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Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.64,0:00:16.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To enter the human experience is to \Nenter a great forgetting.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.73,0:00:24.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The veil of the conditioned mind obscures\Nthe truth of who we really are,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.05,0:00:34.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,casting us into a world of \Nseparation, limitation and doubt.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.37,0:00:42.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So who are you really? \NAre you just a mind living in a body,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.76,0:00:48.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,navigating through life, trying to find \Nhappiness and avoiding suffering?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.21,0:00:54.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or maybe something else entirely, \Nsomething much deeper, something eternal.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.86,0:01:00.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Something that can't be explained\Nin words. Something that when realized
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.18,0:01:06.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,brings true peace and true fulfillment. \NHere we're going to look beyond the veil
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.72,0:01:12.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the mind, beyond thoughts and \Nsensations, to find out the truth
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.22,0:01:15.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of who we really are.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.39,0:01:37.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So what is the mind?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.79,0:01:44.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Throughout history, this question has been \Nasked countless times. From humanity's
Dialogue: 0,0:01:44.43,0:01:49.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,earliest spiritual and scientific \Ninquiries the human mind has been
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.79,0:01:55.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,conceptualized and understood in \Nvarious ways across different cultures.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.38,0:02:01.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Humans have used philosophy, psychological\Nand scientific theories as well as
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.58,0:02:08.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,methods of direct investigation to \Npenetrate the mind's secrets.. to find out
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.28,0:02:14.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who we are beyond the mind and body. \NOrdinarily we think of mind as being
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.79,0:02:19.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe something inside the head like \Nthe brain and it's do with thinking
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.22,0:02:27.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and cognition but the mind is much deeper\Nthan this. The mind is actually duality.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.16,0:02:33.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's also known as Maya or Illusion. \NIt's also known as ego.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.90,0:02:41.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In Latin the word ego means simply "I". \NWhen the sense of "I" is limited to some
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.05,0:02:47.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thing it is maya, illusion, but when it's\Nunlimited... when it wakes up as
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.92,0:02:53.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness itself, within which all \Nphenomena arises and passes away,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.92,0:02:59.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then there's no longer an identification\Nwith a separate "I".
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.96,0:03:06.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The true meaning of the word "I" is \Ninfinite awareness, infinite consciousness
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.92,0:03:13.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's the only "I" or the only Self \Nthere is. However for most of us
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.41,0:03:19.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our sense of our self has become so\Nentangled in the content of experience...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.67,0:03:25.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thoughts, images, feelings, and so on, \Nthat we don't perceive ourself as we
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.56,0:03:32.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,essentially and originally are. But we \Nknow ourselves in a modified way... mixed
Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.76,0:03:39.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with the content of experience. And this\Nmixture of the true and only "I" of infinite
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.97,0:03:44.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,awareness or infinite Consciousness with \Nthe content of experience makes for this
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.94,0:03:51.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,illusory self which is what is usually\Nreferred to as the the ego or the
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.23,0:03:57.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,separate self. The ego is an idea very\Npersistent very strong, very solid, that
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.71,0:04:04.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we are a person... a separate entity \Ninside a body mind. Or sometimes
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.86,0:04:10.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we think to be just a body mind. The ego \Nis an aspect of the mind which forms
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.38,0:04:17.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at a young age and it's that aspect which\Ngives us a sense of I am an individual me.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.51,0:04:25.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The ego is literally a made up entity\Nand it's not real and it's that which
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.82,0:04:34.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we identify as the body. It's the part of\Nthe mind that thinks it's separate.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.46,0:04:42.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The ego is the personal sense of me\Nbut it's not the true self.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.75,0:04:49.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a whole imagined construct of me \Nit's not ultimately who I am. Ultimately
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.63,0:04:58.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who I am is that which is deeper and this\Nunderlying presence that's always here.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.87,0:05:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The dualistic mind is made of two \Nfundamental aspects... the witness and
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.60,0:05:11.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what is witnessed. There's the phenomena\Nof the world made up of sensations
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.54,0:05:17.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,perceptions and egoic preferences, and\Nthen there's the sense that there's an "I"
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.93,0:05:25.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that is separate, witnessing. Awakening is\Nwaking up from this duality... from the
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.11,0:05:32.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,split between witness and witnessed. \NBetween subject and object, to realize
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.26,0:05:38.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,primordial awareness that is ever present.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.71,0:05:45.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you look at young children, young \Nchildren don't have an ego and they live
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.60,0:05:50.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in a state of participation. They live \Nin a state of exhilaration, because
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.73,0:05:54.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they are not separate to the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.93,0:06:01.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When we're born we're dependent and we\Ndon't yet have conceptual thinking.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.13,0:06:06.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As we develop, we develop concepts and \Nwhat's called self-awareness, which is the
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.71,0:06:12.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ability to reflect on what we're doing in\Norder to become independent.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.04,0:06:16.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that thinking process becomes\Nthis internal identity.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.88,0:06:23.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The formation of the ego begins soon after\Nbirth. We begin to develop a personal
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.64,0:06:31.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,identity which we eventually call "I" or\N"me". The mirror stage in human
Dialogue: 0,0:06:31.79,0:06:38.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,development is the point at which a child\Nrecognizes themself in a mirror, usually
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.74,0:06:46.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,around 6 to 18 months of age. And it is\Njust one part of the formation of the ego
Dialogue: 0,0:06:46.05,0:06:52.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,via the process of identification. It's \Nnot that we get our ego from recognizing
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.71,0:06:59.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a character in the mirror. It's part of a\Nsocialization process or conditioning
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.39,0:07:07.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as those around us begin to treat us as a \Nseparate person, as a separate "I".
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.73,0:07:13.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We learn to identify a sense of "I" through\Nthe sensations that arise on the body,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.87,0:07:21.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through perception and conceptualization\Nof things. The mind divides and separates
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.74,0:07:28.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,one thing from another, and then we develop\Npreferences towards those things.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.02,0:07:34.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Some things we like, some some things we\Ndon't like. This "I" becomes our
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.05,0:07:40.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,individual separate and unique identity\Nas we move through life.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.14,0:07:44.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is the story of who we believe we are.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.25,0:07:48.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the consciousness that we are, starts \Nto believe it when we are very young.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.43,0:07:54.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When we are children and it grows with us \Nuntil we are completely convinced
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.96,0:08:00.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to be a person. As people grow and move\Ntowards adolescent and into adulthood they
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.93,0:08:06.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,develop a sense of separation; a sense of\Nbeing an "I" who lives inside their heads.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.76,0:08:15.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So they become separate egos \Nwho live in a state of wanting,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.98,0:08:21.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a state of incompleteness, whose lives \Nare dominated by a desire to
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.13,0:08:25.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accumulate things to compensate for \Ntheir incompleteness.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:25.99,0:08:31.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's the mind that causes all the issues\Nall the problems. The mind is a power
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.35,0:08:35.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that creates the entire\Nillusion of separation...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:35.33,0:08:41.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The entire illusion or appearance of\Nbeing a person living in a world.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:41.41,0:08:48.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We could experientially verify\Nthat every time we experience
Dialogue: 0,0:08:48.75,0:08:56.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,psychological suffering we can always\Ntrace it back to the belief to be this
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.59,0:09:04.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,separate person, this separate entity.\NThere are no exceptions, no exceptions.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:04.02,0:09:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not talking about physical pain, but\Npsychological suffering is absolutely
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.00,0:09:18.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,unnecessary it is predicated upon the\Nbelief to be this separate or
Dialogue: 0,0:09:18.82,0:09:26.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,apparently separate body mind. \NBecause we're like fragments who've been
Dialogue: 0,0:09:26.96,0:09:32.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,broken away from the whole, like jigsaw\Npieces that have become disconnected and
Dialogue: 0,0:09:32.92,0:09:38.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,spread far apart. So there is a feeling\Nof "something's missing",
Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.11,0:09:42.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"something's not right". The mind seems\Nlike an insurmountable obstacle.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:42.16,0:09:46.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How can we overcome the mind? \NThe mind seems to have no end.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:47.33,0:09:53.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Attempting to conquer the mind using the\Nmind creates an endless struggle.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.19,0:09:59.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Akin to trying to lift oneself up by \Npulling on one's own bootstraps.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:59.36,0:10:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The ego structure can feel devastated,\Nlost and confused, feeling that life
Dialogue: 0,0:10:05.60,0:10:12.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,has no meaning, and as that seeking mind\Nstruggles we experience what St John
Dialogue: 0,0:10:12.03,0:10:18.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the Cross called The Dark Night of \Nthe Soul. This is a necessary part of the
Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.16,0:10:24.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,disillusionment process. It is only by \Nletting go of seeking and the false
Dialogue: 0,0:10:24.88,0:10:32.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,identification with the seeker that \Nwe come into direct union with life.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:44.17,0:10:49.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was in a good place in my life. I had \Nsort of given up on the spiritual search,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:49.68,0:10:55.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not because I'd given up as such but \Nbecause there was nothing else really to
Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.44,0:11:00.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,look for. I wasn't seeking enlightenment. \NI wasn't seeking a awakening. I was
Dialogue: 0,0:11:00.96,0:11:06.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,seeking peace and I was seeking happiness\Nand I found that surrender to what is was
Dialogue: 0,0:11:06.97,0:11:12.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the only way and that life was my teacher.\NAfter many many many years of searching
Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.43,0:11:22.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everything fell away. The structure of the\Nme that I knew myself as fell away.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:23.35,0:11:33.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was sitting in my living room \Nand over a period of a few weeks a great
Dialogue: 0,0:11:33.71,0:11:43.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sort of inner desolation seemed to appear\Nin me. So this was unexpected, this vast
Dialogue: 0,0:11:43.78,0:11:52.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inner landscape of darkness... a kind of\Nabandonment... an existential abandonment
Dialogue: 0,0:11:52.46,0:12:03.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from life itself. And I noticed how the\Nmind's movement wanted to move away from
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.90,0:12:11.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this inner landscape of darkness. \NAnd I asked a question to myself:
Dialogue: 0,0:12:11.47,0:12:17.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What is the meaning of suffering? \NWhat is the nature of suffering?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:17.80,0:12:25.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How can suffering end?" Or perhaps it\Ndoesn't end and in that question what
Dialogue: 0,0:12:25.67,0:12:32.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,arose was this willingness to not move \Nfrom where I was, to not move away from
Dialogue: 0,0:12:32.22,0:12:39.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that dark landscape, and to surrender \Nin that even if it meant the end of me.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:39.73,0:12:46.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I didn't know what that meant, the end\Nof me, but it came up as a kind of knowing
Dialogue: 0,0:12:46.29,0:12:51.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that wasn't yet conscious, and in that \Nmoment totally unexpectedly the whole
Dialogue: 0,0:12:51.82,0:13:02.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,structure of self died. It's like the whole\N'me' identity died, and surprisingly
Dialogue: 0,0:13:02.03,0:13:11.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there was a merging with life itself that\Nended the separation between me and life.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:11.57,0:13:20.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And from that point on I knew that I and\Nlife are one; there is no separation...
