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My name is Joel,
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and I'm a co-parent.
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So growing up, I never heard
the term "co-parent."
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I heard a lot of other things, though,
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for starters, absentee father,
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sperm donor --
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that's a good one --
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deadbeat dad,
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and, my personal favorite, baby daddy.
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Baby daddy, for those not in the know,
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refers to an individual
to helps to conceive a child
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but does little else.
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Baby daddy is also someone
who is not married by law
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to the mother of said child.
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Growing up, I though co-parent
was reserved primarily for white families
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that starred in Netflix primetime dramas.
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(Laughter)
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I still kind of does.
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But it wasn't used to explain
the role of a parent. Right?
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Either you had kids or you didn't,
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and no one in my social circles
or at our dinner table
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was having complex conversations
about the role fathers played
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in that conversation, right?
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A more balanced, open,
loving approach to parenting
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was not something we were discussing
within our social circles.
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A majority of the time,
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the fathers I knew growing up
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were barely present
or just completely nonexistent.
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Co-parent wasn't a term I heard or saw
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where I grew up, where I came from.
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I come from the hood.
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That hood would be Creston Avenue,
188th in the Bronx.
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And for -- one person, what's up.
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(Laughter)
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Appreciate that.
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For a lot of us in that hood,
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there was only one person
you could already turn to
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for food, shelter, warmth,
love, discipline: our mothers.
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My mother, who I playfully call Linda T,
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was my first example of real love
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and what showing up
as a healthy co-parent looked like.
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She was a strong,
determined single mother,
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a woman who would have benefited greatly
from having a secure and stable partner
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as a co-parent.
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So I vowed, right, whenever I got married,
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my boo and I would be together forever.
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You know?
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We'd share the same bed and home,
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we'd sleep under the same covers,
we'd argue at IKEA, normal stuff.
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My partner would feel seen and loved,
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and our children would grow up
in a two-parent household.
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However, things rarely ever
end up how we planned them.
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Our daughter Lila has never known
a household with both of her parents
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living together under one roof.
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Her mother and I were never married.
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We dated on and off for several months
before we found out she was pregnant.
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Up until then, my mother
didn't even know she existed.
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I was ashamed,
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I was embarrassed,
and at times I was suicidal.
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I was asking myself, what was I doing?
Where was I going wrong?
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I never wanted the stigma or label
of what some identified
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as the stereotypical black father, right?
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So absentee, confrontational,
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combative, not present.
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It took a lot of work, time,
energy and effort
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for us to finally realize
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that maybe co-parenting for us
didn't need to mean a shared household
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and wedding bells,
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that maybe, just maybe,
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the way we showed up as co-parents
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lay not only in the layered nuances
of our partnership
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but the capacity within our hearts
to tend to a human
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that we helped create together.
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(Applause)
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It would involve love
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in a nurturing and safe environment
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that would feed Lila
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long after we both left this earth.
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Fast forward four years,
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and Lila is now in pre-K,
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she loves gummies,
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and she says things like,
"My heart is filled with love."
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She's the most loving, compassionate,
empathetic human being I know,
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and the reason I get to tell you
all of this is because
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she's back in the Bronx with her mother.
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You see, this is co-parenting,
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and in an ideal world,
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my mother would have had a co-parent too.
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She would have had support,
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someone to show up and give her
a break, a time off,
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and in an ideal world,
every parent is a co-parent.
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In an ideal world, both parents share
the weight of the work appropriately.
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Lila's mother and I have a schedule.
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Some days, I leave work
and pick Lila up from school.
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Some days I don't.
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Lila's mother gets to go rock-climbing
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or study for the LSAT,
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and I get to stand in a room
full of bold, dynamic and powerful women
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and talk about dad stuff.
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(Applause)
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It is work, it is beautifully hard work
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dismantling the systems
that would have us believe
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a woman's primary role is in the kitchen
tending to all things domestic
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while the hapless dad
fumbles all over himself
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whenever he has to spend
a weekend alone with the kids.
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It is work that needs to happen right now.
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You see, far too often,
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what it seems like is
when both parents are working,
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one parent is typically tasked
with organizing the household
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and keeping the home running.
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That person is typically a woman
or someone who identifies as such.
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Far too often, those who identify
as mothers and as women
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have to sacrifice their dreams
in order to appease the standard.
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They have to sacrifice their dreams
in order to ensure that motherhood
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takes precedence over all else.
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And I'm not here to say that it doesn't,
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but what I am here to say
is as equal partners and co-parents
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it is our duty to ensure
that our co-parenting partners
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don't have to put their passions,
their pursuits and their dreams
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to the back burner just because we're
too self-absorbed to show up as allies.
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(Applause)
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Co-parenting makes the space
possible for everybody.
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As a co-parent,
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the time I've gotten
to share and spend with Lila
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is time I appreciate,
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the time that has allowed me
to be fully present for my child.
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All right?
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Removing an ocean that the emotional labor
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required to raise
a child is a woman's work.
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As a co-parent, Lila and I
have built snowmen,
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we've played with acorns,
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we've ??
I know you have too.
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She sat with me while I've led workshops
at Columbia University,
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when I talk about the intersections
of poetry, hip-hop and theater.
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We get to talk about
her emotions and her feelings
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because we have exclusive time together,
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and that time is planned time,
it's organized around not just my schedule
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but her mother's.
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Both of us, as co-parents,
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have unique parenting styles,
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and we may argue at times,
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but what we can always agree on
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is how to raise a human,
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our human.
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I will never fully understand
or comprehend what it means
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to hold a child in my body for 10 months.
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I will never be able to understand
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the trials and tribulations
of breastfeeding,
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the work that it takes,
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the emotional, physical,
psychological and emotional toll
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that carrying a human
can have on the female body.
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What co-parenting does is say,
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we can create balance,
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a more balanced home and work life
for everyone involved.
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Co-parenting says that
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while parenting may involve
sacrifices, yes,
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the weight of that sacrifice
is not solely resting on one parent alone.
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No matter your relational dynamic,
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no matter how you identify
as a human being --
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he, she, they, ?? --
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co-parenting says we can create
space and equity,
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better communication, empathy,
I hear you, I see you,
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how can I show up for you
in ways that benefits our family?
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My goal:
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I want more fathers to embrace
co-parenting as a model
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for a better tomorrow,
a better today for ourselves,
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for our co-parenting partners,
for our families, for our community.
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I want more fathers talking
about fatherhood openly,
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candidly, honestly, lovingly, right?
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I want more people to recognize
that black fathers in particular
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are more than the court system,
more than child support
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and more than what the media
might portray us to be.
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(Applause)
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Our role as fathers, our role as parents,
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our value as parents,
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is not dependent on the zeroes
at the ends of our checks
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but the capacity within our hearts
to show up for our families,
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for the people we love,
for our little ones.
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Being a father is not only
a responsibility, it's an opportunity.
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This is for ??,
this is for ??, ??, ??,
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this is for ??,
this is for ??,
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this is for all the black fathers who
were showing up on a day-to-day basis.
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This is for Charles Lorenzo Daniels,
my father, who didn't the language
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or the tools to show up
in the ways that he wanted to.
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Thank you.
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My name is Joel.
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Hi ??, hi ??.
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(Applause)