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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.22,0:00:06.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(mumljanje glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.04,0:00:09.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(cvrkut ptica)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:09.70,0:00:11.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da se za mene
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.35,0:00:13.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i mnogo drugih transrodnih djevojaka koje poznam
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.96,0:00:18.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,spavaća soba počne doimati poput utočišta.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.08,0:00:20.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je prostor u kojemu se možemo osjećati sigurno
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.79,0:00:25.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i možda ne moramo nositi s onime što postoji u svijetu.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.04,0:00:30.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Napravili smo repliku moje spavaće sobe
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.13,0:00:32.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u prostoru same galerije.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.61,0:00:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zaista imam osjećaj kao da pokušavam prikazati čitav jedan svemir,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.80,0:00:42.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u kome transrodne žene u svojoj sobi
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.79,0:00:46.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kroje snove o svojoj bodućnosti i mogućnostima,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.44,0:00:48.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a možda čak i o tome kakav bi bio svijet
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.76,0:00:50.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da nije takav kakav je.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.90,0:00:53.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Puppies Puppies\N(Jade Guanaro Kuriki-Olivo):]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.92,0:00:58.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Radikalna transparentnost]
Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.49,0:01:12.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(žamor glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.94,0:01:14.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mjesta iz moje prošlosti
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.59,0:01:16.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i mjesta o kojima sanjam za budućnost
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.85,0:01:20.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,preuzimaju ulogu vrta sobe.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.71,0:01:24.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kada sam imala tumor na mozgu,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.16,0:01:27.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,zaista sam CBD shvaćala kao sveti lijek,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.32,0:01:29.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao što se shvaćao u japanskoj povijesti
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.36,0:01:32.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i povijesti domorodačkih naroda Amerike.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.41,0:01:38.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sanjam o tome da u budućnosti vodim farmu,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.79,0:01:40.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali onda opet, teško je,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.18,0:01:41.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer je okruženje u ruralnim mjestima
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.94,0:01:44.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,poprilično neprijateljski nastrojeno.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.45,0:01:48.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zatim, vrata Torii se u šintoizmu
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.16,0:01:51.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,uvijek poimaju kao simbol svetoga mjesta.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.70,0:01:55.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da se na kraju sve to skupa slaže
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.79,0:01:57.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da tvori pejzaž sjećanja
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.88,0:01:59.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i jednu vrstu čežnje.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.39,0:02:10.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(žamor glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.41,0:02:17.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Veliki dio života transrodne osobe
Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.42,0:02:21.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,čini sveprisutni strah,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.01,0:02:23.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali umjetnost je domena u kojoj se osjećam
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.24,0:02:25.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao da mogu sama diktirati neke stvari
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.58,0:02:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i moja riječ vrijedi.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.22,0:02:37.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Radila sam u neprofitnoj organizaciji Trans Latina.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.57,0:02:40.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dolazilo je sve više prilika u umjetnosti,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.04,0:02:41.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa sam si pomislila da bih možda u ovo
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.96,0:02:44.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mogla uklopiti društveni rad.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.77,0:02:48.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je započelo testovima za HIV u prostoru muzeja.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.29,0:02:52.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nekada sam mislila:
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.30,0:02:53.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Ovo je aktivizam"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.30,0:02:54.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili "Ovo je umjetnost"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.38,0:02:55.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili "Ovo je eskapizam",
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.81,0:02:57.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali u stvarnosti se
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.47,0:02:59.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,puno toga počne ispreplitati.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.03,0:03:06.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ (smirujuća glazba) ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.42,0:03:09.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tek smo bili prohodali
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.29,0:03:10.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,netom prije izložbe.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.75,0:03:12.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Čak se i sjećam da sam se osjećala loše.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.98,0:03:15.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislila sam: "Dobro, kako ću mu reći?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.45,0:03:17.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Ja nisam znao što da mislim o tome
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.32,0:03:20.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer nikada zapravo nisam upoznao osobu
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.77,0:03:22.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koja stvara baš "umjetnost" umjetnost.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.66,0:03:23.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kao pravu umjetnost.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.79,0:03:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislio sam da je to malo ludo na početku.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.80,0:03:29.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.30,0:03:31.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio sam malo nervozan oko toga da me izloži,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.74,0:03:33.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer sam ipak zatvorena osoba,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.35,0:03:37.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali kad mi je sve pokazala, shvatio sam.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.13,0:03:39.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bilo je odlično, genijalno.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.09,0:03:43.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(žamor glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.98,0:03:46.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(hihot)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.27,0:03:48.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(mumljanje)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.79,0:03:51.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Bila sam zahvalna što si bio ondje sa mnom,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.76,0:03:55.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da se ne moram osjećati usamljeno u akvariju.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.05,0:04:02.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Osjećaj da me se snima nije mi uvijek na površini svijesti,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.15,0:04:05.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali ipak nikada potpuno ne odlazi.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.25,0:04:07.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Odrasla sam u Teksasu.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.95,0:04:10.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Svi u mojoj školi imali su izloženo vatreno oružje
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.86,0:04:13.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i osjećala sam se kao da se cijelo vrijeme moram skrivati.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.80,0:04:15.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tako da sam prijatelje upoznavala na internetu
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.79,0:04:17.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i živjela pod pseudonimom,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.58,0:04:20.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da bih rekla da je posredovanje putem ekrana
