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Hello everyone, here's Evildea, your God!

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And tonight, I want to discuss something

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which I've been thinking about for a long time

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and discussed with my wife, but haven't said on this channel.

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But first I simply want to say that it is

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now after midnight. My wife is in bed.

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My parents-in-law are in bed.

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And I'm on the sofa thinking about the future

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And in fact lately I can't not think about it

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because it really is extremely important for my future.

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Probably if you've watched my channel for a while

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you probably know that I intend to have a child

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in the coming year. Or not have, but to make born

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a child in the coming year

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I have to be somewhat careful about my use of verbs

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So the plan is that in January, I'll begin

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to start a family. I don't know how to say that

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without seeming very strange, but that is the plan

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But during several months, my and my wife

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discussed the matter a lot and we both

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want to have a child.

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But we both don't want to have a child.

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It is an extremely hard problem for us

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because we don't want a child just now,

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because for example I want to travel around the world

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My wife wants the same

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We want to develop our careers

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and so on

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There are a lot of things that we want

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to do first, but there is another problem.

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I more and more am getting older.

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And we know that the easiest years

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for giving birth, little by little, are disappearing

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And of course that greatly occupies our minds

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lately. And even raises the matter

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of whether we should have a child later.

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and I discuss it a lot with her,

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and for some reason really want to have a child

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since I was a child myself.

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One moment, I have to change the position

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of the camera, because it is a bit strange at the moment.

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So since I was a child, I always imagined a family

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as a father, a mother and a child.

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If a family doesn't have a child, it isn't

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really a family.

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And I don't know why I think that way,

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my parents definitely didn't educate me that way

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I simply grew up that way and started that way

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and of course in the Chinese culture,

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to have a child is one of the most important things

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so you can imagine that her mother and father

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say "When is the child coming? When is the child coming?"

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And mine even say "Do you intend to have a child?"

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"Soon? Soonish?"

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And we always say "Yes, yes we intend

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We intend to, simply wait a little."

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But lately we discussed the matter a lot

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probably you saw the videoblog where we visited

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our friends' house,

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and when we were there that didn't really help

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because the father of that young girl Ling Ling

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He in fact said to me that if you want to develop

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your career, have anything or do anything at all,

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do it fucking now!

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Because you won't be able to do it after the child

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and of course that massively scared me

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and even scared my wife

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and there are lots of other things but,

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Ne definitely, not definitely I'm lying when I say that

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I don't want a child now,

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but I'm afraid that if we wait too long

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we won't be able to have it in the future.

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That's a real fear.

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I'm still young enough, my wife

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is still young enough, in fact I didn't say

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this before on this channel and I hope

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that you all won't say this on Facebook.

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At least not in English.

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But my wife is a little older than me

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Not that much, just a little.

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So she understandably has real fears about

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whether to have a child now or in the future?

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And yes, that's the most important problem currently

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And I know that I have to make a choice

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And she has to make a choice

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and you all, you can't choose for me.

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But it really occupies my thoughts lately.

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And I simply want to share that with you

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it's what I'm thinking about

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In other news, this weekend

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will be a great weekend because on Saturday,

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I'll go to a Youtube meeting and I'll film that

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On Sunday I'll go to Zamenhof Day and

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the Zamenhof Day will happen on Sunday because

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the real Zamenhof Day will happen during the week

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and we don't want to meet during the week

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so we intend to have it on Sunday.

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So in fact, you will be able to experience Zamenhof Day

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before the real Zamenhof Day

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And Friday night I intend to go to

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a blog group, maybe I can find someone who

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wants to collaborate with me.

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Yes that is everything!

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Forgive me if this video bored you

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but here is the end, so if you like it,

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like it, share it, subscribe to my channel

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and I'll see everyone in the next video

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and if you're not there, I'll find you and

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I'll put something into your arse

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And as always I want to thank my

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donators at Patreon, but before I

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do that, I just want to say that every

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dollar that you can donate to my channel

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every month really helps develop it.

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And those are . . .

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And I'll see you all in the next video.