Changing Our Life with the Seasons

So it's an interesting time, obviously,
that we're living in. And some people say

well that's probably been said
throughout history, but no it

hasn't always been interesting. Sometimes
things are kind of status quo and so

on, but it's an interesting time. And as a
spiritual teacher, especially one that,

really my focus is all about Christ
consciousness, and it's always been, thank

God. I've dug that and
lifetime's of that. I mean I just

understand that getting back to God
is the essential just a direct

connection with God and it doesn't mean
don't listen to a teacher don't read a

book don't it just all of it needs to
get us closer to God everything else is

just kind of a waste of time really and
mystics of trying to explain that and so

on didn't and you know and but not
everybody wants to listen to the Mystics

of past because they were so serious
about their work that it seems like well

they're so serious they're so connected
it seems distanced from us the average

person but the time we live in
all veils are falling apart but when

veils fall apart people freak out at
first look at the way bugs react when

you pull the rock off of their home you
know like they'll just freak so that's

what happens when people start to look
at their addictions it's like oh yeah I

didn't want to look at that or you know
hey let's look at your relationship oh

no you know everybody you know it's like
when the lights come up at the end of

the evening in a bar everybody oh my god
I was about to go home with you you know

like what was I thinking you know in it
and the same happens with spirituality

oh you know have you read that you've
got to read this book this is really and

then you you find out you know the the
the the author is a nutcase like

everybody else on the planet they have
problems you know one minute you're

going this person they such peace and
tranquility this book is really moving

me and then you see some website and
they're on there going I hate the

politicians up too you know and they're
like totally different

one minute peace love you know peace
love Bobby Sherman you know and the next

minute and then we used to say that in
high school I don't know why

Peace Love and Bobby Sherman you know
but anyway and yet the teachers in their

day-to-day lives you find out they do
freak outs you know on the internet

because somebody won an election
somebody lost it and everybody's nuts

back to hatred and and I watch this and
I just think please take me home just

country roads take me home you know beam
me up or something because this place is

just the asylum of the universe you know
earth you know and Jesus and the

apostles if you can make it here you can
make it anywhere Friday though

No so so it's just such a strange place
and there's people that isolate no we're

specially strange we're we're especially
depress it being on earth is depressing

it's because if this isn't we're not in
Kansas anymore Dorothy you know toto

there's there's a problem and those who
get an idea that there's a problem

either crash take their own lives go
into depression I don't blame them at

all this place is really messed up and
then the others another group they just

choose to wake up the Buddha's and so
forth that just go wait there's

something something wrong with this
picture

and I I think it's amazing but to see
that there's something wrong and still

survive that's really unique because
it's so easy to want to dissociate from

such a messed-up place it's so easy to
just want to drift off and dissociate

you're in a relationship but you're
drifted you know and people are in

relationships that are not really into
they go to jobs and everybody becomes

automotives you know it's just like make
just barely making it through they have

to have the drink and we wonder you know
addictions why they're so rampant

because the world is like a Course in
Miracles says because of the pain that

kind of cries out from this world that
we are creating but do not want so even

though this is being this is happening
this world is being created there's a

part of us that gets it and doesn't like
this world and that's called conflict so

