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Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text
Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.01,0:00:04.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Today I stand before you\Nas a man who lives life to the full
Dialogue: 0,0:00:04.98,0:00:06.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the here and now.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.47,0:00:09.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But for a long time,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:09.20,0:00:10.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lived for death.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.14,0:00:13.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was a young man who believed
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.89,0:00:18.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that jihad is to be understood\Nin the language for force and violence.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.04,0:00:24.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I tried to right wrongs\Nthrough power and aggression.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.72,0:00:31.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had deep concerns\Nfor the suffering of others
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.02,0:00:34.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a strong desire to help\Nand bring relief to them.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.39,0:00:40.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I thought violent Jihad was noble,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.77,0:00:42.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,chivalrous
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.06,0:00:43.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the best way to help.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.84,0:00:47.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At a time when so many of our people --
Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.76,0:00:49.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,young people especially --
Dialogue: 0,0:00:49.02,0:00:51.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are at risk of radicalization
Dialogue: 0,0:00:51.74,0:00:53.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through groups like Al Qaeda,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.59,0:00:54.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Islamic State
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.62,0:00:56.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and others,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.24,0:00:57.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when these groups are claiming
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.73,0:01:02.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that their horrific brutality\Nand violence are true jihad,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.77,0:01:06.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I want to say that their idea\Nof Jihad is wrong --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.93,0:01:08.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,completely wrong --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.23,0:01:10.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as was mine, then.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.52,0:01:14.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Jihad means to strive to one's utmost.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.78,0:01:17.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It includes exertion and spirituality,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.80,0:01:19.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,self-purification
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.24,0:01:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and devotion.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.68,0:01:25.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It refers to positive transformation
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.56,0:01:29.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through learning, wisdom\Nand remembrance of God.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.70,0:01:33.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The word jihad stands for all\Nthose meanings as a whole.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.23,0:01:39.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Jihad may at times take\Nthe form of fighting,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.64,0:01:41.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but only sometimes,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.57,0:01:44.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,under strict conditions,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:44.46,0:01:46.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,within rules and limits.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.08,0:01:49.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In Islam,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.09,0:01:54.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the benefit of an act must outweigh\Nthe harm or hardship it entails.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.43,0:01:57.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,More importantly,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.30,0:02:02.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the verses in the Koran that are\Nconnected to jihad [of] fighting,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.07,0:02:07.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,do not cancel out the verses\Nthat talk about forgiveness,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.54,0:02:08.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,benevolence,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.95,0:02:10.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or patience.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.59,0:02:18.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But now I believe that there are no\Ncircumstances on Earth
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.34,0:02:20.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where a violent jihad is permissible,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.92,0:02:24.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it will lead to greater harm.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.92,0:02:28.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But now the idea of Jihad\Nhas been hijacked.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.65,0:02:31.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It has been perverted\Nto mean violent struggle
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.99,0:02:34.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wherever Muslims\Nare undergoing difficulties,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.95,0:02:36.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and turned into terrorism
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.88,0:02:39.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by fascistic Islamists like Al Qaeda,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.97,0:02:40.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Islamic State
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.97,0:02:42.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and others.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.59,0:02:44.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I have come to understand
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.47,0:02:48.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that true jihad means\Nstriving to the utmost
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.52,0:02:52.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to strengthen and live\Nthose qualities which God loves:
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.63,0:02:53.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,honesty,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.63,0:02:55.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,trustworthiness,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.13,0:02:57.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,compassion, benevolence,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.23,0:02:59.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reliability, respect,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.12,0:03:00.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,truthfulness --
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.56,0:03:04.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,human values that so many of us share.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.58,0:03:08.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was born in Bangladesh,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.52,0:03:10.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but grew up mostly in England.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.70,0:03:12.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I went to school here.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.83,0:03:15.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My father was an academic,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.18,0:03:17.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we were in the UK through his work.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.61,0:03:23.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In 1971 we were in Bangladesh\Nwhen everything changed.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.51,0:03:28.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The War of Independence\Nimpacted upon us terribly,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.09,0:03:30.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pitting family against family,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.01,0:03:31.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,neighbor against neighbor.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.76,0:03:34.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And at the age of 12 I experience war,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.76,0:03:37.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,destitution in my family,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.11,0:03:41.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the deaths of 22 of my\Nrelatives in horrible ways,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.34,0:03:45.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as well as the murder of my elder brother.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.30,0:03:51.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I witnessed killing ...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.28,0:03:54.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,animals feeding on corpses in the streets,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.24,0:03:55.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,starvation all around me;
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.95,0:03:58.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wanton, horrific violence --
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.10,0:04:00.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,senseless violence.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.62,0:04:04.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was a young man --
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.26,0:04:05.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,teenager --
