What my mama told me: Holocaust survivor | Edith Eva Eger | TEDxLaJolla
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0:12 - 0:18I would be so privileged
if you would allow me, -
0:18 - 0:21for the few minutes that you've given me,
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0:22 - 0:23to be your mom,
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0:25 - 0:26your grandma,
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0:26 - 0:28your great-grandma.
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0:28 - 0:29(Laughter)
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0:29 - 0:31I have four generations.
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0:33 - 0:35What a joy for me to be here with you.
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0:36 - 0:38And with your permission,
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0:38 - 0:41I'm going to take you on a ride.
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0:41 - 0:46I want to share with you
what my mom told me -
0:46 - 0:53that truly, truly changed my life -
the past and the present. -
0:55 - 0:57The time is 1944.
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1:01 - 1:05My dad, my sister Magda and I
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1:06 - 1:07and my mom,
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1:08 - 1:11we were on our way to Auschwitz.
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1:12 - 1:16And my mom held me,
and this is what she said. -
1:16 - 1:18She said, "We don't know
where we're going. -
1:19 - 1:21We don't know what's going to happen.
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1:21 - 1:22Just remember,
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1:22 - 1:28no one can take away from you
what you put here in your own mind." -
1:28 - 1:30And this is exactly what happened.
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1:31 - 1:34We arrived in Auschwitz.
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1:35 - 1:38I saw the sign. I didn't know where I was.
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1:38 - 1:40My father was separated,
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1:41 - 1:47and I stood in front of Doctor Mengele,
"the Angel of Death." -
1:47 - 1:50He pointed my mom to go to the left
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1:50 - 1:52and my sister and I to the right.
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1:53 - 1:55I followed my mom,
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1:56 - 1:58and he grabbed me, looked me in the eye -
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1:59 - 2:01that I never forget that look -
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2:02 - 2:04and he said: "You're going to see
your mother very soon; -
2:04 - 2:06she's just going to take a shower,"
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2:07 - 2:09and promptly threw me on the other side -
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2:11 - 2:13which meant life.
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2:15 - 2:19I suffered so many years
from survivor's guilt and shame, -
2:20 - 2:22wondering, "Why me?"
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2:23 - 2:29There were people who were
so much prettier than I was. -
2:30 - 2:32I had two very beautiful sisters,
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2:33 - 2:37and after two beautiful sisters,
my parents wanted a son, -
2:37 - 2:38and guess what happened!
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2:39 - 2:40They got me,
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2:40 - 2:43and I was the runt in my family.
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2:43 - 2:45My sisters took me for a walk,
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2:45 - 2:49and they blindfolded me
because I was cross-eyed. -
2:49 - 2:52Today, I speak at schools.
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2:52 - 2:55I'm really guiding the precious children
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2:55 - 2:58not to allow anyone to define who you are.
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2:58 - 3:01You're beautiful because
God doesn't make junk. -
3:02 - 3:07And so, here I was asking -
it was called Birkenau - -
3:07 - 3:11I asked one of the inmates,
"When will I see my mother?" -
3:11 - 3:13She pointed at a chimney,
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3:14 - 3:17and she said to me very coldly,
"She's burning there." -
3:17 - 3:20So there was no help from the outside,
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3:20 - 3:25but I still had my mind
and my sister Magda. -
3:26 - 3:29She was the pretty one
in my family, the sexy one. -
3:30 - 3:32And when we were completely shaved,
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3:32 - 3:37she came to me with hair in her palms
and said, "How do I look?" -
3:38 - 3:41It's a Hungarian woman's question -
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3:41 - 3:43we're pretty vain -
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3:44 - 3:47and I knew and I discovered
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3:47 - 3:52Auschwitz was all about discovering traits
I never thought were possible. -
3:52 - 3:55And instead of telling Magda
how she really looked, -
3:55 - 3:59I found something, something
that she still had left, -
3:59 - 4:03and I said to her, "Magda,
you have such beautiful eyes, -
4:03 - 4:05and you know,
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4:05 - 4:10I really didn't see it when you had
your hair covering your eyes." -
4:10 - 4:13So I hope that you're going
to relate tonight. -
4:14 - 4:18Pay attention to the kind of words
that you put in your mind -
4:18 - 4:20so you can empower someone
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4:20 - 4:25and see in which way
I can be your guide tonight. -
4:30 - 4:32Doctor Mengele
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4:33 - 4:35appeared in our barracks
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4:36 - 4:38and looked for the talents,
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4:38 - 4:42and my friends volunteered me
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4:43 - 4:48because I was a student of ballet.
