Perceptions of perfection | Joey Harrington | TEDxPortland
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0:21 - 0:22I know that was my wife over there.
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0:22 - 0:24(Laughter)
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0:25 - 0:31I'm going to talk to you today
about the idea of pursuing perfection, -
0:32 - 0:37and how our environment affects
our perception of what is perfect. -
0:38 - 0:41This idea, which has always been around,
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0:41 - 0:45has become increasingly poignant
with the evolution of social media -
0:45 - 0:50and our desire to portray
our life as a wonderland. -
0:52 - 0:54You see, rarely does anybody
go to Instagram -
0:54 - 0:57to post a picture of the mess
that is our daily life. -
0:57 - 0:58(Laughter)
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0:59 - 1:00Admit it, it's a mess.
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1:02 - 1:05Instead, people are constantly
searching for the perfect light -
1:06 - 1:08to take the perfect picture,
in the perfect place, -
1:08 - 1:10having the perfect time.
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1:11 - 1:13We then share these pictures,
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1:13 - 1:15hoping that people will validate
our experiences of - -
1:16 - 1:18the perfect meal.
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1:18 - 1:19God, that looks so yummy.
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1:20 - 1:21The perfect body.
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1:21 - 1:26Thank you, Kim Kardashian,
for posting that on National Women's Day. -
1:26 - 1:27Seriously.
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1:27 - 1:28(Laughter)
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1:30 - 1:31The perfect vacation.
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1:34 - 1:40We've become conditioned to share only
our best yet completely unrealistic selves -
1:41 - 1:43as a way of keeping up
with the virtual Joneses. -
1:45 - 1:48This desire isn't realistic,
it isn't healthy, -
1:49 - 1:51and I believe we are setting
ourselves up for failure. -
1:53 - 1:56A recent parody that played
on this Instagram phenomenon -
1:56 - 1:58was called Socality Barbie.
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1:58 - 2:00I'm not sure if anybody saw this.
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2:01 - 2:04She was created by a Portlander
named Darby Cisneros. -
2:04 - 2:07It was brilliant, absolutely brilliant.
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2:07 - 2:12With the help of a doll, she'd satirically
reenacted the most perfect moments, -
2:12 - 2:13at the coast.
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2:14 - 2:16(Laughter)
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2:16 - 2:18I didn't know Haystack Rock was so small.
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2:18 - 2:20At the coffee shop,
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2:20 - 2:21I'm not kidding.
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2:21 - 2:25My wife actually saw somebody
draw a cat face in her coffee froth once. -
2:25 - 2:27That was actually kind of incredible.
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2:28 - 2:29With her favorite friends -
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2:30 - 2:32Loot at the quote,
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2:32 - 2:34"We took a break
from technology this morning. -
2:34 - 2:37It was only for 10 minutes,
but it was exactly what we needed." -
2:37 - 2:40(Laughter)
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2:41 - 2:42Hashtag OMG.
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2:45 - 2:46(Laughter)
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2:46 - 2:50Ice cream just looks better
in front of a concrete wall. -
2:50 - 2:51(Laughter)
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2:51 - 2:52This is my favorite:
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2:54 - 2:57"Waking up at 10 a.m. was so worth it
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2:57 - 3:00to get that perfect light
and the perfect fog." -
3:00 - 3:01(Laughter)
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3:05 - 3:09After capturing the attention
of over a million followers, -
3:10 - 3:12she decommissioned the account.
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3:13 - 3:14She made her point.
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3:15 - 3:17To quote her last post,
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3:17 - 3:22"I started Socality Barbie as a way
to poke fun at all the Instagram trends -
3:22 - 3:25that I thought were
absolutely ridiculous. -
3:25 - 3:27Never in a million years did I think
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3:27 - 3:30it would receive the amount
of attention that it did. -
3:30 - 3:34Because of that, it has opened the door
to a lot of great discussions -
3:34 - 3:37like how we choose
to present ourselves online, -
3:37 - 3:41the insane lengths many go to
to create the perfect Instagram life." -
3:43 - 3:47Why are we trying to create
a perfect Instagram life? -
3:48 - 3:49This made me think.
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3:50 - 3:54Rewind 15 years ago
to my first "Instagram" post, -
3:57 - 3:59Joey Heisman.
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4:01 - 4:05For the better part, of six months,
I had over a million views a day. -
4:06 - 4:08A ten-story billboard in New York city
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4:08 - 4:11at the top of Penn Station
across from Madison Square Garden, -
4:11 - 4:13as a way of attracting eyeballs.
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4:13 - 4:17And for six months during 2001,
that is where I sat. -
4:18 - 4:22Overnight, I became a media sensation
in the largest media market in the world. -
4:24 - 4:28Some people were thrilled that a player
from a west coast school, not named USC, -
4:28 - 4:30was receiving this type
of national attention. -
4:31 - 4:33Some people were furious
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4:34 - 4:37that someone would have the audacity
to promote themselves in a way -
4:37 - 4:39that was so in your face and over the top.
