I
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    mean when he does. I always remember that
    specific situation.
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    And then I hate myself for that.
    Now, imagine that situation where youíre
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    with him and youíre thinking the thought:
    He doesnít want to forget the past.
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    Now look at him. Look at him. No matter how
    angry he isÖDo you see him?
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    Who would you be without the thought: He doesnít
    want to forget the past?
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    Look at him.
    Tell me what you see on his face.
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    And look at his physical body. Look at him.
    Look into his eyes. What do you see?
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    Who would you be without the thought: He doesnít
    want to forget the past?
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    Fear, scared, anger.
    You know that anger is fear?
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    The angrier a person is, the more frightened
    they are.
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    He doesnít want to forgive the past. Turn
    it around. IÖ
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    I donít want to forget the past.
    I donít want to forget the past.
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    You know that very thing, that situation you
    were talking about?
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    You donít want to forgive it or forget it.
    Youíre expecting him to do what you havenít
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    done yet.
    But he reminds me of it.
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    Well, get out of the past.
    Look at him the way he really is in that moment.
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    Heís frightened.
    If have the thought: I want you to forgive
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    the past.
    I need to start with myself. How can I expect
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    him to do it? For all I know itís impossible.
    So, I need to put a little work into that.
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    So, why donít you forgive the past?
    Because, if I forget the past, then he might
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    think that was easy.
    Like well,
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    Well heís already telling you that anyway.
    I tried two years with him to forget the past,
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    or to make him understand that he is the one
    I love.
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    But if I forgot the past, then he would likeÖîOh
    that was easy for you.î
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    And you could tell him the truth. You know,
    ìIt took me two years.î
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    You know, there is the truth.
    Feel what it feels like when you are remembering
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    the past; thinking of yourself as a whore.
    Feel what that feels like?
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    Yeah
    Okay, now feel like, what it feels like when
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    youíre not.
    Yeah
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    Okay, so that was always you.
    You not forgetting the past was the pain you
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    felt, not him remembering the past.
    Someone can remember your past all they want.
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    Itís not until you remember it and havenít
    forgiven it, that it hurts.
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    Understand? Like, someone could believe the
    past all they want. It doesnít hurt me.
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    Itís when I havenít forgiven the past and
    they bring it up that I hurt me.
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    Yeah
    So that gives you something to work on.
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    Forgetting forgiving your past.
    I always thought it was like a weapon he used
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    against me.
    Turn it around. It was a weapon that IÖ
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    It was a weapon I used against me to hold
    myself down.
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    And what a perfect partner to do that.
    Wow
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    I didnít want to forget the past.
    Because that way I put myself down and he
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    would love me.
    Oh, whoring again.
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    I put myself down. I played smaller.
    To keep his affection.
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    Weird isnít it?
    So he had the power. I gave him that power.
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    Yes
    And I would always say, ìYou donít want
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    to forget the past. You punish me.î
    And he wouldnít.
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    Yeah, youíre a tough one. Itís hard to enlighten
    you.
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    Thatís what every relationship is about you
    know.
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    Once we have The Work with it, combined with
    that relationship, those relationships itís
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    very clear that theyíre there to wake us
    up.
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    We judge them on paper and we set ourselves
    free and then the past changes.
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    We do The Work and then The Work does us.
    He doesnít want to forget the past. Can you
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    find another turnaround, another opposite?
    He doesÖ
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    He does want to forget the past.
    Otherwise he would not want to be with me
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    for two years.
    We were actually going to get married, but
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    seven weeks before he said he could not forget
    the past and cancelled the wedding.
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    Wow, lucky you and kind him.
    Itís like oh my heart is broken. Heís not
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    going to marry me and I wonít be able to
    live with someone who will not forget the
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    past.
    The next time you see him, you can say, ìYou
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    know what I loved most about you?
    The way you saw my past, it really helped
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    me.î
    It actually helped me
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    Itís like, hereís before the work: He doesnít
    want to forget the past.
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    After the work five minutes later: He doesnít
    want to give the past!
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    Iím so lucky. Perfect relationship
    Itís possible that he hated hurting you to
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    the point where he just wouldnít marry you
    and continue to hurt you that way.
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    He actually said that.
    Two weeks before he cancelled the wedding,
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    but I didnít want to leave him.
    No, you prefer remembering the past.
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    And heís not going to play anymore.
    Heís not going to help you anymore.
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    Okay precious, letís look at the next one.
    I want Bal·zs to be happy with me, worship
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    me, be happy because weíre together, and
    forget the past.
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    Oh my goodness, so letís just turn that around.
