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It all happened because of me.
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I can't forgive myself,
even though you forgave me, Fatmagül.
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That night...
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If I had not pointed you out to them that night...
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... if I hadn't held you while you were running...
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... If I had not touched you first,
none of those would have happened.
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That night wouldn't have been lived.
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I said "Look man, it's that girl!"
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I said "that girl".
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If I hadn't held you and shown you to them...
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... nothing would have happened that night.
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And if I hadn't left home at that hour,
if I hadn't passed before you...
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... none of those would have happened.
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There's a lot of ifs and *would haves*...
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You think I've never thought about those?
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If I had not went to that engagement night...
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If I had not walked the sheep...
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If I had not been born and alive, even...
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You did nothing wrong.
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We can't go back in time.
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We left *would haves, could have*s far behind.
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What we've been through
had nothing to do with you Fatmagül.
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You're the only one innocent in this story.
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I changed your life.
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I didn't let you just go by.
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I didn't stop them.
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It's like a fireplace inside of me, Fatmagül...
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... burning like Hell.
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Trying to forget it makes me feel shameless.
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Oh God... I was so scared of this night to come...
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... so scared of making you
relive that night.
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I know you put so much effort... to forget...
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... but it's not as it looks.
It's easier said than done.
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I just can't get that night out of my mind.
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Don't forget it, then.
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Forgive yourself.
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No matter what I do,
I can't relieve myself of that pain.
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We will do it together.
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Do you remember,
that one night you told me...
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... how you wished it was over...
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... and how you wanted it to end.
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I want it, too.
I want it to end.
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I want it to end.
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One day it will.
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Let it end.
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Go get some rest.
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Talking felt good...
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... like cleaning the chimney...
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I love you so much.
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I love you so much, too.
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We will heal...
