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I wanted really good to my mother

She was drug addict

She was an alcoholic

She was legally blind

She was schizophrenic

But I never forgot that she loved me

even if she did

all the time

all the time

all the time

Give me the money!

it's mine!

it's mine, the state gave this to me!

If you do not like us do not eat!

Do not touch me, touch me not!

Where are they, eh?
Where are they?

Where is it ?

Please, give it to me

-I gave it to you,
-Let go MoM!

I gave a 100 to you

When the check came
I gave $ 100 to you to one of you.

to keep them from,
you understand?

Those for us to live on

every month it's the same damn thing

so you can put it to your arms
so we can starve

it's mine

I didn't have it.

You are a liar

Give it to me,
it's mine!

it's mine!

We are hungry!

I can't
We need food MoM

what do you ever do for me, hah ?
I gave you life

Do you want me to go on the streets
as prostituitmi
hah?

do you want me to do that ?
I know I do that sometimes, right?

I need it

I need it

I need it

what is Medina?

what is Medina, that gives you $ 15,200
at the end of the round of double jeopardy.

I wanted that smile,

Oh God, I wantedthat smile so much

I was pathetic, wasn't I?

don't take the Acquedotto

Mom!

Dady ...

-she's taking the Acquedotto.
-What the hell difference does she make?

- she'll get mugged !!
- Who cares!

Help her father, she can't see,
she'll get mugged

always a big production

see, They said they'll fix the light for change

The muggers will break them again

No,No

No, you see she's okay
the water runs down hill

There is no water

You are wrong,
dont you know what the aqueduct is?

The aqueduct carried water to New York City
Well, for over 100 years it did that

Then they closed it down but now

the ghost water,right?
it carries your mother along.

My father, you could sitdown on a couch
and talk to my father

He just couldn't talk to him for long

Hey Jane!

He knew so much,
he got all the answers righ on jeopardy.

He's a genius, he've the answer every time!

Watch where you going

That's the thing

Your parents all you gots

I looked at them as example of what
should I find every where in the world

and they paid so litle attention to my needs

but then it felt their needs
was so powerful

it didn't make me feel gurt or angry
but they didn't look into me

because I felt okay this,
This must be the human condition to be so

And then the world came in

you took my husband Elisabeth
I'll kill you!

No, Mom!

I'm not your mother
I did you a favor

Help me cleanup Liz, if they see
this they're gonna take us too!

No, noo!
get out of my house!

you're not taking me

I do not come with you,
you understand? Noo, noo!

what happen to the window?

she threw the cat out

leave me alone

Why don't you take the medication and be a good girl?

She takes it

she just take too many other things

- This place is a mess
- what happened here

He took a knife!

I fell down

- she got a knife
- put the knife down

Alright,Where's the phone?
we don't have one

- This woman is unfit
- you're kidding

look you girls have a choice
clean this place up
help your mother!

Tell our father!

Ignore her she's a feminist.

I can take you anytime I want

you keep skipping school
you keep living like fealthy animal

hey, hey, Where you going? comeback here ,come back!

you're gonna go to a home and you don't know what it like ?

They've girls in there they'll beat you down
take everything you got

you can't have anything

You'll have to clean bathrooms
you'll work there if you don't work here

back off! back off! it's not a show

got nothing better to do, hah?

Mom!

mom

mom

Couldn't they see?

anyone could see
she was in so much pain

The strugle was so much on the surface
so there if anyone cared to look

it wasn't like she was running of a good mother
to somebody else
or not that was a good mother

she just didn't have anymore to give

Let me go !

Alright, hey hey hey!

oh! something stinks!

what is that?

I was always the smelly kid in class

Lisa stood on the bucket shower
but daddy left her doing
she had to marry a doctor she had so many expectations

I didn't have any expectations, so therefore I guess
I stunk

I scratched for lice,
and burn between my legs

My teachers was always telling me not to fidge it

but my underwear...