    I want meÖ
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    I want me to be happy with me, worship me,
    be happy becauseÖIím together?
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    Or we are together?
    I am together with myself.
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    I amÖBe happy because I am together with
    myself.
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    Yeah, even if you marry someone youíre still
    just with yourself.
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    Yeah
    And I wantÖ
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    And I want to forget the past.
    That makes you really good company.
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    Really.
    So thereís another turnaround: I want me
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    to be happy with him.
    I want me to be happy with him. I want me
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    to worship him. I want me to be happy because
    weíre together.
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    Because Iím together with him.
    Because I am together with him.
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    And grateful for what heís shown you, and
    grateful that he did not forget the past,
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    and grateful that he cancelled that wedding
    so you can be somewhat out of pain.
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    Yeah
    What does that mean?
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    It means you couldnít forget your past, and
    because he cancelled the wedding there were
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    not two of you not forgetting the past every
    day together.
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    Like, 24/7
    He just left you to do it.
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    So, if I forget the past, do I have a future
    with him?
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    You know, I have no idea, but Iíve had three
    husbands in my life and I adore them.
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    I had a husband thatÖItís an old story I
    love. Itís an example. Heís this very large
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    man with this great big stomach and he was
    really like volatile.
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    And when The Work found me I became quiet
    and I would maybe just be sitting there as
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    still as you have been as youíre contemplating
    and he would walk into the room and it would
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    frighten him because I was no longer so animated
    and crazed.
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    And he might say likeÖIíll say blankity
    blank but he loved curse words and he really
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    knew some good ones.
    And when heís frightened heíd use them.
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    Thatís the only time people use like seriouslyÖI
    donít know if thatís true.
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    But anyway, when he was upset thatís what
    he did and he would go like, ìBlankity blank
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    Kate what the hell do you think youíre doing!?!î
    I just think, oh my, this is the smartest
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    man Iíve everÖWhat an amazing question.
    What do I think Iím doing?
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    Or heís say, ìBlankity blank Kate where
    the hell do you think youíre going!?!î
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    And I justÖAgain itís like this man was
    my teacher.
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    Iím still trying to answer that question.
    Our story about a personís intonation or
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    our story about like you know they go, ìblah
    blah blahî and theyíre angry.
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    What youíre believing about that Blah blah
    blah, thatís whatís hurting you.
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    Can you just listen to the words?
    Thereís no time that youíre not with your
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    teacher.
    Heíd say things like, ìWho the hell do you
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    think you are?î
    ìWho the hell do you think you are Kate!?!î
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    Okay honey just slow down. Thatís a good
    one.
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    There is no harm in the world.
    And that a small statement.
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    But I love that people would hear things like
    that and do The Work until they can prove
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    that itís true beyond any tiny little flaw.
    And then that way we know our true nature
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    andÖThatís certainly visible as I sit with
    you and watch drop into your beautiful self.
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    Letís look at the next one. Letís keep traveling.
    The third one?
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    Yes.
    He shouldnít criticize me.
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    Is that true?
    Youíre asking him again to do what you canít
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    do.
    So: He shouldnít criticize you. Is that true?
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    I mean, do you appreciate free speech?
    Free speech?
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    Yeah, of course.
    Okay, well not in him.
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    Itís like, sweetheart I love you, but donít
    think this, donít think this, donít think
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    this, donít think this.
    Nope, not that either.
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    Yeah, thatís true.
    Hard to live with.
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    Yeah.
    Donít think it, donít say it, donítÖYou
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    hurt me.
    Youíre so good Katie.
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    You know we come from the same school.
    Iím so grateful.
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    Thank you honey.
    So: He shouldnít criticize you. Is that true?
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    No.
    You know, people who criticize you will give
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    you your best work.
    So you know, if youíre really interested
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    in freedom and enlightenment, go out in the
    world and just...Or you donít even have to
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    go out into the world just, wherever you go,
    hopefully theyíll criticize. Can you imagine
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    living in the world going anywhere everywhere
    anywhere you want to go hoping someone will
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    criticize you?
    I mean, that is freedom.
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    Another way of saying that is: going out into
    the world and let them enlighten you.
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    Once you have inquiry thatís whatís going
    on.
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    Thatís what everything, thatís what every
    breath is for, your enlightenment.
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    So sweetheart: He shouldnít criticize you.
    How do you react, what happens, when you believe
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    that thought?
    I get out of control. I yell.
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    He hates that.
    Yeah
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    And then weíre shocked that they criticize
    us when we know they hate that.
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    Close your eyes and look at you when you think
    the thought: He shouldnít criticize you,
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    and youíre yelling.
