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I come from a background in which
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I never experienced any male members
of my family cry.
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That inability to express any level of emotionality
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was something that I started to question.
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It doesn't allow for weakness nor vulnerability.
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Art became a pathway for me--
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a way in which I could experience these vulnerabilities
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and wear them,
and share them to an immediate audience.
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[Shaun Leonardo: The Freedom to Move]
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[PLAY-BY-PLAY ANNOUNCER]
--The quarterback scrambles out,
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--throws a pass that almost gets picked off
by Shaun Leonardo.
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[LEONARDO] I played football for
over ten years of my life.
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[PLAY-BY-PLAY ANNOUNCER]
--Leonardo, defensive back playing linebacker.
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LEONARDO:
All of my work stems from that experience,
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of a dual identity between artist and athlete.
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I can recall as if it were yesterday,
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a coach that I actually love and I have
fond memories of,
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says to me, as a way to enrage me,
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says, "I want to you play like they just let
you out of Riker's."
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As a young man--
I'm 21 at the time--
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you don't have the wherewithal or the tools
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to absorb that in any healthy manner.
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And so, what happens?
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It works.
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I actually do bring out the rage
that he was looking for.
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[PLAY-BY-PLAY ANNOUNCER]
--Leonardo is able to push him inside and tackle him.
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--Great play by Shaun Leonardo
with the game-saving tackle there.
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LEONARDO:
I'm now 40 years old
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and I'm still thinking about that moment.
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When you are marked by your difference,
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by your color, by your perceived identity,
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you become this hyper-visible target.
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It's in that hyper-visibility that actually
you become invisible,
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because people see right through you.
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--Are you ready!?
--Yeah!
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After college,
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post my football career,
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I showed up in a Mexican wrestling mask
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and fought an invisible opponent.
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[FIGHT BELL RINGS]
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[AUDIENCE CHEERING]
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["El Conquistador Vs. The Invisible Man," 2006]
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With each match, it was important that
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the audience was left with Shaun Leonardo--
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that the character was stripped
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and that you were left with the person
that felt the need
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to go through this struggle
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in order to see himself.
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Can you imagine,
there's no one in front of me.
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And so, even if something as little as a punch,
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you could register it just like this.
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Or if you're in the audience, what's actually
going to be legible?
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I have to be able to...
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[SOUND OF FIST HITTING OPEN PALM]
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I have to be able to really dramatize it
in such a way
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that you foresee it coming
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and then you see it follow through.
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I was offering the spectacle of violence
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and that identity of hyper-masculinity
and aggression
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that is so often anticipated
from a Black body.
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And this notion that,
as a Black and Brown body,
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we move through the world and serve as a mirror
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for White people's projections.
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[AUDIENCE CHEERS]
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--One!
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--Two!
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--Three!
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[AUDIENCE CHEERS]
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["Self-Portrait," 2010]
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And then discovering and learning
and finding ways to distort that image,
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to portray and feel deeply a fuller self
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that is not contained within these projections
or these stereotypes.
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That has been my mandate.
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That has been the very thing that I want
to offer to the world.
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--Can anyone describe what was happening in
their bodies?
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[MAN]
--Very, very uncomfortable for me.
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--Like I feel my body getting hot.
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I wanted to pull more and more people
into that exploration
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so that it would not be contained
to my own narrative.
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It was through this strategy of physical embodiment
that I could pull people into it.
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I wanted people to feel it
and to allow their bodies
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to say what the piece needed to be.
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["Primitive Games," 2018]
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[AUDIENCE APPLAUSE]
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--Participants!
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--Ready!
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--Bring it!
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[DRUMMING ECHOES THROUGHOUT ROTUNDA]
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--Left, yes; right, no.
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--Do you feel American?
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I really wanted to see if,
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by dialing into our experiences of confrontation,
of conflict,
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we could sense some sort of truth
in another person's body,
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and therefore question our perceptions of
how we initially read
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an other.
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[BRASS BAND PLAYS A FUNERAL MARCH]
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["The Eulogy," 2017]
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--What are you waiting for me to tell you?
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--His name was Trayvon Martin
[BAND STRIKES]
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--and he was unarmed.
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When I saw the image of Trayvon Martin
on the news,
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so much of my own experience of fear,
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and the ways that I was being perceived out
in the world,
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all came rushing to the surface--
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things that I clearly had buried.
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As a young Brown kid growing up in Queens,
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I also started thinking about all the young
brothers that I'd left behind.
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Then asking, "Well, why me?"
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Why was I the one that was able
to make it out?
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To go to a good school,
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to pursue an MFA,
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to live according to my passion.
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It's taken me a long time to understand
-
that I simply want more people in the world
that look like me
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to be able to move through the world
with that kind of
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freedom.
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--Okay, what we're going to do is just walk.
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--Walk naturally.
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--Take up as much space as possible.
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--Walk your walk.
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[In 2017, Shaun co-founded "Assembly," a criminal justice
diversion program at the arts non-profit Recess.]
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[Youth charged with misdemeanor offenses and criminal
possession of a weapon participate as alternative sentencing.]
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We move through what I started to describe
as a visual storytelling curriculum.
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What we do is sculpt the scene of that story
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or of that memory.
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So the storyteller is allowed to look at their
story through a very different set of eyes.
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They start to gather more meaning as to how
that narrative is of an individual
-
and not some preconceived notion of criminality.
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[MAN]
--If he runs, we all got to run.
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I've had to really deal with
the philosophical crisis
-
of what it means to be enacting
an art space program
-
that I believe has freedom as its central
value and goal,
-
and yet,
-
still operating in something that is really
a criminal justice space.
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["Mirror/Echo/Tilt," 2019
Collaboration with Melanie Crean and Sable Elyse Smith]
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The only thing that I've arrived at,
-
which keeps me in the work,
-
is the personal change that I can sense
in these individuals--
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in these young people that are
the young people I grew up with.
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I always return to the same thing:
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the art is the very thing that has power
in this space
-
because it is unfixed.
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It cannot be defined.
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By being able to really exist
in your own body
-
and understand that you do not need to be
defined by an experience--
-
in this case, arrest and incarceration--
-
it allows you to move forward with
a little more sense of joy;
-
what Ta-Nehisi Coates describes as
"the beautiful struggle."
-
It's by being in your full self
-
and attempting to live,
-
that can never be taken away.
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To get anyone to start imagining possibilities
for themselves again,
-
that is what we all should be after.