Sexabled: Disability Uncensored
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0:00 - 0:09[LAUGHTER, GIGGLING, SOUNDS OF KISSING...]
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0:32 - 0:34So much of the time when I go out
like in my wheelchair, -
0:34 - 0:38um, I feel like people
aren't seeing me as a person, -
0:38 - 0:40I feel like people see me as a chair.
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0:40 - 0:44Until very recently I haven't met anyone else
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0:44 - 0:46who has my condition...
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0:46 - 0:49I've only met them like online
through support groups. -
0:49 - 0:51I would try to hide,
try to cover up my disability, -
0:51 - 0:53as much as I could,
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0:53 - 0:56and I thought that by not wearing
like hearing aides-- -
0:56 - 0:59even though that's just
disabling myself even more -
0:59 - 1:01because hearing aides are supposed to help me--
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1:01 - 1:04I disabled myself because
I didn't want someone to see that. -
1:04 - 1:07I was afraid that them seeing that,
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1:07 - 1:10they wouldn't want to have
a relationship with me, -
1:10 - 1:12they wouldn't be interested in me sexually.
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1:13 - 1:15I do feel lonely.
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1:16 - 1:19Um, I, I don't know, like I... it's...
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1:19 - 1:22I've been single for two years.
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1:23 - 1:28We usually think of disability as
some kind of physiological condition -
1:28 - 1:33that limits the ability of people
to function in society, -
1:35 - 1:38to play the social roles
that are typically expected of them. -
1:38 - 1:43Um, so disability would limit them in, say,
their ability to work, -
1:43 - 1:46or be a student, or,
in the case of what we're talking about, -
1:46 - 1:49to be a lover or partner.
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1:49 - 1:55The result of the disability would be that they would
be sexually and romantically impaired in some way. -
1:55 - 1:58In fact those expectations,
those views of what disability is, -
1:58 - 2:04point to the fact, that disability
is not simply medical or physiological, -
2:04 - 2:06but much more importantly
it's social and cultural, -
2:06 - 2:09it's a constructed identity,
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2:09 - 2:14so that certain physical traits or mental traits
of certain kinds of people -
2:14 - 2:16get stigmatized and...
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2:16 - 2:23the stigma is globalized
to engulf their entire identities. -
2:25 - 2:31I'm always feeling like I have to prove myself
in so many different ways. -
2:31 - 2:33The way I feel about myself,
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2:33 - 2:36it's just different than how people see me,
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2:37 - 2:41it's just like more, especially with men, like,
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2:41 - 2:44they see skin "oh yeah, that's it, that's sexy",
you know? -
2:44 - 2:49or they see a good body
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2:49 - 2:51"OK that's sexy".
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2:51 - 2:54Well, OK, I'm not showing skin
because I'm really cold, -
2:54 - 2:59and, um, with the body part, pfft, no,
that's just gross. -
3:00 - 3:04Actually I didn't used to wear makeup
til about a couple years ago. -
3:04 - 3:14I didn't think I, you know, it would be a point
for me to wear makeup, you know? -
3:14 - 3:18I mean, I don't know if you know, but, that's my...
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3:18 - 3:20that was my idea.
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3:20 - 3:29Yeah, until just like more recently I kind of
started getting into it, you know. -
3:29 - 3:31I'm like, ehh why not?
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3:31 - 3:32What the hell!
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3:37 - 3:44I actually studied disability rights,
and performed as a disabled person in college. -
3:45 - 3:50I went to a very hippie college called the
Evergreen State college in Olympia, WA, -
3:50 - 3:54and you could create your own majors...
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3:54 - 4:00One of the things I watched was
this documentary about disability and sexuality. -
4:00 - 4:04I remember just going "hey, you know what?
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4:04 - 4:09I do have those needs that everyone has,
and desires -
4:09 - 4:13it's OK to feel that way.
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4:16 - 4:20You know, our symptoms and our disabilities
are the things that people notice first about us, -
4:20 - 4:25but they may be the least
interesting things about us. -
4:25 - 4:28I was dating this girl for a while,
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4:28 - 4:32and uh, we had just had sex that day
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4:32 - 4:37and then afterwards she suggested
we had sex in my wheelchair -
4:37 - 4:40the fact that it was her idea was awesome!
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4:40 - 4:45and the reason that it is,
beyond like the whole novelty of it -
4:45 - 4:48is that it's actually an ultimate act of acceptance
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4:48 - 4:51instead of saying "I'm dating you
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4:51 - 4:57and I'm fine with you being in a chair"
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4:57 - 5:00but if she's having sex with you in your chair
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5:00 - 5:03it's not "oh it's fine, I'm ok with it"
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5:03 - 5:09It's "I like it, accept it, and it's actually uh,
something that I'm interested in". -
5:10 - 5:17For me in general I would
much rather take my time -
5:17 - 5:20finding somebody that I really want to date.
