【49th WEEK】「靴下あげなきゃ良かったな...」卒業インタビュー 谷川利沙子編

How many times did I cry?

At Terrace House.

I would have never imagined
when I moved in.

When I first moved in.

[COSTCO SUBS PRESENTS]

[Interview with a member who's leaving]

Even though it's only been
three and a half months of my entire life,

I made a lot of discoveries.

I found out things about myself...

About the way people perceive me,

and I also learned the proper way to talk
for someone who's going to turn 30 soon.

I will never forget these
three and a half months.

[ABOUT SOTA KONO]
Sota...

Talking to him was...

boring I guess.

He'd talk a lot about himself.

Well, maybe he just wasn't
really interested in me.

He didn't ask me anything...

... and just ended up only
talking about himself.

You just couldn't have a
real conversation like that.

After I declined to go look
for glasses with him...

... we didn't talk much anymore.
Until he left the house.

Actually, he was pretty cold to me
after I'd rejected him like that.

I feel sorry for that.

The way I rejected him
may have been a bit harsh.

[FIRST TIME TALKING TO THE OTHER GIRLS]
It may have looked like

it was two against one.

But we were just simply
trying to tell Maya

about the common sense
of going about daily life.

Since she's not living on her own,
but with five others.

Being considerate towards
the rest of the house and such...

I just wanted her to understand
these kind of things.

Well, it's not like it was my
place to lecture her.

Maya and Kaito had been together a lot,
hanging out in the TV room and such,

and Aio and Sota were
staying up late at night.

They were up until morning. But Yui
and I wanted to go to bed early.

Our bed time just happened to be the same.

Maybe this is why they thought
we were together a lot.

At that time, it felt more like
it was four against two.

[THE SOCK INCIDENT]
I remember it very clearly.

For about four days after we had
that talk, my spirit was broken.

I just felt attacked.

It was frightening.

I felt scared.

And sad.

It hurt.

I was frustrated.

For me, it's like...

I'm 28 years old, but I'm not
the big sister-type, I never was.

I don't have that kind
of personality at all.

Even though everybody was young,
they were probably more mature than me.

So, I guess...

They used to tease me a lot.

It's not like I'm easy to make fun of,

but I guess I'm easily teased.

So about that incident...

I honestly didn't say it like that.

And it wasn't like I didn't
give Maya socks, either.

I gave them both socks.

So I guess...

We were all at fault in that
situation, all three of us girls.

When I think about it, I shouldn't
have gotten anyone socks.

To either of them. I didn't know it
would cause an incident like this.

It was supposed to be a thank-you gift...

I bought them socks as a souvenir
of sorts, to say thanks.

So I was like... Why?

At that time, I was too scared
to say anything.

Especially of Maya, since she thought
I'd said that I only trust Yui and Aio.

And I thought at the time,
it wouldn't matter what I say anyway.

And I suppose while I was
away for a week,

Aio, Yui and Maya were probably
talking about me that whole time.

[AFTER THE SOCK INCIDENT]
After that incident...

Well, honestly...

I just felt empty.

So I...

Actually,

I wanted to talk to the others
about Masao and my feelings for him.

I probably would've wanted
to tell them about all that.

But I didn't even want to do that anymore.

So I was responsible
for that situation, too.

It was just...

such a shame.

[ABOUT MASAO WADA]
I guess it was after that incident,

that Masao came to me in the morning.

I just naturally... Maybe because I
was so relieved to see him,

the tears just started to flow.

We went to have soba,

and he listened to me
about the incident.

And you know, Masao just...

He reacted like a grown-up, so to speak...

He helped me, and gave me
the emotional support I needed.

I was glad that Masao was there for me.
I felt that from the bottom of my heart.

If he wasn't there, I don't think I would've
been able to stay at Terrace House any longer.

That's how bad it was.

I'm really glad he was there for me.

When we went glass-making,
for example,

we were concentrating on making glasses,
and I guess he was being kind to me,

but we didn't have to talk.

I thought maybe that's the reason
he asked me to go glass-making with him.

That's when I realized how kind he is.

When he told me not to worry,
I just was like...

I don't know how to put it.

Yeah.

It was like I was suddenly released.

Those words he said were
magic words to me.

[ABOUT MASAO'S FEELINGS]
I thought and thought, and thought some more...

Well, in the end, I wasn't able
to return his affections.

I've seriously never had to think so much
about whether I have romantic feelings.

Usually, it would be a clear no
if I wasn't interested.

And I'd turn down that person.

But his feelings for me were so deep...

He was always serious and
trying to do his best.

So I thought I'd have to be serious, too,
and just be honest with him.

That's how I felt.

He did all those things for me,

but I couldn't do anything for him.

The reason I was able to feel like this...

That I was able to face all of that

was his support for me.

He supported me when I was hurting.

I felt relief whenever I saw him.

I cried so much in front of Masao...
Well, I'm crying now, too.

The tears just started to flow because
of all the things I was feeling.

Even though he's such
a good person...

Even though he...

Even though he did so many things
for me I didn't deserve,

I couldn't return his affections.
And I just feel so sorry for that.

I feel really sorry.

[LEAVING TERRACE HOUSE]
I didn't fall in love with anyone,

but I think I was being proactive
in a lot of different ways.

Even with regards to Maya and Yui,

normally, I would've just given up.

But since we had to continue
living together,

I just sort of...

Well, not right after the incident,

but I tried to get through it
step by step.

Also, apart from romantic relationships,

I think I learned a lot about how to talk
to others and how to convey my thoughts.

I'm sure I would've never learned these things
if I hadn't lived in Terrace House.

So I have no regrets in joining
Terrace House. I really don't.

[Translated and Timed by MrsChap]
[Reviewed by koma and goob]