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4:40 - 4:43But most of all, people were just curious.
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4:44 - 4:48Who I was and what I had done to deserve
this larger-than-life attention. -
4:49 - 4:52Why was I standing over everyone else?
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4:52 - 4:55And why did I deserve the highest
recognition in college football? -
4:56 - 5:02It created an idea that I was
bigger and better than everyone else. -
5:03 - 5:06It created the idea that I was someone
who was completely in control -
5:06 - 5:09of everything that happened
on the football field. -
5:10 - 5:12And I believed it.
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5:13 - 5:15And that would eventually
become a problem. -
5:17 - 5:22This campaign was part of my experience
at the University of Oregon. -
5:22 - 5:27I had my wonderful life
from 1999 until 2002. -
5:28 - 5:32I was a kid that helped turn a local team
into a national college football power. -
5:33 - 5:37And with every win
came another member of the media. -
5:38 - 5:40And with every member of the media
came another headline, -
5:40 - 5:42and with every headline
came another story, -
5:44 - 5:47another chance to buy into this idea
that was created for me: -
5:49 - 5:50Perfection.
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5:51 - 5:54I was the quarterback
for the Oregon Ducks, -
5:54 - 5:57and during my time,
we won a lot of football games; -
5:57 - 5:5927 of the 30 games that I played.
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6:01 - 6:02But it wasn't always that way.
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6:03 - 6:06The year prior to my arrival on campus,
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6:07 - 6:09the Ducks failed to reach
a postseason bowl game, -
6:09 - 6:12and never in their history
had they won more than nine games. -
6:14 - 6:16The goal of our freshmen class
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6:16 - 6:20was to take this program
to heights that it had never seen -
6:20 - 6:24and not let anything,
opponent or teammate, -
6:24 - 6:25stand in our way.
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6:28 - 6:30That wristband used to be white.
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6:32 - 6:34When you win 27 games, you don't wash it.
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6:34 - 6:36(Laughter)
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6:36 - 6:38It was lucky.
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6:39 - 6:44We achieved this goal,
winning both 10 and 11 games respectively, -
6:44 - 6:45in a season for the first time ever.
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6:46 - 6:49And when our time
at the University of Oregon was finished, -
6:49 - 6:53our senior class had won more games
than any in school history. -
6:54 - 6:56As the quarterback,
I was the face of that team. -
6:56 - 6:59Since it seemed
like all our team did was win, -
7:00 - 7:03I believed that that was
all I was capable of. -
7:04 - 7:08And the media was more than happy
to continue that narrative. -
7:10 - 7:14What inevitably came was something
that everybody in life faces, -
7:14 - 7:19but something that I was absolutely
and completely unprepared for: -
7:20 - 7:21Failure.
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7:37 - 7:39In 2002,
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7:41 - 7:43I was selected by the Detroit Lions ...
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7:49 - 7:52(Applause)
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8:11 - 8:12I was selected by the Detroit Lions,
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8:12 - 8:14with the third overall pick
in the NFL draft. -
8:15 - 8:17And in my four years in Detroit,
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8:17 - 8:19we never finished the season
with the winning record. -
8:19 - 8:24You see, up until this point in my career,
I had never experienced losing. -
8:25 - 8:27Sure, we lost a couple games.
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8:27 - 8:29But continued losing at this scale
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8:29 - 8:32flew in the face of everything
that I had come to believe. -
8:33 - 8:35According to everything
I had done up to that point, -
8:36 - 8:37I didn't lose.
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8:38 - 8:41If I worked hard and prepared the way
that I knew I was capable of, -
8:42 - 8:43everything worked out.
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8:44 - 8:47They'd write a nice little newspaper
article about it afterwards. -
8:48 - 8:52When you're taken third in the NFL draft,
you're generally taken by a team -
8:52 - 8:54that was one of the worst
in the league the year before. -
8:55 - 8:57And with rare exception,
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8:57 - 9:00that team will continue to be bad
even after drafting you. -
9:00 - 9:01(Laughter)
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9:02 - 9:04Believe it or not,
it takes more than one player -
9:04 - 9:07to turn around
the fortunes of a franchise. -
9:07 - 9:10The script was no different for me.
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9:10 - 9:13In my first year in the league,
we lost 13 of our 16 games, -
9:13 - 9:17but, that was OK, that was to be expected.
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9:17 - 9:20It was what followed that rocked me.
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9:21 - 9:24For a variety of reasons,
we continued to lose. -
9:25 - 9:26And after each loss,
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9:26 - 9:28I went back to practice,
and I worked harder. -
9:29 - 9:32I studied more, I watched more game film.