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5:20 - 5:25I've gone on dates with plenty of people,
and I've gone on second dates, -
5:25 - 5:30but I want to make sure that I found
the right person before I like start to commit. -
5:30 - 5:36So, what I do is, I tend to flirt a lot,
I tend to hang out with a lot of people, -
5:36 - 5:39to test the waters and to see what they like.
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5:39 - 5:43Meeting a lot of cool people and is fun
which is really what matters for me. -
5:43 - 5:46My only hope is that I don't break any hearts.
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5:48 - 5:53Uhm, what do you think I taught you?
If I may be so bold? -
5:53 - 5:56What do you think you taught me about sex?
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5:56 - 5:59I don't know what specifically
I have taught you about sex, -
5:59 - 6:03but, I think in general, I feel like
I can teach able bodied people -
6:03 - 6:05sex doesn't have to be like intercourse,
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6:05 - 6:09sex doesn't have to be, uhm, y'know,
penis and vagina sex, -
6:09 - 6:13it can be, uhm, you know for me
sex basically is... -
6:13 - 6:18anything that, uhm, you know,
gives me sexual pleasure that I can get off on. -
6:18 - 6:26I'd like to think I have a sort of
wider definition of what constitutes sex. -
6:27 - 6:29Sex is so many things,
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6:29 - 6:33it's very much about pleasure,
it's about knowing your body, -
6:33 - 6:38knowing your mind,
and it's also about knowing about danger, -
6:38 - 6:42cause there are dangers
that go along with sex as well, -
6:42 - 6:47and about knowing how to pleasure yourself
and other people, -
6:47 - 6:50and it's generative, and it's fun
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6:50 - 6:58and it can be painful, and it can be mysterious,
and it's definitely a a gift. -
7:00 - 7:04Instead of trying to sell disabled sex
as being normal, -
7:04 - 7:07which in a certain sense, it is normal
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7:07 - 7:13I think there's a way of trying to sell it in a way
that's both calling it "normal" -
7:13 - 7:18and calling it "weird, or transgressive, or queer"
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7:18 - 7:23because unless we face up to the fact that
it's really going to scare the crap out of people, -
7:23 - 7:28whether it's potential partners, healthcare providers,
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7:28 - 7:30or our families, or our parents,
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7:30 - 7:33if we don't face up to the scariness
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7:33 - 7:36we can't really find ways to deal with this scariness.
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7:37 - 7:41One of the things I've done
and the disabled student's union had done -
7:41 - 7:45is put on this series of panel discussions
called "Are cripples screwed?" -
7:45 - 7:48we chose that because it's kind of in your face
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7:48 - 7:52and it breaks down different stereotypes
and different boundaries that a lot of people -
7:52 - 7:54feel interested about.
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7:54 - 7:58I love doing the panels,
they are so much fun for me, -
7:58 - 8:04they originally started as like a dialogue
about disability and sexuality, -
8:04 - 8:07and sort of morphed into what it is today,
which is, you know, -
8:07 - 8:13we go around to things like co-ops, we go to
sexuality classes, we go to things then we talk about -
8:13 - 8:20we talk about sex, we talk about
societal perceptions of these things, -
8:20 - 8:23and it's something that has really,
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8:23 - 8:26it's something that has really expanded my mind.
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8:26 - 8:32I guess for me one of the things about sexuality
and disability, it's a constant about humans, -
8:32 - 8:35it doesn't matter your station in life,
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8:35 - 8:37but sexuality is a crucial and important part of it,
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8:37 - 8:42so, it's something in a way these panels
are a way of identifying with people, -
8:42 - 8:46on, through the disabilities,
and through differences that people have -
8:46 - 8:50very obviously at the surface level,
it's to finding the common ground -
8:50 - 8:54that you can really feel,
just as everybody has sexual frustrations -
8:54 - 8:58that are similar enough.
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8:58 - 9:03Making that transition from like "OK, I'm doing all that
stuff and certain people are attracted to me, -
9:03 - 9:09to all of a sudden like, I'm in chair
and for a solid year afterwards, -
9:09 - 9:14I still identified as that guy,
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9:14 - 9:18Like, for I'd say a year and a half after my accident,
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9:18 - 9:23like, one of my main things was,
OK, like, I'm still a biker, -
9:23 - 9:25I'm still going to biking websites,
and I'd still do that. -
9:25 - 9:32But eventually, I just kind of said "OK, like,
I'm a political nerd, and I'm going to go to college" -
9:32 - 9:35You guys probably noticed that I'm
dressed very provocatively today -
9:35 - 9:39and this is something that I like to do
when I go to panels because -
9:39 - 9:44partially because I really like to challenge
people's preconceived notions -
9:44 - 9:47about what it means to be disabled and a woman;
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9:47 - 9:50and it's like y'know, "Oh there's
a girl in the wheelchair" -
9:50 - 9:55"Oh my god, she's hot!
