Polyamory | Leon Feingold | TEDxBushwick
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0:07 - 0:10I would like you all
to think back to high school, -
0:10 - 0:14and I apologize if that was
uncomfortable for anyone. -
0:15 - 0:17Remember that weird kid?
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0:17 - 0:22You know, zero social skills,
got caught one day in an empty classroom -
0:22 - 0:24kissing his hand?
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0:27 - 0:28That was me.
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0:29 - 0:32For as long as I can remember,
I've craved connection with others, -
0:32 - 0:34but I was a high school dork.
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0:35 - 0:38This is me at 15 with my dad.
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0:39 - 0:42You can see where I got my fashion sense.
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0:42 - 0:43(Laughter)
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0:44 - 0:46In high school that was my strong suit.
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0:49 - 0:53Maybe it's obvious,
but in high school I never had a date, -
0:53 - 0:56never went to my prom,
I hated being lonely. -
0:56 - 1:00I fantasized about having
a girlfriend and being in love, -
1:00 - 1:03but I was too terrified to talk to a girl,
let alone ask one out. -
1:04 - 1:08When you're the weird kid,
risk aversion is like 80% of high school. -
1:09 - 1:12College was a different story.
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1:12 - 1:16In college I reinvented myself,
I shed that awkward self image, -
1:16 - 1:18and I really learned
to connect with myself and others. -
1:19 - 1:23In other words, I was on target
to be giving a really cliché TED Talk. -
1:23 - 1:26Believe in yourselves ugly ducklings!
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1:27 - 1:30Thankfully, my story
turned out differently. -
1:30 - 1:33I remember dating for the first time
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1:33 - 1:34as a young adult.
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1:34 - 1:36So much just didn't make sense.
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1:37 - 1:40Why are we taught to play mind games
to attract partners, -
1:40 - 1:42rather than just being ourselves?
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1:42 - 1:46Why is friendship supposed to be
affectionate but asexual? -
1:46 - 1:48If I have feelings for someone,
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1:48 - 1:51why am I not supposed to have
feelings for someone else? -
1:51 - 1:56And of course, how do I know
if I'm in love with the right person? -
1:56 - 1:59Most of my questions
revolved around monogamy. -
1:59 - 2:03Basically, you find one partner you like
and you stay together -
2:03 - 2:07until either you break up
and start all over with someone else, -
2:07 - 2:09or enough time goes by
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2:09 - 2:11and you take the next step
up the relationship ladder. -
2:12 - 2:18The progression goes:
dating, dating exclusively, engagement, -
2:18 - 2:23marriage, kids, 50th anniversary,
and then die married. -
2:25 - 2:26Now if you've done all this:
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2:26 - 2:29Congratulations! You win relationships.
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2:29 - 2:31(Laughter)
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2:40 - 2:42Any deviation however,
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2:42 - 2:46and your relationship
is considered a failure. -
2:47 - 2:50Of course by this measure
nearly all relationships, -
2:50 - 2:52no matter how enjoyable
or educational, are failures. -
2:53 - 2:55But that's the standard
under which we're all raised -
2:55 - 2:57and by which we're all judged.
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2:57 - 3:02Since my oh-so-awkward childhood,
I've been very lucky, -
3:02 - 3:06and I've dated some amazing people,
but none were a perfect match. -
3:06 - 3:09I realized we'd each need to give up
some of our wants or needs -
3:09 - 3:11in order to fit the other's ideal.
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3:11 - 3:16Now, you might say, giving up some desires
in order to make a relationship work -
3:16 - 3:17is normal.
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3:17 - 3:19But whether you consider compromise,
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3:19 - 3:22a necessary part
of growing up or settling, -
3:22 - 3:25it still means one or both of you
aren't really being true to yourselves. -
3:26 - 3:29Because no matter how compatible you are,
the likelihood of any two people -
3:29 - 3:32exactly matching
all the other's wants and needs -
3:32 - 3:33is minuscule.
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3:34 - 3:35Then there are the wants and needs
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3:35 - 3:38we don't know we want and need
until our relationships teaches us. -
3:38 - 3:41For example, a possessive partner
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3:41 - 3:44might show us the value
of the time we spend with our friends. -
3:44 - 3:47A party animal might teach us
that hey, we really do prefer -
3:47 - 3:50spending Saturday nights home on our sofa.
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3:50 - 3:53The more we date, the more we learn.
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3:53 - 3:56Even if we do meet somebody
who matches us, -
3:56 - 3:59people change, that's part of life.
