Why I've been feeling so bad lately - We all make mistakes.

Hey everybody, happy Thursday!

Now today's video is going to be

a little bit different from my normal

regular Thursday video, that is because

I've been feeling a lot of feelings lately!

I've been feeling kinda anxious sometimes

I wasn't sleeping very well

for a couple of days

I was feeling kinda dread, or worry

and it was palpable.

It was like, in my life!

And I was talking to Sean about it last Friday

and he's like,

'You should probably talk to them about it'

Because you all talk to me

about what's going on with you

and so I thought I would do the same.

Now, I don't know how this is

really gonna work, I'm just gonna kind of

chat with you.

So periodically, and because our community

is growing at such an incredible rate,

um, I get really nasty comments.

Everything from just, trashing on me

like trolls that just scan by,

which honestly, doesn't really bother me

because I don't know them,

they don't know us,

and I'm like, 'fuck off' pretty much.

I just remove them

and ban them from the channel.

Um, however, I know that some of you

have expressed concern or discontent

with some videos.

And I want you all to know that

first of all, I'm not perfect!

I never said that I was,

I don't expect myself to be perfect

and I can't really, even as a therapist

having put in, I don't even know..

a lot of hours, at least,

I think, 5000 or 6000 hours with clients

and working in different settings

and all of the schooling, all that stuff.

I have a lot of experience,

and I have a great education to back me up.

However, I don't specialise in everything!

And a lot of times I tell you,

'I don't really know about that'

'I'll do my best to research it'

and then put out the information I can find.

And that means that there's a definite

human component.

Me being the human, and I sometimes talk

to other humans who may not fully

understand what I'm asking them about,

and then give me false information.

Or I just might say something wrong.

And that's because I'm human.

And I think that my worry about doing that

and potentially getting some nasty feedback

has made me feel icky.

And so, I just want you all to know that

I'm human and I in no way think I'm

perfect or that I'm gonna put out perfect videos

but I do my best.

And know that every action I take,

every comment I give,

every video I put out,

everything that I create,

from back in 2011 all the way to now

and in the future, is always done with

the best intentions.

And with the hope that we can, together,

raise awareness and make mental health

information available to all.

So there's a better understanding

worldwide, less stigma.

And also, for many of you who are in

Africa, Cyprus, India, all across the world

where you've told me that mental health

information isn't really available,

and metal health services aren't available

that I can be a resource to those areas.

And that's really a reason I created

the channel in the first place.

Just keep that in mind, when you leave

comments and you participate in our

community.

Because I know many of you are new,

and I'm so excited that our community is

growing!

But just understand that, we're all human

no one is perfect, and I, my main goal

along with eradicating the stigma associated

with mental illness is to also create

a healthy, happy community, working together

towards a healthy mind and a healthy body.

So, just think about that.

And it's just something I've been

thinking a lot about.

And know that I am rooting for each

and every one of you to recover,

and do well. And I hope you also are

enjoying the community, and liking the

positive feedback.

And know that I will continue to keep it

a safe place, I will just encourage each

and every one of you to consider that I'm

a person too.

And I'm doing the best I can.

Okay, I love you all, and I will see you

on Saturday with a journal topic!

Bye!