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Πριν από 3 χρόνια υπήρξε ένα σημείο καμπής στη ζωή μου
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διότι τελικά είχα όλα όσα νόμιζα ότι χρειαζόμουν για να νιώθω ικανοποιημένος,
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και όμως έπαρχε ακόμη αυτή η φωνή στο κεφάλι μου που μου έλεγε ότι έπρεπε να κάνω περισσότερα για να είμαι χαρούμενος.
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Όσο περισσότερο κοίταζα τη δίκη μου ταλαιπωρία βαθιά,
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τόσο περισσότερο την έβλεπα σε κάθε άτομο γύρω μου.
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Έχουμε πρόβλημα να περιμένουμε στην ουρά, είμαστε ανυπόμονοι με τα ίδια μας τα παιδιά.
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Είναι σαν να πιστεύουμε όλοι μας ότι το μέλλον κρύβει την υπόσχεση για την εκπλήρωση μας.
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Και προέρχομαι από οικογένεια επιστημόνων,
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όποτε ήθελα να χρησιμοποιήσω αυτό το υπόβαθρο για να καταλάβω την αληθινή ρίζα και αιτία
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του τόσο πολύ πόνου.
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Και εκει που με οδήγησε μου άλλαξε εντελώς την οπτική μου
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του παρόντος επιστημονικής ιδεολογικής δομής,
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but more importantly than that,
it's changed my views
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on what it means to be
a human being and to be alive.
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I want to share this theory
with you, and it's way out there.
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So, I ask you to have a critical,
but open mind for the next 14 minutes,
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because you might not actually be
what you think you are.
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So, who am I, alright?
I'm a human being, and I'm 33 years old.
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But if you take a microscope
and look at any part of me, you see cells.
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And I'm a community of 50 trillion cells,
doing a magic dance.
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And you at any one of those cells
with an even closer microscope,
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and you see 20 trillion atoms.
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And so, I'm also a community
of 1,000 trillion trillion atoms.
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But when you look
at those atoms really up-close,
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they fade away, and all you see is energy.
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And 13.7 billion years ago,
at the Big Bang,
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everything that we've ever found
in the entire universe
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was one infinitesimal,
undifferentiated, pure energy.
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All of us are energy.
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A human being is a very
complex pattern of energy.
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So, I stand here as a 33-year-old,
basically motionless,
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but when you look up-close
at any single part of me,
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I'm moving the speed of light,
and I'm the age of the universe.
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So, the question for me is:
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I know this conceptually.
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Why don't we feel it?
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Why do we walk around being so sure
that we're a human being all the time,
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and we never feel like we're energy,
because it sounds awesome?
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And I think the reason
that we don't notice it
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is because we are so distracted
by the human levels of our experience
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that we fail to notice
what is always sitting beneath.
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And so, I want to look
at those distractions.
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Take five seconds,
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and think about something
that you're going to do tomorrow.
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So, what you just did is something
that, as far as we understand,
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no other organism
in the entire universe can do.
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You just built an alternate reality
inside your head.
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You just made a prediction
about the future
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that has never happened in reality.
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And this powerful prediction,
when you can compare alternate realities,
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allows you to plan for the future.
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And from agriculture to your retirement,
this has changed the face of the planet.
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It's probably the most significant,
evolutionary step forward
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since walking upright.
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So, I want to look
at this tool in your head,
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because your mind
is a thought-generating machine,
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to make proliferate predictions
about the future,
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to guide and goal-orient your behavior.
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What does this machine
look like in all of our heads, in 2011?
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So, another experiment:
Take ten seconds, and stop thinking.
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OK. Did anyone make it? Ten seconds?
(Laughter)
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I make it about two,
and then I start strategizing
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about how I'm going to stop thinking;
I think about that the whole time.
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Alright, so what this means is you have
such an evolutionarily advantageous tool
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that it's become completely compulsive,
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but you've got to remember,
no other organism does this at all.
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And the side effect of having
the most evolutionarily advantageous tool
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in the entire universe
sitting in your head
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is that you have no control over it.
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And when you have no control
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and you compulsively generate
all these possible realities,
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you always compare them to where you are,
to try to goal-orient your behavior,
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and this creates an entirely new class
of human suffering.
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Things like jealousy and regret
about something that happened in the past,
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and anxiety about your future,
no other organism can feel.
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And so, I want to understand
if it's possible
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to totally eliminate those sources
of suffering from humanity.
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This is just a brief list of all those
possible sources of suffering.
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In order to find out
if it's possible to remove those sources,
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we have to take a kind of scientific,
experimental objective at ourselves,
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we have to take a look at all the layers
of our own experience,
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and try to be as objective
as possible about them.
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This is amazingly difficult,
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because we're so emotionally involved
in our own lives, and as any of you know,
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if you go to a movie
and you're emotionally involved,
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two minutes into it, you totally forget
that you're at a movie,
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and the lights turn on at the end,
and you're shocked back into reality.
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So, this is even more difficult,
because we have to look at our own movie,
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the movie inside our consciousness.
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We'll do two quick experiments, and this
only will give you a taste of something
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that takes much longer
to understand the depth of.
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So, the first one is your sight.
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From what we understand in physics,
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all light is a vibration
of electromagnetic field.
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And none of those light waves
intrinsically have any color.
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There's just this change in frequency.
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But once those waves go into your eye
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and into your brain, you create
the subjective experience of color.
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Now, what this means is that you all think
that you are seeing me out here,
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with a red shirt on,
but this red only exists in your head,
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and so, this entire picture you're seeing
is happening inside your head,
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in a movie inside your consciousness.
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And if you remove a little bit
of the attention from me directly,
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you can start to have
some attention on yourself,
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noticing that you are seeing me
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inside your head.
