Ahmed Mekky - Atr El Hayah / أحمد مكي - قطر الحياة Ahmed Mekky - Train of Life

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With every hour my life flows by

People and the world change, even the iron rusts

and I'm the only one standing still. Some people choose a way and succeeded; others choose a way and failed

It's a hard and cruel feeling that people sees you as a loser

you father, mother, brothers, and friends see you as an unemployed

"Get up son and try"

"I swear I've tried"

I've tried a lot and before I score the GOAL, I get a FOUL

I have no skills, or even favors, and I’m screwed. And I pushed the gas pedal to the max (meaning. bushed myself beyond my limits)

In every job interview I was told to turn around, with my certifications and get lost

I made a flashback and calculated how old am I, i found out I was 30

I repeated once, twice and thrice my calculations and was shocked

I looked in the mirror, i saw alot of white hair

and my father is still the breadwinner of the house

I'm treated by my family like a burden

my self-esteem is gone, success is now impossible

I wish i could run away from my self, my status, my family, and from life

wish i could escape to another life even for one second

And one day, my friend showed me the way

since that is what friend are for

he told me there is a nice gathering tonight

I asked him hash (type of drugs), he laughed and said bissa (another type), I said I'll be addicted

He said "don't worry you cant be an addict from the first shot

he convinced me, and that night I did my first shot

my joints relaxed and I couldn't feel myself

Speaking to my self from inside, yet being silent from outside

all my worries are gone, my vision is blurry

Every problem I've had in life died and vanished

hours went by like seconds, and I found my friends leaving

I entered my home at dawn, and my family were already sleeping.

Buried myself under the blanket and my body was freezing

slept in less than a second, like I was under sedation

life train is flying by fast. year after year after year

and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old

it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.

i woke up again to the disgusting reality

the day went by so slowly and felt like months or years

I wish the day ended fast so I can take yet another shot,

to be the king of my world and away from the world that turned its back on me

the invited me every day to do drugs with them

it's final, I entered that railway and my path is being drawn

one day my friend surprised me by saying "don't be a burden on me" straight to my face

"I don't have enough money for you and me to do drugs everyday"

"pay up or you will be banned from our nights"

"from today there is no free drugs, do you understand?"

I went home, and the next day at drug time my body felt electrified

my back feels like it's being whipped, and my nose is leaking

I need a dose, where can I get the money?,where can I get the money?

I started borrowing from everyone I know

I even took my siblings' private lessons money

everybody hates me and avoids me, I became a burden on them

50 pounds, another 50 pounds, and another 100

Stealing every day from my house, and everybody suspected me

I sold every present that I've ever got

Spent all my money, until I had a brilliant idea

my mother's gold, my sister's mobile, my brother's laptop

I stole them and attempted to escape,my father stopped me

he gripped me hard from the hand, and I pushed him

he hit the wall and looked at me,How did his son hurt him!!

he got angry, took every thing from me, and locked the door

that's when I asked for the strangest thing

"Give me money now, or I'll commit a crime"

he accused me of craziness and swore on me

all the room doors are opening, and my family are watching

still trying to figure out whether we are serious or just missing around

I dragged my 3 year old niece towards the window

"Give me money or I'll throw her out" Suddenly the tension increased

my mother cried her heart out, and I calmed down for seconds

she threw me money and screamed "I never want to see your face again"

"Get out, I'm not your mother anymore, you are worse than the devil"

I took the money and left, and I knew I'll never come back.

life train is flying by fast. year after year after year

and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old

it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.

I lost all my family and friends, now I'm alone

and How do I get money, I have to find another way

Suddenly I remembered a neighbor of mine, who has been living alone all his life

His father is working outside Egypt and sending him money every month

I drew him to the same road, exactly like it happened to me

I found another source of money, a home, and a friend

doing drugs together in his house, where no one can see us

All his father's life savings were lost in 4 months

and one night, he recieved a shocking phone call

His father knew that his son is stealing from him, and he ended up in the ICU

all my nerves tensioned, I increased the dose

the usual dose is no loger effective

My life flashed before my eyes, nothing good in it

I pushed more poison in my viens and increased the dose even more

I wish I would die, get rid of this life, and evaporate like water

I increased the dose even more, and my body turned yellow

my friend freaked out "why are u yellow man"

"your body is sweating and u r shaking as if a snake has snake bit you"

and despite of the sweating, my body was freezing, and it really hurt

I freaked out, tried to stand up, but my body hit the floor hard

my body is refusing every order from me, there is no strength left

everything is dimming slowly until it's black

the last scene of my life was a tragedy

my friend is horrified and watching me dying

life train is flying by fast. year after year after year

and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old

it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.

my life ended fast

I searched my life, but I didn't find anything good I did to be mentioned

I lost all my life, I regret every dark moment I've ever lived

OH GOD give me another chance to go back to life

I'll walk the right path to the end

It's really hard thing that you disappear from the world

and nobody remembers you for anything