The most important conversation you will have with your kids | Jason Reid | TEDxLakeForestCollege
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0:20 - 0:23It was March 21, 2018.
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0:24 - 0:28I was in Mexico with my wife
celebrating her birthday. -
0:28 - 0:30We had just finished
a wonderful dinner. -
0:30 - 0:32We were talking about
our great live with our kids -
0:32 - 0:36and the next phase of our lives
as our kids are getting older. -
0:38 - 0:40It was 11:03 p.m.
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0:42 - 0:44when the text message came in.
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0:46 - 0:48My wife screamed.
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0:50 - 0:53I tumbled on my phone
and read the text, it ended with -
0:53 - 0:55"Sorry. Love you.
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0:57 - 0:58Bye."
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0:58 - 1:00I freaked out, and I called the house.
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1:00 - 1:05I woke up my mother-in-law,
and I yelled, "Find Ryan!" -
1:08 - 1:10She ran into the house,
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1:11 - 1:13and she finally found him.
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1:14 - 1:16He was in the attic.
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1:16 - 1:19She screamed - it will be
in my head forever. -
1:19 - 1:22She said, "Jay, he hung himself!"
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1:26 - 1:28The next couple of hours was a blur.
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1:28 - 1:32There was text messages and phone calls
and ambulances and police and doctors. -
1:33 - 1:35They revived him
and they brought him down -
1:35 - 1:38to Rady Children's Hospital in San Diego.
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1:39 - 1:40That started
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1:41 - 1:44what was supposed
to be a three-hour journey, -
1:44 - 1:46that became a 15-hour-nightmare
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1:46 - 1:49as we tried to make
our way back to San Diego. -
1:51 - 1:54Ryan was in a medically induced coma
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1:54 - 1:57for the next three days.
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1:57 - 1:59The doctors and nurses
did the wonderful job -
1:59 - 2:03of trying to balance hope with reality,
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2:03 - 2:06but at the end the CAT scan
showed that he was brain dead. -
2:08 - 2:13We were able to spend
the next 36 hours with him, -
2:14 - 2:15saying our goodbyes.
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2:16 - 2:18I actually got to watch
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2:18 - 2:20our favorite TV show,
the last three episodes of it, -
2:20 - 2:24where I had one earbud
in mine and one in his. -
2:24 - 2:28My oldest son snuck in
with a bottle of wine the last night, -
2:28 - 2:30and we toasted with Ryan
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2:30 - 2:34while we hid the bottle
from the nurses and doctors. -
2:35 - 2:38The next day, they came to get us,
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2:38 - 2:41and they brought us
to a special place in the hospital -
2:41 - 2:43where we all surrounded him,
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2:44 - 2:47and they took him off life support.
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2:51 - 2:55We watched as whatever life was left
in his body drifted away, -
2:55 - 2:58and the color of his skin turned to ash.
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3:04 - 3:06And they pronounced him dead.
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3:09 - 3:11I want you to imagine
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3:11 - 3:13a world
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3:13 - 3:17where disease exist
that is attacking our children, -
3:17 - 3:21where half a million get so sick
they come close to death, -
3:21 - 3:24and where 5,000 die every year.
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3:24 - 3:28What would you do as a parent
to protect your children? -
3:29 - 3:32What would be on CNN 24/7?
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3:33 - 3:34What would they be talking about?
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3:34 - 3:38And what would be blowing up
all over social media? -
3:39 - 3:44I want you to imagine that world
because that world exists. -
3:48 - 3:50Depression is that disease.
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3:50 - 3:53It's the number two killer
of our children. -
3:54 - 3:57It, too often, ends in suicide.
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3:57 - 4:00And depression is a disease
that we do not talk about -
4:00 - 4:02like it's a disease.
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4:03 - 4:06We don't treat it the same way
as we treat cancer. -
4:06 - 4:10We treat it as something you're supposed
to shake off and then you'll be fine, -
4:10 - 4:12or maybe it doesn't exist.