Dialogue: 0,0:13:20.32,0:13:27.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's all in the mind's movement. And from\Nthat point on the whole structure of this
Dialogue: 0,0:13:27.32,0:13:35.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'Amoda' that had been built on a victim\Nidentity, not just a victim of
Dialogue: 0,0:13:35.53,0:13:40.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,circumstances, but a victim of my feelings\Na victim of emotions, a victim of
Dialogue: 0,0:13:40.44,0:13:44.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thoughts, and therefore constantly trying \Nto change those, to change thoughts to
Dialogue: 0,0:13:44.79,0:13:49.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,change feelings, to make them better, to\Nmake them more positive, to make them more
Dialogue: 0,0:13:49.52,0:13:58.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,uplifted... that ended. And without the \Nvictim it was as if I was born anew.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.51,0:14:05.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I died and I was reborn in that. \NIt's like all the veils of perception that
Dialogue: 0,0:14:05.33,0:14:11.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,were built on the identity of Amoda as a\Nme with her history, with her thoughts,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:11.46,0:14:17.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with her beliefs, with her experiences,\Njust came undone. So it was totally naked
Dialogue: 0,0:14:17.90,0:14:23.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from that moment on and it's \Nnever changed since then.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:27.05,0:14:33.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In Buddhism the first Noble Truth \Nis that there is suffering. There is this
Dialogue: 0,0:14:33.61,0:14:40.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inherent dissatisfaction within the\Nconditioned mind. Dukkha or the chronic
Dialogue: 0,0:14:40.21,0:14:47.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,dissatisfaction of the mind encompasses \Nnot only physical and emotional pain but
Dialogue: 0,0:14:47.12,0:14:53.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,also more subtle forms of dissatisfaction\Nsuch as the inherent impermanence of all
Dialogue: 0,0:14:53.69,0:15:00.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,things and the inability to find lasting \Nsatisfaction in worldly pursuits.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:00.78,0:15:07.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,True happiness or fulfillment cannot be\Nfound in external material pursuits.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:07.71,0:15:11.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even when things go the way we think they\Nshould. Even when we're following
Dialogue: 0,0:15:11.43,0:15:16.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the script, being a good person, we have \Nsuccessful relationships, successful
Dialogue: 0,0:15:16.36,0:15:21.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,careers, even then there's often this \Nunderlying sense that something's just not
Dialogue: 0,0:15:21.97,0:15:29.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,quite right. Something that we're missing,\Nsomething that we're not perceiving
Dialogue: 0,0:15:29.09,0:15:36.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accurately, and the closer we look at that\Noften it becomes more vivid, more obvious.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:36.02,0:15:42.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So what I often say is the first step in \Nthe awakening process is acknowledging
Dialogue: 0,0:15:42.69,0:15:50.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that we suffer. We could summarize it\Nby saying it's a sort of sense that life
Dialogue: 0,0:15:50.28,0:15:56.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just isn't functioning right, or perhaps \NI'm not functioning right within life.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:56.36,0:15:59.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it's uncomfortable... it's grace that\Nit's uncomfortable because it leads us
Dialogue: 0,0:15:59.89,0:16:07.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,into this investigation that can take us to\Nplaces that we never could have imagined.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:07.17,0:16:15.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Why do people suffer? If we talk about \Nphysical pain we have to understand that
Dialogue: 0,0:16:15.52,0:16:24.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the reason why we experience physical pain\Nis because physical pain is a protection
Dialogue: 0,0:16:24.35,0:16:33.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,device that we have genetically inherited.\NIf we never experienced pain we would
Dialogue: 0,0:16:33.77,0:16:43.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,constantly bump into objects and our body\Nwould drink sulfuric acid and our body
Dialogue: 0,0:16:43.41,0:16:51.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wouldn't last for too long. The reason of \Npsychological pain is different. It is:
Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.74,0:17:00.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"you're making a mistake". \NSo psychological pain is not a problem,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.33,0:17:05.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it is the beginning of the solution. \NPsychological pain is telling us a lesson
Dialogue: 0,0:17:05.93,0:17:12.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about another mistake we make which is to\Nbelieve we are a separate human being.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:12.54,0:17:19.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's a mistake... that's a fundamental \Nmistake. It is the original sin;
Dialogue: 0,0:17:19.15,0:17:28.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the original sin that kicks us out of the\NKingdom, out of the garden of Eden.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:30.36,0:17:37.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The original meaning of the word sin\Nmeans "to miss the mark".
