I am the son of a terrorist. Here's how I chose peace.
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0:02 - 0:04On November 5th, 1990,
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0:04 - 0:07a man named El-Sayyid Nosair walked
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0:07 - 0:10into a hotel in Manhattan
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0:10 - 0:12and assassinated Rabbi Meir Kahane,
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0:12 - 0:16the leader of the Jewish Defense League.
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0:16 - 0:19Nosair was initially found not guilty of the murder,
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0:19 - 0:23but while serving time on lesser charges,
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0:23 - 0:25he and other men began planning attacks
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0:25 - 0:27on a dozen New York City landmarks,
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0:27 - 0:29including tunnels, synagogues
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0:29 - 0:32and the United Nations headquarters.
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0:32 - 0:34Thankfully, those plans were foiled
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0:34 - 0:37by an FBI informant.
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0:37 - 0:39Sadly, the 1993 bombing
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0:39 - 0:43of the World Trade Center was not.
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0:43 - 0:44Nosair would eventually be convicted
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0:44 - 0:48for his involvement in the plot.
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0:48 - 0:52El-Sayyid Nosair is my father.
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0:52 - 0:54I was born in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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0:54 - 0:58in 1983 to him, an Egyptian engineer,
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0:58 - 1:01and a loving American mother
and grade school teacher, -
1:01 - 1:02who together tried their best
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1:02 - 1:05to create a happy childhood for me.
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1:05 - 1:07It wasn't until I was seven years old
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1:07 - 1:10that our family dynamic started to change.
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1:10 - 1:13My father exposed me to a side of Islam
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1:13 - 1:16that few people, including the majority of Muslims,
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1:16 - 1:19get to see.
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1:19 - 1:21It's been my experience that when people
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1:21 - 1:23take the time to interact with one another,
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1:23 - 1:26it doesn't take long to realize that for the most part,
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1:26 - 1:29we all want the same things out of life.
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1:29 - 1:32However, in every religion, in every population,
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1:32 - 1:34you'll find a small percentage of people
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1:34 - 1:37who hold so fervently to their beliefs
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1:37 - 1:40that they feel they must use any means necessary
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1:40 - 1:44to make others live as they do.
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1:44 - 1:46A few months prior to his arrest,
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1:46 - 1:48he sat me down and explained that
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1:48 - 1:51for the past few weekends, he and some friends
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1:51 - 1:53had been going to a shooting range on Long Island
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1:53 - 1:55for target practice.
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1:55 - 1:59He told me I'd be going with him the next morning.
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1:59 - 2:00We arrived at Calverton Shooting Range,
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2:00 - 2:03which unbeknownst to our group was being watched
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2:03 - 2:06by the FBI.
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2:06 - 2:07When it was my turn to shoot,
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2:07 - 2:10my father helped me hold the rifle to my shoulder
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2:10 - 2:11and explained how to aim at the target
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2:11 - 2:14about 30 yards off.
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2:14 - 2:17That day, the last bullet I shot
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2:17 - 2:20hit the small orange light that sat on top of the target
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2:20 - 2:23and to everyone's surprise, especially mine,
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2:23 - 2:27the entire target burst into flames.
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2:27 - 2:29My uncle turned to the other men,
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2:29 - 2:32and in Arabic said, "Ibn abuh."
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2:32 - 2:36Like father, like son.
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2:36 - 2:38They all seemed to get a really
big laugh out of that comment, -
2:38 - 2:40but it wasn't until a few years later
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2:40 - 2:44that I fully understood what
they thought was so funny. -
2:44 - 2:46They thought they saw in me the same destruction
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2:46 - 2:50my father was capable of.
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2:50 - 2:52Those men would eventually be convicted
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2:52 - 2:56of placing a van filled with
1,500 pounds of explosives -
2:56 - 3:00into the sub-level parking lot of the
World Trade Center's North Tower, -
3:00 - 3:03causing an explosion that killed six people
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3:03 - 3:06and injured over 1,000 others.