we have anxiety disorders but don't talk
about it just take this and then you

take that you know and look what the
stuff does to you may may cause

blindness and arms to pop off you know
it's like

they have these little things ads at the
end of it you know and they show people

looking happy to distract you yeah I now
take this I'm happier you know and that

they have these comments you know Wow
you know and and people still do it

because we live in this strange asylum
and God on the other hand is holding

this perfect vision of us the same as
chaplains are supposed to hold a vision

and parents are supposed to hold a
vision that despite the way things look

somehow everything's okay really have
you looked lately seriously I used to be

able to believe that but this is
especially messed up this time God

unfazed you are and remain as I created
you perfect light when we say that we're

great as God created us we don't mean
some people will go yes you know I just

love you as you are we don't mean that
kind of placating I'm gonna be patient

with you even though you're messed up
and I'm gonna love you anyway that's a

human interpretation God doesn't
actually see all this stuff that we try

to love each other for I'm gonna love
you even though you're ill God sees no

illness I'm gonna love you even though
you're angry sad God doesn't even see

any of that in us there is a light that
is unmoved by any of it there is a

perfect light of God centered in our
being it has no colour no gender no age

it's incapable of anything that humans
themselves experienced now we can we can

go that sounds really beautiful it is
beautiful but people are so identified

with their interpretations of themselves
it's quite distracting but quite

inconvenient for people to be asked to
let go of their interpretations of

themselves you can say you know Lord I
get it I have this dysfunction I would

like you to take it from me what we
don't know is unconsciously

subconsciously we have this list of
conditions take this from me but make

sure it fits within this and that could
be take this a dick

but don't take my friends but your
friends are all addicts and they keep

giving you your addiction no don't you
know find another way don't let me and

don't let this happen and I help my
relationship but make sure they don't

leave I don't want to be alone there's
all these fear-based projections that we

put out there and gods like wow you know
you guys are just strange

you're asking for help and you counter
it with your own answers and limitations

so how much help do you really want so
in a sense at first God might have been

how can I help and people say God the
people of Israel they used to commune

with God I mean Melchizedek or Abraham
look at these communications they had

what happened well here's what happened
by the time somebody asks for something

they already have a list of reasons to
not have it so God doesn't even have to

listen anymore I'm not saying literally
God just sits back and says well I'll

just wait to you people make up your
mind because you want and then you don't

want
it's about slit 9 I be single when you

really know who you are and what you're
looking for fine let me know but I'll

wait for you to get over your bipolar
behaviors you go up and you go down and

you are all around just what do you want
well I want this but I want to encounter

encounter encounter we're moving into an
auspicious time of the year the end of

the year and it's symbolic of endings
now is a really good time to start

evaluating your life so we come upon and
I think it's so amazing that mankind

happens to have created things the way
there are right now you know in terms of

the holidays so you come upon Halloween
now is the time to look at the ghosts in

the closet that you have all of your
ghost skeletons in the closet the ghosts

all the creepy things under the bed and
wherever else you may have them in the

head obviously find all the creepy
things let all the ghouls and goblins

out stop dating them by the way but
let all the ghouls and goblins out why

because you're gonna move into
Thanksgiving but don't move into

Thanksgiving and not own the things that
you're not so grateful for the things

that are skeletons in the closet all the
ghosts get all the ghouls and got come

on bring them out you know we got to be
careful look at Halloween it's all you

know the freakin freaky outfits and all
that that's not a holiday it's us it's a

mirror of ourselves there's a scary out
that there's a creepy this there's a and

they're all parts of ourselves there's
nothing outside of us everything is a

reflection it's a hologram of our inner
self and so okay got it

we go out on Halloween well wow that's
that's not me that no way it's all us

they all reflects part they reflect
parts of us scary outfits rip could

represent our fears and what
intimidating outfits can represent old

father issues or whatever there's all
these things and they're magnified but

this whole world magnifies things that's
what it does it magnifies and people say

