Drinking and how it changed my life | Ann Dowsett-Johnston | TEDxHomeBushRdWomen
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0:08 - 0:09Thank you very much.
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0:10 - 0:14You know, there's a story
that they tell about a writer -
0:14 - 0:19who heads up to the pearly gates
on a very, very busy day, -
0:19 - 0:24and she is not quite sure if she's going
to end up in heaven or hell, -
0:24 - 0:27and she waits in line
for about three hours, -
0:27 - 0:29a little bit longer,
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0:29 - 0:31and she's a good researcher,
and she gets very frustrated. -
0:32 - 0:35Finally, she goes up to the front
of the line, and she says, -
0:35 - 0:38"Do you think I could see God?"
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0:38 - 0:41And God comes out and says,
"Can I help you?" -
0:41 - 0:44And she says, "Not sure
if I'm going to heaven or hell, -
0:44 - 0:46but I might as well start with hell.
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0:46 - 0:48Do you think I could have a sneak peek?"
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0:48 - 0:52And God says, "Of course.
First door on the right." -
0:52 - 0:56So she goes and takes
a little peek at hell, -
0:56 - 0:57and she sees her worst nightmare.
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0:57 - 1:02She sees a whole room full of writers
chained to their desks, -
1:02 - 1:04clearly they've missed their deadlines.
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1:04 - 1:07The clock's going around
and around like this. -
1:07 - 1:10There's sweat pouring off their brow,
their hair is disheveled, -
1:10 - 1:11they're tap, tap, tapping away.
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1:11 - 1:14And she says, "No, not for me,"
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1:14 - 1:15and closes the door,
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1:15 - 1:19goes back to the front
of the queue and says to God, -
1:19 - 1:21"Do I have a minute to see heaven?"
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1:21 - 1:23And God says, "Of course, you do.
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1:23 - 1:25First door on the left."
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1:25 - 1:27So she opens the door,
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1:27 - 1:30and, lo and behold,
she sees the same damn thing. -
1:30 - 1:31Same damn thing.
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1:31 - 1:34There's all these poor writers
that missed their deadlines, -
1:34 - 1:38and sweat's pouring off their brow,
and they're tap, tap, tapping away, -
1:38 - 1:39and the clock's going around like this.
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1:39 - 1:42She closes the door,
and she goes up to God and says, -
1:42 - 1:43"I don't know, God.
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1:43 - 1:47I don't see much difference
between heaven and hell." -
1:47 - 1:50And God looks at her and says,
"My dear, there's a huge difference. -
1:50 - 1:52In heaven, the writers get published."
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1:52 - 1:54(Laughter)
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1:57 - 2:01And that was my truth,
that was my heavenly truth this fall. -
2:01 - 2:03My book got published.
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2:03 - 2:06It got published. My first book.
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2:06 - 2:11This is the way it looked
here in New Zealand and Australia, -
2:11 - 2:14and this is the way that it looked
for the rest of the world. -
2:14 - 2:17And it was just
a heavenly fall that I had. -
2:18 - 2:19Maybe spring for you,
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2:19 - 2:23but wherever you are in the world,
I had a heavenly couple of months. -
2:23 - 2:25That was the good news.
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2:25 - 2:31The bad news was that I outed myself
to the entire world as an alcoholic. -
2:31 - 2:33In fact, worse than that,
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2:34 - 2:36this was my very public face.
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2:36 - 2:42I outed myself as the poster girl
for today's modern alcoholic, -
2:42 - 2:47and she is female, she is well-educated,
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2:47 - 2:50she is professional,
she is high functioning, -
2:50 - 2:51and she is high bottom -
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2:51 - 2:54"high bottom" meaning
she hadn't lost everything. -
2:54 - 2:57That was me, that was me.
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2:57 - 3:00And I went on the publicity circuit
all around the world, -
3:00 - 3:04and I was asked about my story.
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3:07 - 3:10People would always end
with the same question: -
3:10 - 3:12why did you want to write this book?
