My Secret Addiction! | DELIVERANCE TESTIMONY

I would like to encourage everyone who's going through any form of addiction

to hold onto hope and not to give up on God.

Say, ‘You devil, I command you by the authority in the name of Jesus Christ

to leave right now!

Leave with your bondage!
Leave with your burden!

Leave with your nightmares!
Leave with your sickness!

Leave right now!’

My name is Bokamoso.
I live in Botswana.

It all started in 2002.

I was living with my extended family - my grandmother, my auntie and her two kids.

We were living in the village.

So during that time, my auntie was
the one eating this hill soil

because there was a hill next to where
we were staying in the village.

That is where the hill soil was.

It first started when I used
to go with my auntie.

She used to go and collect this hill soil.

I used to go with her when
she went to collect it.

We would go with a plastic bag where
she would put it - all the time.

It happened one day that I went alone, without her knowing.

And that was when I started
to have a taste of it.

As time went on, I started having
that urge of eating hill soil.

She didn't know that I was doing this.
I was doing it secretly.

Nobody knew that I was doing this because she was strict with us not to eat it,

but I was doing it secretly.

Five years later, I then moved
to my parents’ house.

I moved from the village to go
and stay with my parents.

And that was when the urge
started to increase.

The urge started to grow
as time was going on.

I was 14 at that time, living with my parents.

We lived in the farm and there
were bushes around us.

That is where we lived and where
I could find the hill soil.

So I used to sneak around to
go and eat it or collect it.

Like I was saying, nobody knew that
I was doing this. It was my secret.

This continued for a very long time.

It caused me so many spiritual attacks.

Because even at school,
I couldn’t concentrate.

And I was faced with so much rejection.

In the class, I couldn't concentrate well.

Even if I told the teachers that I didn't understand in class, nobody listened to me.

Even when I told them my situation,
nobody listened to me.

I couldn't concentrate well in school because I concentrated on eating hill soil.

I couldn't eat well because I made sure that I ate it first before I could eat.

Even sometimes, I couldn't eat at all.

I would go two or three days
without eating food.

I tried so hard to leave this
addiction for a very long time.

I even visited churches; I visited one of the biggest churches here in Botswana.

The pastor told me there was a snake
that visited me in the night.

I believed it because I used
to dream about snakes.

I tried to leave this thing for
a long time but I couldn’t.

Maybe I would go a week without eating it

but that is when I would start to have some spiritual attacks - eating it in the dream.

I would have some dreams eating it and the urge would even increase more.

It was hard to forgive people.

I had no peace in my heart.

I had a hot temper.

Even when people were trying to advise me, I took it in a negative way.

I had conflict at home.
I didn't listen to anybody.

I had conflicts with my siblings.
I couldn't listen to anyone.

I had constipation because
I was eating it too much.

So I would spend maybe three weeks or a month without going to the toilet.

That affected me in so many ways.
I had no confidence.

I joined the Interactive
Prayer in August 2023.

I made sure I joined each Interactive Prayer and I started to see so many changes.

With each Interactive Prayer
I was joining each month,

I realised I now have peace in my heart.

I started to see things in a different way.

I started to have love. I started to
have that spirit of obedience.

I started also to listen to every advice from people who were trying to advise me.

At first, I didn't have any positivity.
As I was saying, I had a hot temper.

But from that point on,
I started to have that calmness.

I used to be so arrogant but now,
I can advise people

in a better way, in a good way,
in a good manner.

I now have the confidence to stand
in front of people and talk to them.

At first, I had low self-esteem. As I was saying, I faced so much rejection.

But now, people have started
to come closer to me.

People are now recognising me,
and I thank my God for that.

Now tell us the changes you noticed
in that urge to eat hill soil and

in terms of the spirit of unforgiveness,

what were the changes you
experienced in those areas?

It stopped completely. I no longer have that urge. I’m no longer interested in eating it.

I’m no longer having spiritual
attacks of eating it.

Whenever I tried to stop before,

I would have some spiritual attacks
where I would eat it in the dream.

So I no longer have that.

I'm healed completely by God's grace.

I can go to the toilet each and every day.

I no longer have that pain in my stomach.

As I was saying, I used to have pain in my stomach because I didn't go to the toilet.

Before, I was rude; it was hard
for me to forgive people.

After prayer, I started to have that forgiveness and calmness in me.

I would like to encourage everyone who's going through any form of addiction

to hold onto hope and
not to give up on God.

They have to believe and trust God.

The Word of God says that
God’s time is the best.

So never give up on God,
no matter the situation.

Keep on holding on and believe in God.

Whatever you’re going through,
it will end with time.