I don't like this happening or that
happening it's really kind of a bummer

because the way the ego has veiled our
eyes the way it has obscured our ability

to see keeps people from waking up but
if we could really see there's an

entirely different experience waiting
and people would start taking more

responsibility they would not just
because the heavy burden of

responsibility that's one level that
people are intimidated at but I'm

talking about really getting it and
going okay wait this whole thing is a

hologram and if I asked you folks right
here is there an issue that you're

struggling with that you know you work
on it it still keeps appearing or have

you had anything happen this year that
surprised you it showed up you didn't

know you know that you still had that
much fear anger whatever it is you know

probably the last election would have
you know freaked out some people to look

at how much they've still had stuff to
react to don't be afraid of that and

don't blame politicians it brought your
stuff up that's a good thing to be

grateful for know people
usually say that I gotta send a card to

people who trigger me you know it's it
is Christmas after all you know that's

not usually the way people are
processing you know they look at you

know they scratch names you know they're
not getting a card this year you should

send them to you know but but at the
same time this world is a hologram but

it's not just a hologram it's a
magnified hologram which means the stuff

that you're frustrated with you're still
dealing with there's you know that

person showed up and oh my god they
triggermen I can't believe how much I

reacted to the election I can't believe
how much I react to this post that went

online or whatever it happens to be you
get upset but the truth is you should

you should be a little shocked and you
should be a little dismayed only in the

sense that you catch on and go oh that
was a good one wow that caught me off

guard
that's all just own it sit back and go

wow that while that was snuck up on me
good one okay but you can say and I

can't believe that that I reacted that
much to that thing but but the thing is

it was a huge issue this was so and so
coming back into my life and I never

wanted to see them again but the good
news is that every one of these triggers

that still gets you is a magnifying
glass they're not actually as profoundly

huge of an issue as you think they are
you can have one little speck and

quantum science has proven this one
little speck of an issue when light is

beamed through it on a screen still
looks huge one little frame of film when

you shoot light through it through a
projector onto the screen still fills

the screen and what happens is we look
at the screen of life and go oh my god

this issue of mine spirits going oh man
you almost got it it was only this big

honey it was only this big and you
allowed the look of it the appearance

which is why mystics and
masters throughout time on every

continent have said stop believing what
your eyes tell you well I have to there

it is
and yet it's all it is is a psychosis

all of us it's a psychosis you think
you're seeing something that's not even

there if first of all it's a screen no
it's not it's real it's three dimension

just because it's three dimensional
doesn't mean it's not a screen it's a

three dimensional screen and it's
projecting out for you to see these

little issues that aren't really big
you're much bigger than them

no I'm this big and the screen is that
big you're judging things by the

illusion that they project to you poor
thing and then you die and you get to

the other side and you go oh I kill
you're kidding me I should have got that

you know and then you're like okay okay
send me back in seriously send me back

in you can give me the same parents and
everything and that one major jerk I'm

gonna marry them I'm gonna marry them
I'm going in I'm ready to work on all my

issues you know and then you start going
and you're like I'm totally ready you

know totally ready headfirst you know
and you're going into this you're going

in you're supposed to be going in
crowning headfirst and then as it's

happening they start going by the way
you won't remember any of this

flip feet first on the pelvis no no I'm
not going there like

we got to get the baby reversed I'm not
going no you didn't tell me that I'm

gonna forget amnesia and then we come in
and just you know crying upset scared

and oh poor thing but that's this world
because it's an illusion

it really doesn't have power and I know
that some of the projections are very

they're just terrible
in this dimension they're terrible the

things we say the things we do to each
other are absolutely ludicrous

however they actually don't have power
over us it's still a screen you're

allowed to sit in the theater screaming
screaming you're loud you're allowed to

be terrified you're allowed to shake
you're allowed to oh my god you know and

have all those reactions in the theater
you're allowed to oh look at love scenes

and oh I wish that were me you're
allowed to respond is our free will but

it's still a screen the person on the
screen doesn't hold your heart like you

think they do the person on the screen
doesn't have power to actually creep up

on you and hurt you the way you think
the response is just an illusion

so the Mystics are saying you got to
learn to see this for what it really is

so throughout history people have tried
to see it some you know mystics they've

worked on it they saw it in some had
epiphanies and so on it's on males

females throughout history and all
continents however there's also a person

Jesus said I completely woke up I didn't
wake up just regionally racially

nationally I woke up universally I am
God now I'm one with God what what once

was done through mythologies there once
was a man you know this God and he came

from Olympus and what was once a
mythology he actually came in and lived

it he completely woke up and he says and