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3:12 - 3:14And I ultimately considered it
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3:14 - 3:16just about the rudest question
you could ask me, -
3:16 - 3:19because what they were
really saying was three things: -
3:19 - 3:22number one, are you crazy,
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3:22 - 3:26number two, don't you realize
you'll never get hired again, -
3:26 - 3:29and number three, how much did you drink?
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3:29 - 3:30(Laughter)
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3:30 - 3:32And the truth is:
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3:32 - 3:34number one, I'm not crazy.
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3:34 - 3:39I'm not crazy. I believe
that our secrets keep us very sick. -
3:39 - 3:42Number two, will I ever get hired again?
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3:42 - 3:46Well, let's just say, I applied for a job
I really cared about, about a month ago, -
3:46 - 3:48and I didn't even get a call.
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3:48 - 3:50I think when you write
a book called "Drink," -
3:50 - 3:53probably they're not so sure
they want you. -
3:53 - 3:59So the stigma's large,
and I'm pretty aware of what I've done -
4:00 - 4:01in outing myself.
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4:01 - 4:03Number three, how much did I drink?
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4:03 - 4:06Well, I drank a lot more
than I should have, -
4:06 - 4:08over a very short amount of time,
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4:08 - 4:11and probably a lot less
than you're imagining. -
4:11 - 4:12(Laughter)
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4:12 - 4:16But this was the book
that I wanted to write, -
4:16 - 4:18and I have to tell you,
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4:18 - 4:23they say we have private lives,
and we have professional lives, -
4:23 - 4:25and we have secret lives.
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4:25 - 4:27And my secret life was the fact
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4:27 - 4:32that I had grown up
with a beautiful, beautiful mother, -
4:32 - 4:34lovely, lovely mother.
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4:34 - 4:35This is how she looked.
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4:35 - 4:37I'm the one in the glasses
in this picture. -
4:39 - 4:41I wore glasses from a very young age.
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4:41 - 4:43She was beautiful, and she was lonely.
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4:43 - 4:45My father traveled all around the world,
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4:45 - 4:47and she raised three children by herself,
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4:47 - 4:48and it was pre-email.
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4:49 - 4:53The doctor gave her Valium,
and she drank on the Valium, -
4:53 - 4:57and she was, indeed,
the poster girl for her era, -
4:57 - 4:58the 1960s,
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4:58 - 5:01mixing cocktails during the day
as a stay-at-home mom -
5:01 - 5:05who really devolved
over about three decades -
5:05 - 5:10into someone who looked very different
and who was very different. -
5:10 - 5:12It was really tough in our house.
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5:13 - 5:16It was the one thing I was sure
I was never going to do -
5:16 - 5:17was to become an alcoholic.
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5:17 - 5:21I was really sure.
That was not on my wishlist. -
5:21 - 5:24I did not look like my mother,
I didn't drink in the day, -
5:24 - 5:27I didn't miss work, I won awards at work.
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5:27 - 5:31I really was sure I wasn't an alcoholic,
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5:31 - 5:34or I prayed that I wasn't one.
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5:34 - 5:39It wasn't until I received
this very beautiful handmade card -
5:39 - 5:42from my 22-year-old son
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5:42 - 5:46that I realized maybe
there was no denying it. -
5:46 - 5:51I received this card
from him seven years ago, -
5:51 - 5:55and I opened it up,
and I thought, "How extraordinary. -
5:55 - 5:58He's an artist, it's handmade,
it's got a heart behind me. -
5:58 - 6:00It says, 'Happy Mother.' "
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6:00 - 6:03And I thought, "This is perfect."
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6:03 - 6:05I hadn't read the fine print.
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6:05 - 6:06I had had a root canal,
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6:06 - 6:09and I hadn't been drinking
for three weeks, -
6:09 - 6:11and he had seen me really sober,
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6:11 - 6:13sober every evening.
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6:13 - 6:15He'd watched me sleeping well,
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6:15 - 6:18he'd watched my moods be very smooth.
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6:18 - 6:20And he wrote on one side.
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6:20 - 6:23I don't know if you
can read it, but it says, -
6:23 - 6:25"No bags under her eyes."
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6:25 - 6:28And it says, "Writing, not editing."
