What is My Topic? | EANG Linda

Curious what am i doing?

Because my topic is hidden from the start.

Have you ever wondered that sometime

when we decide to choose something,

just wearing something,

where to work at,

which gentleman to marry with

we are not sure how to decide.

Is it true?

Why?

I think that...apparently Michelle Obama

she also think like me.

She thinks that

the first thing we should do is

we should understand ourselves

and I also think the same

because mostly we do not know ourselves

that is why we are confuse in the life cycle

If only there is...someone come and tell

me that I look bad

then I would question myself

Am I really that bad?

Then later on, they said it's okay.

Not bad not bad bad, it's actually good.

Okay, Okay, I'm not bad. I am good.

But the truth is we are good or not good

not because of other people's word

we are bad or not bad, we know it ourselves.

However, before I was also confuse

So that time, someone came to me and said

Linda since you like to analyze things

like that you should study politics.

Then business people said no don't

only business is good,

and my family said I should work

in a ministry.

Work this, work that,....

extremely messy.

So when it's like that

i said stop! stop!

Stop everyone!

I collected all those words,

put it in a plastic bag,

tied it up and keep it in one place.

So I started to listen to my own voice,

I spent a lot of time asking myself.

What do I like?

Who am I?

What am I good at?

But there was one question that

have huge effect on me.

I read a book and that question asked me

when, what did I do that have the most meaning?

Doing that my life have a true meaning,

some people are also living but

they live like dead.

So because this...okay....

I thought suddenly I realized,

I was a seven day ghost spirit waking up

the thing I like to do the most is debate,

I like talking one on one,

I never do my best in anyway like when

I'm in debate.

And if I am in a competition, I'll die for it.

And when I go train people debate,

went to bed at 2am then woke up early

not eating breakfast but I still have strength

to do it.

I always wanted to open a club to talk

especially everyone can go and study together

because it is very important for our society

and for us as well.

I am usually happy from when

I knew myself clearly.

And it wasn't hard for me to decide,

like this blanket that I chose to wear

even though people said that blanket is

better and more modern

but I will still wear this Krama.

Because I know and believe the value

of this Krama Khmer that I am

currently wearing.

And talking about this,

I remember another story.

when I went to a competition in China,

someone told me that my ability

isn't able to compete with other

ASEAN youth.

However, I think that I can do it.

I don't believe other people words,

later on even when I came back

reporter interviewed me,

"When I was in the competition,

was I afraid of the other compititor?"

I said I wasn't because

they have own strength while I have my own.

Importantly, I didn't even care about

other candidates.

I just try my very best and

I try with all my strength,

that moment the result was perfect for me,

first round I got the highest score

then the second round, I got third rank.

Seeing this I never fail,

I never win every competition

but importantly I won't allow

others people's voice to interrupt

and kill my inner heart.

My inner voice anymore.

The important thing is

we know ourselves clearly,

we believe in ourselves,

and try our best.

For real, I really love myself.

I really want to kiss myself.

And I want everybody to kiss each other.

Ohh...Wait...nooo

Kiss yourself,

kiss yourself.

Let's kiss, everyone kiss yourself.

Okay!

Thank you!