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4:00 - 4:04What I want now, is not what I wanted
five years ago, or ten years ago. -
4:04 - 4:06I imagine it's the same for most of you.
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4:06 - 4:09What we want in five or ten years,
will be different too. -
4:09 - 4:11It would be great
if people in all relationships -
4:11 - 4:14grew at the same rate
and in the same direction, -
4:14 - 4:16but that's not realistic.
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4:16 - 4:18Most of us know people
in unhappy relationships -
4:18 - 4:20which have grown apart, but stay together,
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4:20 - 4:22sacrificing their own happiness
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4:22 - 4:25for appearances, or the sake of the kids,
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4:25 - 4:29or the fear of starting over
at the bottom of the ladder. -
4:30 - 4:34The worst part is, even though they know
or suspect they're incompatible, -
4:35 - 4:36they keep climbing.
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4:38 - 4:41Finally, the one thing
a perfect match can't be -
4:41 - 4:42is someone else.
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4:43 - 4:45Sure you can roleplay or vary routine,
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4:45 - 4:48but the human brain craves
variety and stimulation, -
4:49 - 4:52and in monogamy, the only way
to experience someone new -
4:52 - 4:54is to break up or cheat.
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4:55 - 4:58Breaking up and cheating is what we do.
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4:58 - 5:00Half of all marriages end in divorce.
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5:00 - 5:03Three out of every four people
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5:03 - 5:05will experience some form
of relationship infidelity. -
5:06 - 5:09I think we all know people
in 'successful' relationships -
5:09 - 5:12which may never break up
but are far from successful. -
5:13 - 5:14Being a romantic,
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5:14 - 5:18I never wanted to commit to someone
only to become a statistic, -
5:18 - 5:20or miserable because we weren't
perfectly matched, -
5:20 - 5:22but being logical,
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5:22 - 5:24I knew there was no such thing
as a perfect match. -
5:28 - 5:30I still wanted my fairy tale romance,
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5:30 - 5:32and I dated more and more
in order to find it, -
5:32 - 5:33but I never did.
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5:34 - 5:37This being New York City,
I did the reasonable thing, -
5:37 - 5:39and started seeing a therapist
to find out why. -
5:39 - 5:41(Laughter)
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5:42 - 5:45I mean, had I just not met the one?
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5:46 - 5:47It certainly wasn't for lack of looking.
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5:47 - 5:49What was wrong with me
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5:49 - 5:52that I couldn't have
what everyone else seemed to have? -
5:53 - 5:55Then I went on a date with Beth.
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5:56 - 6:02According to her OkCupid profile,
Beth was smart, creative, and polyamorous, -
6:02 - 6:03and over dinner,
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6:03 - 6:07learning about polyamory changed my life.
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6:07 - 6:10Audience participation time,
this is your turn. -
6:10 - 6:12I'd like to see a show of hands.
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6:12 - 6:15How many people here love their families?
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6:16 - 6:17Mom, put your hand up.
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6:18 - 6:20(Laughter)
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6:22 - 6:24How many love their friends?
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6:26 - 6:29How many love their romantic partners?
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6:31 - 6:34How many might still love their exes?
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6:34 - 6:37Don't raise your hand
if this will get you in trouble. -
6:39 - 6:42So, how many people only love one person?
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6:43 - 6:47Hopefully we can each honestly say,
we love many people in our lives. -
6:48 - 6:49Which is phenomenal.
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6:49 - 6:53Love is meaningful,
and it gives our lives meaning. -
6:53 - 6:57It deepens connections,
it feels great to share, -
6:57 - 7:00it's free, it doesn't even have calories.
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7:01 - 7:03So why should we limit it?
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7:03 - 7:05Are we only able to love
one person at a time? -
7:06 - 7:07Not at all, we just covered that.
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7:07 - 7:10Besides, love is not a zero sum game.
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7:10 - 7:13Imagine having a child
whom you love wholeheartedly. -
7:13 - 7:15If you have a second child,
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7:15 - 7:18you don't cut that love in half
and give half to each, -
7:18 - 7:19or tell the second child:
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7:19 - 7:21"I'm sorry, but there's
just no love left for you." -
7:21 - 7:23(Laughter)
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7:23 - 7:26At least my mother didn't do that.
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7:26 - 7:28You give them both all your love.
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7:29 - 7:31Resources are finite.