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.26,0:04:07.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,fascinated by ideas.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.37,0:04:09.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wanted to learn,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.21,0:04:11.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I could not go to school\Nfor four years.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.06,0:04:14.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After the War of Independence,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.53,0:04:18.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my father was put in prison\Nfor two-and-a-half years,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.20,0:04:21.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I used to visit him\Nevery week in prison,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.45,0:04:23.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and homeschooled myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.33,0:04:27.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My father was released in 1973
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.82,0:04:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and he fled to England as a refugee,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:30.50,0:04:32.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we soon followed him.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.81,0:04:34.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was 17.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.67,0:04:37.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So these experiences gave me
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.20,0:04:41.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a sharp awareness of the atrocities\Nand injustices in the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:42.61,0:04:44.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I had a strong desire --
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.45,0:04:46.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a very keen, deep desire --
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.36,0:04:47.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to right wrongs
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.52,0:04:49.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and help the victims of oppression.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.87,0:04:52.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,While studying at college in the UK,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.83,0:04:58.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I met others who showed me\Nhow I could channel that desire
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.99,0:05:01.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and help through my religion.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.88,0:05:03.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was radicalized --
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.44,0:05:07.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enough to consider violence correct,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.88,0:05:11.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,even a virtue under certain circumstances.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.49,0:05:15.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I became involved\Nin the jihad in Afghanistan.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:15.81,0:05:20.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wanted to protect the Muslim [Afghan]\Npopulation against the Soviet army.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.24,0:05:23.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I thought that was jihad:
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.68,0:05:25.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my sacred duty,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.17,0:05:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which would be rewarded by God.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.18,0:05:34.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I became a preacher.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.27,0:05:41.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was one of the pioneers\Nof violent jihad in the UK.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.37,0:05:42.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I recruited,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.84,0:05:43.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I raised funds,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.91,0:05:44.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I trained.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.78,0:05:48.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I confused true jihad
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.48,0:05:54.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with this perversion as presented\Nby the fascist Islamists --
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.10,0:05:57.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,these people who use the idea of jihad
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.05,0:06:01.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to justify their lust for power,\Nauthority and control on us.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.91,0:06:06.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A perversion perpetuated today\Nby fascist Islamist groups
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.27,0:06:09.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like Al Qaeda, Islamic State and others.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:10.76,0:06:13.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For a period of around 15 years,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.86,0:06:18.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I fought for short periods of time
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.69,0:06:20.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in Kashmir and Burma,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.43,0:06:22.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,besides Afghanistan.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:25.28,0:06:29.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our aim was to remove the invaders,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.10,0:06:33.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to bring relief to the oppressed victims
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.09,0:06:36.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and of course to establish\Nan Islamic state;
Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.43,0:06:38.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a caliphate for God's rule.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.09,0:06:40.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I did this openly.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.82,0:06:44.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't break any laws.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.79,0:06:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was proud and grateful to be British --
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.81,0:06:49.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I still am.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.63,0:06:54.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I bore no hostility\Nagainst this, my country,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:54.28,0:06:57.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nor enmity towards\Nthe non-Muslim citizens,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.91,0:06:59.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I still don't.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:02.11,0:07:04.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,During one battle in Afghanistan,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.51,0:07:08.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,some British men and I\Nformed a special bond
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.26,0:07:10.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a 15-year-old Afghani boy,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.93,0:07:13.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Abdullah,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.10,0:07:15.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,an innocent, loving and lovable kid
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.36,0:07:18.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who was always eager to please.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:19.10,0:07:20.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He was poor.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.08,0:07:23.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And boys like him did\Nmenial tasks in the camp.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.68,0:07:26.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he seemed happy enough,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.65,0:07:28.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I couldn't help wonder --
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.08,0:07:30.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,his parents must have missed him dearly.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.73,0:07:36.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they must have dreamt\Nabout a better future for him.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.93,0:07:40.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A victim of circumstance\Ncaught up in a war,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.69,0:07:43.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cruelly thrust upon him
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.12,0:07:45.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by the cruel circumstances of the time.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.97,0:07:54.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One day I picked up this unexploded\Nmortar shell in a trench,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.62,0:07:58.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I had it deposited\Nin a makeshift mud hut lab.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.49,0:08:02.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I went out on a short,\Npointless skirmish --
Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.41,0:08:04.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,always pointless --
Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.65,0:08:06.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I came back a few hours later
