Hello everyone, here's Evildea, your God!

And tonight, I want to discuss something

which I've been thinking about for a long time

and discussed with my wife, but haven't said on this channel.

But first I simply want to say that it is

now after midnight. My wife is in bed.

My parents-in-law are in bed.

And I'm on the sofa thinking about the future

And in fact lately I can't not think about it

because it really is extremely important for my future.

Probably if you've watched my channel for a while

you probably know that I intend to have a child

in the coming year. Or not have, but to make born

a child in the coming year

I have to be somewhat careful about my use of verbs

So the plan is that in January, I'll begin

to start a family. I don't know how to say that

without seeming very strange, but that is the plan

But during several months, my and my wife

discussed the matter a lot and we both

want to have a child.

But we both don't want to have a child.

It is an extremely hard problem for us

because we don't want a child just now,

because for example I want to travel around the world

My wife wants the same

We want to develop our careers

and so on

There are a lot of things that we want

to do first, but there is another problem.

I more and more am getting older.

And we know that the easiest years

for giving birth, little by little, are disappearing

And of course that greatly occupies our minds

lately. And even raises the matter

of whether we should have a child later.

and I discuss it a lot with her,

and for some reason really want to have a child

since I was a child myself.

One moment, I have to change the position

of the camera, because it is a bit strange at the moment.

So since I was a child, I always imagined a family

as a father, a mother and a child.

If a family doesn't have a child, it isn't

really a family.

And I don't know why I think that way,

my parents definitely didn't educate me that way

I simply grew up that way and started that way

and of course in the Chinese culture,

to have a child is one of the most important things

so you can imagine that her mother and father

say "When is the child coming? When is the child coming?"

And mine even say "Do you intend to have a child?"

"Soon? Soonish?"

And we always say "Yes, yes we intend

We intend to, simply wait a little."

But lately we discussed the matter a lot

probably you saw the videoblog where we visited

our friends' house,

and when we were there that didn't really help

because the father of that young girl Ling Ling

He in fact said to me that if you want to develop

your career, have anything or do anything at all,

do it fucking now!

Because you won't be able to do it after the child

and of course that massively scared me

and even scared my wife

and there are lots of other things but,

Ne definitely, not definitely I'm lying when I say that

I don't want a child now,

but I'm afraid that if we wait too long

we won't be able to have it in the future.

That's a real fear.

I'm still young enough, my wife

is still young enough, in fact I didn't say

this before on this channel and I hope

that you all won't say this on Facebook.

At least not in English.

But my wife is a little older than me

Not that much, just a little.

So she understandably has real fears about

whether to have a child now or in the future?

And yes, that's the most important problem currently

And I know that I have to make a choice

And she has to make a choice

and you all, you can't choose for me.

But it really occupies my thoughts lately.

And I simply want to share that with you

it's what I'm thinking about

In other news, this weekend

will be a great weekend because on Saturday,

I'll go to a Youtube meeting and I'll film that

On Sunday I'll go to Zamenhof Day and

the Zamenhof Day will happen on Sunday because

the real Zamenhof Day will happen during the week

and we don't want to meet during the week

so we intend to have it on Sunday.

So in fact, you will be able to experience Zamenhof Day

before the real Zamenhof Day

And Friday night I intend to go to

a blog group, maybe I can find someone who

wants to collaborate with me.

Yes that is everything!

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