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一旦你看到他们

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他们就会印刻在你的脑海

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特别是当你知道他们是为数不多的

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以中国人为主题的表现形式

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19世纪初期，一名叫彼得·帕克的医疗布道士来到广州

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进行肿瘤的切口手术

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进行肿瘤的切口手术

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关乔昌是当时享誉盛名的画家

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特别以其肖像画而闻名

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但对我而言，关巧昌的成功更在于

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他对模特细致入微的刻画

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正如他自己所说那样

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“我能画出眼睛所看到的一切”

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这里面包含了“中国人”的特性

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我开始思考，“中国性”是如何演变成一个单词的

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又是因为涉及到什么技术而产生了“另类”这个概念

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为什么要裸露肩膀？

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正如辫子所置放的位子

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这太过于诱人，以至于我想了解，是否这种诱惑

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必须要以一种可见的方式展现

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["范加: 传染的美"]

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这让我开始去思考美和诱惑的意义

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我认为我的作品中含有许多诱惑的东西

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如今，美是非常的平淡无奇

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在社交媒体上你往往只能表达一种情感

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那就是“双击”，对吧？[笑声]

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仅仅只有一个心的形状

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当某一样东西是美的，它所拥有的的也就仅仅是一个扁平的心而已

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但回过头去看过去对美的理解时

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是美和崇高

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它所伴随的往往是这种停滞

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这种恐惧

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这也意味着，在过去

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描述一个事物多么的美

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几乎让你想吐

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[笑声]

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我在香港长大

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在香港当酷儿是非常让人压抑的

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因为这种身份在社会中不能得到体现

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甚至是

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在那里根本看不见快乐酷儿的存在

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或是普遍的酷儿

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就像是你根本看不到未来的自己

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最初的那几年真的很艰辛

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试图找到我可以成为的人

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[新闻广播音频] 来自香港的最新消息

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口罩在冠状病毒流行期间成为非常珍贵的商品

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几个月前香港就是这种情况

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但很快恢复了供应

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[范加] 我最近开始思考很多

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自从香港的

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游行被病毒所影响

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口罩在不断地变化

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从当初的子弹到如今的病毒

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但他们都代表着不同的社会运动

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这是演变的下一步

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变得越来越自主

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我想到了用假体材料制作面具

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完全把你与外世隔离

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且因此你可以成为一个完美的人

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你就像是你自己的大气层

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[朱莉·沃尔夫] 所以我对这件作品的理解

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然后，你把黑色素加进去

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最后用硅填充它，对吗？

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[范] 对

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[沃尔夫] 我们要制作的是黑色素

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这是我们要做的它最终的物理形态

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这叫“左旋多巴”

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在这种情况下，左旋多巴是非常不稳定分子

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如果你将其暴露在光下

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或常温下

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它将会发生自动聚合的反应

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它将开始制造聚合物

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一种重复亚基所组成的物质

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这就是我们所要的黑色素

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所以我们要做的是创造环境

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可以尽可能的使左旋多巴不稳定

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这样我们就可以绕过生物过程

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得到我们所需的黑色素

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所以它颜色并不是那么黑

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但你可以看到里面有沉淀

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太不可思议的是它们居然还有温度

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因为你当时给我的

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装有大肠杆菌的器皿

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它们看起来就像是霉菌

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很多我正在尝试用的

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我们认为是性别化的材料

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或是种族化的材料

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都非常非常的荒谬

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这就和厨艺展示一样

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我这里有收集的精液

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血液

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黑色素

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和尿液

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[笑声]

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所以我开始思考种族

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特别是在美国

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是如何被定义为具有传染性的

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想到中国和冠状病毒

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想到非典病毒和身处香港的经历

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并且想到吉姆·克劳的那个水源不得共享的时代

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这些关于被感染的想法

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如今，“美”在亚洲的定义是平滑的

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没有边角，互不排斥

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现在所做的是打破这种平衡

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它展示是打磨这种平滑所需的劳力

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事实上是正在腐烂的精液

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我觉得非常趣

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[笑声]

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并以某种方式唤起了这种烦躁感

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但又同时如此色情让你无法停止

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被其所吸引

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正是这种色情的表达

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诱惑着你

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光泽中的美

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以及通过其中看到自己的倒影

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同时

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你所凝视着的实际上是那些击退你的

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那些实际上被认为是具有感染性的

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不洁净的东西

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我的心理治疗师说我对压迫感是再熟悉不过的了

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正是这种危险、风险和压迫感让有了家的感觉

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所以我把自己囚禁在工作室

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或是剥夺自己的快乐

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因为我在这里并不会因为我是酷儿而被压迫

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[笑声]

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所以现在我自己压抑自己

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因为如果失败了，我就再也回不去了