I'm a part of you and you're a part of

me which means if I woke up part of you
woke up so now instead of your ego only

projecting through slides fear-based
stuff ego based stuff you know

separation from God
from each other onto the screen and

letting it manifest in ways that terrify
you what I'm gonna do is let you know

there's also now a slide inside called
Christ consciousness start letting your

consciousness light shoot through that
slide onto the screen and it'll change

your life
Christians call it accepting Jesus as

their Savior but it becomes just lip
service rather than consciousness it's

got to become a consciousness so you
know this is essentially Jesus is the

embodiment not just of a consciousness
of awakening

he's also the embodiment of what we call
the Holy Spirit the Holy Spirit is the

Divine Mother so one of the things that
Jesus demonstrates and as we're moving

into the holidays going towards
Christmas that's the birthing of Christ

it's time for you and I to birth the
Christ again or is it just another

Christmas on another year in another
lifetime and we'll just keep doing this

forever
don't lose the significance of this you

can birth the Christ any second of any
day but definitely as a personal ritual

do not be sleeping when we go through
this this time let this holiday season

get out all the ghosts and goblins now
talk it out get you get do your

inventory all the freaky stuff all the
shames all the duckies pieces and the

addictions even the hatreds and angers
get it put it on paper there are some

things I don't want to think about or
note you already do you just don't want

to see it but that doesn't make it go
away get it out get it out and we think

we've been programmed to believe that
those things are so scary we should hide

them and the egos going yes because if
you hide them they're just tapes and

films inside of our consciousness that
on a convenient moment the ego will

flash up onto the screen put a lighter
and boom oh there's that and then we

react to it when you react to it it
becomes real to you and then it you

better hide it again and so we live in
this constant cycling of fear and

all of us the real us the spirit in us
and heaven itself is waiting for

somebody to do it differently and say
hold it wait despite what I think I see

I'm ready to see things through God's
eyes I'm ready to experience and live

through God's eyes and how do you do
that oh you got you gotta make sure you

you know sit down and and use X amount
of hours of meditation per day you know

own money PUD me and boom Shakalaka and
so on and so on you know on one foot you

know eyes to the center of the head and
and and you know and on the other side

they're like wow you know and Jesus is
like good and gods like I know yours

letter I'm not going to do that again I
know

give it time you know I think sometimes
of the Apostles on the you know picture

the Apostles on the other side just
going you know we got it

you know we devoted to this thing you
know you guys you know too bad and you

know you just imagine them making faces
on the other side and then Jesus for

jokes would part the veil you know open
the veil between two worlds just as the

Apostles are on the other side you know
and then they got it look all series you

know don't do that Jesus what's wrong
with you so Halloween get all the stuff

out get all the stuff out because it's
it's not actually like we were told

confession confess your sins okay your
father who has more sense than I I would

like to confess I would like to confess
my sinfulness and everybody keeps all

these secrets just stop that's not God
there's no there's no person that's

better than you that you let him out -
everybody's got stuff but not everybody

does this and says Here I am
you know this great statement Yogananda

just stand there and open it up and say
Here I am

and expose it all like here I am and and
when you do the light shines on it when

light shines there's just no dark
the light doesn't actually like you

don't start sizzling like in a sci-fi
movie you know Here I am God you know

and I'm melting it doesn't happen like
that you just go boom and all of a

sudden there's no darkness I was I was
hiding these naughty thoughts Oh where'd

they go it really can be effortless but
we've been designed to be afraid of

light more than darkness Halloween the
creepy things man and they do freak us

out and they are intimidating but only
because we have hidden stuff when people

know like you watch a horror movie if
you were the director or the cameraman

or whatever in a film the scariest
horror movie you know you'd be like you

know watching through the camera
directing because it's makeup it's just

a game watch the movie and you know I
mean people watch jaws and they couldn't

go in swimming pools as though there was
actually a giant shark that's navigating

the pipes of you're swimming and in that
day you knew it was coming to your

swimming pool I mean there were people
afraid to go in water swimming pool I

mean think about it but it was an
archetype in the movie that's being

accessed it's a it's a collective belief
system and then that music

and and then that's this world it's just
a game it's just an illusion but if you

realize you're the director and you take
responsibility and say there cannot be

any monsters other than the ones that I
allow and they don't have power unless I

allow it so Jesus was trying to explain
2,000 years ago imagine this 2,000 years

ago
- you know and a few hundred years

before Lao Tzu Buddha you know Socrates
Pythagoras Plato Jesus I mean what an

amazing time and they all left us with
consciousness get it and Jesus above all

I got it completely so come on guys get
it and people are afraid to go on a

swimming pool because a shark which
doesn't usually find itself attracted to

chlorinated water is gonna make it
through your pipes into your swimming

pool there's something wrong with people
and and it's we have fears that we don't

