WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.950 Hello everyone, here's Evildea, your God! 00:00:02.950 --> 00:00:06.063 And tonight, I want to discuss something 00:00:06.063 --> 00:00:09.031 which I've been thinking about for a long time 00:00:09.031 --> 00:00:12.796 and discussed with my wife, but haven't said on this channel. 00:00:12.796 --> 00:00:15.468 But first I simply want to say that it is 00:00:15.468 --> 00:00:17.899 now after midnight. My wife is in bed. 00:00:17.899 --> 00:00:20.092 My parents-in-law are in bed. 00:00:20.092 --> 00:00:24.731 And I'm on the sofa thinking about the future 00:00:24.731 --> 00:00:28.412 And in fact lately I can't not think about it 00:00:28.412 --> 00:00:33.360 because it really is extremely important for my future. 00:00:33.360 --> 00:00:36.351 Probably if you've watched my channel for a while 00:00:36.351 --> 00:00:40.665 you probably know that I intend to have a child 00:00:40.665 --> 00:00:44.264 in the coming year. Or not have, but to make born 00:00:44.264 --> 00:00:46.091 a child in the coming year 00:00:46.091 --> 00:00:50.144 I have to be somewhat careful about my use of verbs 00:00:50.144 --> 00:00:56.883 So the plan is that in January, I'll begin 00:00:59.513 --> 00:01:02.551 to start a family. I don't know how to say that 00:01:02.551 --> 00:01:07.887 without seeming very strange, but that is the plan 00:01:07.887 --> 00:01:11.782 But during several months, my and my wife 00:01:11.782 --> 00:01:14.780 discussed the matter a lot and we both 00:01:14.780 --> 00:01:16.509 want to have a child. 00:01:16.509 --> 00:01:18.934 But we both don't want to have a child. 00:01:18.934 --> 00:01:23.720 It is an extremely hard problem for us 00:01:23.720 --> 00:01:28.127 because we don't want a child just now, 00:01:28.127 --> 00:01:31.856 because for example I want to travel around the world 00:01:31.856 --> 00:01:34.434 My wife wants the same 00:01:34.434 --> 00:01:40.096 We want to develop our careers 00:01:40.096 --> 00:01:41.280 and so on 00:01:41.280 --> 00:01:44.749 There are a lot of things that we want 00:01:44.749 --> 00:01:48.818 to do first, but there is another problem. 00:01:48.818 --> 00:01:52.596 I more and more am getting older. 00:01:52.596 --> 00:01:56.480 And we know that the easiest years 00:01:56.480 --> 00:02:04.571 for giving birth, little by little, are disappearing 00:02:04.571 --> 00:02:08.448 And of course that greatly occupies our minds 00:02:08.448 --> 00:02:14.628 lately. And even raises the matter 00:02:14.628 --> 00:02:19.815 of whether we should have a child later. 00:02:19.815 --> 00:02:23.300 and I discuss it a lot with her, 00:02:23.300 --> 00:02:26.611 and for some reason really want to have a child 00:02:26.611 --> 00:02:29.390 since I was a child myself. 00:02:29.390 --> 00:02:32.689 One moment, I have to change the position 00:02:32.689 --> 00:02:35.963 of the camera, because it is a bit strange at the moment. 00:02:35.963 --> 00:02:41.833 So since I was a child, I always imagined a family 00:02:41.833 --> 00:02:47.596 as a father, a mother and a child. 00:02:47.596 --> 00:02:50.361 If a family doesn't have a child, it isn't 00:02:50.361 --> 00:02:52.402 really a family. 00:02:52.402 --> 00:02:55.039 And I don't know why I think that way, 00:02:55.039 --> 00:02:57.657 my parents definitely didn't educate me that way 00:02:57.657 --> 00:03:02.189 I simply grew up that way and started that way 00:03:02.189 --> 00:03:05.096 and of course in the Chinese culture, 00:03:05.096 --> 00:03:08.157 to have a child is one of the most important things 00:03:08.157 --> 00:03:11.192 so you can imagine that her mother and father 00:03:11.192 --> 00:03:14.054 say "When is the child coming? When is the child coming?" 00:03:14.054 --> 00:03:18.431 And mine even say "Do you intend to have a child?" 00:03:19.361 --> 00:03:22.631 "Soon? Soonish?" 00:03:24.011 --> 00:03:26.423 And we always say "Yes, yes we intend 00:03:26.423 --> 00:03:29.979 We intend to, simply wait a little." 