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4:12 - 4:15It's almost like we're in the dark ages,
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4:16 - 4:17where you don't want to tell people
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4:17 - 4:20what's going on
in your family or your friends -
4:20 - 4:22because you're afraid
that they might judge you. -
4:23 - 4:29Well, on March 26, 2018,
that disease took my son. -
4:33 - 4:36How was that for a cold opener?
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4:37 - 4:40You know, even in the darkness,
there is this light, -
4:40 - 4:42there are funny things that happen.
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4:42 - 4:47I'm going to share a couple with you,
and you can laugh if you want, it's okay. -
4:48 - 4:50I was in such a rush!
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4:50 - 4:51I got home that afternoon;
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4:51 - 4:54I wanted to start a foundation,
to change things, -
4:54 - 4:56because that's the kind of guy I am.
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4:56 - 4:58So I said, "Choose life."
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4:58 - 5:01That's what everybody should do,
they should choose life, -
5:01 - 5:03and Chooselife.org was available.
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5:04 - 5:07So I bought it; I didn't know
why it was $10,000, -
5:07 - 5:09I just paid it.
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5:10 - 5:13Then I got some rubber wristbands
that said "Choose Life" on them, -
5:13 - 5:15and I'm ready to go.
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5:15 - 5:17The next week,
a buddy of mine says, -
5:17 - 5:21"Hey Jay, you know that's the old
anti-abortion website from the eighties?" -
5:21 - 5:23I'm like, "Oh!"
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5:23 - 5:25(Laughter)
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5:25 - 5:28And that was
the first $12,000 I spent. -
5:28 - 5:30(Laughter)
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5:31 - 5:33Ryan texted all of us ...
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5:35 - 5:36at 11:03.
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5:36 - 5:40He had them all pre-done,
including my daughter's boyfriend. -
5:40 - 5:43He said some really nice things; he said,
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5:44 - 5:49"If you are not nice to my sister,
I will come back and haunt you, Mister." -
5:50 - 5:54Now, even I feel bad for that kid.
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5:54 - 5:55(Laughter)
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5:55 - 5:58My daughter, on the other hand,
she thinks it's awesome. -
6:00 - 6:04Ryan researched everything.
That's the kind of kid he was. -
6:05 - 6:06In his suicide note,
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6:06 - 6:09he talked about the different ways
he planned on doing this. -
6:09 - 6:14One of the ways, he said, was to throw
himself out of my attic office window, -
6:14 - 6:17but then he said,
"You know, I'm only 76 pounds, -
6:18 - 6:21I was afraid my clothes
would act as a parachute." -
6:22 - 6:23And that was Ryan.
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6:24 - 6:27So if I'm sitting in the audience
right now, I'd be going, -
6:27 - 6:31"Jay, this is a tragic story."
And yeah, it is a tragic story. -
6:31 - 6:33But I'd be thinking:
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6:33 - 6:37"That would not happen to me.
I know my kids." -
6:38 - 6:40Well, I thought I knew my kids too.
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6:40 - 6:43Let me introduce you to my family:
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6:43 - 6:47my wife Kim, 25 years of marriage,
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6:47 - 6:50stay-at-home mom
doted on our kids every day; -
6:50 - 6:52my 21-year-old son Derek;
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6:52 - 6:56my daughter Ashlynn;
my 17-year-old son Kyle; -
6:56 - 6:58and Ryan, my youngest.
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7:04 - 7:08I wrote the Protector Bug
books for Ryan, -
7:08 - 7:11stories I would make up
and tell him as a kid. -
7:13 - 7:15As a family, dinners were our thing.
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7:15 - 7:18We would sit around the dinner table
for hours and talk, -
7:18 - 7:19and funny things would happen.