I didn't know what to do about underwear

I just worried that it fell apart

Alright, people thank you resess is over

My teeth ached

I was hungry ...

The teachers words never seem to reach me

Words just seems .. fall on the floor

Give me the test,Liz. there's no point of taking that
No, I'll take it.

But you been here what? three times this month?

I'll take it
it doesn't look that hard

fine

oh Liz, stay here

you do smell, you know?
doesn't your mother tell you...

No, no ...
it is my fault I just forget

ok Well,when you wanna have shower tonigh
will you wash back here?

I've been saving something for you

Here ...

And here, bhow did you do that?

you've never in school

I read a lot

yeah, what do you read?

The Encyclopedia

The lady of the upstairs, Eva,
she found one in the dumpster

the whole set, well
except from R to S

If you've asked me between R and S I would've done it wrong
I was just lucky

Oh Liz, you have to come to school
OK
No, I mean it, look

it's redeculus you're way too smart not to be here

I do not understand why toy don't come.
I will.

How can I tell her that school make me sad?

I had never talked to her,
I don't know how to talk to anyone.

My house was not a place that you can come out of it
and be normal.
- you'll have to come everyday

It's not a threat, it's promise

and is not a threat,
is a promise.

- Eva, look what I got,
- a 100
- thanks to your encyclopedia!

Good, you gotta get a good marks!
you don't wanna be an idiot

and you keep it up now, you hear me?
now your mother's back

My mother is back?

Well, we had nice quite couple a months,
did we?

The only good thing about taking my mother
to the nutt house was that when she came back
she was my Mom again

she cooked and she cleaned
shorthand for the company in a
for me, that was the good quite couple of months

Before the drugs came back in

Mom ..

momy

Lizzy

Are you OK?
I'm okay

pumpkin,
you look real good

I'm Glad you're home mom!

don't you glad you're home?

Well, that hospital

wasn't too bad

it's too green
the walls and there were bars on the windows

I'm sorry, you had to see that, you know

and I'm glad you're home

Look, Look I got a 100

Ma. no ..
100 is a good good, 100 is the perfect

didn't you ever get hundred?

No !

hey, I go to school

I ran away too young.
Do not ever run away from home

I won't

I ... I will always be here for you

I know, Mom

I will always be there ... always

I know, Mom

I am sick ...

I'm sick ... I'm sick, I...

I have AIDS ...

No. .. no ...

No, no no ... baby, don't

They say don't be afraid
the say I migh.. I could live forever, okay?

but I can't live here

- I gonna go home
- This is home

No, home to my pops,
I will take you and Lisa

No, no, you have to stay here

I gotta stop the drugs,
and I can't do it when daddy around

But you'll be alone

Liz, Lisa is already gone over,
just packup your things and let's go

No no, cause you said pops will beat you
you said he raped your sister

this is the way it has to be now

No, stay here

I can't

stay mom!

Everything was falling apart

I thought If I stayed
I could have stop it

I thought If I stayed
everything some how could stay the same

just open the door, it's no use

I know you're in there

where is your mother and sister?

they're gone

where's your father?

he's gonna get some food help,
he'll be right back.

your teacher called, you still not going to school

you never in school
We gota do something about this

Miss Wanda warned you, I warned you,
everyone in case workers warned you

this is been goining on for years

we said clean up this place
and go to school,
clean up and go to school,

and you haven't done either one of them had you ...
Elizabeth, have you?

No

so, what are we gonna do?

I do not know

I do

you're going into the system
I'm taking her

No! But things are better now,
my dady buys me big potatoes everyday

you're not paying the rent,
you're not getting her to school

I tell him to go,
I told you to go to school

she's got a mind of her own,
she's a feminist

this is not a joking matter,
pack her a suitcase ...
now!

No, no!
I'll go to school, please!

This isn't working, we need an adult
who is responsible

My grandfather is responsible!
My grandfather will take me!
My sister is there

- your sister goes to school.
- I'll go to school!
I'll go to school, please!

