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一旦看過它們，

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便刻劃在你的腦海裡

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尤其想到它們是早期

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少數以中國人為表現形式的代表之一

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曾有位醫療傳教士-彼得‧帕克

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在十九世紀初，為了展現腫瘤的手術切口

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而來到廣州

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關喬昌是當時聞名遐邇的畫家

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尤以人物肖像著名

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但我認為他聞名之處

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在於其刻劃人物的精細度

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他曾說過這句名言：

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「只畫眼睛所見」

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這和所謂「中國性」有關

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想想看，「中國人的特性」是怎麼演變成一個詞的？

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有什麼樣的巧思藏在創作「另一個頭」其中？

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為什麼肩膀是裸露的？

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讓辮子垂放在這

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十分引人入勝，我好奇這樣的吸引力

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是否能讓觀者把畫中的模特

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視為人類

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「范傑斯：傳染之美」

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我努力嘗試去理解美和魅力的定義

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我認為魅力深深影響著我的創作

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現今的世代，美是十分乏味的

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在社群平台上只能有一種情緒表達

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也就是點擊兩下，對吧？

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那僅僅是一個心形

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當遇上美的事物，得到的僅是一個扁平的愛心

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但當你回顧過去的美

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是美及絕美之物

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它是伴隨著某種程度的停頓

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以及這般的恐懼

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這也表示，在過去

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要形容事物的美

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是令人激動到想吐的

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(笑聲)

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我最初在香港長大

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身為同性戀者，在那裡是倍感壓迫的

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無法在社會中表達自我

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平常甚至很難見到

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快樂的同性戀者

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或是同性戀者

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這就像是看不見自己的未來

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我部份的成長歲月很痛苦

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不停地尋找自我的價值

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(茱莉．沃爾芙博士)所以我認為

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這是你作品的碎片，是和玻璃有關的

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接著你加入黑色素

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並在後端用矽填滿，對嗎？

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(范)沒錯

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(沃爾芙博士)我們想創造的是黑色素

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這是我們想得到的最終物理型態

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這是L-多巴

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在這裡，L-多巴是非常不穩定的分子

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如果把它暴露在光照下

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或接觸到周圍環境溫度

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它便會開始自主聚合化

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並開始製造聚合物

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也就是複合的蛋白質亞基

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它便會和形成黑色素有關

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而我們要做的是

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製造像L-多巴一樣不穩定的條件

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藉此跳過上述的生物過程

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直接獲得黑色素

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它沒有那麼黑

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但你能看到裡面的小碎片

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(范)不可思議的是它們是暖的

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(沃爾芙博士)沒錯

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(范)如果能有什麼

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能讓你辨識或成為誘發因子

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我有點希望這就是

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因為你給我的培養皿裡

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裝著大腸桿菌

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它們看起來和黴菌一樣

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讓我們祈禱它們能快樂地長大

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變成更接近泥漿的質地，你懂嗎？

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許多我想嘗試的材料

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都和性別

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或種族有關

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它們是非常抽象的

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這好像烹飪節目

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這裡有精液

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血液

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黑色素

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以及尿液

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(笑聲)

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我當時思考著種族議題，

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尤其是在美國

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是多麼有影響力的

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想到中國和冠狀病毒

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想到SARS和待在香港

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以及想到在吉姆克勞法的年代，水資源無法分享

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那樣的想法是會傳染的

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在那時的亞洲，美是柔順的

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不拐彎抹角、不令人反感

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我的創作

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會動搖那樣的平衡

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使勞工階級認識美

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這過程就像這些具感染性的圓環

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而形成這些圓胖形狀的材質

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其實是正在腐敗的精子

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我覺得這點很有趣

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(笑聲)

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讓形狀相互呼應是很重要的

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激起了某種神祕感

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同時又十分色慾

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讓你無法自拔地被吸引

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那樣的慾望

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引誘著你

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這是晶瑩剔透的美

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以及在其中看見自我的可能性

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同時

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你其實正看著讓你厭惡的事物

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這其實就是所謂傳染

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或不純潔

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我的治療師說我對壓抑太熟悉了

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危險、風險和壓抑都讓我很自在

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所以我在工作室拼命地工作

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或像是，我限制自己快樂

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因為在這，作為同性戀，我不需要壓抑

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(笑聲)

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所以我現在壓抑我自己(笑聲)

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因為我不能因為失敗而回去