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7:31 - 7:35Time, money, energy, all are limited,
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7:35 - 7:39but the love we have to share
is only as limited as we limit it. -
7:40 - 7:44You might say: "OK, well,
I can feel love for many people, -
7:44 - 7:48but I can only be in love
romantically with one person." -
7:48 - 7:52I say, being in love is simply the concept
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7:52 - 7:56that someone we love
loves us back the same way. -
7:57 - 7:58Think about it.
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7:58 - 8:03The truth is, the idea
that romantic love must be exclusive -
8:03 - 8:04is a social construct.
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8:05 - 8:09We can and often do feel romantic love
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8:09 - 8:12for more than one person at the same time.
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8:12 - 8:15We're just not supposed to.
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8:17 - 8:22Monogamy works amazingly well
for some people, -
8:22 - 8:25which I find beautiful and inspiring,
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8:25 - 8:30but for people like me, who feel something
crucial missing in monogamy, -
8:30 - 8:35learning about responsible non-monogamy
can be transformative. -
8:37 - 8:40From the Greek and Roman roots
for many loves: -
8:40 - 8:44polyamory encourages the simultaneous
loving relationships of any sort -
8:44 - 8:47- physical, emotional, romantic -
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8:47 - 8:50as long as everyone involved
knows and consents. -
8:50 - 8:53It's not polygamy which is many spouses.
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8:53 - 8:57What we think of as dating monogamously
or monogamy in dating, -
8:57 - 9:00is really monoamory, one love,
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9:00 - 9:02where the goal is to find,
and bond exclusively with, -
9:02 - 9:04the one person we love.
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9:05 - 9:08Polyamorous or poly relationships
on the other hand, -
9:08 - 9:11are completely customized
by what we call negotiated agreements, -
9:11 - 9:14where the people involved
decide them together. -
9:14 - 9:18This could look like primary partners
with occasional secondaries, -
9:18 - 9:22or multiple primaries,
or any shape at all really: -
9:22 - 9:28a couple, a V, a triad, a quad, or this.
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9:29 - 9:31(Laughter)
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9:35 - 9:37We call this a polycule.
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9:37 - 9:39(Laughter)
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9:41 - 9:43Everyone should be communicating
with their partners -
9:43 - 9:46regarding their expectations,
desires and concerns. -
9:46 - 9:50It doesn't mean that A necessarily
has any direct interaction with G, -
9:50 - 9:53but they should all be on the same page.
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9:54 - 9:57This relationship structure
works incredibly well -
9:57 - 9:59for casual relationships.
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9:59 - 10:02It also works incredibly well
for long term relationships, -
10:02 - 10:04raising families,
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10:04 - 10:07and basically anyone living normal,
well adjusted lives. -
10:07 - 10:10Any of these shapes could change,
or last for life. -
10:11 - 10:15So at this point, I'm guessing
half of you are thinking, -
10:15 - 10:17well, that seems pretty good,
at least in theory. -
10:18 - 10:19Maybe it even sounds obvious.
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10:20 - 10:24The other half are thinking,
that can't possibly work. -
10:24 - 10:26But it does.
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10:26 - 10:29The key is our four C's,
like the bread crumbs. -
10:30 - 10:32(Laughter)
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10:32 - 10:37Compersion, Communication,
Community and Compatibility. -
10:39 - 10:41Compersion, my favorite word.
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10:41 - 10:44It means happiness
in the happiness of others. -
10:44 - 10:46If you've never heard of compersion,
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10:46 - 10:48it's because we in the poly community
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10:48 - 10:51made it up
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10:51 - 10:53about 40 years ago,
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10:53 - 10:56and we don't have a PR department.
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10:56 - 10:58But you've probably felt it.
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10:58 - 11:02Have you ever run into one of your friends
right after they've gotten engaged? -
11:02 - 11:07They are so excited,
all they can talk about is the ring, -
11:07 - 11:10and the surprise, and the plans,
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11:10 - 11:13and they've got this big
goofy smile on their face, -
11:13 - 11:15and you can't help
but get excited for them. -
11:16 - 11:18They see you getting excited for them,
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11:18 - 11:20so of course they get more excited
because you're excited, -
11:20 - 11:22you get excited because they are,
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11:22 - 11:23because you're -
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11:25 - 11:26that's compersion.
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11:26 - 11:28(Laughter)
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11:29 - 11:31Compersion works in a relationship context
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11:31 - 11:34by mentally shifting
competition into cooperation. -
11:34 - 11:37One of my best friends
is this guy named Sam. -
11:37 - 11:41My girlfriend and I a year ago
met Sam at a party, and not long after, -
11:41 - 11:43my girlfriend and Sam
started dating as well. -
11:44 - 11:48We have a made-up word for that too,
a metamour, your partner's partner. -
11:49 - 11:51Traditionally, your competition.