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3:06 - 3:09These were the men I looked up to.
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3:09 - 3:13These were the men I called
ammu, which means uncle. -
3:13 - 3:15By the time I turned 19,
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3:15 - 3:18I had already moved 20 times in my life,
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3:18 - 3:20and that instability during my childhood
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3:20 - 3:21didn't really provide an opportunity
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3:21 - 3:23to make many friends.
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3:23 - 3:26Each time I would begin to feel
comfortable around someone, -
3:26 - 3:30it was time to pack up and move to the next town.
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3:30 - 3:32Being the perpetual new face in class,
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3:32 - 3:34I was frequently the target of bullies.
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3:34 - 3:37I kept my identity a secret from my classmates
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3:37 - 3:38to avoid being targeted,
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3:38 - 3:41but as it turns out, being the
quiet, chubby new kid in class -
3:41 - 3:44was more than enough ammunition.
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3:44 - 3:46So for the most part, I spent my time at home
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3:46 - 3:48reading books and watching TV
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3:48 - 3:50or playing video games.
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3:50 - 3:53For those reasons, my social skills were lacking,
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3:53 - 3:55to say the least,
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3:55 - 3:56and growing up in a bigoted household,
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3:56 - 3:59I wasn't prepared for the real world.
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3:59 - 4:00I'd been raised to judge people
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4:00 - 4:02based on arbitrary measurements,
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4:02 - 4:06like a person's race or religion.
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4:06 - 4:09So what opened my eyes?
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4:09 - 4:11One of my first experiences
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4:11 - 4:13that challenged this way of thinking
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4:13 - 4:16was during the 2000 presidential elections.
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4:16 - 4:18Through a college prep program,
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4:18 - 4:19I was able to take part
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4:19 - 4:23in the National Youth Convention in Philadelphia.
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4:23 - 4:26My particular group's focus was on youth violence,
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4:26 - 4:28and having been the victim
of bullying for most of my life, -
4:28 - 4:32this was a subject in which
I felt particularly passionate. -
4:32 - 4:36The members of our group came
from many different walks of life. -
4:36 - 4:38One day toward the end of the convention,
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4:38 - 4:41I found out that one of the kids I had befriended
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4:41 - 4:44was Jewish.
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4:44 - 4:45Now, it had taken several days
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4:45 - 4:47for this detail to come to light,
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4:47 - 4:50and I realized that there was no natural animosity
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4:50 - 4:53between the two of us.
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4:53 - 4:56I had never had a Jewish friend before,
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4:56 - 4:58and frankly I felt a sense of pride
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4:58 - 5:00in having been able to overcome a barrier
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5:00 - 5:03that for most of my life I had been led to believe
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5:03 - 5:05was insurmountable.
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5:05 - 5:07Another major turning point came when
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5:07 - 5:10I found a summer job at Busch Gardens,
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5:10 - 5:12an amusement park.
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5:12 - 5:15There, I was exposed to people
from all sorts of faiths and cultures, -
5:15 - 5:17and that experience proved to be fundamental
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5:17 - 5:21to the development of my character.
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5:21 - 5:23Most of my life, I'd been taught
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5:23 - 5:26that homosexuality was a sin, and by extension,
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5:26 - 5:30that all gay people were a negative influence.
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5:30 - 5:32As chance would have it, I had the opportunity
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5:32 - 5:34to work with some of the gay performers
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5:34 - 5:35at a show there,
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5:35 - 5:38and soon found that many were the kindest,
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5:38 - 5:42least judgmental people I had ever met.
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5:42 - 5:44Being bullied as a kid
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5:44 - 5:46created a sense of empathy in me
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5:46 - 5:48toward the suffering of others,
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5:48 - 5:50and it comes very unnaturally to me
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5:50 - 5:52to treat people who are kind
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5:52 - 5:56in any other way than how
I would want to be treated. -
5:56 - 5:58Because of that feeling, I was able
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5:58 - 6:02to contrast the stereotypes I'd been taught as a child
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6:02 - 6:05with real life experience and interaction.