want to own so look at them now during
this season and then you can say okay

and also the bidding farewell to the
dead what it what can I learn from this

what can I learn from this ghost from
this death this divorce this ending of a

job they're all deaths now Halloween
time to their ghosts to the deaths to my

fears and whatever all of it I get it
and bid farewell All Saints Day bid

farewell be prepared because when I bid
farewell

I'm cleaner clearer and I have new
epiphanies I have new epiphanies because

I made room for new epiphanies I'm not
obsessed on only my stuff what else

might happen in fears and whatever no I
feel clearer when I make space all of a

sudden new things start coming in
particularly based on the stuff I let go

of my divorce my this and loss of a job
Thanksgiving is now time to say thank

you for what I learned from these
experiences and don't let pseudo

spiritualty
Jers talked you into you need to be

grateful for everything yeah but I was
abused well you know we don't understand

those things so just give thanks no no
never give a gratitude never give thanks

for the Holocaust or slavery or people
abusing you well but but you know it

brought me to where I am today no it
didn't well who taught you that there's

people out there that you're actually
gonna tell them you know see without

oppression or abuse you would not be who
you are today who told you that God

created you as part of God what makes
you think you have to go through hell to

get to heaven there is also just heaven
just to have heaven now I'll get there

in a minute I got to go through hell
first it doesn't make any sense but

that's people for you so don't give
thanks for hurt hurtfulness give thanks

for what you learned from it that's all
you need to do this wasn't very cool but

what did I get Oh got it
thank you what you learned that's

empowering don't give thanks for hurtful
behaviors then you're saying and

affirming we need that I grew thanks to
that my parents are you know what

whomever we're completely messed up and
abusive but I'm gonna give thanks for

that it's another way that the egos
getting us to lock in the value of

hurtfulness and there is no value none
because in God there is no hurtfulness

and all I care about is God bid farewell
thank you what I learned now I don't

mean in a judgmental like I learned not
to trust men that that's not a thing you

want to give thanks for some negative
it's I learned that I really have more

value than I thought I learned that I
don't need to be dependent on a drug I

you know what I learned
talked about you responsibly that's

Thanksgiving and we're just about there
Thanksgiving get out the ghouls and

goblins do all that then give thanks
which you learned from what died

who and what is died has died or is
dying give thanks for what you learned

from that and from them but give them
value that they don't even sometimes

know that they have and then
Thanksgiving right cool now now that

I've given thanks for what I've learned
I'm really open and clear for what to be

birthed into a new life Christ
consciousness it doesn't even matter if

you believe in Christmas choose a
different day do what you need to do but

allow the Christ to be birthed and when
the Christ is birthed it's not marry a

woman a girl giving birth to a baby it's
the Holy Spirit of God which is the

Divine Mother not just married the
divine mother giving birth not to just

Jesus but Christ in you and you
celebrate that and then you go that's it

so the whole tree and the gifts under
the tree those are the gifts of God and

when it's I'm gonna get Christmas
presents its presence consciousness

Christmas Christ's presence did you get
any Christmas gifts no I got Christ

presence
whoa cool yeah birthing the new me this

is great you know and I'm not saying you
have to pronounce it I'm not saying you

have to you know go to your family for
Christmas and walk in ago a

I know you were expecting your relative
but it just so happens I was on the

Christ you know I don't think they're
gonna like that although although in

their own way my family got it about
half of one percent facetiously you know

my dad would say is the Anointed One
coming for Christmas this year

I sent back a message heal thyself you
know but it's true he used to say that

but but then I would arrive and you'd
say would you do that weird stuff you do

because I have some neck issues you know
would you no no you know it's always

tempting to say things like that yeah so
Christmas and then what do you think the

point of that is to start a new year
guys I meaning any of us I don't want

next year to look like this year and I
don't want my next relationship to look

like yesterday's and I'm parenting
finances all categories and what we do

is we approach it some of us just
blindly move into the next year

expecting it to be different doing
nothing different but expecting it to be

different that's the majority of the
human race there's a small minority that

say wait I'm gonna do a new year's
resolution and then not keep it but

they'll get at least some inkling of a
new year's resolution prepared for

possibly having a new life and it
doesn't work out really very few and it

can be all of us in this room and
watching online

very few choose to say I get it I'm not
gonna just gratuitously say I'm gonna

have a new year if I get a new calendar
it's gonna change my life because it'll

be a whole new year having a new
calendar with a new year on it

doesn't change your life what are you
doing every January every December for

many many years now you know I invite if
people want to come by friends they want

to come over but what we're doing is
making the list of what we're letting go

of this year I got ambitious and did it
last month I was so looking forward to

letting go of certain things that were
stuck blocked dead you know that were

that I was still trying to resuscitate
you know and it's just there's a point

where you know you got to go this job if
I don't let it go it's gonna let go of

me I'm still doing CPR in a relationship
you know blue come on you can do it and

they're they're dead it's just a corpse
of a relationship and you're still

trying to do CPR rigor mortis is setting
you're still doing CPR you got to own it