Dialogue: 0,0:17:37.84,0:17:44.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Egoic consciousness is a pathological\Nstate of mind whereby we constantly
Dialogue: 0,0:17:44.51,0:17:51.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,miss the mark. This is the meaning of\N"the fall". We are focused on the fruits
Dialogue: 0,0:17:51.20,0:17:56.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the tree of knowledge of good\Nand evil, focused on thoughts.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:56.85,0:18:03.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The dualistic mind is made of the phenomena\Nthat forms the perceived world of form;
Dialogue: 0,0:18:03.05,0:18:10.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,made of sensations, perceptions, egoic\Npreferences, and this sense that there is
Dialogue: 0,0:18:10.25,0:18:17.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,an "I" that is separate, witnessing. It is\Nthis "I" thought that is at the root of
Dialogue: 0,0:18:17.48,0:18:20.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,identification with the ego.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:20.58,0:18:30.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Whatever we are experiencing it is I who\Nam experiencing it. If I am sad or anxious
Dialogue: 0,0:18:30.23,0:18:34.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or lonely it is I who am having that \Nexperience. If I'm talking with you
Dialogue: 0,0:18:34.77,0:18:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it is I who am talking. If I'm seeing the\Nworld it is I who am seeing the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:39.80,0:18:47.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So all our experience revolves around \Nthis "I". "I" is the central character
Dialogue: 0,0:18:47.62,0:18:58.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in all our experience so that the essential\Ninvestigation... the prerequisite for
Dialogue: 0,0:18:58.68,0:19:03.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,awakening, is to explore \Nand recognize the nature of the "I"
Dialogue: 0,0:19:03.84,0:19:06.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or the self that we really are.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:06.90,0:19:13.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the heart Sutra one of the most revered\Nteachings of Buddhism it says that to be
Dialogue: 0,0:19:13.25,0:19:19.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,liberated we must realize this entire \Nmechanism of the dualistic mind
Dialogue: 0,0:19:19.67,0:19:28.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to be empty of self. When the "I" thought\Ndrops, then duality itself collapses.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:28.65,0:19:35.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Form is realized as exactly emptiness, \Nemptiness exactly form.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:35.12,0:19:43.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the samadhi state, emptiness dances\Nas fullness, stillness is inherent within
Dialogue: 0,0:19:43.85,0:19:51.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,movement, silence inherent within \Nsound. Life is experienced directly,
Dialogue: 0,0:19:51.57,0:19:58.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not mediated via the filter of the mind. \NWhen we no longer go after the fruits
Dialogue: 0,0:19:58.58,0:20:04.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the tree of knowledge of good and evil,\Nwhen we no longer interface with the world
Dialogue: 0,0:20:04.66,0:20:11.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the old way, it is liberation, \Nthe end of suffering.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:11.92,0:20:18.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As long as we believe to be having our own\Nmind or our own ignorance or our own ego,
Dialogue: 0,0:20:18.55,0:20:23.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it is because we are viewing this from a\Nseparate point of view and this is okay
Dialogue: 0,0:20:23.92,0:20:27.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know at the beginning that's how you're\Ngoing to see it. But it's not how things
Dialogue: 0,0:20:27.84,0:20:36.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are in reality. In reality there is only\Nlife. That's it. Only pure life into action
Dialogue: 0,0:20:36.41,0:20:40.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So suffering is this resistance to life,\Nresistance to our yes,
Dialogue: 0,0:20:40.70,0:20:46.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,resistance to our no, resistance to\Nanything that is appearing,
Dialogue: 0,0:20:46.23,0:20:53.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because we feel separated. And awakening\Nis the healing of this separation,
Dialogue: 0,0:20:53.14,0:20:56.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of this idea to be separated.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:56.53,0:21:01.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We can start to understand egoic \Nresistance in the mind by observing the
Dialogue: 0,0:21:01.75,0:21:09.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,larger principle of how all energy moves\Nin the universe. One way to understand is
Dialogue: 0,0:21:09.91,0:21:15.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by looking at something called a \NLichtenberg figure. A Lichtenberg figure
Dialogue: 0,0:21:15.98,0:21:21.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is a pattern that occurs when high voltage\Nelectrical discharge passes through
Dialogue: 0,0:21:21.82,0:21:28.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,materials. The electrical discharge \Ncreates a pattern of branching channels
Dialogue: 0,0:21:28.20,0:21:36.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that look like trees. Here electricity is\Ngoing into wood. In this example the
Dialogue: 0,0:21:36.15,0:21:42.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Lichtenberg figure is created by injecting\Ntrillions of electrons into an acrylic
Dialogue: 0,0:21:42.98,0:21:49.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,block using a 5 million volt particle\Naccelerator. All physical matter, in this
Dialogue: 0,0:21:49.98,0:21:56.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,case the acrylic block, is a resistance\Nor slowing down of energy.
Dialogue: 0,0:21:56.61,0:22:02.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a thunderstorm the resistance of the\Nair affects the formation of the conductive
Dialogue: 0,0:22:02.68,0:22:08.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,channel and the current flow. When we \Nobserve the treelike structures created by
Dialogue: 0,0:22:08.56,0:22:15.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the energy we're seeing the path that\Nenergy took through the medium
Dialogue: 0,0:22:15.96,0:22:21.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through time. These treelike patterns or\Nbranching patterns are found at all levels
Dialogue: 0,0:22:21.43,0:22:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and scales of nature, from the micro to \Nthe macro. The very fabric of the universe
Dialogue: 0,0:22:31.60,0:22:38.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is a play of form, a play of resistance;\None giant mind playing a kind of hide
Dialogue: 0,0:22:38.93,0:22:46.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and seek with itself. Samskaras or\Nunconscious patterns are created when the
Dialogue: 0,0:22:46.44,0:22:54.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,charge of an experience is high. Energies\Ncome together and the "I" thought appears.
Dialogue: 0,0:22:54.41,0:23:00.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Resistance appears. If there's no\Nresistance then energy just passes through
Dialogue: 0,0:23:00.93,0:23:07.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life flows through. But when there's\Nresistance, when "I" appears,
Dialogue: 0,0:23:07.02,0:23:12.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then the energy branches off, creating\Nnew pathways in the unconscious mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:12.51,0:23:20.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,These patterns run autonomously, hiding\Nand growing in the shadows until they're
Dialogue: 0,0:23:20.04,0:23:25.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,revealed again and consciously integrated \Ninto the whole.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:26.26,0:23:31.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The very first memory I have is of being\Nreally scared and I didn't know why I was
Dialogue: 0,0:23:31.87,0:23:38.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,scared and feeling like something was going\Nto go wrong in any particular moment,
Dialogue: 0,0:23:38.91,0:23:46.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that feeling persisted throughout my\Nwhole life and intensified in my 20s.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:46.36,0:23:52.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I sank into a deep depression even\Nafter having four children.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:52.44,0:23:59.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I ended up going through probably 3\Nor 4 years where I was really searching
Dialogue: 0,0:23:59.44,0:24:03.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for something but didn't know what that\Nwas. I never heard about awakening, didn't
Dialogue: 0,0:24:03.50,0:24:11.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,know what that was. And over time it began\Nto become clear that whatever I was looking
Dialogue: 0,0:24:11.04,0:24:18.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for wasn't to be found in my outer life.\NI had a good family, good business at the
Dialogue: 0,0:24:18.05,0:24:23.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,time; all the things that anyone could\Nwant. And yet still felt really empty
Dialogue: 0,0:24:23.02,0:24:32.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inside, and eventually as part of healing\Nfrom my depression I discovered meditation
Dialogue: 0,0:24:32.96,0:24:41.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and dived into that, found some kind of\Npeace, some deep sense of contentment,
Dialogue: 0,0:24:41.83,0:24:48.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and for the first time in my entire life \Nthat sense of dread or fear had disappeared
Dialogue: 0,0:24:48.00,0:24:55.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just momentarily for that first time ever.\NSo I began to try to find out everything I
Dialogue: 0,0:24:55.09,0:24:59.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,could about what had happened, why that\Nchange. And why it had come back again,
Dialogue: 0,0:24:59.76,0:25:05.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that feeling of fear. I began to research\Ndifferent spiritual pathways and came
Dialogue: 0,0:25:05.26,0:25:10.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,across this term awakening, enlightenment,\Nand began to try to understand
Dialogue: 0,0:25:10.48,0:25:19.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what that is. Eventually 15-20 years later\Ncame to recognize that it is
Dialogue: 0,0:25:19.92,0:25:24.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when we're not believing our thoughts\Nanymore. Thoughts might still be going on,
Dialogue: 0,0:25:24.85,0:25:29.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but the fear was coming from believing\Nmy thoughts, believing that I was just
Dialogue: 0,0:25:29.53,0:25:36.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a person or someone who was going about\Nmy life, and came to see I was a lot more
Dialogue: 0,0:25:36.86,0:25:46.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,than that. I am infinite and that over a\Nperiod of 5 years that began to stabilize
Dialogue: 0,0:25:46.51,0:25:50.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for lack of a better word. I had to look\Nat everything that was coming up
Dialogue: 0,0:25:50.78,0:25:58.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the way of that, the sense of not\Nbeing a good enough parent, the sense of
Dialogue: 0,0:25:58.72,0:26:05.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this feeling of inadequacy in my core. \NI had to really look at that and
Dialogue: 0,0:26:05.11,0:26:12.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,investigate that and contemplate that. \NAnd eventually the peace became stable
Dialogue: 0,0:26:12.55,0:26:18.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,effortless, and even joy and love, \Nsometimes even bliss. A deep sense of
Dialogue: 0,0:26:18.95,0:26:24.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everything being okay, feeling at home, \Nfeeling safe, feeling that I can love
Dialogue: 0,0:26:24.65,0:26:30.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,myself, I like myself which is something\Nthat was not possible before for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:32.27,0:26:37.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Many people get a glimpse of awakening\Nbut then seem to lose it.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:37.43,0:26:42.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's this game of I've got it and then\NI've lost it, or I'm awake and now
Dialogue: 0,0:26:42.99,0:26:49.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the mind has come back. This happens when\Nawakening is not fully recognized
Dialogue: 0,0:26:49.50,0:26:58.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for what it is. Often there's a pleasant\Nstate when samadhi occurs; energy, bliss
Dialogue: 0,0:26:58.52,0:27:05.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or a change in the mind consciousness or \Nperception and a sense of ease or freedom.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:05.64,0:27:10.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And one will naturally mistake the\Nphenomenal state for the truth
Dialogue: 0,0:27:10.40,0:27:17.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of who you are. Often after a glimpse of\Nawakening one will start seeking states