Not make noise

I'll talk to him
and if he will take you
you will be out in 24 hours

I'm sorry

and if he won't?

You will have time to figure out how to live life

figure out my life ...

do people really do that?

If they do that , they're falling down
in a deep dark hole

buzzed in, locked in

it was like to visiting my mother

Only I was in the crazy house now

Get her!

I didn't get out in 24 hours,
I didn't get out in 24 days,
no one wanted me.

they just left me there

Why don't you go to school?

That's the big problem I got Here,
why dont you go?

Forom what I can see
you have got a discipline problem

Liz!
Hey pops!

You call your mother
Jean! Come out here, she's here

I'm late for school
but I wanted to see you first

Thanks Lisa

don't screw this up
we are doing okay

and don't expect too much, she is dying

Lizzy!

Mom

oh God

When I think of my life,
this is the time I like to think of

when I got back and my mother's mind was clear

there was no cokain so her
schizophrenia medicine kept on working

and we go to the cafe,
and sit and talk

eat hamburghers,
we were together

even with her bad eyes
I think she could see me

well, she can see my outline

and for a while I had my mother again

even the park, yea I remember,
we used to slide down the hill

remeber we put down that cart board
and we pretend that we sled

- you remember that?
- Yes

- how about the tickle monster ?
- we screamed and laughed about that one

Yeah, I was a good mother,
wasn't I?

yea, you were fine

yeah

well, I'm really glad we are all together
you and me, and Lisa

what if dad went off drugs too
would that be great?

Maybe we can go back to University Avenue

well,your dad is in a shelter for homeless

I'm afraid he lost the apartment

he kind of ignore the rent,
so, you know ...

What about my stuff?

got thrown out

all of it?
Even my encyclopedias?

I'm really sorry , they board up the whole place

there was nothing we could do,
it just, crap happens
I mean ...

Look, I gotta go around the corner and see few friends

just for a minute okay?
You finsh your burger

and I ... I'll be right back
just be a minute

just be a minute

so that was that,
no going back

I hadn't kept anything together,
I only made thaings worse

If I had only go to school ...

if I had only,
if I had only ...

so that part of my life was over

I guess the new part have begun

Elisabeth Murray
and you're her mother?
Yes

-Ah Look, take you to your class now
- Thanks

A moment

- Bye Mom
- Bye

- are you gona get home okay?
- Yes, I'm just gonna go see my buddies you know
they'll take care of me

- Maybe I should come with you
- No no, you gotta stay at school or they'll take you away again
go, go ...

Bye

so we have nouns, verbs,
adverbs and prepositions

who's that, duke?

Thank you

I wasn't the smelly kid anymore,
I had learned to shower every day at the group home

and my clothes, even if they came from the shop, all fit

but still didn't know how to be in school

I just don't know how to be normal

people, can we try to settle down?,
Chris would you like to try diagram number 12?

No

Bobby?

you find it a musy
Miss ... Elisabeth?

please don't call me that

That's your name according to these forms

Liz or Lizzy

Liz or Lizzy is a nickname

aren't nicknames

No, I'm afraid not

chesus, call the girl she wants to be called!

Elisabeth is a fine name, is the name of
a queen, the Elizabethan was the age of
Shakespeare

What's you problem with it?

My mother calls me Elisabeth
when she's going insane ...

Liz then

Bobby, the sentence

so Where do you go to school before this?

I didn't

how did you fall in here?

I was in a group home

is that freaky?

yeah

- but you are not a freak
- No

it's too bad, I am

my Birthday is coming up
yeah? when?

Ah, you'll know
I'm gonna wear my dad's trunch coat

I'm gonna come to school with nothing on,
but my trunch coat, and a pair of boots

and I'll flash all the teahcers
Happy birthday ...

