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Remember? And it just got awkward, ok.
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You're worthless. I'm not worthless!
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I got up this morning. I went to work. I saw my clients - they count on me. I'm not worthless, I'm helping people.
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What I did right there, that's what I ask a lot of you to do. And that's talking back to that eating disorder voice. That tells us those horrible things.
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So I'm gonna do a couple more. I'm gonna kinda walk you through how to do it.
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Because I know a lot of you have trouble and many of you have asked me to do a video where I just yell back to your eating disorder so you can put it on when you're having a hard time.
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So I'm just gonna kinda ramble off some things that I think fight back against the voices that I know it tells-
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the little snippets of things it tells us all day, ok?
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I'm not fat! I'm working on myself. I'm a person.
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I am so much more than the numbers on a scale. I'm so much more than how, what number's on my clothes.
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I'm so much more than that.
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There's so much to me that you can't even understand, because all you focus on is a number on the scale.
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And how many times I've done the behaviors you keep telling me to do.
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I work hard. I'm not lazy!
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I get up. I talk to people. I see my therapist.
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I get out of the house, right? I get online, I check Kati's videos and when she gives me advice I do it.
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I don't know about you but I wouldn't call that lazy at all.
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I'm not stupid! I'm really freakin' smart.
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I go to school. I get my school work done.
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A lot of times I get A's on things.
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So I wouldn't really think that anybody would actually consider that stupid. Right?
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I don't think so. I go to college.
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Right? I go to class. I got in to college.
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That's not stupid. You're stupid.
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You should shut up. Because you're really annoying me.
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I'm trying to think of other good ones.
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That person's not talking about me.
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They have a lot of other things going on.
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It's not all about you and me and people aren't watching me.
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I'm doing my thing, I'm focusing on myself.
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So stop drawing attention to other people, they're not paying attention to me.
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I am paying attention to me.
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I'm recovering. I'm eating lunch right now.
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So you need to shut the hell up.
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Now those are just a couple things, and I'll keep doing these. It's kinda fun.
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I feel kinda feisty, like, I don't know. It's exciting. (giggle)
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But hopefully that's kind of helpful.
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And these are things that we have to kinda practice.
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It's - We're learning to get our voice back.
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And a lot of times our eating disorder just rips it out.
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I doesn't want to hear it. It just-
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We are so used to stuffing how we feel, worries, normal feelings, things that come up.
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And other people cry, they feel mad, they feel sad.
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We feel like we're not allowed to. Right? So we just stuff this down.
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And we let our eating disorder talk for us.
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And you know what? It's time to take it back.
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We don't have to listen. We don't have to put up with its crap.
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We don't have to have that voice just, all day. Talking negative
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So we're gonna learn to talk back. And if you haven't checked out my, um, workbook it's on my website.
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There's a little tab. A free workbook. You can download it.
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And the first task is practicing this. This very thing I was just doing.
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And I know that for many of you, you will fill up the eating disorder side of the page really quickly but talking back will be hard.
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But just replay this video. Take some time.
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I want you to say these things out loud with me.
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I'm not stupid.
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I work hard, I got into college, I go to school.
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I got good grades. Whatever it is.
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Did you say it out loud?
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Say it out loud!
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We have to say things out loud sometimes.
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I mean if you're sitting at a crowded coffee shop it's probably not the right time but take it home and say it out loud then.
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Ok? Because we have to get our voice back.
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So don't just say it in your head. Don't just type it in your computer.
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I want you to say it out loud and I want you to practice.
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So let's go back to the beginning of this video.
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I want you to go through it and after I've said it back to the eating disorder voice I want you to say it again. Ok?
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And like I said, I'll keep putting these out because I know it's hard.
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And we need that little boost.
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Because our eating disorder needs to know that we're a force to be reckoned with.
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And we're not gonna be quiet anymore. Ok?
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So let's regain our voice, let's say it out loud, and let's fight back.