    Do you see that image?
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    Now look at him. This is: Who would you be
    without the thought?
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    Just witness.
    Can you find compassion for him and you?
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    See the pain in that one and him?
    See how frightened they both are?
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    He shouldnít criticize me turned around:
    He should criticize me.
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    You see it?
    Iím yelling. Iím screaming.
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    He actually tries to talk with me, but I yell
    because I get hurt. I donít want to listen.
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    He tries to tell me something and I donít
    want to listen or I get hurt or I think I
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    get hurt and then I yell and then it becomes
    even worse because then he is out of control
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    and then I think he doesnít want to forget
    the past.
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    That I actually make him tell me Iím a whore.
    Really.
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    I provoke it.
    I make him go the same pattern and then I
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    make him the guilty one.
    He has many times tried to talk with me, but
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    he would always say, ìOh you donít want
    to listen and I donít want to marry a women
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    who I cannot talk to whoís yelling at me.
    I donít feel like a man.î
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    I couldnít understand that.
    Yeah
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    I actually cancelled the wedding.
    I mean he just said, seven weeks before, he
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    needed some time. Before the wedding, I was
    in Denmark, he was in Turkey and I went to
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    Denmark to give the invitations to people
    and I heard there was something. I could hear
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    he was not okay.
    And then in phone he just said to me, ìIím
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    scared.
    Because we yell, we always discuss and we
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    are always yelling. I mean itís always like
    thisî and then he said, ìI need some time.
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    I need some time to see if I can live without
    you.î
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    And instead of trying to understand him, I
    was like, ìOkay you need some timeî and
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    I reacted and I got even more angry. I yelled
    even more in phone, and then he said, ìThatís
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    why Iím scared to marry you because I want
    a peaceful life. I want to marry onceî and
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    I was like being a child.
    I was like being, like me me me.
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    And really I was like, I did all this for
    you. Blah blah blah.î
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    You know sweetheart, that isÖYouíre describing
    the unenlightened mind.
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    Yeah
    And when inquiry comes into our life the id
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    begins to mature the way yours is. We all
    it mature human beings but just the mind expanding
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    into itsÖIíll say its true nature which
    looks like maturity and itís always kind
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    and sitting with you is just watching this
    heart open and open and open and realize and
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    open.
    Itís like you are in the presence of mature
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    mind, enlightened mind and you can have it
    any time. Just notice its always been there,
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    itís just now you can see because what you
    were believing is just out of the way enough
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    so imagine what you mind is capable of.
    SO, he shouldnít criticize me, turned around:
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    He shouldÖ
    He should criticize me cause it grows you.
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    Because it grows me.
    Okay precious letís look at the next one
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    He should listen to me
    He did it frightened him
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    He actually listened, you know what he said?
    In five years I have been listening to you
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    He actually listens to me
    Iím the one
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    I was not listening
    You know what I love about inquiry is you
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    donítÖyou know, if the person is dead or
    remarried or you never see them again itís
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    never too late to fall in love.
    And itís very different. Itís not a physical
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    thing.
    And the next one?
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    He should talk nicely
    Is that true?
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    I think youíve covered that. Turned around?
    I should talk nicely
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    Yeah
    The next?
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    Mhmm
    He should respect me.
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    Really?
    Itís hard to respect us when weíre going
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    off on them
    So turned around?
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    I should respect him.
    I should respect me.
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    Yeah
    You were doing the best you could.
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    You were believing your thoughts. You couldnít
    forget the past. You didnít know how.
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    Yeah.
    You should respect that
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    And when those emotions happen again respect
    them.
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    Notice what youíre thinking and believing
    and fill in a Judge-Your-Neighbor Worksheet
  • 35:34 - 35:36
    Thank you.
    Youíre welcome.
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    You know itís like weíre like collapsing
    millions of years here.
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    And that leaves us in the moment.
    And thatís a lovely life.
  • 35:49 - 35:55
    Itís a life where thereís no suffering.
    Youíre always safe. Youíre never old. Youíre
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    never sick.
    And you understand.
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    Letís look at the next one.
    He shouldnít doubt on me.
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    Turned around
    I shouldnít doubt on myself.
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    Yeah
    When you think youíre a terrible human being
  • 36:14 - 36:20
    get real.
    You know, just put it on paper. Get real.
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    And the next one.
    He should relax and focus on building a future
  • 36:26 - 36:29
    with me.
    Turned around, I shouldÖ
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    I should relax and focus on building a future
    with myself.
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    Yes, thatís exciting.