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6:05 - 6:08I don't know what it's like to be gay,
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6:08 - 6:09but I'm well acquainted with being judged
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6:09 - 6:13for something that's beyond my control.
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6:13 - 6:17Then there was "The Daily Show."
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6:17 - 6:19On a nightly basis, Jon Stewart forced me
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6:19 - 6:23to be intellectually honest with
myself about my own bigotry -
6:23 - 6:25and helped me to realize that a person's race,
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6:25 - 6:28religion or sexual orientation
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6:28 - 6:33had nothing to do with the quality of one's character.
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6:33 - 6:36He was in many ways a father figure to me
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6:36 - 6:40when I was in desperate need of one.
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6:40 - 6:44Inspiration can often come
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6:44 - 6:46and the fact that a Jewish comedian had done more
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6:46 - 6:48to positively influence my worldview
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6:48 - 6:50than my own extremist father
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6:50 - 6:54is not lost on me.
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6:54 - 6:56One day, I had a conversation with my mother
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6:56 - 6:58about how my worldview was starting to change,
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6:58 - 7:01and she said something to me
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7:01 - 7:02that I will hold dear to my heart
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7:02 - 7:05for as long as I live.
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7:05 - 7:07She looked at me with the weary eyes
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7:07 - 7:09of someone who had experienced
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7:09 - 7:13enough dogmatism to last a lifetime, and said,
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7:13 - 7:16"I'm tired of hating people."
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7:16 - 7:19In that instant, I realized how much negative energy
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7:19 - 7:23it takes to hold that hatred inside of you.
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7:24 - 7:27Zak Ebrahim is not my real name.
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7:27 - 7:29I changed it when my family decided
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7:29 - 7:31to end our connection with my father
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7:31 - 7:33and start a new life.
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7:33 - 7:35So why would I out myself
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7:35 - 7:38and potentially put myself in danger?
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7:38 - 7:40Well, that's simple.
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7:40 - 7:44I do it in the hopes that perhaps someone someday
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7:44 - 7:46who is compelled to use violence
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7:46 - 7:49may hear my story and realize
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7:49 - 7:51that there is a better way,
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7:51 - 7:53that although I had been subjected
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7:53 - 7:55to this violent, intolerant ideology,
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7:55 - 7:58that I did not become fanaticized.
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7:58 - 8:01Instead, I choose to use my experience
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8:01 - 8:03to fight back against terrorism,
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8:03 - 8:07against the bigotry.
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8:07 - 8:10I do it for the victims of terrorism
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8:10 - 8:12and their loved ones,
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8:12 - 8:14for the terrible pain and loss
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8:14 - 8:17that terrorism has forced upon their lives.
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8:17 - 8:20For the victims of terrorism, I will speak out
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8:20 - 8:22against these senseless acts
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8:22 - 8:26and condemn my father's actions.
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8:26 - 8:29And with that simple fact, I stand here as proof
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8:29 - 8:34that violence isn't inherent in one's religion or race,
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8:34 - 8:36and the son does not have to follow
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8:36 - 8:40the ways of his father.
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8:40 - 8:42I am not my father.
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8:42 - 8:45Thank you. (Applause)
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8:45 - 8:49Thank you, everybody. (Applause)
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8:49 - 8:52Thank you all. (Applause)
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8:52 - 8:56Thanks a lot. (Applause)
- Title:
- I am the son of a terrorist. Here's how I chose peace.
- Speaker:
- Zak Ebrahim
- Description:
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If you’re raised on dogma and hate, can you choose a different path? Zak Ebrahim was just seven years old when his father helped plan the 1993 World Trade Center bombing. His story is shocking, powerful, and ultimately, inspiring.
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
closed TED
- Project:
- TEDTalks
- Duration:
- 09:13
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