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.23,0:08:08.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to discover he was dead.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.43,0:08:12.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He had tried to recover\Nexplosives from that shell.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:12.34,0:08:15.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It exploded and he died a violent death,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.77,0:08:20.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,blown to bits by the very same device\Nthat had proved harmless to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.37,0:08:24.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I started to question.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.93,0:08:28.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How did his death serve any purpose?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.63,0:08:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Why did he die and I lived?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.86,0:08:35.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I carried on.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:35.34,0:08:37.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I fought in Kashmir.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.04,0:08:39.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I also recruited for the Philippines,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:39.82,0:08:42.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bosnia and Chechnya.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:42.92,0:08:44.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the questions grew.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.15,0:08:48.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Later in Burma,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:48.04,0:08:50.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I came across Rohingya fighters,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:50.36,0:08:52.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who were barely teenagers,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.59,0:08:54.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,born and brought up in the jungle,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.22,0:08:57.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,carrying machine guns\Nand grenade launches.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:00.26,0:09:06.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I met two 13-year-olds with soft\Nmanners and gentle voices.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:07.22,0:09:08.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Looking at me,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.22,0:09:11.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they begged me to take\Nthem away to England.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.02,0:09:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They simply wanted to go to school --
Dialogue: 0,0:09:20.00,0:09:21.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was their dream.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:24.48,0:09:25.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My family --
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.56,0:09:27.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my children of the same age --
Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.44,0:09:30.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,were living at home in the UK,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:30.41,0:09:31.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,going to school,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.71,0:09:33.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,living a safe life.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:34.05,0:09:35.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I couldn't help wonder
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.34,0:09:38.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how much these young boys\Nmust have spoken to one another
Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.86,0:09:41.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about their dreams for such a life.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.20,0:09:45.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Victims of circumstances.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:46.50,0:09:48.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,These two young boys --
Dialogue: 0,0:09:48.53,0:09:49.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sleeping rough on the ground,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:49.95,0:09:51.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,looking up at the stars --
Dialogue: 0,0:09:51.76,0:09:54.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cynically exploited by their leaders
Dialogue: 0,0:09:54.31,0:09:57.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for their personal lust\Nfor glory and power.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.21,0:10:01.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I soon witnessed boys\Nlike them killing one another
Dialogue: 0,0:10:01.35,0:10:04.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in conflicts between rival groups.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:05.56,0:10:09.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it was the same everywhere ...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:09.62,0:10:12.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Afghanistan, Kashmir, Burma,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:12.13,0:10:14.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Philipines, Chechnya;
Dialogue: 0,0:10:14.61,0:10:19.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,petty warlords got the young\Nand vulnerable to kill one another
Dialogue: 0,0:10:19.23,0:10:21.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the name of jihad.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.51,0:10:24.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Muslims against Muslims.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.96,0:10:30.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not protecting anyone against\Ninvaders or occupiers;
Dialogue: 0,0:10:30.34,0:10:32.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not bringing relief to the oppressed.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:34.46,0:10:35.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Children being used --
Dialogue: 0,0:10:35.96,0:10:37.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cynically exploited;
Dialogue: 0,0:10:37.70,0:10:42.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people dying in conflicts which\NI was supporting in the name of jihad.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.16,0:10:47.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it still carries on today.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:52.04,0:10:55.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Realizing that the violent jihad\N
Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.84,0:11:01.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had engaged in abroad
Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.91,0:11:05.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was so different --
Dialogue: 0,0:11:05.54,0:11:10.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such a chasm between\Nwhat I had experienced
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.37,0:11:13.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and what I thought was sacred duty --
Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.04,0:11:16.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had to reflect on my\Nactivities here in the UK.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:18.43,0:11:20.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had to consider my preaching,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:20.54,0:11:21.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,recruiting,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:21.54,0:11:22.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,fundraising,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:22.54,0:11:23.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,training,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:23.87,0:11:27.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but most importantly, radicalizing --
Dialogue: 0,0:11:27.02,0:11:29.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sending young people to fight and die
Dialogue: 0,0:11:29.12,0:11:30.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I was doing --
Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.43,0:11:32.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all totally wrong.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.93,0:11:40.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I got involved in violent\Njihad in the mid '80s,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:40.18,0:11:42.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,starting with Afghanistan.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:42.83,0:11:46.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And by the time I finished\Nit was in the year 2000.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:47.18,0:11:48.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was completely immersed in it.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:48.85,0:11:50.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All around me people supported,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.93,0:11:52.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,applauded,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:52.20,0:11:55.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,even celebrated what\Nwe were doing in their name.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:56.32,0:11:58.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But by the time I learned to get out,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:58.13,0:12:00.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,completely disillusioned in the year 2000,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:00.93,0:12:03.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,15 years had passed.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.39,0:12:07.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So what goes wrong?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:08.98,0:12:13.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We were so busy talking about virtue,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:13.53,0:12:16.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we were blinded by a cause.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:20.48,0:12:25.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And we did not give ourselves a chance\Nto develop a virtuous character.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:25.99,0:12:30.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We told ourselves we were\Nfighting for the oppressed,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:30.24,0:12:32.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but these were unwinnable wars.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:34.01,0:12:37.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We became the very instrument\Nthrough which more deaths occurred,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:37.76,0:12:41.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,complicit in causing further misery
Dialogue: 0,0:12:41.49,0:12:44.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the selfish benefit of the cruel few.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:52.59,0:12:53.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So over time --
Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.72,0:12:56.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a very long time --
Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.81,0:12:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I opened my eyes.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.37,0:13:05.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I began to dare to face the truth,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:05.08,0:13:07.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to think,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:07.62,0:13:09.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to face the hard questions.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:09.78,0:13:12.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I got in touch with my soul.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:22.40,0:13:24.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What have I learned?