You do not believe me?

yea I do

No you don't

It's a great place,
I never had a sopha before

My grandfather is a little crankie
we'll have to be out by 6 by the way

Liz, where is your phone?
Make that TV game show
Lě

Never gonna win

know what?
shut up !! gotta call this number
before I forget it

- Do you understand the theorem?
- come on bob! give it a wrest
the test isn't till like a week

- Can I take that chicken in the fridge?
- Sure

is it 6 aleady
it's only 4:30

some drunk lady
oh, so disgusting
she puked on the door

I'll go open the window

I don't feel really good,
Liza, help me please

what, what happen
come on
This way

Alright, up

I am a good mom,
I just need a hug, okay?

Come on!

Oh God!

here we go,
All clean, you see

she couldn't take living straight,
why should I expect her to take dying

isn't dying the hardest thing onyone have ever done?

Everyone is gone

- except you ...
- yeah

So where does you grandfather sleep?

Here?
safe to his daughter?

But I don't think like that

Yeah, but don't know

he Did some things to her when I was younger,
she told me that

With her sister and not her?

I figure he did them both ...

so your sister is crazy too?

Yeah, and their mother too,
that's why I didn't wanna come here

you know, My...Mom is getting back to my dad

I wish My mom would

He does staff to my sister

You do not have a sister

Lucky for her

did you tell your mother?
Yes, I told her

but she left him,
and cursed him

she said she's gonna call the cops,
and now she's getting back with him

you know, I asked her how she could do that,
and she said that she missed him

she missed him ...

I was 7 years whe he first stuck it in

Chris, Chris, don't!

move in with me

- What, stay here?
- Yeah!

What .. what will your grandfather say?

He won't know
We will work it out so will never see him

he won't get up until after this for work
he's like a robot anyway,
he's out by eight

I'm back at 6
out!

Pops! she had no place to stay!

This not my problem

Leave her alone!

Your mother is dying
your peace of trash father walked out
and stuck me with all of this

did I ask this in my old age?
tell me!

What are you doing?

fine, that suits me,
you'll end up trash anyway

just like your parents

So I left

you wanna go get your staff ?
or you'll leave me here alone

do anyone of us bargain for our life

it seems to me that we're just gonna fall into them

and then we have to do the bets we can
Let's go!!

My mother was dying,
my father was gone

but I had to believe that I the road
would rise up to meet me

I was 15 years, when I wen out of door

What is a home anyway,
a roof, bed

A place when where you go there
they have to take you

If so, I was 15 years
when I became homeless

You get some change?
Get a job

how are you doing tonight?

Good bless you kid

spend some changes

Sometimes I felt I had
neverhad a home in my life

Bring it on

Let's go

what are you doing!
come back here

At other times I knew
where ever my mother was
that's where my home was

oh god!!

but month by month she was fading away

Liz ...

yeah!

where did you go?

I've been staying with friends

I miss you

paps! he hit me and you know

I couldn't stay here

Alright

Look! your sister told me that you
stopped going to school

I'm gonna go back

when?

when you get better

They tease me

they tease me at the bar cause I shake

I can't stop shaking

I think it is becuase of the drinking

you should propably stop

Ok, ok ..

you're gonna get better

I love you, mom

mom

I love you

get over there

sorry!

- Look out!!
- Stop

hey guys, wait up
I'll catch you later I'm just gonna ...

Bye

mom

We took up a collection

she isn't coming here anymore
becuase she always think you're laughing at

she's dead honey
she died yesterday morning

Sometimes I feel that there is
a skin on the world

and those of us who were born under it
can see through it

we just can't get through it

My mother was being buried in section 51
the charity plot

My mother was in there,
strangers had put her in there

was she naked, was she frightent
no, she was gone

come on, let's go
No, wait a minute

there should be a service,
there should be a priest,
what supposed to happen?

