【25th WEEK】「なんで好きだったんだろうって思うレベル…」卒業インタビュー奥山春花編

He was easy to talk to
right from the beginning.

He makes you laugh.

He made jokes that were hard to counter.

I did like him, yeah.

[COSTCO SUBS PRESENTS]

[Interview with a member who's leaving]

Life at Terrace House was...

At the beginning, I thought I wouldn't
become friends with anyone.

Before, I would only
meet up with and talk to

people who had similar values,
or people I was really good friends with.

But if you keep on doing that,

you lose contact with people you meet

and you won't make new friends.

I realized what a shame that was,

and I started thinking about how
I should talk to others going forward,

and about what kind of...

attitude I should take in order to fit in.

I learned a lot about this
at Terrace House,

so in the end I was really
glad I was there.

[ABOUT KAORI WATANABE]
You could tell she couldn't be herself sometimes.

And it bothered me that

she was so attentive that
she couldn't just speak her mind.

But after half a year of living in TH...

A grown-up woman like Kaori,

who listens to everything I say
and hears me out--

I guess the reason I felt she was
easy to talk to was precisely that

she's someone
who's easy to talk to.

And I want to take her gentleness,
which is a great quality,

as an example for myself.

She said herself that
she's mentally fragile,

and that really bothered me.

Like, "Kaori won't like it
if I say this and that."

Or, "I better not ask her this."

I started thinking too much about it.

There were things I wanted to
ask her but couldn't.

It's not like everything you say should
make the other person feel good,

but I thought it'd be good to keep
that in mind when talking to her,

but then she left, so...

I hope I can meet her in London.

[ABOUT RISAKO TANABE]
Well, Risako is an athlete.

She does Parkour,
and she's a fitness trainer.

She was super open and energetic,

saying, "Let's share everything!"

Back then-- Thinking back, I guess I
should've been a little more forthcoming.

But at that time I was sort of distrustful
because of her selfish behavior.

And for her--

One time, Risako said to me,
"You don't like me, do you?"

So I probably made her feel that way.

I guess these little things just piled up
between us and it ended in a fight.

After that, I honestly didn't know
how to talk to her anymore.

I'd never been in a fight like that
with anyone but my siblings,

I realized that we're just different.

And I want to be able to properly
talk to her when we meet again.

[ABOUT KENJI YOSHIHARA]
I don't even know what I liked about him.

I don't know, in the beginning--
Well, he plays guitar, and...

I liked his Californian beach style,
I just thought he was cool.

But once I got to know his personality,
I realized he wasn't for me.

It just took time for me to realize.

A lot of the things he said
were unrealistic.

He started saying he wanted to be a
coffee shop owner who travels the world.

He seemed sort of unsteady.

Compared to other 32-year-olds I know,
I felt he was more like my age.

He didn't seem very reliable.

[ABOUT YUSUKE AIZAWA]
Kai...

He's a good guy, but...

Well, things got a little awkward.

When I told him he was adorable
at the Mexican restaurant,

and that he's like a sea lion,

I realize now that I took it too far.

Emika said to me,
"Haruka, you can't do that!"

So this is another thing I realized.

I learnt that if you say these
kinds of things too much,

you will be misunderstood.

[ABOUT GIUSEPPE DURATO]
My memories with Peppe...

I had fun when we went to eat soba.

And I really enjoyed our date
at the Shinagawa Prince Hotel.

That was romantic, wasn't it?

My heart started racing when we
held hands in the taxi on our way home.

But... That was it.

Peppe didn't say
anything to me after that.

He just went to work right away
when we got home.

I realized that he was really busy.

I was really into him, but
at the same time I felt really lonely.

When you live together with
someone you're interested in,

and they disappear all the time,

that sort of stopped me.

And since he confessed his feelings to me
when I was about to leave the house...

When I thought about how
we'd spend our time after leaving TH,

I didn't see a future for us.

He seemed very busy with his work,

and he's worked so hard
for his manga all this time...

I really support him and
want him to be successful.

Rather than thinking about how to
move things forward with him,

I wanted his manga to be
his first priority.

So I liked him a lot,

but my feelings weren't strong enough
for me to want to start dating him.

It's hard, isn't it?

It was hard for me.

[Translated & Timed by mrschap]
[Reviewed by koma]