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9:33 - 9:35Because according to my story,
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9:37 - 9:40when I work hard enough,
everything just works out in the end. -
9:42 - 9:45So the more we lost, the harder I worked.
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9:46 - 9:49And when we still lost,
I began to doubt myself. -
9:50 - 9:52And when I doubted myself,
I played poorly. -
9:54 - 9:56And when I played poorly, we lost.
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9:56 - 10:00And when we went into a loss,
I went back and I worked harder. -
10:00 - 10:02And when we still lost,
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10:02 - 10:04I figured that there must be
something wrong with me. -
10:05 - 10:09Because, you see, at that point,
losing wasn't just losing on the field. -
10:11 - 10:13When I lost, I lost in life.
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10:14 - 10:15Because -
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10:17 - 10:19losing wasn't part of my story.
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10:20 - 10:21Losing -
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10:22 - 10:24Losing wasn't perfect.
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10:26 - 10:29I set myself up for a crash.
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10:30 - 10:33Because football became
how I defined myself. -
10:34 - 10:37It wasn't what I did. It became who I was.
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10:38 - 10:42My perception of myself had become
tied to the number of touchdowns I threw. -
10:42 - 10:47My value as a human being
was connected to the final score. -
10:49 - 10:50My happiness was a direct result
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10:50 - 10:53of whether or not
I lived up to the perfection, -
10:53 - 10:55this image that I had bought into.
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10:59 - 11:00If it was only about my performance,
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11:00 - 11:02that's one thing.
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11:03 - 11:05But part of the reality
I was trying to live up to -
11:05 - 11:08was that of the infallible leader.
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11:09 - 11:10I was the quarterback
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11:10 - 11:13capable of bringing any team
back from the depths. -
11:13 - 11:17And I, and I alone, had the power
to bring together a group of guys -
11:17 - 11:19to do something that they had
never achieved before. -
11:21 - 11:23Remember, they didn't put
the rest of my teammates -
11:23 - 11:25on that "Instagram" post in New York.
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11:27 - 11:30So I believed it was my job
to be all things to all people -
11:33 - 11:35and inspire my teammates
to achieve success -
11:35 - 11:37that they had never achieved before.
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11:37 - 11:40I tried to tailor my leadership style -
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11:40 - 11:43and, frankly, the way I acted -
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11:43 - 11:46to what I thought each teammate wanted.
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11:47 - 11:51I tried to feel everyone else's idea
of what a leader should be. -
11:53 - 11:56And in the effort of trying
to please everybody else, -
11:56 - 11:58I lost myself.
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12:02 - 12:05I felt like a failure.
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12:11 - 12:12I was embarrassed
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12:13 - 12:16because I was letting everybody else down.
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12:17 - 12:18I was ashamed
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12:19 - 12:22because I was squandering an opportunity
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12:26 - 12:28that so few people get.
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12:30 - 12:32I struggled with depression because -
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12:37 - 12:40my world was crashing.
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12:41 - 12:44I dreaded going out in public
because I didn't want to - -
12:44 - 12:45I was scared.
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12:45 - 12:49I would face the same jeers
that I faced in the stadiums on Sundays. -
12:50 - 12:51I'd wear a hat to the grocery store
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12:51 - 12:56because I just didn't want
to have to talk to people -
12:57 - 12:59and tell them about what a failure I was.
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13:00 - 13:03I tried to pretend
that it wasn't getting to me, -
13:03 - 13:06or that this was merely one -
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13:07 - 13:09long speed bump.
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13:10 - 13:12But all I was doing was masking the fact
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13:13 - 13:17that I was scared, and I felt
like I was completely out of control. -
13:19 - 13:20I needed help.
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13:22 - 13:24And I had no idea how to ask for it.
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13:26 - 13:31Through the urging of our general manager,
I sought the help of a psychologist. -
13:33 - 13:37I had visualized being on a brown couch
and just complaining a lot. -
13:37 - 13:38(Laughter)
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13:39 - 13:41My perception was a little bit wrong.
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13:44 - 13:46My psychologist was a man named Greg,
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13:46 - 13:49and it's safe to say that Greg was
a little bit outside the box. -
13:49 - 13:51(Laughter)
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13:51 - 13:53And while our sessions often happened
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13:53 - 13:55on walks through the University
of Michigan campus -
13:56 - 13:57or on the golf course,
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13:58 - 14:00he made a really interesting point.
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14:01 - 14:02In order to play well again,
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14:02 - 14:06I had to stop caring
about other people's perceptions. -
14:07 - 14:12Well, this concept is,
you know, OK, at first. -
14:13 - 14:15When you think about it, it's brilliant.
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14:15 - 14:18You see, when I stopped caring
about how many likes I got, -
14:19 - 14:22I was able to remove
the unnecessary burden -
14:22 - 14:24of trying to be perfect for everybody.