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7:19 - 7:22There'd be no computers,
no phones, none of that, right? -
7:22 - 7:26Funny things would happen that I turned
into a book called "Dinner Conversations" -
7:26 - 7:29to try to encourage other families
to spend more time together. -
7:31 - 7:35I took all my kids on individual
"only-with-dad" trips. -
7:37 - 7:39Ryan and I were working
on his trip to Boston -
7:39 - 7:44that was supposed to take place in June,
and his next year's trip to Dubai, -
7:44 - 7:46a week before he killed himself.
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7:49 - 7:50This is Ryan.
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7:50 - 7:53This is how I remember Ryan:
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7:53 - 7:55a happy kid who could light up a room.
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7:55 - 8:00That's what he wore
until he was almost 13. -
8:01 - 8:03At some point, he changed.
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8:04 - 8:06Thirteen, I feel he is a little
bit more withdrawn. -
8:06 - 8:10As I look back on it I see it,
I didn't see it then. -
8:10 - 8:12He is a little more quiet,
more grumpy. -
8:12 - 8:16I thought he was just another
grumpy teenager, I have four! -
8:17 - 8:19I thought that's all it was.
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8:21 - 8:25After Ryan passed, I was going through
his room and up in his drawers, -
8:25 - 8:29and the top right hand drawer
was empty except for two notes, -
8:29 - 8:31two sticky notes.
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8:31 - 8:35One note said, "Here is
my username and passwords." -
8:37 - 8:39The other said, "Tell my story."
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8:46 - 8:48That's what I'm doing.
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8:49 - 8:53So if I'm you I'm going, "Okay, Jay,
now what do you want me to do?" -
8:53 - 8:56Well, I'm going to give you a few things
that I think we should do. -
8:56 - 8:59We have to first realize
that we're living in a world -
8:59 - 9:02and parenting in the way
our parents used to parent us, -
9:02 - 9:04but the world has changed.
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9:04 - 9:10Suicide amongst teenagers
is up 70% since 2006, -
9:10 - 9:12and Facebook started in 2004.
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9:12 - 9:15I'm not blaming social media.
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9:15 - 9:17I don't want to get
into a battle with every PhDs -
9:17 - 9:21about causation versus correlation,
I'm not going to do it. -
9:21 - 9:24I'm just saying the world has changed,
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9:24 - 9:26and we haven't changed.
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9:29 - 9:32Our kids are bombarded
with social media, -
9:32 - 9:36and so much more stimulus
than they ever were when we were kids. -
9:36 - 9:39I was bullied as a kid.
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9:39 - 9:42I was sickly.
I was an easy target. -
9:42 - 9:44But you know what happened?
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9:44 - 9:46At 3 p.m. everyday
when that bell went off, -
9:46 - 9:50I went home to a very safe place
where the bullies could not reach me. -
9:51 - 9:55For kids these days, the bell never rings.
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9:57 - 10:02And I'm sorry, but the bullies
are in the room with them for 24/7. -
10:02 - 10:05And the cool kids
who sit at the lunch table? -
10:05 - 10:08Well now, they're not at the lunch table,
they're in your room, -
10:09 - 10:12and they still won't let you join.
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10:12 - 10:14So we need to understand
our kids' social media. -
10:14 - 10:18We need to understand
who their so called "friends" are, -
10:18 - 10:20who are they following.
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10:20 - 10:22We need to understand
that for some kids - -
10:22 - 10:25not all kids, but for some -
it's too much. -
10:25 - 10:28Your need to make sure
your kids understand -
10:28 - 10:31that everyone else's life
is not better than theirs, -
10:31 - 10:37and that the real fake news is that
Instagram post they just looked at. -
10:39 - 10:41Second thing you want to do
is to watch for change. -
10:41 - 10:44What was your child like
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10:44 - 10:48three years ago, two years ago,
one year ago, whatever the time frame is? -
10:48 - 10:50Are they different?
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10:50 - 10:52Are they more withdrawn?
Are they more quiet? -
10:52 - 10:55Are they more combative?