Oh no, like, my preconceived notions!" -
9:55 - 9:57"This is so confusing!"
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9:59 - 10:02American culture, western cultures in general
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10:02 - 10:06have become much more open
and frank about sexuality -
10:06 - 10:09that happened too among people with disabilities
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10:09 - 10:15so that disability was once a taboo subject
is much more open, -
10:15 - 10:20like, talked about, and people with all kind
of disabilities have been much more assertive -
10:20 - 10:25in claiming their sexuality and
their right to be sexual. -
10:27 - 10:30Disabled people, and myself included
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10:30 - 10:34are represented horribly in the media
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10:34 - 10:38I mean, in movies, in literature, in books, in tv
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10:38 - 10:43you never even see a cripple guy have a girlfriend.
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10:43 - 10:47He's a great comic from over in San Francisco,
he goes to SF State, -
10:47 - 10:52everybody please give it up for
my good friend Jackson McBrayer. -
10:52 - 10:56Uhm, I have cerebral palsy which is awesome,
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10:56 - 11:00because right now my leg is twitching
which is making me better at sex. -
11:00 - 11:06I think that people view me as sort of
a self-appointed spokesman -
11:06 - 11:11for disability and sexuality
because that's what I talk about, -
11:11 - 11:16and the reason that I talk about it
is because very few people are. -
11:17 - 11:22Until I see Stephen Hawking
or some other famous crippled guy on the cover -
11:22 - 11:24of some trashy romance novel
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11:24 - 11:28I'm still going to be forced to tell
beautiful crafted dick jokes -
11:28 - 11:30because no one else is doing it.
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11:30 - 11:33You know, I was drinking and after one or two beers
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11:33 - 11:37I started to walk better so I asked my doctor about it
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11:37 - 11:42"Well Jackson, you have cerebral palsy, anything
that releases your muscles will help you walk better, -
11:42 - 11:46like one or two beers, an orgasm, or a joint."
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11:46 - 11:50I said "Really doc? You mean
that can get medicinal? -
11:50 - 11:52Blow jobs?"
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11:53 - 11:57When I try to tell a joke to try to make it,
so you know that it's from the heart, -
11:57 - 12:05and you know I had these same
needs and wants as other human beings. -
12:05 - 12:07Getting to see disabled people as being sexual
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12:07 - 12:11is part of basically bringing them back
to the human race -
12:11 - 12:14and making them into like real people again.
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12:14 - 12:18If I can help explode the paradigm that says
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12:18 - 12:22that everything about me that isn't my body works
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12:22 - 12:26and everything about me that is my body doesn't work
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12:26 - 12:29sex can explode that.
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12:29 - 12:32Sex is desire, inspiration, life changing
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12:32 - 12:35Touching, feeling, kissing
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12:35 - 12:42Intrigue it's exploring unknowns,
it's very emotional. -
12:42 - 12:47Sex is surrender, sex is communion,
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12:47 - 12:50sex is being alive.
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13:18 - 13:21My ? is not sexy!
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13:21 - 13:22Not really!
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13:22 - 13:25He gave me a ? for Christmas and it's awesome!
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13:25 - 13:29But it's not sexy. It was out here a little while ago.
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13:29 - 13:36I guess ? are vaguely fallic.
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13:37 - 13:40That's not sexy! Yeah!
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13:57 - 14:03Please go out and fuck the disabled!
Goodnight, I'm Jackson McBrayer
- Title:
- Sexabled: Disability Uncensored
- Description:
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Award winning documentary celebrating the sexual lives of people with disabilities. The film explores sexuality through a panel at UC Berkeley called Are Cripple Screwed, along with San Francisco comedian Jackson McBrayer and last comic standing winner Josh Blue.
Also featuring: The late Paul Longmore, Alex Ghenis, Melissa Steele-Ogus, Olympia Santana.
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Captions courtesy of the Radical Access Mapping Project, on the Un-ceded Coast Salish Territories of the xʷməθkwəy̓əm (Musqueam), Sḵwx̱wú7mesh (Squamish), and Səl̓ílwətaʔ/Selilwitulh (Tsleil-Waututh) peoples.
To learn more, see: http://radicalaccessiblecommunities.wordpress.com/subtitled-videos/
================ - Video Language:
- English
- Duration:
- 14:34
Radical Access Mapping Project edited English subtitles for Sexabled: Disability Uncensored | ||
Radical Access Mapping Project edited English subtitles for Sexabled: Disability Uncensored | ||
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saramelon2 edited English subtitles for Sexabled: Disability Uncensored | ||
saramelon2 edited English subtitles for Sexabled: Disability Uncensored | ||
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saramelon2 edited English subtitles for Sexabled: Disability Uncensored | ||
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