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6:28 - 6:29He knew that I wanted to write
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6:29 - 6:32and that I was betraying myself
as an individual. -
6:32 - 6:35But most importantly, he said,
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6:35 - 6:37"Perrier, not wine."
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6:37 - 6:40And I received this card,
and I knew the gig was up. -
6:40 - 6:43I knew there was no denying
that I was an alcoholic. -
6:43 - 6:46Now, alcoholism is like this:
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6:46 - 6:49you will deny it, and it will progress,
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6:49 - 6:51and you will deny it
and play games with it, -
6:51 - 6:52and it will progress -
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6:52 - 6:54that's what happened to me.
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6:54 - 6:56I'd like to tell you
that I quit drinking then, -
6:56 - 6:57but I didn't.
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6:57 - 6:58I drank for another two years,
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6:58 - 7:02and I took a very, very big job,
and that's all in my book. -
7:03 - 7:05Finally, I got sober.
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7:05 - 7:09Finally, I got sober.
I did the heavy lifting of recovery, -
7:09 - 7:13and it's not for the faint of heart,
I have to tell you. -
7:13 - 7:16But, five years ago, I gave up drinking,
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7:16 - 7:21and it was a new beginning, a new life,
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7:21 - 7:23an absolutely new life,
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7:23 - 7:25and not totally easy
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7:25 - 7:29because, as we all know,
we live in an alcogenic culture. -
7:29 - 7:33We live in an alcogenic culture,
and here is the real truth, -
7:34 - 7:35and this is global.
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7:35 - 7:38The richer the country,
the more narrow the gap -
7:38 - 7:40between women's drinking
and men's drinking, -
7:40 - 7:42and this is the way it's going.
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7:42 - 7:45Men have always had
more to drink than women. -
7:45 - 7:49But men are flatlining
or going down just a little bit. -
7:49 - 7:50Women are going this way,
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7:50 - 7:54and it's confounding epidemiologists.
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7:54 - 7:56All around the world,
this is what's happening. -
7:57 - 8:00Walk into any room,
any social event, as you know, -
8:00 - 8:03and the first question
you're going to be asked right now -
8:03 - 8:05is "Red or white?"
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8:05 - 8:07Know your wines - you're sophisticated.
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8:07 - 8:11Know your vodkas -
you're cool, you're hip. -
8:11 - 8:16And know your coolers -
you're young and female. -
8:16 - 8:22We know all the downsides of trans fats
and all the downsides of tanning beds, -
8:22 - 8:24but we like to think
of a glass of red wine -
8:24 - 8:27sort of like vitamin D or dark chocolate -
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8:27 - 8:28good for our health.
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8:28 - 8:30And if we're drinking
a little bit too much, -
8:30 - 8:34well, we're just sort of drinking
like the Italians or French, -
8:34 - 8:36imbibing in the name of sophistication.
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8:36 - 8:39That's the way we like to look at things.
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8:39 - 8:44We don't like to hear, in fact,
that 15% of breast cancer cases -
8:44 - 8:46are linked to alcohol.
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8:46 - 8:49We don't like to know those things.
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8:49 - 8:53In fact, we have very,
very fuzzy values about alcohol. -
8:53 - 9:00And women drinking more
than they ever have before - -
9:00 - 9:04well, that was the major
question of my book. -
9:04 - 9:07I knew I wasn't alone.
I knew it wasn't just me. -
9:08 - 9:11I asked why, and I came up
with three reasons: -
9:11 - 9:16number one is I think it's become
the modern woman's steroid, -
9:16 - 9:20enabling her to do the lifting
in a still-evolving world. -
9:21 - 9:24We're in the middle
of a socioeconomic revolution, -
9:24 - 9:25and we all know that,
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9:25 - 9:28and so many of us
race home from a busy day, -
9:28 - 9:31stand there at the chopping board,
getting ready for dinner, -
9:31 - 9:33pour ourselves a glass of wine.
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9:33 - 9:37It's benign behavior.