Dialogue: 0,0:27:17.68,0:27:24.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or experiences rather than recognizing\Nthe awareness that is already present,
Dialogue: 0,0:27:24.08,0:27:30.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and realizing it to be the source of true\Nfulfillment. The truth of who you are
Dialogue: 0,0:27:30.32,0:27:38.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is not a temporary state or experience.\NThe phenomena comes and goes but the one
Dialogue: 0,0:27:38.25,0:27:46.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who remains, primordial awareness, always \NIS. If you continue seeking states
Dialogue: 0,0:27:46.89,0:27:52.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or experiences, eventually the seeker will\Nget stronger and stronger and you will get
Dialogue: 0,0:27:52.78,0:27:58.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,farther and farther from the truth.\NThe Seeker always misses the mark
Dialogue: 0,0:27:58.17,0:28:04.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by chasing what is impermanent, just\Nlike an addict chasing temporary highs,
Dialogue: 0,0:28:04.21,0:28:08.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just like the addict the false seeker\Nwill always come
Dialogue: 0,0:28:08.11,0:28:11.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to a crisis point or failure point.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:11.54,0:28:17.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Life is a festival of addictive patterns of\Nbehavior and when I say that I don't mean
Dialogue: 0,0:28:17.50,0:28:23.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,only addiction to drugs like alcohol and\Nnicotine. Everything that is preponderant
Dialogue: 0,0:28:23.92,0:28:27.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in society tends to be addictive \Npatterns of behavior; addiction to
Dialogue: 0,0:28:27.97,0:28:34.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reality television, addiction to celebrity\Nlife addiction to buying the next pair of
Dialogue: 0,0:28:34.32,0:28:40.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shoes, and why is that? The reason for\Nthat is that we are desperate to find a
Dialogue: 0,0:28:40.38,0:28:48.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,way to escape the profoundly meaningless\Nand unnatural way of life that we have.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:48.27,0:28:52.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But we don't know how to escape that so \Nwe try to compensate for it by engaging
Dialogue: 0,0:28:52.40,0:29:02.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in addiction. Now understanding reality \Nhas this peculiar characteristic of making
Dialogue: 0,0:29:02.08,0:29:06.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life more natural, making life better \Naligned with the rhythm and flow
Dialogue: 0,0:29:06.61,0:29:10.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the directions of nature. If that \Nhappens there is no need
Dialogue: 0,0:29:10.44,0:29:15.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the addiction anymore, and we will\Nlive more fulfilling, healthier overall
Dialogue: 0,0:29:15.13,0:29:22.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,better lives without skewed perspectives \Nlike the notion that your life is about you
Dialogue: 0,0:29:22.16,0:29:26.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my life is about me, which is one of\Nthe most unnatural things imaginable.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:26.56,0:29:32.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like the blossom on my apple tree\Nthinking my life's about me and I need to
Dialogue: 0,0:29:32.17,0:29:36.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,survive forever. If the blossom had \Nits way there would be no more apples
Dialogue: 0,0:29:36.23,0:29:38.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and no more apple trees.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:38.41,0:29:43.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Once we understand the truth there\Nis naturally a flip from an ego centered
Dialogue: 0,0:29:43.92,0:29:49.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life or a life that is constantly feeding \Nthe patterns of craving and aversion,
Dialogue: 0,0:29:49.74,0:29:54.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to a life that is more natural, \Nmore in the flow.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:54.92,0:29:59.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then it can happen at a certain point\Nthat this idea goes into crisis and maybe
Dialogue: 0,0:29:59.99,0:30:07.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we start to seek spiritually or maybe \Nbefore then some psychological inquiry.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:07.38,0:30:11.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then comes a moment in which we are ready\Nto see beyond this illusion of being
Dialogue: 0,0:30:11.77,0:30:18.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,separated and let's say a conscious\Nspiritual seeking starts. This spiritual
Dialogue: 0,0:30:18.62,0:30:23.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,seeking might starts before we are\Naware that we are spiritually seeking.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:23.72,0:30:33.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When it's conscious we can see this\Nunfolding of life no more as something
Dialogue: 0,0:30:33.56,0:30:38.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to fight against, but as an\Ninvitation to wake up,
Dialogue: 0,0:30:38.05,0:30:40.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so we start to be more open to life.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:40.57,0:30:47.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Also suffering is the best \Nnatural tool to foment insight.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:47.25,0:30:52.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We don't ask the deep questions unless\Nwe are suffering. If you're not suffering
Dialogue: 0,0:30:52.12,0:30:58.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we just sort of ride the wave of life in a\Nvery Epicurean lighthearted superficial
Dialogue: 0,0:30:58.84,0:31:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,manner, and we never stop to think about\Nwhat is happening. Who am I?
Dialogue: 0,0:31:03.00,0:31:06.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what is this about? No. \NWhat is the purpose of it all?
Dialogue: 0,0:31:06.03,0:31:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What's the meaning of it? We don't ask\Nthose questions unless we suffer.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:10.00,0:31:13.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So suffering is a tremendous tool. \NIt's very conducive to insight.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:13.86,0:31:20.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now we make it worse than it needs to be.\NWe invent unnecessary superfluous suffering.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:20.93,0:31:25.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I like to call it meta-suffering, and meta\Nsuffering comes from that little voice
Dialogue: 0,0:31:25.41,0:31:31.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in your head that says you are suffering\Nand you shouldn't be. That doubles the
Dialogue: 0,0:31:31.15,0:31:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,suffering right there. Because now not\Nonly do we still have the suffering that's
Dialogue: 0,0:31:35.70,0:31:40.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,natural and part of your life and you can't\Navoid, now you have the meta-suffering for
Dialogue: 0,0:31:40.38,0:31:46.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,being at war with nature, for being at war\Nwith the original suffering. The game is
Dialogue: 0,0:31:46.51,0:31:52.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not to get rid of a natural process\Nconducive to insight, a key tool
Dialogue: 0,0:31:52.62,0:31:58.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of nature, the game is to not exacerbate\Nit unnecessarily by waging war against it
Dialogue: 0,0:32:00.08,0:32:07.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When we drop resistance to suffering then \Nit is no longer suffering. It transmutes
Dialogue: 0,0:32:07.29,0:32:13.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,into something that is for your benefit.\NOften in spiritual circles we hear the
Dialogue: 0,0:32:13.90,0:32:21.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,phrase "love what is." It is possible to\Nlove whatever pain is arising by learning
Dialogue: 0,0:32:21.58,0:32:27.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to surrender egoic preferences\Nunderstanding that what is arising
Dialogue: 0,0:32:27.32,0:32:33.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is simply intense phenomena that actually\Ntakes you deeper into connection with life
Dialogue: 0,0:32:33.79,0:32:39.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By remaining equanimous with what is,\Nwe begin purifying the patterns of
Dialogue: 0,0:32:39.40,0:32:47.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,resistance within the ego structure. \NThis brings us to the surrender paradox.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:47.29,0:32:53.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The surrender paradox is realizing that\Nwhatever you resist persists.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:53.38,0:33:00.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The resistance actually gives power to the\Nego. The ego is nothing but the
Dialogue: 0,0:33:00.45,0:33:06.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,resistance itself. Sometimes on the path\Nwe get the idea that we shouldn't
Dialogue: 0,0:33:06.13,0:33:12.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,experience this or that emotion. We might\Nfeel that we're regressing if we feel hate
Dialogue: 0,0:33:12.32,0:33:19.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or anger. The experience of the full range\Nof human emotions is necessary.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:19.30,0:33:25.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The paradox is that when we accept each\Nemotion fully, dropping the resistance
Dialogue: 0,0:33:25.29,0:33:31.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to it, it transmutes from emotion, which\Nis full of beliefs, judgments, and
Dialogue: 0,0:33:31.46,0:33:37.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and preferences, to pure feeling; \Nto pure aliveness,
Dialogue: 0,0:33:37.13,0:33:43.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is beyond the evaluating mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:47.46,0:33:54.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's a famous story in Zen that \Nillustrates this point. Once a student
Dialogue: 0,0:33:54.00,0:34:01.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,asked Tenzin, a Zen master known for his\Nwisdom and tranquility, "Master when your
Dialogue: 0,0:34:01.31,0:34:09.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wife passed away did you feel sadness?" \NTenzin replied "Of course I felt sadness,
Dialogue: 0,0:34:09.43,0:34:15.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how could I not?" The student was puzzled\Nand then asked, "But I thought you were a
Dialogue: 0,0:34:15.70,0:34:23.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zen master. Shouldn't you be beyond such\Nemotions?" Tenzin smiled gently and
Dialogue: 0,0:34:23.58,0:34:30.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,responded, "Ah, you misunderstand.\NWhen I felt sadness I allowed myself to
Dialogue: 0,0:34:30.87,0:34:38.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,feel it fully, and to experience it deeply.\NAnd in doing so I honored the truth of
Dialogue: 0,0:34:38.00,0:34:44.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that moment. Then like clouds passing\Nthrough the sky the sadness came and went.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:45.38,0:34:57.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the sky, the vastness of my being, \Nremained unchanged.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:02.92,0:35:10.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My awakening began really when I was in \Ngraduate school, when a series of personal
Dialogue: 0,0:35:10.64,0:35:20.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,experiences really challenged me To begin \Nto question the purpose of life, of my
Dialogue: 0,0:35:20.52,0:35:29.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life in particular, and the meaning. \NI began questioning, what's the point of
Dialogue: 0,0:35:29.56,0:35:35.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all that I was doing. The experience was\None of just being aware without being
Dialogue: 0,0:35:35.82,0:35:43.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,anything in particular. It was very\Nliberating. There was a great sense of
Dialogue: 0,0:35:43.95,0:35:52.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,release, like something that had been\Nunder great pressure releasing, and there
Dialogue: 0,0:35:52.28,0:35:58.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was relaxation and exhilaration, and all\NI remember was just being.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:58.22,0:36:03.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's all I want to be... just be. Nothin\Nin particular. I call it the big shift
Dialogue: 0,0:36:03.32,0:36:13.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for me. It really changed... almost like\NI want to say "inside out" but the way
Dialogue: 0,0:36:13.52,0:36:19.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I saw things and the way I experienced\Nthings, the way I saw people, interacted
Dialogue: 0,0:36:19.09,0:36:25.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with people.. and the flip is in the sense\Nthat all that I was experiencing,
Dialogue: 0,0:36:25.76,0:36:34.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,no matter what I was doing or saying, \Nis simply awareness being expressed.