    Itís wonderful to love the one youíre with.
  • 36:41 - 36:43
    It is.
    Yeah
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    So look at number four.
    I need Bal·zs to take responsibility and
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    not blame me.
    Is it true?
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    I mean I should responsibility and not blame
    him or anyone.
  • 37:10 - 37:17
    Him or you
    I should take responsibility of my life.
  • 37:18 - 37:23
    I donít need him to.
    I donít need him to.
  • 37:23 - 37:30
    Okay
    Yeah, that feels much free-er
  • 37:30 - 37:35
    I donít need him to take responsibility and
    just let him likeÖ
  • 37:35 - 37:42
    Thatís very kind of you to allow him to do
    what heís going to do anyway.
  • 37:45 - 37:52
    I love when you give permission and itís
    honest that everyone is free to do that.
  • 37:52 - 37:58
    Yeah
    And you understand that we are just the way
  • 37:58 - 38:04
    you used to be.
    Itís so funny, I have always thought I was
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    a very good partner. Like, freeing him...no
    no no no.
  • 38:11 - 38:18
    Like, I was giving him freedom and Iíve actually
    been limiting him.
  • 38:20 - 38:25
    And if I was not happy with how he was, I
    would get upset.
  • 38:25 - 38:30
    Thatís being a whore because I wanted something
    out of him and if I didnít get it I wouldnít
  • 38:30 - 38:37
    trade my love.
    Yea, I was actually doing that.
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    I would punish him.
    He didnít give me what I wanted.
  • 38:46 - 38:51
    Yea, no physical touch, no sex, you know,
    just withhold.
  • 38:51 - 38:58
    Yeah, just because I had m rules and my way
    ofÖyeah, seeing the world and he should be
  • 39:01 - 39:04
    that way.
    Now, when we finish this worksheet go thorough
  • 39:04 - 39:11
    it and make a list of the things youíve discovered
    and you admit your wrongs and then you make
  • 39:12 - 39:19
    it right where you can.
    And you apologize for those because we really
  • 39:21 - 39:28
    leave marks on people. Weíve been teaching
    the opposite of our nature.
  • 39:28 - 39:33
    Yeah
    And itís right when we clean all of that
  • 39:33 - 39:40
    up, then itís complete.
    Okay honey, the next
  • 39:40 - 39:47
    I need him not to play the victim.
    You know, all the victims in my life had a
  • 39:50 - 39:57
    right to play victimÖ
    When I look at my part.
  • 39:57 - 40:04
    So letís turn it around.
    I need me not to lay the victim
  • 40:08 - 40:13
    Yeah
    Öand I need him to.
  • 40:13 - 40:16
    I need him to play the victim.
    Yes
  • 40:16 - 40:22
    Because if you reflect back, any area that
    you might be the cause of another human beingís
  • 40:22 - 40:23
    suffering.
    Cool.
  • 40:23 - 40:29
    It really is.
    Cool.
  • 40:29 - 40:36
    Thereís some definite tools here.
    I need him to play the victim.
  • 40:38 - 40:45
    Yeah
    And it could be that as you listen to him
  • 40:45 - 40:51
    making that judgment, you hear that heís
    not playing a victim. Heís simply telling
  • 40:51 - 40:58
    you truths again that you could not hear earlier.
    Okay
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    I need him to be strong, happy, confident,
    grateful for our relationship
  • 41:07 - 41:13
    Yeah, thatís a difficult list for a partner
    to take on.
  • 41:13 - 41:20
    So, letís turn it around. I need meÖ
    I need me to be strong, happy, and confident,
  • 41:20 - 41:25
    and be grateful for the relationship with
    myself and others.
  • 41:25 - 41:31
    Yes, that way they can be what they be and
    youíre always in a good relationship.
  • 41:31 - 41:34
    Thatís true.
    Okay
  • 41:34 - 41:41
    And number five.
    Bal·zs is ungrateful, always doubting, weak,
  • 41:41 - 41:48
    codependent on his parents, irresponsible,
    cold, immature.
  • 41:50 - 41:57
    And I really want to marry him.
    This is me.
  • 42:24 - 42:29
    Yeah
    I am ungrateful, always doubtingÖ.
  • 42:29 - 42:32
    And in that relationship
    In that relationship
  • 42:32 - 42:39
    When he calls me a whore or when he soesnít
    give me what I want, I amÖ
  • 42:39 - 42:46
    I am ungrateful, always doubting, I a weak,
    codependant on my parents?
  • 42:49 - 42:55
    I would look at on his parents.
    Like what?
  • 42:55 - 43:02
    I donít know.