It's common behavior. -
9:37 - 9:39Get ready for dinner, maybe an evening,
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9:39 - 9:42a second shift of overseeing homework
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9:42 - 9:44and maybe doing a little work yourself,
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9:44 - 9:47and you pour yourself
another glass of wine. -
9:47 - 9:48For years, this was me.
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9:49 - 9:50For years, this was me,
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9:50 - 9:52until I had a major depression,
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9:52 - 9:56a very serious depression in my 50s.
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9:56 - 10:00And that was reason number two:
self-medication. -
10:00 - 10:05Self-medication was why I drank
in a really different way. -
10:06 - 10:10Self-medication, in my case,
for depression and anxiety, -
10:10 - 10:14but for other women,
it's a decompression tool. -
10:14 - 10:15It's for stress.
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10:15 - 10:18In fact, the most common indicator
that you're going to have trouble, -
10:18 - 10:19as a woman with alcohol,
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10:19 - 10:22is childhood sexual abuse.
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10:22 - 10:24That's the most common reason.
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10:24 - 10:27And the third reason people drink
is because they can, -
10:27 - 10:29because they can, and it's delightful.
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10:29 - 10:31And we are being marketed to.
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10:31 - 10:35We are being marketed to
in an incredible way. -
10:36 - 10:37I've been watching -
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10:37 - 10:41in fact, the first question I asked
when I took on this project -
10:41 - 10:44was "Why? Why are liquor stores full?"
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10:44 - 10:48In North America, anyway,
a wine's called "Mommy Juice," -
10:49 - 10:51and "Girls' Night Out" wine,
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10:51 - 10:53and, yes, "Happy Bitch,"
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10:53 - 10:57and "Cupcake" wine,
and "French Rabbit" wine. -
10:57 - 11:00And why are there all these coolers,
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11:00 - 11:04and why is there "Skinnygirl" vodka,
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11:04 - 11:08mango-flavored vodka, berry coolers?
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11:08 - 11:10These aren't manly drinks.
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11:10 - 11:13I ask myself what happened,
and I went to the experts, -
11:13 - 11:15and I heard the most incredible story
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11:15 - 11:21that, in the mid-1990s,
the liquor distillery men looked around - -
11:21 - 11:23and they were mostly men -
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11:23 - 11:25looked around the world and said,
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11:25 - 11:27"Beer's cleaning our clock.
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11:27 - 11:30Beer's fun, beer's sport,
beer's entertainment. -
11:30 - 11:33All the Johnnie Walker
drinkers were dying out. -
11:33 - 11:35What are we going to do?"
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11:35 - 11:37They looked around the world and said,
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11:37 - 11:39"Who's underperforming,
who's not drinking?" -
11:39 - 11:41And they saw women, a whole gender!
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11:41 - 11:42(Laughter)
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11:42 - 11:43A whole gender,
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11:43 - 11:48and thus was born the alcopop,
those prepackaged little drinks, -
11:48 - 11:52vodka-infused, rum-infused, sweet,
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11:52 - 11:55aimed at girls, aimed at young girls.
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11:55 - 11:58It's high school that's the initiation
of drinking most commonly; -
11:58 - 12:01university is the escalation.
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12:01 - 12:05Sweet drinks to steer
young women away from beer. -
12:05 - 12:06They're called "chick beer,"
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12:06 - 12:09they're called "cocktails
with training wheels," -
12:09 - 12:11"starter drinks,"
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12:11 - 12:13and they were enormously successful.
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12:13 - 12:16So by the time that young women
get to university, -
12:16 - 12:20they've given them up,
but they're drinking vodka. -
12:21 - 12:22So you go onto any campus -
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12:22 - 12:25and I've been on a lot
of campuses recently - -
12:25 - 12:27you go on any campus,
and you look at what's happening, -
12:27 - 12:31and young men and women
are playing drinking games. -
12:31 - 12:34Forget the frat boy stereotype;
it's equal opportunity, -
12:34 - 12:36They're playing drinking games,
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12:36 - 12:40and he's drinking beer
and she's drinking vodka or tequila. -
12:40 - 12:42She's two-thirds his size.