Dialogue: 0,0:13:24.91,0:13:31.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That people who engage\Nin violent jihadism,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.13,0:13:34.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that people who are drawn\Nto these types of extremisms,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:34.87,0:13:37.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are not that different to everyone else.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.22,0:13:41.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I believe such people can change.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:42.38,0:13:45.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They can regain their hearts\Nand restore them
Dialogue: 0,0:13:45.29,0:13:48.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by filling them with human\Nvalues that heal.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.24,0:13:57.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When we ignore the realities,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:57.58,0:14:02.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we discover that we accept what\Nwe are told without critical reflection.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:05.91,0:14:09.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will ignore the gifts and advantages\Nthat many of us would cherish
Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.70,0:14:12.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,even for a single moment in their lives.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:16.64,0:14:19.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I engaged in actions\NI thought were correct.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:22.02,0:14:26.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But now I began to question\Nhow I knew what I knew.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:28.14,0:14:31.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I endlessly told others\Nto accept the truth,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:31.81,0:14:35.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I failed to give\Ndoubt its rightful place.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:41.20,0:14:46.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This conviction that people can change\Nis rooted in my experience,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:46.06,0:14:47.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my own journey.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:48.71,0:14:50.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Through wide reading,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:50.58,0:14:52.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reflecting,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:52.38,0:14:53.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,contemplation,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:53.46,0:14:54.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,self-knowledge,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:54.46,0:14:55.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I discovered --
Dialogue: 0,0:14:55.46,0:15:00.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I realized that Islamists' world\Nof us and them is false and unjust.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:05.08,0:15:09.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Through considering the uncertainties\Nin all that we had asserted,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:09.71,0:15:11.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the inviolable truths --
Dialogue: 0,0:15:11.43,0:15:15.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,incontestable truths --
Dialogue: 0,0:15:15.17,0:15:18.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I developed a more nuanced understanding.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:24.74,0:15:30.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I realized that in a world crowded\Nwith variation and contradiction,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:30.17,0:15:31.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,foolish preachers --
Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.36,0:15:34.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,only foolish preachers\Nlike I used to be --
Dialogue: 0,0:15:34.45,0:15:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,see no paradox in the myths and fictions\Nthey use to assert authenticity.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.41,0:15:45.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I understood the vital\Nimportance of self-knowledge,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:45.91,0:15:48.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,politcal awareness
Dialogue: 0,0:15:48.38,0:15:54.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the necessity for a deep and wide\Nunderstanding of our committments
Dialogue: 0,0:15:54.07,0:15:55.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and our actions,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:55.48,0:15:57.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how they effect others.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.63,0:16:00.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So my plea today to everyone,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:00.38,0:16:06.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,especially those who sincerely\Nbelieve in Islamist jihadism ...
Dialogue: 0,0:16:06.78,0:16:10.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,refuse dogmatic authority;
Dialogue: 0,0:16:10.68,0:16:15.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,let go of anger, hatred and violence;
Dialogue: 0,0:16:15.29,0:16:17.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,learn to right wrongs
Dialogue: 0,0:16:17.14,0:16:22.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,without even attempting to justify\Ncruel, unjust and futile behavior.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:25.10,0:16:28.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Instead create a few\Nbeautiful and useful things
Dialogue: 0,0:16:28.44,0:16:30.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that outlive us.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:33.41,0:16:34.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Approach the world --
Dialogue: 0,0:16:34.78,0:16:35.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life --
Dialogue: 0,0:16:35.78,0:16:37.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with love.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:38.17,0:16:39.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[In all,] learn to develop,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:39.62,0:16:40.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or cultivate your hearts
Dialogue: 0,0:16:40.94,0:16:44.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to see goodness, beauty and truth\Nin others and in the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:45.23,0:16:49.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That way we do matter\Nmore to ourselves ...
Dialogue: 0,0:16:49.36,0:16:51.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to each other,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.39,0:16:52.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to our communities;
Dialogue: 0,0:16:52.38,0:16:53.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and for me,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:53.62,0:16:54.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to God.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:55.35,0:16:56.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is jihad --
Dialogue: 0,0:16:56.93,0:16:58.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my true jihad.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.89,0:17:00.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.21,0:17:02.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)