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So, let's do a second experiment.
It's even more subtle than that one.
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Read this sentence twice,
silently to yourself.
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[The voice in your head]
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["I can hear the voice in my head
reading this sentence"]
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OK, so it's weird, right?
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But you can get this very weird,
subtle perspective
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that you can look at your own
thought process objectively.
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You're actually listening
to the soundtrack of thoughts
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inside your head,
in your movie of consciousness.
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[I am]
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Imagine that I do this process
for thousands of hours,
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and I just try to look,
as objective as possible,
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at my thoughts, and my emotions,
and my perceptions,
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and even the way that my brain
has modeled space and time.
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The more that I pull attention away
from the thoughts and the perceptions,
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the more I seem to notice myself
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noticing these things
inside my consciousness.
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And eventually, maybe I can pull
all of the attention away
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from all those layers of thoughts,
perceptions, my body, my sensations,
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and there's nothing left to perceive,
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there's nothing left
that I can consider myself,
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because I've seen it all
in front as not me.
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And yet, the one thing that remains
is this feeling of existence.
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"I am" remains.
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This feeling of "I am".
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And what I find when I sit in that state
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is that what my identity is,
whatever it is, is beyond perception,
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it cannot be perceived,
but it is still experienced.
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And this "I am" is the root
of our entire existence.
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"I am" is latent in every single aspect
of our existence,
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but just like a fish might never notice
the water that it swims in,
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we might never notice the "I am"
because it's covered.
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"I am" is a completely empty experience,
it's devoid of any content,
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and when I experience it
directly, on its own,
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there's the possibility for a realization:
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"Maybe I'm not a human being
that has consciousness.
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Maybe I'm consciousness
that is shaped into a human being."
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And when I see
this totally empty experience,
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there's no content, form, structure,
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there's not even a model of space and time
that is generated in the mind.
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And we've seen those conditions before,
13.7 billion years ago,
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when the entire universe
was an undifferentiated, pure energy.
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And so, just maybe there is
the potential to realize directly
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I am that energy,
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I always have been that energy,
and I always will be that energy.
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Einstein said that thoughts suffer
from an optical illusion of consciousness,
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this illusion that there's
a separate person inside an environment,
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when in reality, there's just energy
in motion, everywhere.
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And just like an ocean is water in motion,
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we can call a certain part
of that ocean a wave,
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but it gives us the illusion that the wave
is a separate entity in the ocean.
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But a wave is not in the ocean.
A wave is the ocean.
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And similarly, we might not be waves.
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Maybe we're the ocean.
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Maybe all of us are energy,
and we can realize that directly.
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Now, this experience
could never be reduced to words,
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because it makes words,
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but it could be experienced, and I think
it's such an important experience
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that people have been trying
to name it for thousands of years,
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and they call it spiritual enlightenment.
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[You are not what you think]
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And I think the first
human beings started realizing
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that they were fundamentally energy
about 2,500 years ago.
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And all of them say the same thing.
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They say it is the complete ending
of human suffering.
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Well of course it's the end
of human suffering!
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All suffering is based
on the illusory separation
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that there's an individual
in the environment,
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that there's a person that has to survive,
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that this specific collection
of 1,000 trillion trillion atoms
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has to hold itself together.
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But if I realize directly
that I am energy,
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and I realize the body and the mind are
a temporary manifestation of that energy,
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then I can fully accept the death
of the body and mind
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as something that does not happen to me,
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because I was always energy
and I always will be.
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And if I were to experience that directly,
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this voice in my head that tells me
I have to do certain things
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in order to be fulfilled
loses all of its power.
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At this very moment, I never have
to listen to that voice again,
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and so everything in life
becomes a game, for fun, a play.
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And we've all experienced that,
but it's very hard to remember,
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because we were so young,
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and maybe we were at the beach
building a sand castle,
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and the entire world faded away
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because we were
only building it to build it,
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and we weren't trying
to get somewhere else.
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We hadn't even learned how to plan.
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And so, the only moment
that mattered to us was right now.
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I think this experience
is so important and powerful
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that every religious tradition at its core
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has been trying to convince us
of its importance,
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and if it's true, if the true end
of all human psychological suffering
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is actually possible, it is the most
important thing science could be studying.
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When we look at monks and nuns
who have meditated or prayed
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for thousands of hours, we see
remarkable shifts on their brain scans.
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Trillions of neural connections
have changed configuration.
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And along with this
quantifiable objective change
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in the operating system of the brain,
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they describe a feeling
of undifferentiated, infinite oneness.
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To me, that sounds like they're having
the direct experience of being energy.
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Now, enlightenment science
and enlightenment engineering
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would study these ancient technologies
of prayer and meditation as data sets,
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to understand what has to change
in the structure of a human brain
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for a human being to understand
that they are energy directly.
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And we still have no idea
how much modern technology
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could completely change
our ability to understand that.
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Maybe it's possible that,
within our lifetimes,
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we could actually eradicate
human suffering.
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And what would the world look like then,
if every single one of us felt complete,
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felt whole, and felt interconnected?
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[Letting go]
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When you let go of individual survival,
all of your priorities change,
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because you actually see
the entire world as your body,
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you see the suffering of others
as your own suffering,
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and you want to help.
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And what is the actual power
of a human being
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to really benefit the world,
when they're able to the priorities
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of the whole system
in front of themselves,
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even if that means
they have to die in the process?
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How many of us can do that right now?
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What if 7 billion of us did that?
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Maybe the one thing that keeps us
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from actually solving all
of the other problems in the world
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is this persistent flawed thought
that we are separate from the world.
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And maybe it's time we change our minds.
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Thank you.