When you go, we're gonna burry you,
that's all

it's a she

it is my mother

- There is no priest?
- Not in these cases, you did know that?

she is dead,
put her in the ground

Priest or no priest, what does it matter,
she was gone, she was already rutting

sorry

as I suppose to believe she had found
a turnal Peace

you Coming with us?

will you just go?

Hey, wait

Ok ..

let us get out of here, okay?

Liz, you know ... I just .. I can't
I can't do this anymore.
you know.. so, I'm going

Where?

group home

A crazy house

You know Liz, it's this, this ???
this is crazy

you should Come with me

yeah, so see you around

People died,
things decayed

everything that seems so solid
is meaning less

all that we left
is the gestures we make

gestures in air,
that's what we remember

I remember riding with my mother
through the leaves

the year ending put her arms around me,
when I was little,
and she was well

that was long ago,

maybe it only happened once

mybe she betrayed me a thousand times
it didn't matter
Math will always be as a subject

we remember what we choose

get out of there!

Where you gonna put the stone?

there's no stones here ,
there's no room

In a week
there would be no trace over

but what did it matter,
this wasn't the real world,
and we really live in each others hearts

She lived in my heart,
but I live nowhere,
I was all alone in the world

You are 16 years old with an 8th grade education

and when you are down the world spiral
that will end in the worst place
than you ever dreamed

you've burned every bridge,
you're ran out of every welcome

an everyone who has ever believe in you
you have let down

Eva?

I don't want to be an idiot,
I want to go to school

- Yes
- Hi, I am ELisabeth Murray,
I have an appointment

at 9:30,
it's 10:30

I'm Sorry, the subway got stucked
I'm sorry too ,but it's really late

The school started 3 weeks ago
we are just about full
kids get on time here honey

I read the brochure intensive
Student participation for the Development
of injust community calendar

I just need one chance

You can wait and talk to David,
but he got this meeting right after

I knew at that moment I had to make a choice

I could submit to everything that was happening
and live a life of execuses

or I could push myself,
I can push myself
and make my life good

- We'll get to you back on Friday.
- Ok, thank you
it's a pleasure guys

- Elisabeth
- Liz

Liz I am sorry, we are making
our last decision and I'm already late

can I just talk to you for a minute ? 30 seconds?

well, there's the application,
and the whole big eassy question

I've already done the eassy
I really want this

I haven't had a lot of gown ups that
proved to be trust worthy
or in it for the long run .. so...

Maybe I don't know how to talk to you

My parents both use drugs, alot of them,
I won't go near them, but ...
I guess I've kind of lived that life style

I'm embareced now, not how late back I've been
I mean...

I've really never been in school
except for the 8th grade, but...

but your grades are very good
to enter school

I used to show up last week
and take the test,
and that's how I got promoted

I'm smart, I know I can succeed,
I just need a chance

I need the chance
I need the chance to climb out of the place
I've born in, I mean...

Everyone I know they just, angry, tired
they are trying to survive

But I know that there is a world out there that's ..
better!! that's...

better developed and...
I wanna live in it

Why now?

My mother died of AIDS, she died couple of months ago
and ...

it was real ..
slap in the face

I guess I always thought that
she was gonna get better
and take care of me ..

it's prety stupid, huh?

You had never take care of me,
I took care of her ..

she was my baby

but now she's gone ..
so ..

now it's time to take care of yourslef

can you get here on time Liz ??

I'll sleep here, If I have to

Ok, you're in

But you told the others
you won't know before friday

-you're in
- David

Thank you!
He just changed my life!

that's word's man?

just take the file and start the paper work,
got your transcripts ? it's just the easy staff

address, phone number
we have to have a meeting
with your parents or you guardian,

get that in, and you are good to go

Dad

hey, Lizzy!

I need your help, please ..

such a Production ... such a production
why don't you just stay in Bronx
Then you can go to Kennedy

I don't know how to go to a normal school

Why, this is not a normal school?

- Well, it is public, but it is like private
- yeah

Dad, Dad!