this this is dead this is gone there's
family members that don't want to talk

to you and you even trying to be loving
they just get more irritated you better

just say I'm gonna let that go this
world is not our home but we can

experience home here there are people
that that are free that are imprisoned

in their mind and they still complain
all the time oppression and duality and

fight fight fight everything's a problem
you got to watch for you got to speak up

for yourself you got to you know and
there's a lot of that in the world women

ought to do watch out and fight and that
wasn't Jesus that wasn't loud - that

wasn't mother Teresa it wasn't anybody
that was ever actually enlightened

telling you to start fighting things
resist not evil but what about the you

know in taxes and Jesus said you're here
and if you have taxes paid the dang

things and don't let it affect you play
the game but what if you have a cold

sleep rest you should fight that cold
you should show it that your boss then

there's an it that you're fighting learn
to demonstrate to this world as you go

into a new year this coming year man I'm
not gonna be the reactive one I'm not

going to deny that I feel reactions but
look at them and I'll give them to God

because I want my problems to go up to
God I want my reactions to go to God I

want all my beliefs to go to God and not
just give them up replace them with

something new
God how would you have me see this and

you don't always get cured from it
you're asking God not to rescue you from

your problems
dear Jesus and all the Apostles and

saints in heaven please change the
politicians please fix the church and so

on they don't hear them they can't hear
any of that because you're asking him to

fix something that's our own projections
they're instead saying why don't you ask

about changing your heart how you see
these things would you be willing and

courageous enough to go there would you
ask us to change how you see things

rather than the things you you see
because that's consciousness the screen

why would you ask us to change the
screen stopped rejecting onto the screen

and it'll be clear so why don't we deal
with the guy in the projector room who's

choosing horror movies let's change your
consciousness so use this holiday season

auspicious time use it for changing
consciousness don't just do it again and

you might forget tomorrow what you're
hearing today I would get a calendar out

and write it in there I would make it a
program I'm going to what but you know

prepare for the launch of a new year how
oh I don't know I'm just gonna sit here

and wait for it no that's not mastery
what are you gonna do you better let the

old die before you expect a new to come
in and the more room you make the more

room that'll be filled fill you'll be
changed more by letting more go it's

very proportionate how much you willing
to let go of and I don't mean you just

go out there and just strip everything
down like for the heck of it I'm talking

about picking evaluation what is dead
dying not working what is not resonating

with joy what would you like in the next
year oh god I would love and come up

with a mantra your love and self-worth
peace and happiness whatever you like

find the words that most symbolize God
to you and be prepared to Korea

how first by making a list of what
doesn't resonate with it what is not

joyous what's your word gonna be peace
happiness with those work for any of you

guys peace joy happiness great
so before you expect those I just wish I

had more peace and happiness you know I
have a partner and they're not into

peace and happiness I wish they were in
I wish we had a president it was in

peace and happiness forget it you find
out what's in your life that's not

resonating with peace and happiness and
start thinking about why it's there and

what you can do to say goodbye to it and
what's your emotions about saying

goodbye to it because even if you can
flippantly just get rid of it you still

weren't in touch with the process get in
touch make it a conscious ritual a

conscious ceremony make your list and
start saying goodbye to things I made a

list of a couple dozen things I did it
last month and 20 of them were gone in

hours or days 20 for me that was big man
20 cuz I don't have that much extraneous

stuff in my life but I found I came up

with
let's just go nuts let's just write

anything people everything bow on my
list and and you think you know okay

goodbye
okay wait no I'm gonna write each one on

a piece of paper light it put it in a
burning bowl so that it's more conscious

and set up by good bye good bye good bye
just you know conscious let me put each

one on a piece of paper found a little
piece of paper and wrote one at a time

and you go okay and I'm gonna do this
consciousness with consciousness so I

light one and into the bowl you know and
so on right and it kind of went nicely

but what I use were post it's so it was
kind of ironic as I'm dropping each

thing that I'm ready to release and it
was sticking to my finger

well it was worse as they were on fire I
swear to God

I'm like no yeah yeah and then what do
you do oh my gosh that's terrible but if

you laugh isn't that funny man I'm ready
to let go stuff and it's sticking dads

great you laugh at it see it for what it
is and let go of that you can even write

