all right hello beloved well um I want to speak today a little bit about uh titling my heart is humility Holiness and brokenheartedness in the light of sexual sin among spiritual leaders little tough subject but it's also I'm thinking about this uh season we kind of end up that way I'll give you it's going to end up in a good way that in speaking of this week when we think about the conception of Yeshua in in Miriam that she was the in some ways the ultimate victory of sexual Pur over sexual sin you usually don't think about that but that's where we're going so hold on to that for a minute so we'll start in um how could we not Psalm 51 Psalm 51 it's a prayer that we really ought to be saying every day I try to sing it to myself every day live but we'll pick it up but Psalm 51:2 a um a pure heart God created me for those who read Hebrew it doesn't say it says it's in the imperative forms that's in crate and um a right Spirit Renew on the inside of me well you hear the fear of God here do not cast me away from you and and do not take your holy spirit away from me the the fear of God um restore to me the joy of of your salvation and in a generous Spirit uh uh support me lift me up we see him repenting at such a deep level um David who had killed Goliath the great hero and then Fallen before Beva I mean incredible contrast there and he's so he's so broken and he's crying out that he recognizes the Holiness of God that he could lose it he could lose it all I mean it cast me away from you take your holy spirit away from me because it's it he's going he's he's taking us to a depth of of uh of repentance here that I I don't know that we find it it's I almost feel that God allowed him to go through that sin so he could write this Psalm it's to show us how to how to get over sin and and repentance and guilt but then he goes on toward the end sort of finishing it off in verse 19 it says it says and um sacrifices of God and from here I got the title of this message are a broken spirit and a broken heart and cast down the Lord will not despise it and so he's he's looking at this sin that he did and he's he's just crushed by it he's crushed by it and um he's doing that obviously in the light of he's it's not just kind of a normal person sinning you know he's doing this in a light of he recognizes God's kingdom he recognizes the Holiness on himself his calling the the kingdom of God and it's not like he sinned I think he's think I sinned okay God conf it's like I've blown it for the kingdom of God he's he's terrified and he's broken and um and he realizes here in the middle of that somehow that this is a good thing you know we always you know Western people we always like to have something up it's got to have a happy ending you know you got to talk about Joy you don't want to talk about Holiness or humility so sorry if you don't like this message but it's from the Bible and uh so but he's saying well this is a good thing Lord I you've you've taken me to a place that I'm so aware of my own inability to overcome my own flesh in my own sin and he comes he just goes to a zero place and somehow in the mid he says wow this is I can feel as broken as I am you're you're pleased with the sacrifice it's almost like you've been waiting hey was was some human being realize how sinful you are come on repent show me where you're at and and somehow in the midst of his own fear of God I could be Cast Away From God I could be destroying the kingdom of God he says well God's pleased with this place of loneliness and Brokenness that I've come to and I'm giving it to you God in in the in uh as a as a way of worship there's a purity a sweetness coming out of his Brokenness notice of course the first the first verse up on it and it says this is a Psalm of David says he says and this is when Nathan came to him the prophet after he had gone into bcha in other words this is his repenting in the light of being rebuked uked for having sinned with bcha now B the bcha sin was a a pretty difficult sin because it was it he he committed adultery and then he lied about it and then he committed murder to try to get the evidence away from him I mean pretty bad stuff you know this was not like just missed the Holiness of God he he he sinned on the the some of the big ones you know and uh and he's shocked and he's aware of the fact that it's not just he did that but he did it he was the king of Israel God made an eternal Covenant with him he said you are the Messiah the Messiah the Savior the whole world salvation is going to come through your seed and he just realized that I may have just blown the whole Promises of God by committing adultery I've ruined the promises of the coming of the Messiah I mean he's he's stunned well I'm saying that in the light of this year has been a difficult year for us there's been cases of allegations of sexual sin against leaders across the world not one not two not three not four not five and unfortunately a lot of the situations seem to get to me somehow but but I uh um and they're complicated because what happens in a situation like this you have you have an event that happens usually happens when nobody's there there so who's whose evidence you you have the the emotional response is the exactly opposite usually between the men and the women and then if you are talking about spiritual leaders you have an imbalance of emotional psychological positioning with it that becomes abusive whether the person meant for it to be abusive and then you have allegations and then what can get proved and then what cannot get proved and then it's whoa it is so complicated I mean I've had to spend hundreds of hours this year dealing with these situations and none of them are very nice and everybody's hurt everybody's hurt on all the sides it's it's it's kind of like I mean this in a spiritual way it's disgusting I mean it's like we all just want to vomit it up in in in I I mean in a right way God's God's dealing with this and you realize God is not embarrassed about these kind of things we're embarrassed but God is like hey you want to sin and remember what happened to David that he God said will you sin in in private I'm going to display it in public so his son Rebels against him and he commits adultery for all of David's wives and concubines on the roof in front of everybody puts it on the front page of the newspaper I mean it's just like it's it's horrible and God somehow in God's holiness he he desires to have these things displayed it's totally humil for us human beings to be involved in this but it's but it's God is so interested in in displaying the wrongness of sin that he wants to get this things all these things out and it's very hard to work with you know