Dialogue: 0,0:36:34.33,0:36:39.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The awareness that I am being expressed,\Nso in that moment, in any moment,
Dialogue: 0,0:36:39.75,0:36:45.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whatever I was saying or doing, that's \Nall that was happening is being aware,
Dialogue: 0,0:36:45.36,0:36:52.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that has stayed. But it has continued\Nto reveal its nature. It was like I could
Dialogue: 0,0:36:52.76,0:37:01.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,see thoughts flowing by, and whatever\Naction needed to happen,
Dialogue: 0,0:37:01.14,0:37:06.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the action just came up and then the body\Nwas just basically acting out the action.
Dialogue: 0,0:37:06.38,0:37:10.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was no longer like before, whereas \Nbefore I would think something,
Dialogue: 0,0:37:10.81,0:37:14.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I think I need to do this " and the "I" \Nthis person would be doing it.
Dialogue: 0,0:37:14.72,0:37:20.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No. What's happening, what started to \Nhappen was, I'm just being. Being aware
Dialogue: 0,0:37:20.22,0:37:29.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and actions just were arising and then the\Nbody was the tool and I was watching it in
Dialogue: 0,0:37:29.55,0:37:35.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,real time. The body is simply implementing \Nany action arising in awareness
Dialogue: 0,0:37:35.13,0:37:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I happen to be a participant and an\Nobserver. I think that's the best part.
Dialogue: 0,0:37:41.79,0:37:49.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Awareness is choiceless. The true Self is\Nbeyond choosing. Upon hearing that,
Dialogue: 0,0:37:49.19,0:37:54.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,one might say "okay I'm going to give up\Neverything. I'm just not going to choose
Dialogue: 0,0:37:54.74,0:38:00.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,anything. I'll just sit in a cave. \NAnd many people have done that.
Dialogue: 0,0:38:00.12,0:38:06.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the problem is, that would still be a\Nchoice. I'm just choosing to suppress my
Dialogue: 0,0:38:06.63,0:38:13.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,choices and desires. It's the conditioned\Nmind choosing to not choose.
Dialogue: 0,0:38:13.49,0:38:19.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Both choosing and non-choosing are all at\Nthe level of the conditioned mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:38:19.51,0:38:24.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But who or what is aware of that mind?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:24.12,0:38:28.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After awakening you will find the\Nconditioned self may still choose its
Dialogue: 0,0:38:28.60,0:38:35.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,favorite tea. It will still eat the diet\Nthat is best for the body. It's not that
Dialogue: 0,0:38:35.53,0:38:39.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,choosing isn't happening anymore. Many\Nchoices are still happening,
Dialogue: 0,0:38:39.85,0:38:45.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,arising all the time. But the difference\Nis the sense of "I" is not entangled
Dialogue: 0,0:38:45.96,0:38:51.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with any of that. The "I" thought has\Ndropped away.
Dialogue: 0,0:38:51.22,0:39:01.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I" am not choosing, \Nnor am I suppressing choice.
Dialogue: 0,0:39:03.16,0:39:09.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So waking up is like demolishing the\Ninvisible walls of the ego, this armor,
Dialogue: 0,0:39:09.35,0:39:15.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and recognizing our Oneness with it all.\NAnd the result is outstanding because
Dialogue: 0,0:39:15.99,0:39:20.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we discovered that we were not suffering\Nanger, pain, sadness... we were suffering
Dialogue: 0,0:39:20.77,0:39:27.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our refusal of life, and we can learn to\Nbe so open that we are
Dialogue: 0,0:39:27.89,0:39:32.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciously one with life as it is.
Dialogue: 0,0:39:32.68,0:39:40.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We'd rather feel good than suffer.. that's\Njust normal, something in the human
Dialogue: 0,0:39:40.57,0:39:48.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,being, the ordinary species of homo\Nsapiens, would rather feel good
Dialogue: 0,0:39:48.52,0:39:56.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,than feel bad. And I think that in the\Ntimes when we become aware that
Dialogue: 0,0:39:56.96,0:40:02.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it actually feels good to be conscious,\Nsomething in us registers in the ordinary
Dialogue: 0,0:40:02.92,0:40:12.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,human brain, "Oh, I like this. This is \Npossible." And it reinforces itself.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:12.11,0:40:17.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Awakening can happen in stages gradually,\Nor it can happen all at once in a
Dialogue: 0,0:40:17.98,0:40:24.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,radical flip, where we suddenly know who\Nwe are, as if waking from a dream.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:24.36,0:40:31.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As if we've been asleep all our lives in\Nour dream character. To stay awake
Dialogue: 0,0:40:31.55,0:40:36.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there is an ongoing purification of the \Nself structure required.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:36.22,0:40:43.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if we have a full awakening it is\Nimportant to be vigilant, to not believe
Dialogue: 0,0:40:43.31,0:40:49.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the next thought, to remain equanimous\Nwith what is when unconscious thoughts
Dialogue: 0,0:40:49.84,0:40:56.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,surface. Otherwise the unconscious\Npatterns of the mind may obscure the truth
Dialogue: 0,0:40:56.80,0:41:04.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The unconscious must become a transparent\Nunconscious. If we do not face what is in
Dialogue: 0,0:41:04.29,0:41:10.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the unconscious we'll fall into what has\Nbeen called spiritual bypassing.
Dialogue: 0,0:41:10.07,0:41:16.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Spiritual bypassing refers to the tendency\Nof some individuals to insist that they
Dialogue: 0,0:41:16.96,0:41:23.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are already awake in order to avoid \Ndealing with difficult emotions, unresolved
Dialogue: 0,0:41:23.66,0:41:30.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,psychological issues, or real life\Nchallenges. The egoic mind can appropriate
Dialogue: 0,0:41:30.67,0:41:37.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a glimpse of awakening and keep one\Nfrom living from that place of truth.
Dialogue: 0,0:41:37.95,0:41:43.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was sitting on my bed thinking about the\Nmammogram I was about to go for the
Dialogue: 0,0:41:43.43,0:41:50.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,next day, and it had always been an \Nextreme anxiety producing experience
Dialogue: 0,0:41:50.61,0:42:00.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which I had once a year, and I was tired \Nof feeling so scared. Tired of being afraid
Dialogue: 0,0:42:00.93,0:42:07.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of dying and I was sitting on the bed and\Nout of the blue I had this thought
Dialogue: 0,0:42:07.31,0:42:17.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Couldn't I do this thing tomorrow without\Nfreaking out? And there was a thought
Dialogue: 0,0:42:17.04,0:42:28.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,really, just a thought but suddenly I\Nfelt this surge of a realization that
Dialogue: 0,0:42:28.03,0:42:38.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I could indeed. And I didn't know how\NI knew that. I didn't know what had just
Dialogue: 0,0:42:38.63,0:42:47.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,changed, but something clearly had just\Nchanged. And I was stunned and I suddenly
Dialogue: 0,0:42:47.86,0:42:55.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,knew that it was going to be different \Nfrom all the terrible anxiety I'd had
Dialogue: 0,0:42:55.26,0:43:01.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all the years prior. And that didn't mean\Nthat the mammogram was going to
Dialogue: 0,0:43:01.00,0:43:05.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,turn out fine. It didn't mean\NI didn't have breast cancer.
