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How many times did I cry?

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At Terrace House.

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I would have never imagined 
when I moved in.

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When I first moved in.

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[COSTCO SUBS PRESENTS]

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[Interview with a member who's leaving]

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Even though it's only been 
three and a half months of my entire life,

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I made a lot of discoveries.

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I found out things about myself...

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About the way people perceive me,

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and I also learned the proper way to talk
for someone who's going to turn 30 soon.

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I will never forget these 
three and a half months.

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[ABOUT SOTA KONO]
Sota...

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Talking to him was...

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boring I guess.

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He'd talk a lot about himself.

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Well, maybe he just wasn't 
really interested in me.

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He didn't ask me anything...

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... and just ended up only 
talking about himself.

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You just couldn't have a 
real conversation like that.

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After I declined to go look 
for glasses with him...

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... we didn't talk much anymore.
Until he left the house.

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Actually, he was pretty cold to me
after I'd rejected him like that.

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I feel sorry for that.

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The way I rejected him 
may have been a bit harsh.

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[FIRST TIME TALKING TO THE OTHER GIRLS]
It may have looked like

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it was two against one.

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But we were just simply
trying to tell Maya

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about the common sense
of going about daily life.

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Since she's not living on her own, 
but with five others.

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Being considerate towards
the rest of the house and such...

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I just wanted her to understand
these kind of things.

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Well, it's not like it was my 
place to lecture her.

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Maya and Kaito had been together a lot, 
hanging out in the TV room and such,

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and Aio and Sota were 
staying up late at night.

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They were up until morning. But Yui 
and I wanted to go to bed early.

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Our bed time just happened to be the same.

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Maybe this is why they thought 
we were together a lot.

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At that time, it felt more like 
it was four against two.

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[THE SOCK INCIDENT]
I remember it very clearly.

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For about four days after we had
that talk, my spirit was broken.

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I just felt attacked.

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It was frightening.

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I felt scared.

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And sad.

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It hurt.

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I was frustrated.

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For me, it's like...

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I'm 28 years old, but I'm not 
the big sister-type, I never was.

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I don't have that kind
of personality at all.

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Even though everybody was young, 
they were probably more mature than me.

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So, I guess...

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They used to tease me a lot.

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It's not like I'm easy to make fun of,

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but I guess I'm easily teased.

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So about that incident...

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I honestly didn't say it like that.

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And it wasn't like I didn't 
give Maya socks, either.

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I gave them both socks.

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So I guess...

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We were all at fault in that 
situation, all three of us girls.

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When I think about it, I shouldn't 
have gotten anyone socks.

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To either of them. I didn't know it 
would cause an incident like this.

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It was supposed to be a thank-you gift...

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I bought them socks as a souvenir 
of sorts, to say thanks.

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So I was like... Why?

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At that time, I was too scared 
to say anything.

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Especially of Maya, since she thought 
I'd said that I only trust Yui and Aio.

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And I thought at the time,
it wouldn't matter what I say anyway.

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And I suppose while I was 
away for a week,

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Aio, Yui and Maya were probably 
talking about me that whole time.

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[AFTER THE SOCK INCIDENT]
After that incident...

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Well, honestly...

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I just felt empty.

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So I...

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Actually,

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I wanted to talk to the others 
about Masao and my feelings for him.

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I probably would've wanted 
to tell them about all that.

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But I didn't even want to do that anymore.

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So I was responsible
for that situation, too.

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It was just...

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such a shame.

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[ABOUT MASAO WADA]
I guess it was after that incident,

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that Masao came to me in the morning.

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I just naturally... Maybe because I
was so relieved to see him,

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the tears just started to flow.

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We went to have soba,

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and he listened to me 
about the incident.

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And you know, Masao just...

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He reacted like a grown-up, so to speak...

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He helped me, and gave me
the emotional support I needed.

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I was glad that Masao was there for me.
I felt that from the bottom of my heart.

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If he wasn't there, I don't think I would've
been able to stay at Terrace House any longer.

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That's how bad it was.

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I'm really glad he was there for me.

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When we went glass-making,
for example,

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we were concentrating on making glasses,
and I guess he was being kind to me,

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but we didn't have to talk.

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I thought maybe that's the reason
he asked me to go glass-making with him.

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That's when I realized how kind he is.

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When he told me not to worry,
I just was like...

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I don't know how to put it.

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Yeah.

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It was like I was suddenly released.

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Those words he said were 
magic words to me.

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[ABOUT MASAO'S FEELINGS]
I thought and thought, and thought some more...

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Well, in the end, I wasn't able 
to return his affections.

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I've seriously never had to think so much
about whether I have romantic feelings.

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Usually, it would be a clear no 
if I wasn't interested.

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And I'd turn down that person.

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But his feelings for me were so deep...

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He was always serious and 
trying to do his best.

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So I thought I'd have to be serious, too,
and just be honest with him.

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That's how I felt.

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He did all those things for me,

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but I couldn't do anything for him.

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The reason I was able to feel like this...

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That I was able to face all of that

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was his support for me.

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He supported me when I was hurting.

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I felt relief whenever I saw him.

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I cried so much in front of Masao...
Well, I'm crying now, too.

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The tears just started to flow because 
of all the things I was feeling.

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Even though he's such 
a good person...

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Even though he...

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Even though he did so many things 
for me I didn't deserve,

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I couldn't return his affections.
And I just feel so sorry for that.

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I feel really sorry.

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[LEAVING TERRACE HOUSE]
I didn't fall in love with anyone,

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but I think I was being proactive 
in a lot of different ways.

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Even with regards to Maya and Yui,

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normally, I would've just given up.

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But since we had to continue 
living together,

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I just sort of...

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Well, not right after the incident,

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but I tried to get through it
step by step.

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Also, apart from romantic relationships,

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I think I learned a lot about how to talk 
to others and how to convey my thoughts.

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I'm sure I would've never learned these things
if I hadn't lived in Terrace House.

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So I have no regrets in joining 
Terrace House. I really don't.

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[Translated and Timed by MrsChap]
[Reviewed by koma and goob]