I think I care about beauty, but I don't go for it.

I hope it sometimes might be in there.

I think maybe more in terms of a beautiful moment than trying to figure out what beauty is.

I hope that my paintings can be emotional moments for people.

I just know that it takes a certain emotion to lock in for me to commit to a painting.

And a certain timidity at first, and then the second painting, and then I might go back to the first painting,

And force more bravery on it.

Oh, this is okay. You can handle this.

I have given myself full range of the painting.

I don't limit myself in anyway. I know I'm not a landscape painter. I know that. I know that's sombody else's job.

And I don't think I'm a still life painter.

But I would like to think that I can paint portraits, which I have not successfully done.

I like to think that the whole thing is wide open and then I don't have to abide by any rules, anymore.

But I was happy too, when I was young, because it looked like a very radical world.

And I really wanted to be part of it.

We had to put that dog down, because she was in kidney failure.

And I was holding her before the doctor did that, and I wanted to make a painting about it.

How it felt, to remember her by.

And I've had the arm everywhere you see this darker tone. I've had the arm there. [chuckles]

I had it like this, like this, then I could not figure out how my feet should be,

Then, I could not figure out where the arm might be coming of the body.

And finally, I decided to stop worrying about it. All I wanted was that dog held there,

And my sneakers grounding the bottom of the painting.

I just felt so sad, and so... I felt the loss of this dog quite a lot. So I just try to recover her for a moment in the painting.

It's completely personal.

And I could see that the hand's not painted well... That one is, that one isn't.

Woman: Which one?

ROTHENBERG: The left hand is just fine. It's doing what it needs to do.

This one is blobby. [laughs]

It needs some wristbones, and some fingernails, and some definition.

In the paintings, it's there, the tenderness. I work for it.

I'm not afraid of it. If I could put my bleeding f**king heart in there, I would. [chuckles]

But as it is, it's her and my arms and my shoes.

You know, in the most all-embracing kind of send-off I could give her.