I think I can do this

yeah?, that's good
I don't think I can

hey, you can, you can

well just say you're a long time truck driver
that's why they will never see you

you're living with your girl friend now or also

Already, a truck driver who travels,
and then I have a companion buckle

- Eva
- Eva !! that's not good
Eva is old enough to be my mother

Dad! I just

I just need an address, you know?

A phone number they can call

Please, please,
they can't know I'm homeless

they'll call the city
and I will be locked again

- Ok ..
- Yeah ?
- Ok

Mr Murray
I am Peter, Peter Fidelty,
I never actually married Liza's mother

Sit down, please

I am grateful you take my daughter in this

This is a very nice place

well, we're still new, we have big ambitions

yea, so as Lizzy I guess,
she's a feminist

I knew you excpected that already

her mother was actually beautiful,
like a movie star but..
aher mother was also kind of feminist

or something like that

Anyway I thought when I met her
she was just, you know ... spirited
bu actually she was completly insane

- We just need you to sign right here.
- yeah.

and give us contact information
address and phone number

Yes, 3458 University Avenue

- There are a number of apartment?
- Yep, 2b
3b, 3b! yea! That's right

That's right we moved upstairs

phone number?

718 5 85 57 67
555 55 67

Excuse me, are somewhat out of phase

so that's it ?
wI got staff I got to do

yea, that's it

Thanks for coming

Can I start now?

It's *** to have someone actually
want to come to school, yea

I'll walk him out

Alright
oh, they give you token here?

No, I got a job

yea, I remember when you're a kid
you used to bag groceries down in Foren Road
put food in the fridge

- How old are you?
- 8

- I am not a people person, you understand that
- Yes

I'm just not a people person Liz

I got nothing to do with you,
you know it's not personal

- But you came today though ...
- yep!

I love you dad !

oh don't do that,
don't love me,
it is a waste of energy

You know, when I was litle
you were the most interesting thing in my world

everyone was just talking about
drugs or sex or...
just trying to survive the day

but you always had ideas

it's becuase of you I know
there's another way of being

- yeah

are you okay?

yea yea, I'm fine
they take care of your dad fine in the shelter

Actually I'm gonna get my own apartment
I would like to do that,

you can come stay with me
visit me anytime

your own apartment...

Yes,they like to do that,
they keep the people like me out of the shelters

you know,like the patients,
you know, people with AIDS

Hey Listen, alot of changes than jean
I got all this medicens now,

and I'm clean, So I'm gonna live forever

Ok, I'll be fine,
I'm gonna live forever

stay in school,
I blew this,
but you can do this

Golf Tonkin
Remember the Maine
anybody? Franco-Prussian War?

You did you get Bismark?
you didn't get Bismark
I didn't get Bismark either

I thought this Bismark was kinda role
so is this Bismark a kizar ?

stop talking about food,
you're making me hungry

Dave are we gonna have book next year?
cause I keep losing this things

hmm.. textbooks
Why don't we use textbooks?
anyone?

Too heavy !!
Bzzt! they are, but no cigar!!

it's too expensive,
the school is so poor
Bzzzt! I'm keeping my cigar today

You, new girl
Her name is Liz!
chesus dave she's been here for a week, try to Remember

Liz,
sue me ...

Here, Textbook,
text ...
book ...

Up, open it,
what do you see?

Words

What kind of words?

the words of the author

No, no,
it is important

and what do we have here?

alot of other people's words

and I want you to have them?

because one point of view
gives you a one Dimentional-world

Cigars!! , Cigars!!

Bismarck, Marx, the guy who sold me
the buble gums Cigars

why on earth we could find ourselves
To his story ... history

but isn't that the deal dave?
I mean, is there an official history

New girl,
tell him what history is

History is all of us
all our stories count

that's it, grap your papers
I will be in the lounch
if you want to talk about it

hey Liz, this is yours

- hey, new girl
- you let me in and you don't remember my name

- oh, I remember your name,
- I just like to gang up on your side

You are pretty smart
hah, so as you

you gave me an A minus
Yes, sounds a very good paper

How do I make an A
Liz, an A minus is an excellent mark

This is your first working school in ..what .. forever?