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4:49 - 4:52I was a good gymnast.
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4:52 - 4:57I danced for the president
of Hungary, Admiral Horthy, -
4:57 - 5:01and I found myself
in front of Doctor Mengele, dancing. -
5:01 - 5:06And again, my mind was with me,
and I was able to check out, -
5:06 - 5:10and I pretended that the music
was Tchaikovsky -
5:10 - 5:15and I was dancing the Romeo and Juliet
at the Budapest Opera House. -
5:16 - 5:20He gave me a piece of bread,
which I shared with my girls. -
5:20 - 5:23Life was really difficult in Auschwitz
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5:23 - 5:26because we never knew
what's going to happen next. -
5:28 - 5:30We didn't know when we took a shower
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5:30 - 5:35whether water is going to come out
or gas is going to come out. -
5:36 - 5:42And then, what we had to do
is, again, somehow survive. -
5:42 - 5:47I remember we stood in line
every morning, four o'clock, -
5:47 - 5:52and I, I began to fantasize
about my boyfriend. -
5:53 - 5:58And I said to myself, "If I survive today,
then tomorrow I'll be free." -
5:59 - 6:02Tomorrow, tomorrow - always looking ahead.
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6:02 - 6:05And I learned to say -
instead of "Why me?" - -
6:05 - 6:08"What now?" and "What next?"
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6:08 - 6:13I had a tremendous curiosity
that really was so powerful -
6:13 - 6:18that I was able to make it day by day.
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6:19 - 6:22But we had to be committed to each other;
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6:22 - 6:25otherwise, we never would have made it.
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6:25 - 6:27Cooperation was the name of the game.
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6:27 - 6:30Not competition, not domination
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6:30 - 6:33because all we had was each other then
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6:33 - 6:36and all we have is each other now.
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6:37 - 6:39In December,
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6:41 - 6:43they took me out of Auschwitz.
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6:43 - 6:45I became a slave laborer,
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6:45 - 6:51and I was transported to a place
called Mauthausen to enter a death march. -
6:52 - 6:56And in a death march, when you stopped,
you were shot right away. -
6:56 - 7:01And while I was just about
to collapse myself, -
7:01 - 7:04and my friends, whom I shared
the bread with, -
7:05 - 7:09they came and they formed
a chair with their arms, -
7:09 - 7:11and they carried me so I wouldn't die.
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7:11 - 7:13Isn't that amazing?
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7:13 - 7:18That the worst conditions
can bring out the best in us? -
7:19 - 7:25I was liberated May 4th -
it's coming up - 1945, -
7:25 - 7:28by the 71st Infantry.
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7:28 - 7:31I was so privileged
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7:31 - 7:36that I am working now with the military,
doing work with PTSD. -
7:36 - 7:40I was invited to Fort Carson,
Colorado City, -
7:40 - 7:46and I realized when I arrived
that it's the home of the 71st Infantry. -
7:46 - 7:49You see how life comes around?
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7:49 - 7:53And now, today, as I'm standing
here in front of you, -
7:53 - 7:57I can tell you I have
nothing but gratitude. -
7:57 - 8:02We don't seem to appreciate, sometimes,
what we have until we lose it. -
8:02 - 8:04Every morsel of food.
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8:06 - 8:08The walk on this beautiful beach.
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8:10 - 8:13I never throw out a piece of bread.
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8:13 - 8:18If you take me out to dinner,
chances are I may eat up your leftovers. -
8:18 - 8:23It's really painful for me,
my daughter keeps telling me -
8:23 - 8:25and my precious grandson, Jordan.