on another piece of sticky notes you
know and that you learn from that even

as I go to release things look how they
try to stick not today and burn not I

see it I see the game don't turn it into
a judgment say goodbye so all of these

things using the holidays to say goodbye
get conscious for this holiday season

things that are not resonating things
that are not working I know some of you

have driven hours and hours to get here
to hear this and watch this today and

god bless you for that because it
demonstrates your commitment to

awakening some of you could live next
door in come here it still could mean

there's a real commitment I wanted to
hear this today and if you heard there's

this talk going on today it's not an
accident you're in this room even if you

think this was the lamest talk I've ever
heard you know what there's also a part

of you that said yeah but we dragged you
here because you're supposed to hear

this
you can stay unconscious and say nah but

you're not gonna wake up but part of you
wants you to wake up and that's why it

got you here so look at that part look
at the the whiny frustrated annoyed part

that doesn't like the top look at it
what's that about well this is expecting

me to give up all programs these are all
these are 15th generation rude I'm not

letting this go what's worth looking at
look at it all guys and let it die it's

not too late even though Halloween's
gone just do it you could do it next

June if you want but we're in an
auspicious time but also because more of

us today we heard uh several of us are
hearing this we can do it as a group not

necessarily in the same room but the
more of us that do things like this as a

way that creates a wave a wave instead
of a pebble it's a boulder going in the

water
create

waves to the world so that we're saying
to people and you can put it on your own

little online things and you're gonna
find new people that don't like you if

you say you know I'm just about not
reacting to the stuff anymore

how dare you I thought you were part of
our hate groups we don't like you okay

wait let me get you on my list of things
to say goodbye to you know adios bye and

don't sweat it but that was one of my
friends and I there were old friends and

long-term friend go ahead get it out cry
but you know go ahead get it all out

you're afraid and now you've got rid of
somebody that you know was an old friend

or they were a family friend or all this
connection we have past lives together

you should let go of them then to get it
all out and when you're done cry if you

need to and scream into a pillow if you
need to but at the end the truth is

still the truth what do you want if you
want next year your keyword to be

annoyed there are people that fit into
that but if you say you want peace and

happiness don't be a hypocrite hypocrite
don't say you want peace and happiness

and then not live it I want to have
peace and happiness great what does it

look like and then start living it
people jobs things that don't resonate I

don't mean put in notice on Monday
tomorrow Monday I'm saying put in notice

in here and if you think it's gonna take
you a little while there's one last

thing I want to share if you think it's
gonna take you a while you better do

this give me a minute because as soon as
you start doing things with more

consciousness things start happening so
if you start to go I recognize I really

don't like this this this relationship
has a problem go and take it to the

person and say would you like to join me
in healing this relationship don't give

up on it necessarily but see if there's
gonna be some work see if anybody wants

to join you friends that say no thanks
partners that say no thanks your kids

that say no thanks your parents that say
no thanks your ego that says no thanks

see you later I mean that's fine bid
farewell you can be sad about that and

angry about that but there's a new life
waiting so Lazarus get up no what are

you gonna
I'm Deb I'm in the tune what do you mean

you're dead get up Lazarus and you got
to say that to yourself knock it off

get up no I want to stay in pain get up
you're allowed to stay dead when you get

crucified in this world but you are
asked to resurrect it is an option

resurrection coming out of the dark
night of the soul

that's resurrection resurrection coming
you know out of the tomb

that's resurrection out of a
relationship out of a divorce with new

hope that's all resurrection and if all
you do is talk about yesterday and what

people did to you or religious
oppression racial oppression gender

oppression you're actually still
affirming oppression or whatever the

word might be for you anger hurt sadness
you're still you're still that you are

that thing that's okay but that's called
crucifixion I think I'm ready to be part

