The Self Is Not Somebody

Zmar Silent Retreat

Be What You Were
Before You Were Born

23 May 2015, Session 1
(with subtitles)

The Self is not Somebody

[Questioner] I wanted to ask a question

and suddenly I experienced a blackout.

A black something covered me
and I was completely lost.

I have such a clear mind,
what I want, focus, everything, and this ...

[Mooji] OK. I hope you are all listening,
actually,

because sometimes people come
and then the mind says,

'OK, I will just wait until it is my turn'.

You are not to do that.
Everything is your turn:

every person who comes,
every thing that comes.

What you are sharing is very important also.

Now, what I want to say ...

You experienced yesterday that
almost like a dark cloud came

and it completely blocked out your energy.

What you wanted to ask you could not ask.
You could not ask.

So it seemed very strong.

But if you have been following my pointing,

you will see even that is also phenomenal.
Even that is phenomenal.

And even the urge to ask a question
is also phenomenal.

Because behind this is a space
which doesn't need any question.

First, if a question is really strong,

it means that there is some identity there,

that needs to ask this question
in order to empty itself

and then come into no identity.

That is the best kind of question.

If you have identity and you bring your question,

then when the question is heard in the heart,

it must reduce or discard the identity

and bring you again into the silence of being.

So even this effect ...

Because some people ...
It reminds me just now,

some people wake up in the morning

and they feel like some power
is holding them on the bed.

Like they can't move. They can't even turn.

Like there is some power which cuts your ability,
you can't do anything.

And they are just there.

And then panic comes.

The mind starts to go very strong, like,

'What if nobody comes and then I ...?'

Or, 'What if they think I am dead?
But I am very alive.

I just can't do anything.

And then they are going to take me
to the fire place.'

Whatever. These things happen.

The mind has many ways,

in which it can [mimics fear]
frighten the person or the self-image.

But you are being asked here
to do something very unique.

Not many people are practicing
or looking like this, deeply.

You are asked to stay in your being.

Because your being doesn't have anything over it.

Only your identity, mind, person,
these have something over it.

So you go again and just be in the place.

A big cloud comes. It is OK.

It is also just another experience. It will pass.

It is like this. You stay.

If something says, 'No! What is happening?

Why is this thing ...? Who is doing this to me?'

Then it has brought you ...
I really want to convey this.

It is really very important!

Because the minute
you get back into your reaction,

you get back into your person.

Please listen to what I am speaking.

Then you ask, 'Oh, why is this happening?'

'I'm sure it's that one, it's that man!'
Or, 'This thing, it's my chance!'

And already something has arisen
and you are aroused.

Or your own identity stirs up.

And behind this,
I am using the word 'behind' now,

is the untouched place.

But now the excitement,
the intention and the frustration

have brought you into another state.

They have brought you out, so to speak,

into the place of this [mimics frustration].

And now this thing becomes another reason
to stay out and to fight

in the mode of being somebody.

But the Self is not somebody!

All your life, or lifetimes,
you have been distracted from your Self,

to fight battles which are not necessary,

to become angry and frustrated

and to somehow have a sense of separation
from your essential being.

Because something [mimics getting distracted].
The person again!

As long as you are the person,
you are in business with the ego mind.

All Your Life or Lifetimes
You Have Been Distracted from Your Self

As Long As You Are a Person,
You are in Business with the Ego Mind

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