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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.22,0:00:04.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(tihi žamor glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:04.63,0:00:09.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(cvrkut ptica)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:09.70,0:00:11.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da se za mene
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.73,0:00:14.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i puno drugih trans cura koje poznajem
Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.52,0:00:18.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,spavaća soba počne doimati poput utočišta.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.12,0:00:21.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je prostor gdje se možemo osjećati sigurno
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.61,0:00:25.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i možda ne moramo nositi s onime što postoji u svijetu.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.87,0:00:32.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stvorili smo repliku moje sobe u prostoru galerije.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.61,0:00:37.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zaista imam osjećaj
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.18,0:00:38.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao da pokušavam prikazati
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.54,0:00:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,čitav jedan svemir,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.80,0:00:42.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,gdje trans žene u svojoj sobi kroje snove
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.79,0:00:46.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,o svojoj bodućnosti i mogućnostima.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.44,0:00:48.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Možda čak o tome kakav bi bio svijet
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.76,0:00:50.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da nije takav kakav je
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.49,0:00:58.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(zapis) Puppies Puppies (Jade Guanaro Kuriki-Olivio): Radikalna transparentnost
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.94,0:01:15.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mjesta iz moje prošlosti
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.17,0:01:17.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i mjesta o kojima sanjam za budućnost
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.62,0:01:20.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,preuzimaju ulogu vrta sobe
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.77,0:01:25.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kad sam imala tumor na mozgu
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.15,0:01:28.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,zaista sam CBD shvaćala kao sveti lijek
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.02,0:01:30.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao što se shvaćao u japanskoj povijesti
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.48,0:01:32.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i povijesti domorodačkih naroda Amerike.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.41,0:01:38.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sanjam o tome da u budućnosti vodim farmu
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.44,0:01:40.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali onda opet, teško je,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.60,0:01:42.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer je okruženje vrlo neprijateljsko
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.59,0:01:44.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u ruralnim mjestima.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.74,0:01:50.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zatim, vrata Torii se u šintoizmu uvijek poimaju kao simbol svetoga mjesta
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.70,0:01:56.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tako da mislim da se na kraju sve to skupa slaže
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.15,0:01:58.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da tvori pejzaž sjećanja
Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.91,0:02:00.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i jednu vrstu čežnje.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.53,0:02:14.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Žamor glasova)
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.41,0:02:17.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Veliki dio postojanja kao trans osoba
Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.94,0:02:20.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,je sveprisutni strah u pozadini svega,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.90,0:02:23.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali umjetnost je domena u kojoj
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.76,0:02:26.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,se osjećam kao da mogu sama diktirati stvari
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.99,0:02:28.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i moja riječ vrijedi u nekim stvarima.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.22,0:02:37.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Radila sam u neprofitnoj organizaciji Trans Latina
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.57,0:02:40.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dolazilo je sve više prilika u umjetnosti
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.04,0:02:41.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa sam si pomislila
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.94,0:02:44.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,možda bih u ovo mogla uklopiti
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.05,0:02:45.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,društveni rad.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.57,0:02:48.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je započelo testovima za HIV u prostoru muzeja
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.29,0:02:53.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nekada sam mislila, "Ovo je aktivizam"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.30,0:02:54.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili "Ovo je umjetnost"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.38,0:02:55.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili "Ovo je eskapizam",
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.81,0:02:57.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali u stvarnosti puno se
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.47,0:02:59.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,toga počne ispreplitati.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.06,0:03:06.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(smirujuća glazba)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.42,0:03:09.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tek smo bili prohodali
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.90,0:03:11.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,netom prije izložbe.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.61,0:03:14.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Čak se i sjećam da sam se osjećala loše,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.08,0:03:15.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao, "Dobro, kako ću mu reći?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.45,0:03:17.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Ja nisam znao što da mislim o tome
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.32,0:03:20.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer nikad nisam upoznao osobu koja radi
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.68,0:03:22.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,baš umjetnost umjetnost
Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.66,0:03:23.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kao, pravu umjetnost.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.79,0:03:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislio sam da je to malo ludo na početku
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.80,0:03:29.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.30,0:03:30.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio sam malo nervozan oko toga
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.95,0:03:32.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da me izloži
Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.09,0:03:33.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer jesam privatna osoba
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.35,0:03:35.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali kad mi je sve pokazala
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.17,0:03:37.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shvatio sam.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.13,0:03:39.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bilo je odlično, genijalno.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.98,0:03:52.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Bila sam zahvalna što si ondje sa mnom,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.34,0:03:55.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da ne moram biti sama u akvariju
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.77,0:04:00.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Osjećaj da me se snima
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.70,0:04:02.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nije mi uvijek na površini svijesti,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.82,0:04:05.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali ipak nikada potpuno ne odlazi.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.11,0:04:07.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Odrasla sam u Texasu.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.95,0:04:09.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Svi u mojoj školi
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.28,0:04:10.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,imali su izloženo vatreno oružje,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.86,0:04:12.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i osjećala sam se kao da se
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.17,0:04:13.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cijelo vrijeme moram skrivati.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.80,0:04:15.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tako da sam prijatelje upoznavala na internetu
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.79,0:04:17.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i živjela pod pseudonimom
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.58,0:04:19.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da bih rekla da je
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.35,0:04:20.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,posredovanje putem ekrana
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.77,0:04:22.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nešto o čemu sam oduvijek razmišljala.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.79,0:04:25.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oduvijek sam ju smatrala nejasnom,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.04,0:04:26.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tu granicu između