Dialogue: 0,0:43:05.29,0:43:12.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was really bizarre to me. It was a\Nstunner and I got up and went in to my
Dialogue: 0,0:43:12.80,0:43:21.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,partner who was busy at his computer\Nand I just stood in the doorway and
Dialogue: 0,0:43:21.15,0:43:24.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he finally looked up he realized I was\Nthere and he said "What?"
Dialogue: 0,0:43:24.16,0:43:35.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said, something's just happened. \NAnd I told him in the coming days little
Dialogue: 0,0:43:35.26,0:43:40.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by little I began to realize it wasn't\Njust that fear didn't seem to animate me
Dialogue: 0,0:43:40.19,0:43:50.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,anymore. I felt peaceful, completely \Nwithout my ordinary ongoing stress.
Dialogue: 0,0:43:50.92,0:43:59.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My mind was still. My outer life was\Nbasically the same but it was many months
Dialogue: 0,0:43:59.24,0:44:03.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,before I understood that this was \Nawakening that had happened.
Dialogue: 0,0:44:03.75,0:44:09.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was a long time really. All I knew was\NI didn't hurt anymore in the way I had.
Dialogue: 0,0:44:10.46,0:44:16.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my mind was quiet and it's been like\Nthat ever since.
Dialogue: 0,0:44:17.89,0:44:24.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There can be no memory of awakening itself\NThere is only memory of experiences and
Dialogue: 0,0:44:24.87,0:44:31.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,phenomena. Whenever there is a memory\Nthere's always some resistance trace in
Dialogue: 0,0:44:31.33,0:44:37.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the mind. This resistance \Ntrace is the original repetition...
Dialogue: 0,0:44:37.38,0:44:43.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the beginning of the "I" thought. \NAwakening itself does not leave a trace
Dialogue: 0,0:44:43.08,0:44:50.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the mind. It is not an experience. \NPrimordial awareness wakes up to itself
Dialogue: 0,0:44:50.04,0:44:58.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the now, unmediated by memory and the\Nfiltering of the mind. If we are chasing
Dialogue: 0,0:44:58.37,0:45:05.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,any state, any experience, and trying to\Nlive there, then we've missed it.
Dialogue: 0,0:45:05.37,0:45:11.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If it comes and goes, if it's not here now\Nthen it's not your true nature.
Dialogue: 0,0:45:16.14,0:45:22.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Let's take a moment to inquire directly \Ninto our true nature. Directly means
Dialogue: 0,0:45:22.83,0:45:31.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not via the mind. You cannot recognize \Nthat which is beyond the mind by means
Dialogue: 0,0:45:31.35,0:45:41.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the mind. Shift your attention inward \Nand be aware of this moment. Become aware
Dialogue: 0,0:45:41.83,0:45:50.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of awareness itself. Notice the thoughts,\Nsensations and emotions that arise within
Dialogue: 0,0:45:50.28,0:45:57.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this space, but also recognize the\Nspaciousness within which they arise.
Dialogue: 0,0:45:58.60,0:46:04.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Phenomena may bubble up from the\Nunconscious. Thoughts, memories,
Dialogue: 0,0:46:04.66,0:46:11.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,feelings, emotions, energies; this is a\Nnatural clearing process that unfolds
Dialogue: 0,0:46:11.56,0:46:18.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when we inquire. Just be open to anything\Nthat arises as a result of your inquiry.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:18.68,0:46:24.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Allow yourself to abide \Nin the natural state of the mind,
Dialogue: 0,0:46:24.27,0:46:32.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,free from the limitations of\Nconceptual elaboration.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:36.07,0:46:43.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So my own awakening occurred in\Nessentially two fundamentally different
Dialogue: 0,0:46:43.40,0:46:51.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,movements. I approached the initial shift\Nfrom a place of suffering, profound
Dialogue: 0,0:46:51.71,0:46:56.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,suffering, and I had known that it had\Nsomething to do with thoughts.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:56.44,0:47:00.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It had something to do with the way I was\Nthinking, the way I was perceiving the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:47:00.63,0:47:06.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the way I was perceiving myself. And this\Nled me into a direct investigation
Dialogue: 0,0:47:06.70,0:47:12.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the nature of thought itself. And most\Nimportantly the nature of the thinker;
Dialogue: 0,0:47:12.73,0:47:17.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the nature of the one who is seemingly\Nbound by those thoughts.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:17.44,0:47:26.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So with this direct investigation the\Nsense of being a thinker was dissolved and
Dialogue: 0,0:47:26.96,0:47:33.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with the sense of being a thinker being \Ndissolved, then all thought forms sort of
Dialogue: 0,0:47:33.12,0:47:40.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,lost meaning to me. What I didn't realize\Nis when that happens we're left with a sort
Dialogue: 0,0:47:40.32,0:47:48.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of pure or unbound conscious experience.\NAnd to me that was tremendously peaceful,
Dialogue: 0,0:47:48.28,0:47:56.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tremendously relieving of my suffering. \NThat was the first part of my awakening.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:56.95,0:48:02.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had no idea even from there with the\Nclarity that was revealed, with the peace
Dialogue: 0,0:48:02.64,0:48:08.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was revealed, that it could go deeper\NThat it could go a lot deeper.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:08.26,0:48:15.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So over a period of a few days the initial\Nglimpse, the initial very profound, very
Dialogue: 0,0:48:15.68,0:48:25.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,releasing, and surprising experience broke \Nopen into something that goes beyond the
Dialogue: 0,0:48:25.76,0:48:32.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,human dimension; goes beyond the \Nconfines of who I take myself to be
Dialogue: 0,0:48:32.81,0:48:38.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in any form at all. And how I take the \Nworld to be in any form at all.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:38.81,0:48:44.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All of that was dismantled. \NWhat was left, what is left it is
Dialogue: 0,0:48:44.98,0:48:52.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,extremely difficult to actually formulate \Ninto words, but through the book,
Dialogue: 0,0:48:52.27,0:48:56.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through direct interactions with people\Nwho are interested in addressing this,
Dialogue: 0,0:48:56.73,0:49:00.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it can be revealed and it can be revealed\Nto that that person
Dialogue: 0,0:49:00.44,0:49:05.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if they're ready for it and interested\Nin investigating it themselves.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:07.12,0:49:15.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No one can tell you what the mind is,\Nwhat the matrix is, what you are.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:15.48,0:49:22.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To know the immeasurable, the ineffable,\Nthe mind must be extraordinarily quiet
Dialogue: 0,0:49:22.50,0:49:28.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and still without any movement. \NIn that deep quiet and profound
Dialogue: 0,0:49:28.56,0:49:33.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,silence there's a possibility of coming\Nupon something which is
Dialogue: 0,0:49:33.58,0:49:40.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,timeless, eternal and beyond all measure.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:40.41,0:49:47.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Let's say, to make a metaphor that \Nawakening is when your head,
Dialogue: 0,0:49:47.71,0:49:52.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the head of the ego, \Nhas been chopped by life.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:52.11,0:49:57.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You saw clearly that you are not your\Nbodymind. You're not an entity
Dialogue: 0,0:49:57.07,0:50:02.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inside the bodymind but yes, the\Nhead has been chopped by life
Dialogue: 0,0:50:02.24,0:50:06.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it's still rolling down the hill,\Nand as it's rolling down the hill
Dialogue: 0,0:50:06.87,0:50:13.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it carries with it old patterns, old\Nschemes, old point of views, that are
Dialogue: 0,0:50:13.26,0:50:18.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,no more nourished by your attention.\NYou're resting in the witnessing solidly,
Dialogue: 0,0:50:18.83,0:50:23.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you see these old patterns unfolding,\Nyou're not involved with them,
Dialogue: 0,0:50:23.72,0:50:27.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but they're still happening. \NSo the head is rolling down the hill
Dialogue: 0,0:50:27.58,0:50:34.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but at a certain point it is going to \Nstop. No more movement of old karmas
Dialogue: 0,0:50:34.04,0:50:39.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,coming into action. No more patterns\Nemerging that you need to look for and
Dialogue: 0,0:50:39.68,0:50:48.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,dissolve. They're gone. And that's Moksha,\Nthat's Liberation. What I've been seeing
Dialogue: 0,0:50:48.11,0:51:04.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is a progressive opening up to seeing life\Nnot as a person inside the body, but as
Dialogue: 0,0:51:04.47,0:51:11.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a peaceful silent witnessing of it in which\Nthere were moments in which there was
Dialogue: 0,0:51:11.88,0:51:17.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just actions, but there was no doer\Nof those actions.
Dialogue: 0,0:51:17.60,0:51:23.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A dog was barking... it was just a barking\Nin the silence, or there was somebody
Dialogue: 0,0:51:23.77,0:51:32.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,walking, or my body walking, and it was\Njust the walking. Not somebody walking.
