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διότι τελικά είχα όλα όσα νόμιζα ότι χρειαζόμουν για να νιώθω ικανοποιημένος,
και όμως έπαρχε ακόμη αυτή η φωνή στο κεφάλι μου που μου έλεγε ότι έπρεπε να κάνω περισσότερα για να είμαι χαρούμενος.
Όσο περισσότερο κοίταζα τη δίκη μου ταλαιπωρία βαθιά,
τόσο περισσότερο την έβλεπα σε κάθε άτομο γύρω μου.
Έχουμε πρόβλημα να περιμένουμε στην ουρά, είμαστε ανυπόμονοι με τα ίδια μας τα παιδιά.
Είναι σαν να πιστεύουμε όλοι μας ότι το μέλλον κρύβει την υπόσχεση για την εκπλήρωση μας.
Και προέρχομαι από οικογένεια επιστημόνων,
όποτε ήθελα να χρησιμοποιήσω αυτό το υπόβαθρο για να καταλάβω την αληθινή ρίζα και αιτία
του τόσο πολύ πόνου.
Και εκει που με οδήγησε μου άλλαξε εντελώς την οπτική μου
του παρόντος επιστημονικής ιδεολογικής δομής,
but more importantly than that,
it's changed my views
on what it means to be
a human being and to be alive.
I want to share this theory
with you, and it's way out there.
So, I ask you to have a critical,
but open mind for the next 14 minutes,
because you might not actually be
what you think you are.
So, who am I, alright?
I'm a human being, and I'm 33 years old.
But if you take a microscope
and look at any part of me, you see cells.
And I'm a community of 50 trillion cells,
doing a magic dance.
And you at any one of those cells
with an even closer microscope,
and you see 20 trillion atoms.
And so, I'm also a community
of 1,000 trillion trillion atoms.
But when you look
at those atoms really up-close,
they fade away, and all you see is energy.
And 13.7 billion years ago,
at the Big Bang,
everything that we've ever found
in the entire universe
was one infinitesimal,
undifferentiated, pure energy.
All of us are energy.
A human being is a very
complex pattern of energy.
So, I stand here as a 33-year-old,
basically motionless,
but when you look up-close
at any single part of me,
I'm moving the speed of light,
and I'm the age of the universe.
So, the question for me is:
I know this conceptually.
Why don't we feel it?
Why do we walk around being so sure
that we're a human being all the time,
and we never feel like we're energy,
because it sounds awesome?
And I think the reason
that we don't notice it
is because we are so distracted
by the human levels of our experience
that we fail to notice
what is always sitting beneath.
And so, I want to look
at those distractions.
Take five seconds,
and think about something
that you're going to do tomorrow.
So, what you just did is something
that, as far as we understand,
no other organism
in the entire universe can do.
You just built an alternate reality
inside your head.
You just made a prediction
about the future
that has never happened in reality.
And this powerful prediction,
when you can compare alternate realities,
allows you to plan for the future.
And from agriculture to your retirement,
this has changed the face of the planet.
It's probably the most significant,
evolutionary step forward
since walking upright.
So, I want to look
at this tool in your head,
because your mind
is a thought-generating machine,
to make proliferate predictions
about the future,
to guide and goal-orient your behavior.
What does this machine
look like in all of our heads, in 2011?
So, another experiment:
Take ten seconds, and stop thinking.
OK. Did anyone make it? Ten seconds?
(Laughter)
I make it about two,
and then I start strategizing
about how I'm going to stop thinking;
I think about that the whole time.
Alright, so what this means is you have
such an evolutionarily advantageous tool
that it's become completely compulsive,
but you've got to remember,
no other organism does this at all.
And the side effect of having
the most evolutionarily advantageous tool
in the entire universe
sitting in your head
is that you have no control over it.
And when you have no control
and you compulsively generate
all these possible realities,
you always compare them to where you are,
to try to goal-orient your behavior,
and this creates an entirely new class
of human suffering.
Things like jealousy and regret
about something that happened in the past,
and anxiety about your future,
no other organism can feel.
And so, I want to understand
if it's possible
to totally eliminate those sources
of suffering from humanity.
This is just a brief list of all those
possible sources of suffering.
In order to find out
if it's possible to remove those sources,
we have to take a kind of scientific,
experimental objective at ourselves,
we have to take a look at all the layers
of our own experience,
and try to be as objective
as possible about them.
This is amazingly difficult,
because we're so emotionally involved
in our own lives, and as any of you know,
if you go to a movie
and you're emotionally involved,
two minutes into it, you totally forget
that you're at a movie,
and the lights turn on at the end,
and you're shocked back into reality.
So, this is even more difficult,
because we have to look at our own movie,
the movie inside our consciousness.
We'll do two quick experiments, and this
only will give you a taste of something
that takes much longer
to understand the depth of.
So, the first one is your sight.
From what we understand in physics,
all light is a vibration
of electromagnetic field.
And none of those light waves
intrinsically have any color.
There's just this change in frequency.
But once those waves go into your eye
and into your brain, you create
the subjective experience of color.
Now, what this means is that you all think
that you are seeing me out here,
with a red shirt on,
but this red only exists in your head,
and so, this entire picture you're seeing
is happening inside your head,
in a movie inside your consciousness.
And if you remove a little bit
of the attention from me directly,
you can start to have
some attention on yourself,
noticing that you are seeing me
inside your head.