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.68,0:04:28.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,onoga što dijeliš
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.07,0:04:29.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i onoga što ne dijeliš.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.98,0:04:34.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znala sam da želim iskoristiti
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.44,0:04:36.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,opnu koja se pričvrsti na staklo
Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.34,0:04:38.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i jednostavno napravi maglu
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.58,0:04:40.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pritiskom prekidača.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.96,0:04:43.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da je to bio način da kažem...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.20,0:04:45.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Okej, pustite me da živim iza ekrana
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.09,0:04:47.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koji može biti online ili offline."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.04,0:04:50.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislila sam da će to biti dovoljno
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.77,0:04:51.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,glume za ljude ili nešto
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.95,0:04:54.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali, iskreno, za mene je bilo malo previše.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:00.97,0:05:04.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I tako sam pozvala prijatelje
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.10,0:05:05.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da dođu u ovaj prostor
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.83,0:05:07.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da glume u kazalištu
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.49,0:05:10.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Takve stvari pomoću kojih
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.26,0:05:11.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mogu aktivirati prostor i
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.57,0:05:15.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ljudi u mom okruženju ih mogu iskoristiti.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.25,0:05:30.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Zvonjava)
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.23,0:05:32.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Njegova cura naravno nije znala
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.33,0:05:34.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da spava s trans ženama
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.24,0:05:36.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio je tip osobe koji bi
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.02,0:05:37.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tražio od tebe da sve ostaviš,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.62,0:05:38.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali bio je i jedina osoba
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.94,0:05:40.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,za koju bih to bila voljna učiniti,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.73,0:05:42.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer je njegov odgovor bio
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.03,0:05:43.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Platit ću koliko god"
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.45,0:05:45.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nije mi se činilo sigurnim, iskreno
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.82,0:05:47.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali to je bio dio posla.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.59,0:05:50.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (zvučnik) Voljela bih misliti
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.67,0:05:52.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da sam pomogla svojim klijentima
Dialogue: 0,0:05:52.33,0:05:54.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako što sam im u osnovi
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.46,0:05:56.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,bila nelicencirani terapeut.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.37,0:05:59.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ili što sam im dala osjećaj
Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.82,0:06:01.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da su ljudska bića
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.64,0:06:04.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jer bih voljela isto to zauzvrat.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.20,0:06:09.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Glazba)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.46,0:06:12.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Kada ovjerene medicinske sestre, asistenti,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.28,0:06:14.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,čistači, smetlari ili
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.54,0:06:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ljudi u drugim okupacijama
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.00,0:06:17.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koje se smatraju nepoželjnima
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.48,0:06:18.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,biraju svoj posao
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.82,0:06:20.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ne rade to kako bi se osjećali osnažnjeno.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.84,0:06:24.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (Lexii) Da, bilo je... (smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.21,0:06:26.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Da, budi iskrena, možeš reći što god
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.16,0:06:27.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Bilo je jako smiješno
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.87,0:06:30.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Znači, imala je jedan daljinski,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.08,0:06:33.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali u staklu su bili prorezi kroz koje
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.04,0:06:34.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,se moglo viriti unutra
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.89,0:06:36.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i tako su neki ljudi pokušavali viriti
Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.84,0:06:38.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa bi Jade stisla dugme i napravila da
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.84,0:06:40.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,se sve opet vidi
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.27,0:06:41.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pa bi se oni prepali kao "Oh!"
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.91,0:06:43.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- (smijeh)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:43.19,0:06:45.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znači, svaki put bi me nasmijalo.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.54,0:06:50.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Ali znaš što je isto smiješno
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.06,0:06:52.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ta razina radoznalosti od gledatelja.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.67,0:06:55.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Znači, mi to doživljavamo svaki dan
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.93,0:06:59.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,samo postojeći, izlazeći van, doslovno.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.04,0:07:01.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ljudi uvijek zure u nas,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.62,0:07:03.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jednostavno počnem se osjećati
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.06,0:07:04.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Ti znaš da sam ja osoba?", jelda
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.83,0:07:06.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Znaš da sam ljudsko biće?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.35,0:07:08.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Da, nekad je osjećaj kao da si nekakva predstava
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.59,0:07:09.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Da
Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.38,0:07:11.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I imaš taj daljinski u ruci
Dialogue: 0,0:07:11.28,0:07:12.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i mislim da je to...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.80,0:07:15.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislim da je to sloboda.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.37,0:07:18.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Ja to samo zovem "Moć"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.75,0:07:24.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bio je to način da nekako
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.03,0:07:26.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,promišljam vidljivost
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.04,0:07:28.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ali isto tako i otporu i odsutnosti
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.13,0:07:30.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ima taj utjecaj povuci-potegni
Dialogue: 0,0:07:30.88,0:07:33.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koji mislim da se nekada odražava
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.12,0:07:34.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i u mojoj osobnosti,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.72,0:07:36.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,postanem jako bliska
Dialogue: 0,0:07:36.69,0:07:38.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i isto tako se povučem i zaklonim
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.96,0:07:40.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ili opsjenim
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.36,0:07:44.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To je nešto tako čudno,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.21,0:07:46.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,gdje nisam mogla biti "ja"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:46.16,0:07:48.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,morala sam biti druga osoba
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.36,0:07:49.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na jugu, da preživim
Dialogue: 0,0:07:49.58,0:07:51.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a sada, kao izvođač
Dialogue: 0,0:07:51.70,0:07:54.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pokušavam biti čim više svoja
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.79,0:07:59.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i učim kako glumiti na drugi način