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11:52 - 11:54I could've pretended I wasn't jealous.
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11:54 - 11:55I was.
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11:55 - 11:58Or I could've just forced myself
to try to ignore it. -
11:58 - 12:01Instead, I invited Sam out to lunch.
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12:01 - 12:04Turns out, we had a lot more in common
than just our girlfriend. -
12:04 - 12:05He's a hell of a guy.
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12:05 - 12:06(Laughter)
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12:06 - 12:09No, really, we totally hit it off.
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12:09 - 12:12To this day, Sam and I
still meet for lunch every month. -
12:13 - 12:15I've learned that people
your partner's interested in -
12:15 - 12:16aren't your enemies.
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12:16 - 12:20You can be teammates working together,
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12:20 - 12:23strengthening existing relationships
while exploring new ones. -
12:23 - 12:26It's like game theory nirvana.
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12:26 - 12:28Everyone wins.
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12:29 - 12:34When this clicked for me, when I got this,
my jealousy just dissolved. -
12:35 - 12:39But that doesn't happen
without everyone being on the same page, -
12:39 - 12:43and that doesn't happen
without communication. -
12:46 - 12:49Effective communication means
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12:49 - 12:52sharing openly and honestly
and without shame. -
12:52 - 12:55It helps our partners
understand where we are, -
12:55 - 12:59and what we want out of a relationship,
and most people suck at it. -
12:59 - 13:01But it's probably not your fault.
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13:01 - 13:04We're not raised to risk
sharing what's actually on our minds, -
13:04 - 13:08and can you imagine
what first dates would sound like. -
13:08 - 13:12Even people who have been together
for years, still censor themselves. -
13:12 - 13:15When's the last time any of you
actually heard anyone say -
13:15 - 13:18any of these sentences to their partner:
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13:18 - 13:21"I think your boss is dreamy."
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13:21 - 13:24"I can't stand your mother."
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13:24 - 13:28Or: "Yes, those jeans
do make you look fat." -
13:29 - 13:33Poly people tend to be
pretty good communicators -
13:33 - 13:35because balancing so many relationships
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13:35 - 13:36we have to be.
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13:36 - 13:40I co-author an advice column
called 'Poly Wanna Answer?' -
13:40 - 13:42(Laughter)
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13:42 - 13:43It's not that funny.
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13:44 - 13:46Most of our questions
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13:46 - 13:49revolve around poor communication
or communication issues. -
13:50 - 13:52Whether or not you're poly,
I've got four steps -
13:52 - 13:55which may help each of you
improve your own communication. -
13:55 - 13:57The first step is: always take the time
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13:57 - 14:01to identify what is it
you really want and need, -
14:01 - 14:03which is harder than it sounds.
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14:03 - 14:07Step two: share those wants and needs
in ways that others understand. -
14:08 - 14:12Three: listen open-mindedly
to others' wants and needs. -
14:13 - 14:16And four: clarify agreements
and boundaries. -
14:16 - 14:19Basically, the overlaps
get you what you both want. -
14:19 - 14:21You can see which of your needs
aren't being met, -
14:21 - 14:25and you have a partner willing
to help you expand your comfort zones. -
14:25 - 14:27If you choose to partner
with additional people, -
14:27 - 14:31you can get more of your needs met
and safely explore more boundaries. -
14:31 - 14:34Understanding that this
can be both healthy and fulfilling, -
14:34 - 14:36is the key to polyamory.
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14:36 - 14:39Plus, I really love Venn diagrams.
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14:40 - 14:43When you combine
compersion and communication, -
14:43 - 14:44you build community.
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14:44 - 14:50In the poly community we talk openly
about things like sex, emotions, fears. -
14:51 - 14:55It's scary to be vulnerable, especially
when we're so socialized against it, -
14:55 - 14:58but with the support
of community and safe space, -
14:58 - 15:00problems don't have to be secrets.
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15:00 - 15:03Since discovering the poly community,
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15:03 - 15:06I've literally met
thousands of poly people -
15:06 - 15:10of every race, color,
religion, gender, orientation, -
15:10 - 15:13sexual identity and tax bracket,
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15:13 - 15:17including several I'd known all along
but had no idea they were poly. -
15:19 - 15:24Community helped me realize
I was always polyamorous, -
15:24 - 15:27I just never had a word for it.
