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Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.91,0:00:20.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think I care about beauty, but I don't go for it.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.63,0:00:24.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I hope it sometimes might be in there.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.09,0:00:31.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think maybe more in terms of a beautiful moment than trying to figure out what beauty is.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.29,0:00:39.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I hope that my paintings can be emotional moments for people.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.29,0:00:49.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I just know that it takes a certain emotion to lock in for me to commit to a painting.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.14,0:00:56.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And a certain timidity at first, and then the second painting, and then I might go back to the first painting,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.20,0:00:58.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And force more bravery on it.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.32,0:01:01.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oh, this is okay. You can handle this.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.02,0:01:10.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have given myself full range of the painting.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.78,0:01:19.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't limit myself in anyway. I know I'm not a landscape painter. I know that. I know that's sombody else's job.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.09,0:01:21.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I don't think I'm a still life painter.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.81,0:01:28.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I would like to think that I can paint portraits, which I have not successfully done.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.78,0:01:34.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I like to think that the whole thing is wide open and then I don't have to abide by any rules, anymore.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.15,0:01:41.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I was happy too, when I was young, because it looked like a very radical world.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.08,0:01:44.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I really wanted to be part of it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.21,0:01:53.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We had to put that dog down, because she was in kidney failure.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.47,0:02:01.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was holding her before the doctor did that, and I wanted to make a painting about it.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.56,0:02:04.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How it felt, to remember her by.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.30,0:02:12.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I've had the arm everywhere you see this darker tone. I've had the arm there. [chuckles]
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.60,0:02:16.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had it like this, like this, then I could not figure out how my feet should be,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.88,0:02:21.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then, I could not figure out where the arm might be coming of the body.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.77,0:02:25.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And finally, I decided to stop worrying about it. All I wanted was that dog held there,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.97,0:02:30.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my sneakers grounding the bottom of the painting.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.95,0:02:42.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I just felt so sad, and so... I felt the loss of this dog quite a lot. So I just try to recover her for a moment in the painting.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.15,0:02:44.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's completely personal.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.15,0:02:53.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I could see that the hand's not painted well... That one is, that one isn't.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.03,0:02:54.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Woman: Which one?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.78,0:02:57.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ROTHENBERG: The left hand is just fine. It's doing what it needs to do.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.97,0:03:00.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This one is blobby. [laughs]
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.02,0:03:06.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It needs some wristbones, and some fingernails, and some definition.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.80,0:03:13.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the paintings, it's there, the tenderness. I work for it.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.37,0:03:19.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not afraid of it. If I could put my bleeding f**king heart in there, I would. [chuckles]
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.98,0:03:25.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But as it is, it's her and my arms and my shoes.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.12,0:03:30.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, in the most all-embracing kind of send-off I could give her.