My love letter to cosplay

There's this fact that I love
that I read somewhere once --

that one of the things that's contributed

to homo sapiens' success as a species

is our lack of body hair.

That our hairlessness,

our nakedness combined
with our invention of clothing

gives us the ability to modulate
our body temperature

and thus be able to survive
in any climate we choose.

And now we've evolved to the point
where we can't survive without clothing.

And it's more than just utility,

now it's a communication.

Everything that we choose
to put on is a narrative,

a story about where we've been,

what we're doing ...

who we want to be.

I was a lonely kid.

I didn't have an easy time
finding friends to play with

and I ended up making
a lot of my own play.

I made a lot of my own toys.

And it began with ice cream.

There was a Baskin-Robbins in my hometown,

and they served ice cream
from behind the counter

in these giant, five-gallon,
cardboard tubs.

And someone told me --

I was eight years old --

someone told me that when
they were done with those tubs

they washed them out
and they kept them in the back,

and if you asked they would give you one.

It took me a couple of weeks
to work up the courage but I did,

and they did.

They gave me one.

I went home with this
beautiful cardboard tub.

And I was trying to figure out what
I could do with this exotic material--

metal ring, top and bottom --

and I started turning it over
in my head and I realized,

"Wait a minute,

my head actually fits inside this thing--"

(Laughter)

Yeah, I cut a hole out,

I put some acetate in there

and I made myself a space helmet.

(Laughter)

I needed a place to wear the space helmet,

so I found a refrigerator box
a couple blocks from home.

I pushed it home,

and in my parent's guest room closet,

I turned it into a spaceship.

I started with a control panel
out of cardboard.

I cut a hole for a radar screen

and put a flashlight
underneath it to light it.

I put a view screen up which I offset
off the back wall --

and this is where I thought
I was being really clever --

without permission,

I painted the back wall
of the closet black

and put a star field

which I lit up with some Christmas
lights I found in the attic,

and I went on some space missions.

A couple years later,

the movie "Jaws" came out.

And I was way too young to see it,

but I was caught up in "Jaws" fever like
everyone else in America at the time.

And there was a store in my town
that had a "Jaws" costume in their window,

and my mom must have overheard
me talking to someone

about how awesome
I thought this costume was

because a couple days before Halloween,

she blew my freaking mind
by giving me this "Jaws" costume.

Now, I recognize it's a bit of a trope

for people of a certain age to complain

that kids these days have no idea
how good they have it,

but let me just show you a random sampling

of entry-level kids' costumes
you can buy online right now ...

and this is the "Jaws" costume
my mom bought for me.

(Laughter)

This is a paper-thin shark face

and a vinyl bib with the poster
of "Jaws" on it.

(Laughter)

And I loved it.

A couple years later,

my dad took me to a film
called "Excalibur."

I actually got him to take me to it twice,

which is no small thing

because it is a hard, R-rated film.

But it wasn't the blood
and guts or the boobs

that made me want to go see it again --

they helped --

(Laughter)

It was the armor.

The armor in "Excalibur" was
intoxicatingly beautiful to me.

These were literally knights
in shining, mirror-polished armor.

And moreover,

the knights in "Excalibur" wear
their armor everywhere.

All the time.

They wear it at dinner,

they wear it to bed.

(Laughter)

I was like, "are they reading my mind?

I want to wear armor all the time!"

And so I went back
to my favorite material--

the gateway drug for making:

corrugated cardboard.

And I made myself a suit of armor,

replete with the neck shields
and a white horse.

Now that I've over-sold it,

here's a picture of the armor that I made.

(Laughter)

(Applause)

Now this is only the first
suit of armor I made

inspired by "Excalibur."

A couple of years later,

I convinced my dad to embark
on making me a proper suit of armor.

Over about a month,

he graduated me from cardboard
to roofing aluminum called flashing

and still, one of my all time favorite
attachement materials,

POP rivets.

We carefully over that month,

constructed an articulated suit
of aluminum armor

with compound curves.

We drilled holes in the helmet
so that I could breathe

and I finished just in time
for Halloween and wore it school.

Now this is the one thing in this talk
that I don't have a slide to show you,

because no photo exists of this armor.

I did wear it to school,

there was a yearbook photographer
patrolling the halls

but he never found me

for reasons that are
about to become clear.

There were things I didn't anticipate

about wearing a complete suit
of aluminum armor to school.

(Laughter)

In third period math,

I'm was standing in the back of class,

and I'm standing at the back of class

because the armor did not
allow me to sit down.

(Laughter)

This is the first thing
I didn't anticipate.

And then my teacher looks at me
sort of concerned

about half way through the class

and says, "Are you feeling OK?"

And I'm thinking, "Are you kidding?

Am I feeling OK?

I'm wearing a suit of armor!

I am having the time of my --"

And I'm just about to tell her
how great I feel

when the classroom
starts to list to the left

and disappear down this long tunnel,

and then I woke up in the nurse's office.

(Laughter)

I had passed out from heat
exhaustion wearing the armor.

And when I woke up,

I wasn't embarrassed about having
passed out in front of my class,

I was wondering,

"Who took my armor?!

Where's my armor?!"

OK, fast-forward a whole bunch of years,

some colleagues and I get hired

to make a show for Discovery Channel
called "Mythbusters."

And over 14 years,

I learn on the job how to build
experimental methodologies

and how to tell stories
about them for television.

I also learned early on

that costuming can play a key
role in this storytelling

and I used costumed to add humor,

comedy,

color

and narrative clarity to the stories
that we're telling.

And then we do an episode
called "Dumpster Diving,"

and I learn a little bit more

about the deeper implications
of what costuming means to me.

The episode "Dumpster Diving"--

the question we were trying to answer is:

is jumping into a dumpster as safe
as the movie would like you to believe?