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12:42 - 12:44She's two-thirds his size,
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12:44 - 12:46and she probably didn't eat
before that evening, -
12:46 - 12:51because often young women
these days don't eat before a date. -
12:51 - 12:54And we all know
that she's at a disadvantage, -
12:54 - 12:56we all know she's drinking
the stronger drink, -
12:56 - 13:01and we all know that alcohol
is the number one date rape drug, -
13:01 - 13:03and it has been for years.
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13:03 - 13:07So that's the story,
that's the story of what's happening. -
13:07 - 13:09And you ask yourself about this.
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13:09 - 13:14You ask yourself about why this generation
is not slowing down in their 20s, -
13:14 - 13:16and they're not slowing down in their 30s.
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13:17 - 13:19And think about this:
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13:19 - 13:22that increase is the steepest
for young women -
13:22 - 13:25between the ages of 24 and 36 -
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13:25 - 13:3124 and 36, those are the same women
who are giving birth to 60% of the babies. -
13:31 - 13:35And the FASD numbers, rates,
are going like this as well. -
13:35 - 13:37This is not a pretty picture.
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13:38 - 13:40So, I'm not trying to rain on our parade,
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13:40 - 13:42I'm not trying to rain on your parade,
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13:42 - 13:44and I'm not trying to be a killjoy.
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13:44 - 13:49I'm not saying, "If you can drink
fabulously well and manage it well, -
13:49 - 13:51good for you."
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13:51 - 13:54But if you're female,
know that safe drinking guidelines -
13:54 - 13:57would say no more
than 10 drinks in a week. -
13:57 - 13:59Know that, know that.
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13:59 - 14:02And even if you are drinking safely ...
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14:02 - 14:05I'm going to ask
because this is very dark, -
14:05 - 14:07when I'm looking out into the audience,
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14:07 - 14:09I'm not going to ask you
to raise your hands, -
14:09 - 14:11but if I were to ask you
to raise your hands and say, -
14:11 - 14:13"Is there anyone in this audience
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14:13 - 14:16that hasn't been touched
by someone's drinking?" -
14:16 - 14:19A mother or a father's,
a son or a daughter's, -
14:19 - 14:22a sister or brother's, or maybe your own.
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14:22 - 14:25I would bet that no one could lift a hand.
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14:26 - 14:28I would bet, in our culture, no one could.
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14:29 - 14:33So we ask ourselves the question,
"What should we do? -
14:34 - 14:37What should we do on a global level,
on a large policy level?" -
14:37 - 14:39That's what I'm interested in.
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14:40 - 14:42I'm going to tell you about a frog pond.
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14:42 - 14:46I'm going to tell you
about a frog pond, a strange frog pond -
14:46 - 14:49where there are a growing number of frogs
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14:49 - 14:53that are developing really ugly warts,
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14:53 - 14:57and a growing number
are growing infertile. -
14:57 - 14:58And everyone says,
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14:58 - 15:03"Better send in the surgeons.
Better send in the infertility experts." -
15:03 - 15:06And someone else very wise says,
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15:06 - 15:08"Maybe there's something in the water.
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15:08 - 15:10Maybe, just maybe,
there's something in the water." -
15:10 - 15:13And I'm here to say
there is something in the water. -
15:13 - 15:15We are awash in alcohol marketing.
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15:15 - 15:17We don't even notice it anymore.
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15:17 - 15:21We're awash in alcohol marketing,
we're awash in alcohol. -
15:21 - 15:24So, if we are smart,
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15:24 - 15:28we will push on the three levers
that we pushed on with tobacco. -
15:28 - 15:30We will push on marketing;
we'll reduce it. -
15:30 - 15:32And certainly, marketing on Facebook
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15:32 - 15:35that's aimed at young people
who are underage, -
15:35 - 15:41where marketers are tweeting
and interacting as a person, as a friend. -
15:41 - 15:43We will definitely look at pricing.
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15:43 - 15:45Let's talk about Britain.