Are they arguing with you more? -
10:55 - 10:57Are they not hanging out
with their friends? -
10:57 - 11:00If you see change you need to address it,
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11:00 - 11:02and you need to get them talking.
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11:02 - 11:05And when you say,
"Hey, how are you feeling?" -
11:07 - 11:09and they go, "I'm fine... Yeah, I'm okay,"
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11:09 - 11:12and your gut says, "No you're not,"
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11:12 - 11:16you can't take
"Yes, I'm okay" for an answer. -
11:16 - 11:19I took "Yes, I'm okay" for an answer.
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11:22 - 11:25We need to get them talking,
and part of getting them talking -
11:25 - 11:28is to be approachable as a parent.
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11:28 - 11:30Ryan likely saw me ...
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11:33 - 11:34as a CEO,
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11:35 - 11:36as an entrepreneur,
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11:36 - 11:38as an author,
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11:38 - 11:41as an iron man who's a black belt,
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11:41 - 11:44a guy who'd get anything done -
you give me any problem, I'll solve it - -
11:44 - 11:49a guy who never, ever complained,
and above all never cried. -
11:51 - 11:55He saw that of me because
that's the image I showed him. -
11:55 - 11:59That's the image I thought as a dad
I was supposed to show -
11:59 - 12:01(Choking)
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12:01 - 12:02my son.
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12:04 - 12:06
What did Ryan show me? -
12:06 - 12:08The same thing,
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12:08 - 12:10a kid who had his act together,
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12:10 - 12:15good grades, always smiling, always happy.
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12:15 - 12:19I wish I was more vulnerable with my son.
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12:19 - 12:23I wish I shared with him my fears
and my concerns, -
12:24 - 12:25and what I was afraid of,
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12:25 - 12:29and maybe, just maybe,
he would have shared that with me. -
12:30 - 12:34I spent so much time
trying to be my son's hero, -
12:37 - 12:40that I missed out on being his dad.
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12:43 - 12:47You know, as parents
we want the best for our kids. -
12:47 - 12:49And sometimes, we want
them to toughen up, -
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and we'll say things like, -
12:51 - 12:54"When getting going is tough,
the tough gets going," -
12:54 - 12:56or, "You think you had it bad?
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12:56 - 12:59Shake it off,
you're going to be fine." -
12:59 - 13:01And you know what?
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13:01 - 13:03Some of you are going,
"Jay, they need that." -
13:03 - 13:06I'm like, "Yes, some of them do.
Some of them do." -
13:07 - 13:10But in those kids
who are truly depressed, -
13:10 - 13:14in those kids who are truly sick,
that doesn't help. -
13:14 - 13:17And yes, I probably said
some of those things. -
13:20 - 13:21I have parents who tell me,
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13:21 - 13:24"Jay, you want me to go talk to my kids.
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13:24 - 13:27You want me to say, 'Have you ever
thought of hurting yourself? -
13:27 - 13:30Have you ever thought about suicide?'
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13:30 - 13:34I can't do that, Jay, because I don't want
to put that idea in their head." -
13:34 - 13:40Well, the reality is
that idea is already in their head. -
13:40 - 13:42Not talking about it is the problem.
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13:42 - 13:47Not talking about suicide with your kids,
not talking about hurting themselves, -
13:47 - 13:50is most likely not talking
about the elephant in the room. -
13:50 - 13:53The only way to help this
is to get them to talk. -
13:56 - 14:00Next thing I want you to understand,
and this is hard for me, -
14:02 - 14:05is that people who are depressed,
kids who are depressed -
14:05 - 14:10do not see the world
through the same lens that we do. -
14:12 - 14:14On the sunniest of days,
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14:14 - 14:17when the sun is shining
and there's not a cloud in the sky, -
14:17 - 14:19they will still see gray skies.
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14:22 - 14:25And we don't get that.
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14:26 - 14:30Those of us who have never been depressed
will never understand that. -
14:32 - 14:34My journey started
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14:35 - 14:38on March 21, in Mexico.
