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(upbeat music)
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- [Heidi] Sometimes I
feel like it's the clay
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telling me what to do.
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And I just submit to
this very cruel mistress.
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(suspenseful music)
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It really feels like I am the medium.
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Something passes through me or
my hands directed by the clay.
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Instead of me sculpting it,
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it's like it's sculpting me back.
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(Heidi laughing)
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It's like a conduit for spirits.
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My name is Heidi Lau and I'm a sculptor
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and I work primarily in clay.
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(birds chirping)
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Working in clay, literally
the most gentle touch
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you put on it becomes
embedded into the material.
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It's just continuous
making layers upon layers.
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Everything I've learned I just taught
myself. I think the only technique
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that I use is just scoring
the clay, putting slip on it
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and then attaching the work.
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The hands are probably one of the
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(Heidi laughs)
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longest running elements
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in my work.
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I will never cast a real hand
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you know, they kind of all like
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ghostly and they're elongated,
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to signify that it doesn't
come from this world.
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Yeah, so this is a preliminary sketch
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for my project at the catacomb
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and so this is the arch.
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The piece would hang from the
skylight down to the floor.
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(soft music)
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There's a lot of urns
with drapery on top.
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It's kind of a symbol for mourning
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and I've been wanting to capture that.
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(calm music)
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I grew up in Macau,
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my childhood oscillates between
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very strict Chinese parenting
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and also me escaping my
household and having adventures
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in lot of ruins while it was
still a colony of Portugal.
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The Portuguese has built
a lot of cathedrals
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and there are a lot of
colonial style houses.
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I would spend a lot of time
wandering into the structures.
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I'm trying to capture that essence
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of structures you could get lost into.
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(soft music)
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(bell ringing)
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(car hoots)
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- Hi
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- [Heidi] Wing on Wo is a ceramic store
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in Chinatown and it's actually one
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of the oldest running
business in all Manhattan.
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I became friends with the
owner Mei, five years ago.
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As soon as I stepped into the store,
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it just felt so familiar to me
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'cause I had grew up in a
very similar environment.
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I see Chinese diaspora quite similar
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to the way I see how Mei runs her store.
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Rethinking how ceramics
could be interpreted,
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or reintroduced to contemporary times.
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If I could close my eyes,
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I could even see like the books
my grandpa had on the shelf
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like his garden.
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While it's looking in the past,
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it's also kind of like,
gives me a lot of like energy
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to create work both
for now and the future.
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And that's why I want to
bring you this to like
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'cause I want the actual
elements to kind of reference.
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(calm music)
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I started thinking about using clay
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to make a burial garment
after my mom passed away.
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As a way to grieve,
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I began to look at a lot of burial objects
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from Han and Qin dynasty
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and also watching a lot
of Chinese zombie movies.
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(Heidi laughs)
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(suspenseful music)
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It feels right to grieve with my hands
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doing this very labor
intensive, almost the most
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impractical thing you can
think of to do with clay.
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The labor of it equals grieving.
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(calm music)
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(birds chirping)
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I started taking very long
walks during the residency
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and that's kind of how the project
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at the catacomb
started taking shape slowly
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through this aimless, meditative walks.
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It's a daily exercise for myself to empty
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out my own ego when I am
able to get to that state
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at the time that I could
access this ancestral plane
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and find my way on the other side.
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(calm music)
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(chains clink)
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- Got it.
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(coins clink)
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- I see my work kind of as,
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touch points between very opposing ideas
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between human and spiritual unknown.
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(calm upbeat music)
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I feel like at the core
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of me making work about
grief is putting emotion
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into clay and really listening to it.
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It becomes something
familiar, something beautiful.
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(calm upbeat music)