(Laughter)

So the episode was going to have
two distinct parts to it.

One was where we get trained
to jump off buildings by a stuntman

into an air bag.

And the second was the graduation
to the experiment:

we're fill a dumpster full of material
and we'd jump into it.

I wanted to visually separate
these two elements,

and I thought, "Well, for the first
part we're training,

so we should wear sweatsuits --

Oh! Let's put 'Stunt Trainee'
on the back of the sweatsuits,

that's for the training."

But for the second part I wanted
something really visually striking --

"I know! I'll dress as Neo
from 'The Matrix.'"

(Laughter)

So I went to Haight Street.

I bought some beautiful
knee-high, buckle boots.

I found a long flowing coat on eBay.

I got some sunglasses

which I had to wear contact
lenses in order to wear.

And the day of the experiment
shoot comes up

and I step out of my car in this costume

and my crew takes a look at me ...

and start suppressing
their church giggles.

They're like,

(Laugh sound)

And I feel two distinct
things at this moment.

I feel total embarrassment over the fact
that it's so nakedly clear to my crew

that I'm completely
into wearing this costume.

(Laughter)

But the producer in my mind reminds myself
that in the high-speed shot in slow-mo

that flowing coat is going to look
beautiful behind me.

(Laughter)

Five years into [the] "Mythbusters" run,

we got invited to appear
at San Diego Comic-Con.

I'd known about Comic-Con for years
and never had time to go.

This was the big leagues.

This was costuming mecca.

People fly in from all over the world

to show their amazing creations
on the floor in San Diego.

And I wanted to participate.

I decided that I would put together
an elaborate costume

that covered my completely.

And I would walk the floor
of San Diego Comic-Con anonymously.

The costume I chose?

Hellboy.

That's not my costume,

that's actually Hellboy.

(Laughter)

But I spent months assembling the most
screen-accurate Hellboy costume I could,

from the boots to the belt,

to the pants

to the right hand of doom.

I found a guy who made a prosthetic
Hellboy head and chest

and I put them on.

I even had contact lenses made
in my prescription.

I wore it onto the floor at Comic-Con

and I can't even tell you how balls-hot
it was in that costume.

(Laughter)

Sweating --

I should of remembered this --

I'm sweating buckets

and the contact lenses hurt my eyes,

and none of it matters
because I'm totally in love.

(Laughter)

Not just with the process of putting
on this costume and walking the floor,

but also with the community
of other costumers.

It's not called costuming at Cons,

it's called "Cosplay".

Now ostensibly, Cosplay means

people who dress up as their favorite
characters from film and television,

and especially anime,

but it is so much more than that.

These aren't just people who find
a costume and put it on.

They mash them up.

They bend them to their will.

They change them to be the characters
they want to be in those productions.

They're super clever and genius:

they let their freak flag fly
and it's beautiful.

(Laughter)

But more than that,

they rehearse their costumes.

At Comic-Con or any other Con,

you don't just take pictures
of people walking around.

You actually go up and say,

"Hey I like your costume,
can I take your picture?"

And then you give them time
to get into their pose.

They've worked hard on their pose

to make their costume look
great for your camera.

And it's so beautiful to watch.

And I take this to heart.

And at subsequent Cons,

I learn Heath Ledger's shambling
walk as the Joker from "The Dark Knight."

I learn how to be a scary Ringwraith
from "Lord of the Rings,"

and I actually frightened some children.

I learned that "herr herr herr"--

that head laugh that Chewbacca does.

And then I dressed up as
No-Face from "Spirited Away."

If you don't know about "Spirited Away"
and it's director, Mayao Miyazaki,

first of all, you're welcome.

(Laughter)

This is a masterpiece

and one of my all-time favorite films.

It's about a young girl named Chihiro
who gets lost in the spirit world

in an abandoned Japanese theme park.

And she finds her way back out again

with the help of a couple
of friends she makes.

A captured dragon named Haku
and a lonely demon named No-Face.

No-Face is lonely and he
wants to make friends,

and he thinks that the way to do it
is by luring them to him

and producing gold in his hand.

But this doesn't go very well,

and so he ends up going on a kind
of a rampage

until Chihiro saves him --

rescues him.

So I put together a No-Face costume

and I wore it on the floor at Comic-Con.

And I very carefully practiced
No-Face's gestures.

I realized --

I resolved I would not speak
in this costume at all.

When people asked to take my picture,

I would nod

and I would shyly stand next to them.

And they would take the picture

and then I would secret out from behind
my robe a chocolate gold coin,

and at the end of the photo process,
I'd make it appear for them.

Ah, ah ah --

like that.

And people were freaking out.

"Holy crap! Gold from No-Face,
oh my god, this is so cool!"

And I'm feeling and I'm walking
the floor and it's fantastic.

About 15 minutes in something happens.

Somebody grabs my hand
and they put a coin back into it.

And I think maybe they're giving me
a coin as a return gift,

but no, this is one of the coins
that I'd given away.

I don't know why.

And I keep on going,

I take some more pictures.

And then it happens again.

Understand, I can't see
anything inside this costume.

I can see through the mouth --

I can see people's shoes.

I can hear what they're saying
and I can see their feet.

But the third time someone
gives me back a coin,

I want to know what's going on.

So I sort of tilt my head back
to get a better view,

and what I see is someone walking
away from me going like this.

And then it hits me.

It's bad luck to take gold from No-Face.

In the film "Spirited Away,"

bad luck befalls those who take
gold from No-Face.

This isn't a performer-
audience relationship.

This is Cosplay.

We are, all of us on that floor,

injecting ourselves into a narrative
that meant something to us.

And we're making it our own.

We're connecting with something
important inside of us.

And the costumes are how
we reveal ourselves to each other.

Thank you.

(Applause)