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14:25 - 14:29And when I stop trying to be perfect,
I was able to relax and just play. -
14:31 - 14:33And when I played loose, I played well.
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14:34 - 14:36And when I played well, we won.
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14:36 - 14:42And woo, when we won, the poetic irony is,
"Hey, everybody likes me again." -
14:42 - 14:44(Laughter)
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14:48 - 14:52When I removed the burden of perfection,
something else happened. -
14:53 - 14:54I began to find myself,
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14:55 - 14:58and more importantly, like myself again.
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15:00 - 15:05People didn't like me because I lived up
to some idyllic expectation of perfection. -
15:05 - 15:07They liked me because I was me.
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15:08 - 15:10I was genuine,
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15:11 - 15:14just kind of a dork, you know,
I was real, I was unique. -
15:17 - 15:20The moment I tried to live up to this
perceived expectation of perfection -
15:20 - 15:23is the moment I lost what was real
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15:23 - 15:26and started chasing what I thought
other people wanted me to be. -
15:27 - 15:29And the moment I started
chasing something else -
15:29 - 15:33was the moment I lost what made me
so great in the first place. -
15:33 - 15:34You see,
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15:35 - 15:41people gravitate to individuals
who they know are truthful and genuine. -
15:43 - 15:45And when you're trying
to be like somebody else, -
15:46 - 15:48you're not living the truth.
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15:52 - 15:55I am not in the NFL hall of fame.
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15:57 - 15:59I am not even in the same zip code.
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15:59 - 16:01(Laughter)
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16:03 - 16:05But right now, I could not be happier.
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16:07 - 16:09(Applause)
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16:22 - 16:24I have the love of an incredible family.
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16:24 - 16:28And because of that, I know
that I don't have to be perfect -
16:29 - 16:31and I have permission to fail.
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16:33 - 16:37I've learnt that what makes you
a wonderful person isn't being perfect. -
16:38 - 16:40What makes you wonderful
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16:40 - 16:43is giving an incredible effort
and then falling short. -
16:44 - 16:49Because when you fall short,
you're given the opportunity to learn. -
16:50 - 16:52So, the next time you face a situation,
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16:53 - 16:57you'll have grown and developed
the necessary character -
16:57 - 16:59to become a better person.
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17:01 - 17:02Nice story.
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17:03 - 17:04How does it relate to you?
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17:06 - 17:07It's simple.
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17:08 - 17:11How many people opened up
their social media account at lunch time -
17:11 - 17:14and checked how many likes
their posts got? -
17:16 - 17:17Anybody? Yeah.
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17:17 - 17:19(Laughter)
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17:19 - 17:22Like our friend,
Socality Barbie, pointed out, -
17:22 - 17:25social media has given everybody -
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17:25 - 17:29even a doll, everybody -
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17:29 - 17:35the opportunity to experience
the unique feeling of being a star. -
17:37 - 17:41Overnight, you can have a million
sets of eyeballs watching what you do. -
17:42 - 17:45And while all of this exposure
has created a ton of opportunities, -
17:46 - 17:50it's also opened the door
for everyone to the potential pitfalls -
17:50 - 17:52and pressures of living a public life.
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17:54 - 17:55Be careful.
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17:56 - 18:01When you desire to live in a world
that's constantly looking for perfection, -
18:01 - 18:06overpowers your desire to live in a world
that is real and genuine, -
18:07 - 18:09you're setting yourself up for failure.
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18:10 - 18:15You're setting yourself up for the same
feelings of shortcomings and inadequacy -
18:15 - 18:17that I experienced.
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18:19 - 18:22So, the next time you're adjusting
the filter on your camera -
18:22 - 18:25while you're taking a picture
of your cinnamon roll at breakfast, -
18:25 - 18:27(Laughter)
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18:27 - 18:31or you're retaking your selfie because
your lips just didn't look pouty enough - -
18:31 - 18:32(Laughter)
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18:33 - 18:35just pause,
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18:35 - 18:37think about what you're doing.
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18:38 - 18:41I would encourage you
to keep that imperfect picture. -
18:43 - 18:46Embrace it. Love it. Own it.
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18:49 - 18:52Because it's only through
these imperfect moments -
18:53 - 18:57that we are really and truly able to learn
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18:57 - 19:00how wonderful life can be.
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19:01 - 19:02Thank you.
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19:02 - 19:04(Applause)
- Title:
- Perceptions of perfection | Joey Harrington | TEDxPortland
- Description:
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With an honest and vulnerable approach, Joey Harrington, delivers a masterful Talk on the idea that perfection is a matter of perception. From the narcissistic pitfalls of social media to the "Joey Heisman" billboard in Times Square, we are setting ourselves up for failure if we do not choose to live our most authentic, true selves.
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at http://ted.com/tedx
- Video Language:
- English
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- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 19:22
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