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8:25 - 8:29Please, let people know
that beauty of mine. -
8:29 - 8:33Come on, stand up, Jordan! Jordan!
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8:33 - 8:34(Applause)
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8:34 - 8:39That's the best revenge!
That's the best revenge - my kind! -
8:40 - 8:41That's all.
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8:42 - 8:44Not only do I have three children;
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8:44 - 8:50I have five grandchildren
and three beautiful great-grandsons. -
8:51 - 8:53That's revenge - my kind.
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8:54 - 9:00But I was not really able
to have the joy and the compassion -
9:01 - 9:04until I was able to return to Auschwitz,
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9:04 - 9:07until I was able to go back
to that lion's den -
9:07 - 9:09and look at the lion in the face -
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9:09 - 9:13until I was able to somehow
reclaim my innocence, -
9:13 - 9:17assign the shame and guilt
to the perpetrator -
9:17 - 9:21and finally forgive myself
that I survived. -
9:22 - 9:25You see, revenge gives you satisfaction,
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9:26 - 9:29but I think it's very temporary.
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9:29 - 9:32It just saps you of so much energy.
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9:32 - 9:35But forgiveness - believe me -
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9:36 - 9:42has given me the ultimate,
the ultimate spiritual freedom. -
9:42 - 9:46So, as I stand here in front of you today,
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9:46 - 9:49I can tell you that I'm so blessed today
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9:50 - 9:54that I can guide people
from darkness to light, -
9:54 - 9:57from prison to freedom
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9:57 - 10:00and to find that, perhaps,
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10:00 - 10:05the biggest concentration camp
is right in your own mind -
10:05 - 10:08and the key is in your pocket.
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10:10 - 10:13What keeps me young today?
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10:14 - 10:16That I live in the present
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10:16 - 10:19because I can only touch you now.
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10:19 - 10:22If you'd please like to hold hand in hand.
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10:23 - 10:25We all have a little skin hunger.
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10:25 - 10:28So please touch, hold hands!
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10:29 - 10:35And I, too, believe somehow,
as I am able to stand here, -
10:35 - 10:37look at you precious young people,
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10:38 - 10:40that you are the future.
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10:41 - 10:47With TED, you and I can empower
each other with our differences -
10:47 - 10:50and never kicking each other
into submission -
10:50 - 10:53because that would be
the beginning of the end -
10:53 - 10:57of the beautiful democracy
that I came to this country for. -
10:58 - 11:02So just remember,
you can make a difference. -
11:03 - 11:06And remember my mom's words,
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11:06 - 11:10that everything can be taken away from us
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11:11 - 11:14except what you put in your own mind.
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11:14 - 11:20So I hope that you will be
very careful and very selective -
11:21 - 11:23with the words that you
can put in your mind -
11:24 - 11:29so your life would be
as beautiful as mine has become, -
11:30 - 11:34and you and I can truly celebrate
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11:34 - 11:39the beautiful gift
that God has given us called life. -
11:39 - 11:41Thank you!
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11:41 - 11:43(Applause)
- Title:
- What my mama told me: Holocaust survivor | Edith Eva Eger | TEDxLaJolla
- Description:
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To some people, it may seem that Dr. Edith Eva Eger, a concentration camp survivor, lost everything during World War II. But to Edith, her experience gave her an understanding and compassion for others that has led to a beautiful life. Watch this inspiring talk as she talks about revenge versus forgiveness.
Dr. Edith Eva Eger is a Holocaust survivor of Auschwitz and other concentration camps. She was liberated in Gunskirchen, Austria, on May 4, 1945, by the U.S. 71st Infantry. Currently she has a private clinical psychology practice in La Jolla, California, and holds a faculty appointment at the University of California San Diego Medical School. She has appeared on numerous television programs, including Oprah, and was the primary subject of a Holocaust documentary that appeared on Dutch National Television. She offers a powerful message of compassion, love and resilience.
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at http:ted.com/tedx
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- English
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- closed TED
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- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 12:04
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