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.77,0:04:22.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nešto o čemu sam oduvijek razmišljala.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.79,0:04:25.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oduvijek sam ju smatrala nejasnom,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.04,0:04:26.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tu granicu između
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.31,0:04:28.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,onoga što dijeliš i onoga što ne dijeliš.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.98,0:04:34.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znala sam da želim iskoristiti opnu
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.13,0:04:36.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koja se pričvrsti na staklo
Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.34,0:04:39.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i jednostavno napravi maglu pritiskom prekidača.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.96,0:04:43.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da je to bio način da kažem:
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.20,0:04:45.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"U redu, pustite me da živim iza ekrana
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.09,0:04:47.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koji može biti online ili offline."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.04,0:04:51.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Očekivala sam da za publiku to neće biti dovoljno performansa,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.95,0:04:54.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali, iskreno, za mene je bilo malo previše.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:00.97,0:05:03.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I tako sam pozvala prijateljice
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.36,0:05:05.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da dođu u ovaj prostor,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.16,0:05:07.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da glume u teatru.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.49,0:05:11.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tako nešto pomoću čega mogu aktivirati prostor
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.27,0:05:15.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da ga ljudi iz mog društvenog kruga mogu iskoristiti.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.57,0:05:21.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ (tibetanske zdjele) ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.24,0:05:24.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,["Večer u kući transcendencije"\NThe New Museum]
Dialogue: 0,0:05:24.67,0:05:30.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ (tibetanske zdjele) ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.23,0:05:32.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Njegova cura naravno nije znala
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.33,0:05:34.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da spava s trans ženama.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.40,0:05:37.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio je vrsta osobe koja bi tražila da sve ostaviš,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.58,0:05:40.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali bio je i jedina osoba za koju bih to bila voljna učiniti,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.18,0:05:43.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer je njegov odgovor bio: "Platit ću koliko god."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.32,0:05:45.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nije mi se činilo sigurnim, iskreno,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.24,0:05:47.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali to je bio dio posla.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.31,0:05:49.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (zvučnik) Voljela bih misliti
Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.85,0:05:52.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da sam pomogla nekim svojim klijentima,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:52.11,0:05:53.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako što sam im, u osnovi,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.88,0:05:56.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,bila nelicencirani terapeut.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.06,0:05:59.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ili što sam im pružila osjećaj
Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.35,0:06:01.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da su ljudska bića,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.42,0:06:04.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer bih voljela isto to zauzvrat.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.23,0:06:08.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ (elektronička glazba) ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:06:08.48,0:06:10.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Zvučnik) Kada ovjerene medicinske pomoćnice,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:10.21,0:06:12.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,čistači, smetlari
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.02,0:06:14.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili ljudi u drugim zanimanjima
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.13,0:06:15.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koja se smatraju nepoželjnima
Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.52,0:06:16.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,biraju svoj posao,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.60,0:06:20.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ne rade to kako bi se osjećali osnažnjeno.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.84,0:06:24.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (Lexii) Da, bilo je... (smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.21,0:06:26.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (Alethia) Da, budi iskrena, možeš reći što god.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.16,0:06:27.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Bilo je jako smiješno.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.87,0:06:30.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znači, imala je jedan daljinski,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.44,0:06:32.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali u staklu su bili prorezi kroz koje
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.46,0:06:33.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,se moglo viriti unutra
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.71,0:06:36.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i tako su neki ljudi pokušavali viriti,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.15,0:06:37.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa bi Jade stisla dugme
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.96,0:06:39.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i napravila da se sve opet vidi,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.42,0:06:41.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa bi se oni prepali kao "Oh!"
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.02,0:06:41.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.100,0:06:44.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znači, svaki put bi me nasmijalo.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.54,0:06:49.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (Alethia) Ali znaš li što je isto smiješno?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.24,0:06:53.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ta razina radoznalosti od gledatelja.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.08,0:06:54.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znači, mi to doživljavamo
Dialogue: 0,0:06:54.80,0:06:58.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,samo postojeći, izlazeći van, doslovno.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.83,0:07:00.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ljudi uvijek zure u nas,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.78,0:07:02.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jednostavno se počnem osjećati...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:02.38,0:07:04.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Ti znaš da sam ja osoba, jelda?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.60,0:07:05.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Znaš da sam ljudsko biće?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.95,0:07:08.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Da, nekad je osjećaj kao da priređuješ nekakvu scenu,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.62,0:07:11.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,imaš taj daljinski u ruci
Dialogue: 0,0:07:11.22,0:07:13.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i mislim da je to...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.47,0:07:15.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da je to sloboda.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.69,0:07:18.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Ja to samo zovem "Moć".
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.81,0:07:24.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio je to način da promislim ideju vidljivosti,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.34,0:07:27.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali također i ideje otpora i odsutnosti.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.55,0:07:31.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Na određeni način ima djelovanje "povuci-potegni"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.05,0:07:34.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,za koje mislim da se nekada odražava u mojoj osobnosti.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.71,0:07:35.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Postanem jako bliska
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.84,0:07:38.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i isto tako se povučem i zaklonim
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.83,0:07:40.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili opsjenim.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.28,0:07:44.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je jedna čudna situacija,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.07,0:07:45.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u kojoj nisam mogla biti "ja",
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.55,0:07:47.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,morala sam biti druga osoba
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.40,0:07:49.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na američkom Jugu, da preživim,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:49.93,0:07:51.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a sada, kao izvođač
Dialogue: 0,0:07:51.70,0:07:54.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pokušavam biti čim više svoja
Dialogue: 0,0:07:56.11,0:07:58.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i učim kako glumiti na drugi način.