If my words count
I want them to be right

Okay
well ...

Oh!
What are you still doing here?

- Algebra
- yea Well, it's after 11, I locking up

how many classes are you taking?

Um, the regular five,
then the saturday programming,
the night school French

and the after school sciences
10 ...

Now you see why I need the before school math

It's alot
I'm 17,
I do not want to be 21 before I finish high school

So you're trying to do what
4 years of high school in 3?

2
you need before math school too

Yeah, you're gonna kill yourself!

No. ..
I'm gonna live

I had a down, the B train
took 70 minutes to do that entire run

I've been back 4 times
and I would be at school just a little early

Then David would let me in

For the first time my life
had some order I can count on

Chris?

What are you doing here?

- hanging out
- what about the home
- I got hookie

- so how come you didn't look for me?
- I did

I have been looking for a long time
just that ... you haven't been in any other places

I'm here now
and I'm going to a new school,
you'd like it

Hey ...
hey, come on
it will be great, we are together

Last one out, first one in
No, that describes you david

how did you get so dedicated

Well, I'm such a privilage jurk,
I wanted to give something back

and this is ...?
My friend Chris,
my best friend

- Hi Chris
- Hey

I want her to come here too
it's not a party, you know .. it's a tough place

well, she's good for you,
she's good enogh for me, come on in

so, what you were putting on the bored?
oh we decided to send our top 10 students
on schoolarship to Boston

Cool!
you ever been?
I've never been out of New York

we went to Queens once
Well, you're going

-come on, Noway I'm in the top 10 students

well, you're not one of the top, you're the top
you're not among the best,
you're the best ...

You got the best grades in this whole place Liz

- yea, so what .. going to Boston?
- All expenses paid

- how long?
- 5 days

- you okay, Liz?
- Yes

I've just was always been trash, you know..

You are not trash

This is to get you thinking about college

- what's college like
- it's all crap, shut up!

You can come too
Can't she?

sure, if she does the work

come on chris
dream a little,
what do you wanna be when you grow up?

boy,
I was grown since I was 7

- Chris ...
- I mean after high school, it's okay

No, it's not okay
I'll be a garbage man, I'll be a prostitute

who cares what the hell I'm gonna be?

Welcome to Harvard guys

So, does it looks like you though it would?

Better, definitely better

Liz, they're just people

Not people like me

Why not people like me?
What made them so different?

becuase of the way they were born?

I was working as hard as I could so
so I didn't end up as food stamps
or hustling

What if .. what if I worked even more?

I was so close to this skin
that I can touch it

It would be a reach,
it's not impossible

- dona, there any other scholarships?
- yea,it's quite a few

Write 1500 words about the importance
of the free market in the free world
and win $ 500

yea, I would need only 70 of those, every year

Ah, there was something brand new
from the newyork time,
maybe I didn't put them in yet

- $ 12,000
every year for 4 years!
- What do you have to do?

Attach a brief eassy describing
what you believe to be the most
significant academic achievement

and how you have overcome any challenges
tor obstacles

can I have copy of this?

I want to stand beside the people
in the sidewalk not be so far
beneath them

I wanna go to Harvard,
and become very developed
read all the bets books

Then I find myself thinking:
if I just go crazy?

even lose every *** of my potential
to do that

I have to do it,
I have no choice

- Am I late?
- No, I'm early

- I made you some coffee
one sweet ***, right?
- Right!

Thank you

Can I have a stamp for this?

that's the New York Times schoolarship!
you haven't mailed it yet?

- When is the dead line?
- Tomorrow

I gave you that 4 months ago, Liz!
What were you waiting for?

for today,
for me to turn 18

it's your birthday?