Dialogue: 0,0:51:32.08,0:51:36.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this was accompanied with the\Nsilencing of the inner dialogue
Dialogue: 0,0:51:36.95,0:51:43.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was sometimes accompanying my life.\NSo these moments of stepping out
Dialogue: 0,0:51:43.52,0:51:48.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of this sense of being a person came \Nmore and more frequently.
Dialogue: 0,0:51:48.09,0:51:53.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And as this was happening\Neverything that I thought to be,
Dialogue: 0,0:51:53.08,0:52:00.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or to be engaged in life started\Nto have a different sense.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:00.60,0:52:08.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Instead of seeing like life against me or \Ndifficult for me, or trying to ask to pray
Dialogue: 0,0:52:08.40,0:52:22.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for a change, I started to become able to\Nsee that all that was aiming towards
Dialogue: 0,0:52:22.81,0:52:28.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,something higher, to open my heart more.\NTo be more available to life.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:28.32,0:52:32.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I started to see that what I called\Naccidents or mistakes or things
Dialogue: 0,0:52:32.96,0:52:38.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't like, they were not wrong, \Nand they were not against me.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:38.88,0:52:44.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They were actually showing me a deeper\Nreality which I was not in contact with.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:44.77,0:52:50.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So all prayers became more like an amen.\NThy will be done. All requests were
Dialogue: 0,0:52:50.30,0:53:00.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,more like, help me to see where I'm still\Nrefusing life, where I'm still refusing
Dialogue: 0,0:53:00.87,0:53:07.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,something. Where I still am suffering\Nbecause I say no to the unfolding
Dialogue: 0,0:53:07.83,0:53:13.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of life itself. So there was an opening \Nup. And more this opening up to life
Dialogue: 0,0:53:13.24,0:53:18.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,happened and more these moments\Nof conscious witnessing came.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:18.77,0:53:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Awakening is just the beginning of this\Nopening up. And it never ends in a way.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:27.36,0:53:38.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is a never ending opening. And the more\Nthis happens, more what we still see as
Dialogue: 0,0:53:38.59,0:53:49.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,difficult as contraction as fear, you\Nreally see that it's a trampoline towards
Dialogue: 0,0:53:49.92,0:54:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a higher love. A dimension of love, of\Npeace, of compassion, and we are all in it.
Dialogue: 0,0:54:05.60,0:54:11.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even those we think they're not. \NWe are all taken in it.
Dialogue: 0,0:54:15.82,0:54:20.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We can know that consciousness exists.\NThat we can know for certain.
Dialogue: 0,0:54:20.43,0:54:24.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everything else we can make educated\Nguesses about. Maybe very good guesses,
Dialogue: 0,0:54:24.94,0:54:30.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but guesses nonetheless. \NConsciousness is the only pre theoretical
Dialogue: 0,0:54:30.58,0:54:36.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,given fact of nature. Everything else are\Ntheoretical abstractions that arise within
Dialogue: 0,0:54:36.32,0:54:42.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness. Consciousness is the sole\Naxiom of nature. That it exists is the only
Dialogue: 0,0:54:42.51,0:54:48.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,absolutely certain thing in nature. And I\Ncan assure you that based on reasoning
Dialogue: 0,0:54:48.95,0:54:53.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the empirical evidence coming out from\Nfoundations of physics coming out from the
Dialogue: 0,0:54:53.02,0:54:57.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,neuroscience of consciousness, it has \Nbecome extraordinarily unlikely that
Dialogue: 0,0:54:57.93,0:55:02.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness is not fundamental. \NTo think of consciousness as secondary or
Dialogue: 0,0:55:02.66,0:55:08.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,epiphenomenal leads to all kinds of \Ninsoluble problems. So there is excellent
Dialogue: 0,0:55:08.30,0:55:12.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rational and empirical reason to take \Nconsciousness as at least one of if not
Dialogue: 0,0:55:12.96,0:55:18.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the only fundamental building block of\Nnature. Physics is fundamentally a science
Dialogue: 0,0:55:18.58,0:55:24.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of perception. It's an attempt to account\Nfor the patterns and regularities of the
Dialogue: 0,0:55:24.61,0:55:30.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,world we perceive. It does not attempt\Nto transcend perception.
Dialogue: 0,0:55:30.20,0:55:34.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even when physicists use instruments like \Ntelescopes, microscopes, oscilloscope's,
Dialogue: 0,0:55:34.93,0:55:39.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or whatever-a-scopes you want, the output\Nof these instruments still needs
Dialogue: 0,0:55:39.49,0:55:46.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to be perceived. So everything in physics\Ngets filtered out through the paradigm
Dialogue: 0,0:55:46.05,0:55:50.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of perception, so to say. Physics is a \Nscience of perception. Therefore it does
Dialogue: 0,0:55:50.97,0:55:57.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not make any attempt to see fundamentally\Nbeyond the physical or fundamentally beyond
Dialogue: 0,0:55:57.83,0:56:04.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,matter, because physicality and matter are\Njust other words for the world we perceive,
Dialogue: 0,0:56:04.60,0:56:12.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the contents of perception. Life is \Nthe instrument for its own understanding.
Dialogue: 0,0:56:12.31,0:56:18.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To understand life you don't unplug from\Nlife. You don't unplug from that which
Dialogue: 0,0:56:18.68,0:56:23.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you're trying to understand. What you do\Nis you pay attention to what's happening,
Dialogue: 0,0:56:23.25,0:56:29.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,try to capture the nuance. Ask yourself, \N"What is this about? Why is this happening?
Dialogue: 0,0:56:29.07,0:56:34.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What does this mean?" Life in the world\Nis a book to be read and deciphered.
Dialogue: 0,0:56:34.39,0:56:40.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But we may get so caught up in an\Nunderstandable need to suffer less,
Dialogue: 0,0:56:40.33,0:56:43.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that we forget to read the book. \NWe forget to pay attention.
Dialogue: 0,0:56:43.92,0:56:49.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,While the book is the key to its own\Ndecipherment. If you decipher the book
Dialogue: 0,0:56:49.02,0:56:55.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of life you will automatically suffer less,\Nbut you can't decipher it if you're not
Dialogue: 0,0:56:55.60,0:56:58.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with your eyes on the ball, \Nif you're not paying attention.
Dialogue: 0,0:56:58.67,0:57:01.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Life is the tool to its own understanding.
Dialogue: 0,0:57:01.69,0:57:09.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All the great religious and spiritual\Ntraditions were founded on this
Dialogue: 0,0:57:09.12,0:57:18.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,understanding. Namely that the there is \None infinite and indivisible reality which
Dialogue: 0,0:57:18.63,0:57:28.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shines in each of us, as the experience \N"I am" and which appears to us as the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:57:28.49,0:57:36.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In other words there is an ocean of being \Nso to speak, that underlies everyone and
Dialogue: 0,0:57:36.14,0:57:41.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everything from which everyone and \Neverything derives its existence.
Dialogue: 0,0:57:41.64,0:57:46.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In which everyone and everything\Nlives, and into which it vanishes
Dialogue: 0,0:57:46.16,0:57:51.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and disappears. And this is really the\Nfounding principle of all the great
Dialogue: 0,0:57:51.48,0:57:56.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,religious traditions, this the recognition\Nof the the unity of Being.
Dialogue: 0,0:57:56.95,0:58:06.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The first Hermetic principle is that\N"The all is mind, the universe is mental."
Dialogue: 0,0:58:06.11,0:58:14.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Wherever we look is the one mind. As\NRumi said, "Wherever I look, there is the
Dialogue: 0,0:58:14.40,0:58:22.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,face of God." Whether we peer into the\Nmicro world or into the macrocosm of space,
Dialogue: 0,0:58:22.17,0:58:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we find the one mind. Here is an image of\Nhuman neurons, and this is a simulated
Dialogue: 0,0:58:30.50,0:58:35.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,image of Dark Matter distribution \Nthroughout the Universe.
Dialogue: 0,0:58:35.44,0:58:41.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The Millennium run is a simulation done\Nby the Max Planck Institute using
Dialogue: 0,0:58:41.28,0:58:47.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,supercomputers to create a representation\Nof the distribution and evolution of dark
Dialogue: 0,0:58:47.51,0:58:53.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,matter in the universe. Dark Matter forms\Na vast Cosmic web of interconnected
Dialogue: 0,0:58:53.68,0:58:59.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,filaments and nodes which is visually\Nalmost identical to neurons and the
Dialogue: 0,0:58:59.31,0:59:05.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,neuropathways found in a human brain.\NAnd the same pattern is ubiquitous
Dialogue: 0,0:59:05.31,0:59:14.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,throughout nature. We can call it the \NOne Mind, or God or simply "all that is".