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15:27 - 15:29For the first time I wasn't a freak
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15:29 - 15:32for wanting love but not feeling
fulfilled by monogamy. -
15:32 - 15:35Being part of this community
has allowed me to mentor others, -
15:35 - 15:37even as I continue to learn myself.
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15:37 - 15:40The very first publicly polyamorous house
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15:40 - 15:43opened in New York City right here
in Bushwick, a few blocks away, -
15:43 - 15:46and I was one of the organizers
that helped create it. -
15:47 - 15:49Finally, understanding and accepting
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15:49 - 15:52that one partner doesn't
have to meet all our needs, -
15:52 - 15:56means that people can
fit in our lives naturally, -
15:56 - 16:00without pressure to force or label them
into something they're not, -
16:00 - 16:05and rather than disconnect from them
because something doesn't work, -
16:05 - 16:09we can stay connected
because of all the things that do. -
16:09 - 16:11Something to think about,
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16:11 - 16:14people confuse sex and love
all the time, it's axiomatic. -
16:14 - 16:16We assume one implies the other,
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16:16 - 16:19and while it's true that sex
can make love stronger, -
16:19 - 16:21and love can make sex better,
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16:21 - 16:22they can also be independent.
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16:22 - 16:23Assuming otherwise,
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16:23 - 16:26like most assumptions, can cause problems.
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16:26 - 16:28But what's less understood is this:
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16:28 - 16:31people also confuse love
with compatibility. -
16:32 - 16:34Compatible partners are those we match
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16:34 - 16:36when we're being
the truest versions of ourselves, -
16:36 - 16:38and who share our goals for the future.
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16:38 - 16:42Incompatible people
fall in love all the time. -
16:42 - 16:46If we as a society persist
in the romantic but false assumption -
16:46 - 16:50that love conquers all,
and we just need to try harder, -
16:50 - 16:54then we're all going to wind up
with more of these statistics. -
16:55 - 16:57Do you know what these numbers tell me?
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16:57 - 17:01That an incredible number of people
are unhappy with their relationship. -
17:01 - 17:04This doesn't mean
they don't love their partners, -
17:04 - 17:07it means they're not getting
what they want or need. -
17:07 - 17:09Self denial might make you a better monk,
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17:09 - 17:12but outside the monastery
it's a pretty horrible way to live. -
17:12 - 17:16Knowing what I know now, I couldn't do it.
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17:16 - 17:19My solution, love!
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17:19 - 17:21Wildly with reckless abandon,
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17:21 - 17:23don't treat love
like a prize with one winner. -
17:24 - 17:25Love the people in your life,
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17:25 - 17:29be open to loving the people you meet
in whatever ways make sense, -
17:29 - 17:30you won't run out.
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17:30 - 17:35Saying I love you and meaning it
is one of lives greatest pleasures. -
17:35 - 17:37If you choose life partners,
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17:37 - 17:40choose compatible ones
who want the life that you want. -
17:40 - 17:43I volunteer here in New York
with a group called Open Love, -
17:43 - 17:47and we have monthly discussion groups
at which I heard this great analogy. -
17:47 - 17:50We're all sailing individual boats
down the river of time, -
17:50 - 17:53some sail close to shore,
some adventure further out. -
17:53 - 17:57When we meet a life partner,
we lash our boats together for stability, -
17:57 - 17:59and spend the rest
of our journeys together. -
17:59 - 18:02But the best life partners
are those who travel with you -
18:02 - 18:05because they want to,
not because they're tied to you. -
18:05 - 18:09What I would like to leave you with
is this little acronym. -
18:10 - 18:11It tells me -
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18:11 - 18:13(Laughter)
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18:13 - 18:16You should see it before we shortened it.
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18:17 - 18:21It tells me that polyamory
versus monogamy is no competition. -
18:22 - 18:27Clearly the best relationship structure
is the one that works for you. -
18:27 - 18:32My thing is not your thing,
but your thing is OK. -
18:32 - 18:34It doesn't matter what your thing is,
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18:34 - 18:37but it's your responsibility to choose it.
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18:37 - 18:41So, what do each of you
really want and need? -
18:41 - 18:42Good luck.
- Title:
- Polyamory | Leon Feingold | TEDxBushwick
- Description:
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This talk was given at a local TEDx event, produced independently of the TED Conferences.
Polyamorous relationships consist of individuals of multi-partner relationships and families. Leon offers an insight through his journey in finding polyamory as the means to creating intimate, valuable relationships with multiple people. Through his journey and explanation, Leon debunks myths and presents the values of polyamory.
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 19:01
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