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14:40 - 14:42It brought me to this stage.
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14:42 - 14:45And the next phase
of what I'm going to do -
14:45 - 14:48is a documentary film
called "Tell my story," -
14:49 - 14:51about teen suicide,
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14:51 - 14:56In hopes that I can get all of you
to see it a little differently. -
14:57 - 14:59So what can you do?
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14:59 - 15:01Well, I want you to take action now.
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15:05 - 15:08You need to understand
that suicide is at an epidemic level, -
15:08 - 15:10amongst teenagers today.
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15:11 - 15:14You need to pay attention
to their social media. -
15:15 - 15:17You need to look for change,
and if they change, -
15:17 - 15:19you have to address them, talk to them.
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15:19 - 15:22Be their parent, not their hero.
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15:24 - 15:28Talk to them, make sure they know
it's okay to feel sad. -
15:31 - 15:33Realize
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15:33 - 15:36that they see the world
through a different lens. -
15:37 - 15:42And if you're worried, get them to talk
to a mental health professional. -
15:47 - 15:50Half a million kids a year
try to commit suicide, -
15:50 - 15:52and 5000 succeed.
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15:52 - 15:54We need to change that.
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15:54 - 15:57I need you to go home
and hug your kids. -
15:57 - 16:00And ask them how they feel,
not in the tummy, -
16:00 - 16:03but in their hearts
and their minds. -
16:03 - 16:06I need you to get them talking,
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16:07 - 16:09and don't just take "yes"
for an answer. -
16:09 - 16:12Don't take "Yes, I'm okay"
for an answer, but dig deeper. -
16:14 - 16:15One more thing.
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16:15 - 16:18It's kind of like a superhero movie,
and you think I was done, -
16:18 - 16:20but I'm not quite done.
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16:22 - 16:24People ask me,
as I've been doing this, -
16:24 - 16:28"Jay, this must be really healing for you
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16:28 - 16:31to go through and prepare this talk?"
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16:33 - 16:35The answer is no.
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16:36 - 16:38Over the last 60 days,
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16:38 - 16:42I've had to relive my son's death
at least a thousand times. -
16:43 - 16:47There is nothing healing about this.
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16:47 - 16:49So why am I doing it?
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16:49 - 16:51I'm doing it because Ryan ...
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16:51 - 16:53(Crying)
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16:54 - 16:56Ryan asked me to.
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16:58 - 16:59And I'm doing it in hopes
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17:00 - 17:03that at least one of you,
maybe a whole bunch more of you, -
17:03 - 17:06will go and have
that conversation with your kids -
17:06 - 17:10that will change their lives
and save someone. -
17:10 - 17:13And I need your help
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17:13 - 17:17because I can't change
this world by myself, -
17:17 - 17:19and this world needs to change.
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17:20 - 17:22I need you to start the conversation,
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17:22 - 17:24and I need you to share this talk
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17:24 - 17:27with anybody
and everybody you know. -
17:27 - 17:29Thank you.
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17:29 - 17:30(Applause)
- Title:
- The most important conversation you will have with your kids | Jason Reid | TEDxLakeForestCollege
- Description:
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In March of 2018, Jason's 14-year-old son committed suicide in the attic of his home while he and his wife were away on vacation. "My seemingly perfect life was shattered to pieces. I was raising beautiful, smart and happy kids in my eyes. But what was really happening behind the scenes, deep in the soul of my son was hidden. We are never given a parent manual, but we are given the tools to help one another. I am on a mission to help parents change the conversation they have with kids."
Jason Reid is a the Co-Founder of National Services Group, a nationwide company that employs over 2,000 people at the peak of it’s season each year. He is also a partner at CEO Coaching International. Jason has written seven books including two kids book and a book about family conversations. He is also and Ironman and black belt.
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at https://www.ted.com/tedx
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- English
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- Duration:
- 17:43