Happy birthday!

but I don't think that an age required

No, Thank you

but now I can tell the truth,
that I was a homeless
and no one could come and take me away

Lisa

Liz!

Yes

What are you doing here?

I have this interview
I am a finalist for a big
New York times scholarship

But, I don't have anything to wear

you want my cloth?

Well, nothing fancy
it's just .. something I can put over this

Thank you

Mom sold my coat once
I couldn't go to school

I remember

I cried,
I love going to school so much

you never went to school

how did they gave you the scholarship?

because I'm homeless
and I'm doing really well in school now

You are not a homeless, Liz,
you could stay here

No I couldn't,
you know that ...

Grandpap hates you !!

I'm going blind

like Mom

I'm scared

Liz!

Liz, they kicked me out of the group home
with all my stuff

They can't kick you out
you are not 18 years

then group with me in Brooklin,
I don't wan to go to Brooklin!
You have to help me!

I have an interview

- No! Liz!
- I have to!

- You can not leave
- I have to

Chris!

just let me go through this one thing,
and then you can go back and go to school with me

I don't want to go to school!
I don't belong there,
and either do you

Yes, I do

you think they like people like us into harvard

The world moves,
you just a spec.,
it can all happen without you

situations are not conducive
to what you want for yourself

someone else's needs
someone else's plat
is going to be stronger than yours is

I think people just get frustrated
with how harsh life can be

So they spend their time
** on that frustrations
and calling it anger

keeping their eyes shut
from the wholes situation

to all the little tiny things
that have come together to make it
what it is?

because I was turn so inward
by my Mom and Dad, I got a chance to see how

all the litle tiny things
come together to make the final product

so, I was never ** to wonder
why this or why that

I knew why

not that I was happy about it,
in fact I was really sad about it most of the time

but I was very accepting

I was very accepting

I just always knew that I needed to get out

Is there anything else you would like to tell us?

I loved my mother,

so much .. I mean

She was a drug addict,
was an alcholic

she was legally blind
she was schizophrenic

But ..

I never forget
that .. she did love me

even if she did,

All the time,

All the time,

All the time ...

I hope you all know
how much I really need this

how I can't go to college or anything without it

she earned a 95 average and finished
at the top of her class of 150

she did alot completly 4 years high school
in 2

she did it while homeless

her mother is dead
her father is a drug addict and living in shelters

and anyway I can describe
this can't do justice to her accomplishments

So, I'll just introduce to you
our sixths New York time schoolarship winner

Liz Murray

everything is changed,

my life will never be the same

and I don't know what else to say except for thank you
thank you very much

Liz!
Liz, how did you do this?

How could I not do it ..
my parents showed me
what the alternative was

Didn't you even feel sorry for yourself

Sorry?

Sleeping in the subway,
eating out of dumpsters

that had always been my life

I really .. I feel that I get lucky
because any sensive security

awas pulled out from under
so I was forced to look forward

I had to ,
there was no going back

And I reached the point
I just thought: Alrigth,

I'm gonna work as hard as I possibly can
and see what happens

And .. now I'm going to college

and the New York Times
is going to pay

So you were lucky ... but
is there anything you change
if you were able?

Yes

I'd give it back

All of it

If I could have my family back

I got into harvard,

I got a job at the New York Times,

I got an apartment

I don't have to carry my whole life with me any more

I don't have to carry my whole life with me

but I do ...

Every one I have known,
Everything I have done

pieces chip off,
I forget the little things

I had still hard to carry

alone

so that's why I told you so,

That's why I've told you my story

Now I can lay that burden down,
put it dressed AND...

and I can go on

Hi, Mom

Liz's father suffering from AIDS
and lives in his apartment

Chris has a steady job and remained good friends with liz

Liz pays the rent of her apartment
with the money she earned from making confrences

Liz has left Harvard in the spring of 2003.
she continued her studies at college.
She is convinced that her path will come by itself.