00:03:29.979 --> 00:03:33.411 But lately we discussed the matter a lot 00:03:33.411 --> 00:03:36.126 probably you saw the videoblog where we visited 00:03:36.126 --> 00:03:42.570 our friends' house, 00:03:42.570 --> 00:03:48.313 and when we were there that didn't really help 00:03:48.313 --> 00:03:52.688 because the father of that young girl Ling Ling 00:03:52.688 --> 00:03:55.814 He in fact said to me that if you want to develop 00:03:55.814 --> 00:04:00.402 your career, have anything or do anything at all, 00:04:00.402 --> 00:04:02.658 do it fucking now! 00:04:02.658 --> 00:04:05.356 Because you won't be able to do it after the child 00:04:05.356 --> 00:04:08.510 and of course that massively scared me 00:04:08.510 --> 00:04:11.719 and even scared my wife 00:04:11.719 --> 00:04:14.193 and there are lots of other things but, 00:04:14.193 --> 00:04:19.544 Ne definitely, not definitely I'm lying when I say that 00:04:19.544 --> 00:04:22.611 I don't want a child now, 00:04:24.011 --> 00:04:28.508 but I'm afraid that if we wait too long 00:04:28.508 --> 00:04:31.418 we won't be able to have it in the future. 00:04:31.418 --> 00:04:33.949 That's a real fear. 00:04:33.949 --> 00:04:37.361 I'm still young enough, my wife 00:04:37.361 --> 00:04:41.187 is still young enough, in fact I didn't say 00:04:41.187 --> 00:04:44.568 this before on this channel and I hope 00:04:44.568 --> 00:04:49.663 that you all won't say this on Facebook. 00:04:49.663 --> 00:04:51.449 At least not in English. 00:04:51.449 --> 00:04:56.779 But my wife is a little older than me 00:04:56.779 --> 00:04:59.719 Not that much, just a little. 00:04:59.719 --> 00:05:03.422 So she understandably has real fears about 00:05:03.422 --> 00:05:08.571 whether to have a child now or in the future? 00:05:08.571 --> 00:05:15.524 And yes, that's the most important problem currently 00:05:15.524 --> 00:05:17.918 And I know that I have to make a choice 00:05:17.918 --> 00:05:19.310 And she has to make a choice 00:05:19.310 --> 00:05:23.070 and you all, you can't choose for me. 00:05:23.070 --> 00:05:27.811 But it really occupies my thoughts lately. 00:05:27.811 --> 00:05:32.189 And I simply want to share that with you 00:05:32.189 --> 00:05:36.950 it's what I'm thinking about 00:05:36.950 --> 00:05:41.784 In other news, this weekend 00:05:41.784 --> 00:05:46.574 will be a great weekend because on Saturday, 00:05:46.574 --> 00:05:50.148 I'll go to a Youtube meeting and I'll film that 00:05:50.148 --> 00:05:53.479 On Sunday I'll go to Zamenhof Day and 00:05:53.479 --> 00:05:57.514 the Zamenhof Day will happen on Sunday because 00:05:57.514 --> 00:06:01.479 the real Zamenhof Day will happen during the week 00:06:01.479 --> 00:06:04.300 and we don't want to meet during the week 00:06:04.300 --> 00:06:06.887 so we intend to have it on Sunday. 00:06:06.887 --> 00:06:09.991 So in fact, you will be able to experience Zamenhof Day 00:06:09.991 --> 00:06:13.125 before the real Zamenhof Day 00:06:14.575 --> 00:06:18.539 And Friday night I intend to go to 00:06:18.539 --> 00:06:22.998 a blog group, maybe I can find someone who 00:06:22.998 --> 00:06:24.887 wants to collaborate with me. 00:06:24.887 --> 00:06:27.280 Yes that is everything! 00:06:27.280 --> 00:06:29.980 Forgive me if this video bored you 00:06:29.980 --> 00:06:32.870 but here is the end, so if you like it, 00:06:32.870 --> 00:06:34.994 like it, share it, subscribe to my channel 00:06:34.994 --> 00:06:36.311 if you still haven't subscribed 00:06:36.311 --> 00:06:38.147 and I'll see everyone in the next video 00:06:38.147 --> 00:06:40.800 and if you're not there, I'll find you and 00:06:40.800 --> 00:06:42.424 I'll put something into your arse 00:06:42.935 --> 00:06:44.599 And as always I want to thank my 00:06:44.599 --> 00:06:46.797 donators at Patreon, but before I 00:06:46.797 --> 00:06:49.626 do that, I just want to say that every 00:06:49.626 --> 00:06:52.210 dollar that you can donate to my channel 00:06:52.210 --> 00:06:55.164 every month really helps develop it. 00:06:55.164 --> 00:06:56.455 And those are . . . 00:07:09.813 --> 00:07:12.356 And I'll see you all in the next video.