    There are some advantages, itís like if youíre
  • 43:03 - 43:07
    going to marry someone, if they fall short
    maybe his parents will kick in.
  • 43:07 - 43:14
    Itís like, you can go to them and say heís
    not blah blah blah.
  • 43:16 - 43:23
    I did that.
    Yeah
  • 43:27 - 43:34
    Okay
    I am irresponsible, I am cold, and I am immature.
  • 43:37 - 43:44
    Yes, in that relationship in that situation.
    Yeah
  • 43:45 - 43:51
    Okay honey
    Now, I want you to pay attention to this also.
  • 43:51 - 43:57
    Read the list again. I amÖ
    I am ungrateful.
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    And what is the opposite?
    I am grateful.
  • 44:00 - 44:07
    And then you sit with this later and youÖall
    the times that you were grateful to him will
  • 44:10 - 44:14
    come to you.
    And you know it, until I am just head over
  • 44:14 - 44:21
    heels in love with my perceived enemy at the
    other end of this worksheet, my work is just
  • 44:22 - 44:26
    not done.
    SO that way you fall in love with everything,
  • 44:26 - 44:31
    everyone.
    And you donít have to marry them you donít
  • 44:31 - 44:38
    even have to, I mean itís justÖYouíre free
    and youíre full of what is natural, happiness.
  • 44:40 - 44:47
    So, the next word?
    I am sure, Iím not doubting Iím sure about
  • 44:49 - 44:52
    myself
    Yeah, and you find he ways you were sure.
  • 44:52 - 44:58
    There were a lot of things you were sure of.
    Okay the next.
  • 44:58 - 45:03
    I am strong.
    Yes there were many areas where you were strong.
  • 45:03 - 45:08
    Now, some of those served you, some of them
    didnít, but theyíll show you your strength
  • 45:08 - 45:15
    in the negative and your strength in the positive
    and what will serve you because you know yourself
  • 45:17 - 45:24
    when youíre in that I know mind, that unquestioned
    mind, and you believe youíre right, it does
  • 45:24 - 45:28
    a lot of damage.
    In other words it takes you further and further
  • 45:28 - 45:32
    away from what is valuable.
    Yeah
  • 45:32 - 45:37
    Further and further away from yourself and
    him as a result.
  • 45:37 - 45:40
    Yeah
    Okay so you do that list in the opposite and
  • 45:40 - 45:45
    really take it in.
    And then you find where he was strong.
  • 45:45 - 45:47
    Yeah
    And where he was, you do that wholeness with
  • 45:47 - 45:54
    him too, the opposites.
    That way you get a balance and you get to
  • 45:54 - 45:58
    knowÖYou know how you want to know everything
    about the person you love?
  • 45:58 - 46:05
    Well, this worksheet is how we do it.
    It just take in, you know, all the negatives,
  • 46:05 - 46:12
    all the positives, and they all become a positive.
    The last one, number six.
  • 46:12 - 46:17
    I donít ever want him to doubt on my love
    to him.
  • 46:17 - 46:22
    Iím willingÖ
    Iím willing to let him doubt of my love to
  • 46:22 - 46:24
    him.
    I look forward toÖ
  • 46:24 - 46:28
    I look forward to let him doubt on my love
    to him
  • 46:28 - 46:32
    Yeah, thatí exciting.
    And I would just put the whole world there.
  • 46:32 - 46:38
    Yeah, exactly. Yeah
    Because you know, we have a right not to love
  • 46:38 - 46:44
    you if we donít.
    And you have a right to love us anyway.
  • 46:44 - 46:51
    And you have a way to do that
    Yeah
  • 46:51 - 46:58
    And then it was: I donít ever want him always
    testing my love to him.
  • 46:59 - 47:06
    So, Iím willing
    I look forward to have life test the love
  • 47:11 - 47:18
    to life.
    I look forward to life testing my love of
  • 47:19 - 47:24
    life and everything in it and about it and
    every situation and every thought.
  • 47:24 - 47:31
    Yeah
    The only thing we donít love is the thought
  • 47:31 - 47:38
    or concept or assumption that weíve attached
    to and then what that produces is secondary.
  • 47:39 - 47:46
    So weíre taking care of this and then this
    shifts. This becomes lovely.
  • 47:50 - 47:56
    You know, itís very user friendly.
    Thank you
  • 47:56 - 47:58
    Thank you so much
    Youíre very welcome
  • 47:58 - 48:05
    Really Iím so grateful thank you
    You are very welcome thank you for silence.
Title:
He Won't Forget the Past—The Work of Byron Katie
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