of the resurrection not sure exactly
what that looks like but I I get an idea

it feels pretty good I'm ready to live
again don't come out live again the way

you already lived because that was the
Living Dead you need to come out and say

I'm ready to be filled with the waters
of life I'm not exactly sure what

that'll look like but according to truth
it means the presence of God living in

me as me prosperity isn't something I
have to try to manufacture it's like

like today we're doing this workshop on
consciousness and prosperity but it's

not about how to make things happen like
prosperity you got to connect with God

and co-create a new life so all this is
connected crucifixion Halloween and so

on resurrection give thanks and
Christmas so that you can have your

ascension into a new year and that's the
next year next year should look

different than this year what should
have looked different from last year if

you feel tired fatigued bored you're
living dead and you have the right to

come out of that but it does have to
come from you if you think you're

waiting for family to say sorry for the
way they treat that may not happen if

you're still waiting for the government
to say we're really sorry the way we

treated you
that may not happen I would go here and

allow yourself to let yourself off the
hook make sense all right let's take a

few centering breaths

setting aside all the stuff of the world

we have and we own that we have been so
faithless whenever we've obsessed on

duality and hurt and hate when we obsess
on in it and it is ridiculous stuff on

this planet but when we obsessed when we
think about being a person that illness

can get this body then you're making
yourself a victim of illness you're

greater than that there is no racial
stuff gender stuff political stuff or

anything that has power over us so I'm
owning that that means I lacked faith

when I thought that I could be a person
that others could hurt it meant I was

forgetting who I really am
you got to be courageous be courageous

all of a sudden it isn't the gender or
the color that made people courageous

Martin Luther King can come out and say
I don't care what you people think I'm

gonna still speak the truth and it
didn't matter what color he was he just

talked the truth and the world doesn't
like that when Mother Teresa went into

disease-ridden areas she didn't just sit
there and wit hope that she didn't get

sick she did it because it was the right
thing and it wasn't her gender that made

her unique so you're a screenwriter
you're a mom you're whatever things on

this planet but more and more I am this
with the light of God filling me so

today that's what I'm looking for how
can I become more of the presence of God

in day-to-day life first by bidding
farewell to that which I am NOT not that

which I wish that I were not I truly am
not so can we be courageous enough right

now
look at the world just objectively look

at the world and see the stuff that goes
on it is ridiculous but there is

economic conflict racial conflict gender
conflict political conflict military

just look at it all for a moment and if
I were asked everybody to take a moment

of silence and pray for it to all be
healed you guys would actually do it but

don't instead turn and look at yourself
in what ways am i holding conflict over

race political affiliation gender and so
on in what ways do I have anger because

war can't exist without feeding off of
our collective anger in what ways am i

angry sad hurt jealous in what ways am i
still acting like a victim just be

honest about it and do an inventory we
ask you Holy Spirit mother mother of God

Divine Mother we ask you to help us see
these things reveal them to us show them

to us where do I still have conflict and
so on

this is my contribution to all the stuff
like that in this world past present and

future I have contributed to these
problems instead of thinking I'm perfect

wishing the others would get it right I
get it I have played a part and I'm

giving this to you god I see it own it
and I'm giving it all to you and it's

lifted to the heavens but watch don't
cling to it

watch watch for the yeah.but and fears
just keep letting it be surrendered and

go controlling our kids and wishing they
were more like this or that let it all

go and go and be lifted new things and
ideas will come to your mind let it go -

I'll lift it up and out and then we
remain emptied to a new level and I

affirm that I learn anything I can learn
from any of this I can see my frailties

my conditions on love and so on that's
what I'm gonna give thanks for I'm gonna

give thanks from whatever I may have
learned from any of this known and

unknown lessons that I've learned okay
these things don't have the power they

once had and I'm grateful for that now
I'm ready for Christmas now I'm ready in

this moment mother Divine Mother only
you can do it birth in me the Christ

teach me how the Divine Feminine in me
can be pregnant with the Christ let that

be there and present and let it be
birthed and start coming forward let the

Christ that was in Jesus be in me as
well

rising to new levels of awareness my
awareness rising and rising lifting

lifting my way my consciousness
lifting me to a new way of living and

I'm moving into a new year with this new
consciousness god I am that I am and my

heart is so deeply grateful that I too
can experience this but if I try to keep

it lock it away as some special
consciousness I have and nobody else has

then I'll lose it so I close by
affirming that I will bring this to the

world and every way I can guide me
Divine Mother how to be the Christ a bit

more at work a bit more around family a
bit more in my relations even if the

relations end how help me to do that in
a Christ E way help me to be the

presence of God I am as God created me I
will to be the Christ on earth God is I

am we are and so it is and just if you
can another 10 seconds or so just

breathing and anchoring that as a
permanent part of your consciousness

give that a few seconds