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15:45 - 15:49In Britain, the price -
often alcohol is cheaper than milk -
15:49 - 15:50or cheaper than orange juice,
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15:50 - 15:53and you have young women in their 20s
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15:53 - 15:58developing end-stage
liver disease in the UK. -
15:58 - 16:02In the US, you've got
gas stations selling alcohol. -
16:02 - 16:06So accessibility is the third thing
that you press on. -
16:06 - 16:08That's what you do
if you're running a country. -
16:09 - 16:11And that's one thing.
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16:11 - 16:14But if you're -
as an individual, as I said - -
16:14 - 16:17if you're fine with your own drinking,
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16:17 - 16:19then more power to you, enjoy yourself.
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16:19 - 16:23But if you're drinking like I drank,
if you're drinking to numb, -
16:23 - 16:24that's another thing.
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16:25 - 16:29My life in sobriety has been rocky.
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16:29 - 16:33It's a brand-new life now,
but it wasn't always so. -
16:33 - 16:35When I was 18 months sober,
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16:35 - 16:38I got a call I dreaded,
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16:38 - 16:40a call I never ever wanted to get.
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16:40 - 16:45The man I was to marry and the man
I was in love with for 14 years -
16:45 - 16:48picked up the phone and told me
it was over, in a morning, -
16:48 - 16:50and I've never seen him again.
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16:50 - 16:53And I was full of despair,
and I didn't drink, -
16:53 - 16:54and I couldn't drink.
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16:56 - 17:00And I picked up the phone
to my son about a week later, -
17:00 - 17:03and I said, "I've lost
everything to sobriety, -
17:03 - 17:05absolutely everything.
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17:05 - 17:06My life is terrible."
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17:07 - 17:08And he said, "Really?"
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17:08 - 17:10There's my brave son.
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17:10 - 17:13He said, "Go get a piece of paper, Mom.
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17:13 - 17:15I'm going to dictate this to you."
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17:15 - 17:18He said, "Draw a line
down the middle, Mom. -
17:18 - 17:23On the one side write 'Losses.'
Write his name, Mom. -
17:23 - 17:25You loved him very much.
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17:25 - 17:27And yes, he was great to you.
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17:27 - 17:30And then he wasn't, Mom, not in the end.
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17:31 - 17:34Okay, on the other side, Mom,
I want you to write 'Gains.' -
17:35 - 17:37I want you to write your sister's name -
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17:37 - 17:39you got her back.
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17:39 - 17:41I want you to write your brother's name -
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17:41 - 17:42you got him back.
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17:43 - 17:46I want you to write your mom's name -
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17:46 - 17:47you got her back.
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17:48 - 17:51I want you to write
every single friend, Mom. -
17:51 - 17:53Are you writing?"
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17:53 - 17:54I was writing.
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17:54 - 17:57He said, "You got me back, Mom."
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17:57 - 17:59I said, "I didn't lose you."
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17:59 - 18:01He said, "Oh, yes, you did, Mom.
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18:01 - 18:04You lost me. Things were really,
really strained between us, -
18:04 - 18:05don't you remember?
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18:05 - 18:07We didn't even talk for four months."
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18:08 - 18:10I wrote down his name.
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18:10 - 18:14Then he said something I won't forget.
He said, "Mom, you're a fabulous mom. -
18:14 - 18:17I wanted to go to art school,
and you supported me. -
18:17 - 18:18Write that down, Mom."
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18:18 - 18:20I wrote it down.
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18:20 - 18:22He said, "You got your writing back, Mom.
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18:22 - 18:24You got your voice back.
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18:24 - 18:26You got everything back, Mom.
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18:28 - 18:29Have a look at that list, Mom.
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18:29 - 18:32So you lost a guy.
Have a look at the other side." -
18:32 - 18:34Thank you.
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18:34 - 18:36(Applause)
- Title:
- Drinking and how it changed my life | Ann Dowsett-Johnston | TEDxHomeBushRdWomen
- Description:
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Ann Dowsett-Johnston describes the effects that alcoholism had on her life.
An award-winning journalist, she is well respected for her expertise in higher education, alcohol addiction, and public policy relating to both.
In 2013, she launched her book "Drink: The Intimate Relationship Between Women and Alcohol."This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but inde-pendently organized by a local community. Learn more at http://ted.com/tedx
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 18:51
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