Dialogue: 0,0:59:16.02,0:59:24.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what is referred to as God is not \Nsome external being beyond and
Dialogue: 0,0:59:24.33,0:59:31.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,prior to the world. God is the the being\Nthat shines in each of us as the knowledge
Dialogue: 0,0:59:31.84,0:59:41.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I am" and appears to us as the world. \NSo we could say from this point of view
Dialogue: 0,0:59:41.21,0:59:46.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in religious language, the world is the\Nappearance of the word of God, the Logos,
Dialogue: 0,0:59:46.98,0:59:56.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that we are localizations \Nof God's mind within God's mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:56.92,1:00:02.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So how does one universal field of\Nsubjectivity, one universal consciousness,
Dialogue: 0,1:00:02.59,1:00:05.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how does it appear to be many? \NBecause I can't read your thoughts,
Dialogue: 0,1:00:05.88,1:00:09.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,presumably you can't read mine. \NI don't know what's happening in the
Dialogue: 0,1:00:09.20,1:00:15.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,galaxy of Andromeda, not even in China.\NWe don't have a full experience of the
Dialogue: 0,1:00:15.68,1:00:22.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,entirety of nature, so how can this one\Nmind that nature is have these limitations
Dialogue: 0,1:00:22.48,1:00:27.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and appear to be many? \NWell I think we know one natural process
Dialogue: 0,1:00:27.68,1:00:32.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that does exactly that. It's called \Ndissociation in psychiatry. It's a process
Dialogue: 0,1:00:32.56,1:00:38.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,according to which one mind seemingly\Nfragments into multiple disjointed centers
Dialogue: 0,1:00:38.81,1:00:46.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of awareness. We have definitive empirical\Nevidence for this in people, in humans,
Dialogue: 0,1:00:46.41,1:00:54.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from neuroimaging and now I think we are\Nclose to beginning to have an explicit
Dialogue: 0,1:00:54.46,1:01:00.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,conceptual account of dissociation based\Non integrated information theory, which is
Dialogue: 0,1:01:00.55,1:01:04.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the main theory in the neuroscience of\Nconsciousness. When a dissociative boundary
Dialogue: 0,1:01:04.94,1:01:10.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,forms you can only see what is across that\Ndissociative boundary through perception.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:10.81,1:01:16.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what you then perceive \Nis matter, physicality. In other words
Dialogue: 0,1:01:16.73,1:01:22.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,matter, physicality, is a conscious \Nappearance of a conscious process
Dialogue: 0,1:01:22.92,1:01:27.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from across a dissociative boundary.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:29.16,1:01:34.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Whether we describe these processes\Nin terms of modern theories or using
Dialogue: 0,1:01:34.14,1:01:39.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ancient models like the five skandhas,\Nwhat matters is that we make these
Dialogue: 0,1:01:39.52,1:01:46.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,processes which are usually unconscious,\Nconscious. When they are made conscious
Dialogue: 0,1:01:46.48,1:01:52.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then resistance within the self structure\Ncan be dropped. The unconscious operation
Dialogue: 0,1:01:52.75,1:01:59.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of "I" can be dropped. The perception that\Nwe are a physical body, the perception
Dialogue: 0,1:01:59.88,1:02:05.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of sensations on the body, the \Nconceptualization of objects and things,
Dialogue: 0,1:02:05.24,1:02:11.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the identification with preferences towards \Nthose things, and the sense that there is a
Dialogue: 0,1:02:11.28,1:02:18.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,witness watching all of this, all of these \Nmind processes are to be realized as empty
Dialogue: 0,1:02:18.56,1:02:26.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of self. In other words we disidentify \Nfrom the phenomena while allowing it to be
Dialogue: 0,1:02:26.60,1:02:34.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exactly as it is. This is not a turning\Naway from life. Quite the contrary this is
Dialogue: 0,1:02:34.86,1:02:40.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a deepening of the intimacy with life.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:41.33,1:02:48.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My understanding that consciousness is \Nfundamental and precedes physicality,
Dialogue: 0,1:02:48.53,1:02:53.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,over the years has fundamentally changed\Nmy experience of life in the world and
Dialogue: 0,1:02:53.72,1:02:59.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what it means to be a human being alive in\Nthe world. To me it happened slowly.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:59.56,1:03:03.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At first it was a merely conceptual \Nunderstanding in my head, and then
Dialogue: 0,1:03:03.38,1:03:08.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it sort of sunk into the body and started\Nmodulating my emotions, my feelings,
Dialogue: 0,1:03:08.55,1:03:14.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it changes everything. It changes what\Nyou consider to be a well-lived life,
Dialogue: 0,1:03:14.09,1:03:21.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it changes what you consider to be goals\Nworthy of working towards, it changes
Dialogue: 0,1:03:21.04,1:03:24.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,your perception of self, it changes your \Nrelationship to other living creatures,
Dialogue: 0,1:03:24.93,1:03:31.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,yeah it does change everything. Personal \Ngoals in terms of status, power, money,
Dialogue: 0,1:03:31.44,1:03:36.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that has gone away. The awareness that my\Nlife is not at all, has never been,
Dialogue: 0,1:03:36.40,1:03:41.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and will never be about me, but it's about\Nnature, and I'm just one local manifestation
Dialogue: 0,1:03:41.73,1:03:48.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of nature, that understanding leads to a\Nprofound relaxation of that anxiety
Dialogue: 0,1:03:48.04,1:03:52.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that comes with the need to achieve \Ncertain personal goals or with the
Dialogue: 0,1:03:52.40,1:03:57.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,disappointment that comes when \Nyou don't reach those personal goals.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:57.16,1:04:03.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All that stuff has gone. I live life now as a\Nform of service to Nature.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:03.04,1:04:08.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm open to doing whatever it is that \Nnature wants to do through me and
Dialogue: 0,1:04:08.44,1:04:14.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,although that may sound like being \Nbonded to service like a slave it doesn't
Dialogue: 0,1:04:14.82,1:04:20.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,feel like that. It feels like I no longer have\Nthe oppressive overwhelming responsibility
Dialogue: 0,1:04:20.67,1:04:25.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to make myself personally happy. \NWhich is the most oppressive idea
Dialogue: 0,1:04:25.40,1:04:29.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that the human mind can have, which is\Nthat your life is about you and therefore
Dialogue: 0,1:04:29.61,1:04:33.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you have the responsibility to be happy\Nso when you fail on that it's your failure
Dialogue: 0,1:04:33.85,1:04:39.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then you start regretting it. \NNo, that has gone. It has disappeared.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:39.36,1:04:44.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's one of the things that changed in\Nmy life. A deeper understanding of reality
Dialogue: 0,1:04:44.58,1:04:53.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is directly conducive to empathy, to \Nmutual respect, to non egoic purposes.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:53.70,1:04:57.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's conducive to less \Naddictive patterns of behavior.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:57.41,1:05:03.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So there is absolutely no doubt that if\Nhumanity's understanding were deeper
Dialogue: 0,1:05:03.64,1:05:09.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and more pervasive, \Nlife would definitely be better.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:09.86,1:05:16.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The solution to the world's problems is to\Nrecognize the true source of the problems,
Dialogue: 0,1:05:16.12,1:05:23.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is the ego that operates only for\Nits own interest. It doesn't matter what
Dialogue: 0,1:05:23.06,1:05:30.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the ego engages with; politics, religion,\Neconomics, or education. As long as it
Dialogue: 0,1:05:30.89,1:05:36.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,operates from the false premise that there\Nis a separate "I", then we will continue
Dialogue: 0,1:05:36.78,1:05:43.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to perpetuate suffering and separation. \NThe only solution for humanity now
Dialogue: 0,1:05:43.11,1:05:47.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is to wake up.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:50.45,1:05:57.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In Buddhism, when there is no longer a\Nsense of self as a separate thing, and at
Dialogue: 0,1:05:57.52,1:06:05.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the same time, no other than Self, it is\Nnirvana, the cessation of self-centered
Dialogue: 0,1:06:05.68,1:06:11.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,activity, the cessation of delusion, \Nthe cessation of dreaming,
Dialogue: 0,1:06:11.76,1:06:17.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the waking up from the \Ncharacter in the dream of life.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:17.22,1:06:24.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The Bible says the Word became flesh\Nand made His dwelling among us.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:24.64,1:06:30.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The Word is is often translated as Logos,\Nwhich is an ancient word with a profound
Dialogue: 0,1:06:30.96,1:06:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,meaning. The logos is associated with\Neternity, Truth and direct revelation.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:39.92,1:06:45.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You could say that it is through the Logos\Nor through Christ Consciousness,
Dialogue: 0,1:06:45.31,1:06:58.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or Buddha nature that \NGod's mind is made known.