So, let's do a second experiment.
It's even more subtle than that one.
Read this sentence twice,
silently to yourself.
[The voice in your head]
["I can hear the voice in my head
reading this sentence"]
OK, so it's weird, right?
But you can get this very weird,
subtle perspective
that you can look at your own
thought process objectively.
You're actually listening
to the soundtrack of thoughts
inside your head,
in your movie of consciousness.
[I am]
Imagine that I do this process
for thousands of hours,
and I just try to look,
as objective as possible,
at my thoughts, and my emotions,
and my perceptions,
and even the way that my brain
has modeled space and time.
The more that I pull attention away
from the thoughts and the perceptions,
the more I seem to notice myself
noticing these things
inside my consciousness.
And eventually, maybe I can pull
all of the attention away
from all those layers of thoughts,
perceptions, my body, my sensations,
and there's nothing left to perceive,
there's nothing left
that I can consider myself,
because I've seen it all
in front as not me.
And yet, the one thing that remains
is this feeling of existence.
"I am" remains.
This feeling of "I am".
And what I find when I sit in that state
is that what my identity is,
whatever it is, is beyond perception,
it cannot be perceived,
but it is still experienced.
And this "I am" is the root
of our entire existence.
"I am" is latent in every single aspect
of our existence,
but just like a fish might never notice
the water that it swims in,
we might never notice the "I am"
because it's covered.
"I am" is a completely empty experience,
it's devoid of any content,
and when I experience it
directly, on its own,
there's the possibility for a realization:
"Maybe I'm not a human being
that has consciousness.
Maybe I'm consciousness
that is shaped into a human being."
And when I see
this totally empty experience,
there's no content, form, structure,
there's not even a model of space and time
that is generated in the mind.
And we've seen those conditions before,
13.7 billion years ago,
when the entire universe
was an undifferentiated, pure energy.
And so, just maybe there is
the potential to realize directly
I am that energy,
I always have been that energy,
and I always will be that energy.
Einstein said that thoughts suffer
from an optical illusion of consciousness,
this illusion that there's
a separate person inside an environment,
when in reality, there's just energy
in motion, everywhere.
And just like an ocean is water in motion,
we can call a certain part
of that ocean a wave,
but it gives us the illusion that the wave
is a separate entity in the ocean.
But a wave is not in the ocean.
A wave is the ocean.
And similarly, we might not be waves.
Maybe we're the ocean.
Maybe all of us are energy,
and we can realize that directly.
Now, this experience
could never be reduced to words,
because it makes words,
but it could be experienced, and I think
it's such an important experience
that people have been trying
to name it for thousands of years,
and they call it spiritual enlightenment.
[You are not what you think]
And I think the first
human beings started realizing
that they were fundamentally energy
about 2,500 years ago.
And all of them say the same thing.
They say it is the complete ending
of human suffering.
Well of course it's the end
of human suffering!
All suffering is based
on the illusory separation
that there's an individual
in the environment,
that there's a person that has to survive,
that this specific collection
of 1,000 trillion trillion atoms
has to hold itself together.
But if I realize directly
that I am energy,
and I realize the body and the mind are
a temporary manifestation of that energy,
then I can fully accept the death
of the body and mind
as something that does not happen to me,
because I was always energy
and I always will be.
And if I were to experience that directly,
this voice in my head that tells me
I have to do certain things
in order to be fulfilled
loses all of its power.
At this very moment, I never have
to listen to that voice again,
and so everything in life
becomes a game, for fun, a play.
And we've all experienced that,
but it's very hard to remember,
because we were so young,
and maybe we were at the beach
building a sand castle,
and the entire world faded away
because we were
only building it to build it,
and we weren't trying
to get somewhere else.
We hadn't even learned how to plan.
And so, the only moment
that mattered to us was right now.
I think this experience
is so important and powerful
that every religious tradition at its core
has been trying to convince us
of its importance,
and if it's true, if the true end
of all human psychological suffering
is actually possible, it is the most
important thing science could be studying.
When we look at monks and nuns
who have meditated or prayed
for thousands of hours, we see
remarkable shifts on their brain scans.
Trillions of neural connections
have changed configuration.
And along with this
quantifiable objective change
in the operating system of the brain,
they describe a feeling
of undifferentiated, infinite oneness.
To me, that sounds like they're having
the direct experience of being energy.
Now, enlightenment science
and enlightenment engineering
would study these ancient technologies
of prayer and meditation as data sets,
to understand what has to change
in the structure of a human brain
for a human being to understand
that they are energy directly.
And we still have no idea
how much modern technology
could completely change
our ability to understand that.
Maybe it's possible that,
within our lifetimes,
we could actually eradicate
human suffering.
And what would the world look like then,
if every single one of us felt complete,
felt whole, and felt interconnected?
[Letting go]
When you let go of individual survival,
all of your priorities change,
because you actually see
the entire world as your body,
you see the suffering of others
as your own suffering,
and you want to help.
And what is the actual power
of a human being
to really benefit the world,
when they're able to the priorities
of the whole system
in front of themselves,
even if that means
they have to die in the process?
How many of us can do that right now?
What if 7 billion of us did that?
Maybe the one thing that keeps us
from actually solving all
of the other problems in the world
is this persistent flawed thought
that we are separate from the world.
And maybe it's time we change our minds.
Thank you.