now we um with with ton our ministry we've put a lot of emphasis on you know my book Covenant relationships Dan's book due process where really into wanting to handle these all these situations correctly and that's what takes the hundreds of hours cuz you got to you got to listen to everybody's side and you got to try to weigh it objectively it's almost impossible cuz the the situation is so emotionally Laden they try to get to but I want to say with all of our good intentions of due process and covenantal relationships and all these right forms of dealing something I'm saying this as the president of tun Global no process is going to work it doesn't matter how good your processes are you have to deal with sin you know and there's something about this and I've heard part of like I said so many conversations on this person's right this person's wrong and this you know what we all just have to be brokenhearted about this situation we just have to cry we have to it it's we have to Humble ourselves we have to realize that we're we're not holy and we're standing before a holy God and and okay we have to listen to this person listen to this person who's right how much punishment how much do what how do we comfort those how do we heal everybody's everybody's hurt everybody's broken but I'm saying in addition to all our right processing which I believe in I believe in Covenant relationship and and judicial process and the right hand but in all of that that's not going to work if you don't have a brokenheartedness you hear what I'm saying you can get through the right process and you'll never get to the end and on a different issue everybody's talking here about in Israel we want to have a um uh a a governmental uh investigation of what went wrong a year and a half ago at the beginning of the war the problem is that everybody in the country is already prejudged as to what side they're on you can't you could never possibly get to an objective Council here who's going to do the investigation everybody's screaming and yelling at everybody and I'm saying we have to get to the point whether you're talking about the war here in Israel or judicial process of sin in the church is just you have to get to the point you know what we're all wrong we're all wrong stop in in these situations there's no there's no reason to come well I'm more righteous than you I would okay and it it's heartbreaking and so in the ca this is not just a regul you're talking about a sin with David who is the head of the Community of Faith in his generation it's terrifying it's terrifying I'm look at all these things I said to myself go Asha what is there something you missed here you know did did I miss have I missed anything about myself it's interesting it says in Ephesians 4 that lust of this world um are they are deceptive it's like you're involved in L you don't even realize it you're deceiving yourself while you're involved in the lust it's it's aaz you don't even see that it's wrong you you're justifying yourself while it's happening you I ask myself God God have I done it what you know the David said you know don't let any of my sins be you know hidden show Mom I was PR I was thinking of a situation I 40 years ago I was serving kind of in a youth pastor situation gave this girl a hug everybody was hugging every gave this girl a hug you know and it got a sensual hug you know and I'm thinking the Lord brought that back to my mind said you know well I can excuse it dismiss it no no it was disgusting there's no there's no way you can justify anything you know you just have to realize that we're living in a sinful world and we have to get away from it let's look at another example look with me in uh Ezra chapter 9 remember Ezra and Nehemiah are kind of the last two historical books of the Bible Nehemiah is actually after Ezra the Book of Esther actually comes first the the situation with Esther happened before Ezra and that happened before Nehemiah but this is one of the last last books of the Bible it's an incredible situation God has returned the people of Israel from Exile they're coming back to Jerusalem they're rebuilding the altar they're giving worship they're I mean it's an incredible Victorious moment of the restoration of God it's just wonderful I mean you can almost learn everything about Apostolic Ministry from the book of Ezra and Nehemiah it's it's so wonderful and the last two chapters did you notice that the last two chapters of the book of isra are all dedicated to repent of sexual sin on behalf of the leadership well I missed that what was that in the Bible let's look at Ezra chapter 9 what happens now in their day the the sin was they the they they married the the Canaanite women this was before the time of Yeshua had they had they had seed with the Canaanite woman they would have ruined the promise of the coming of the Holy seed of Yeshua and would have basically damned all of the human race for eternity with they would have ruined the ability for Yeshua to come God would have had to wipe us all out again like he didn't know but but in this case but so I'm not going to deal with the fact that they married that that situation doesn't apply really to anybody here today but it still was a a type of sexual sin so we're looking at and um so let's look and we're in Ezra 9 UM chap chapter 9 verse2 and said second half of the verse so that the holy seed is mixed with the people of the lands and then he says indeed the hand of the leaders and the rulers have been uppermost in this sin yo wasn't just the sin of the people every was but he said you know he said the leaders have been even worse Y and then and then how does react or I'm saying somebody who's leaving a judicial process to help solve and deal with all these situations and we're into that you know said so I heard this thing I tore my garment and my robed and plucked out some of my hair from my head and my beard I sat down astonished and everyone who was trembled at the words of the god of Israel assembled to me because of the transgression of those who have been carried away captive and I stand astonished and he goes on and all just repenting and he says he says he goes on and say I'm 're we are this is humiliating it's humiliating for the whole people of God he said I'm ashamed God we're in a generation where you're miraculously storing the restoring the people of God you're rebuilding the altar you I mean we are living in that generation we're living in the generation of the restoration of Israel Jerusalem Israel becoming the lead nation in the Middle East the the the Messianic Remnant I mean we have over 100 congregations in Israel today maybe 200 of them if you count the house congregations then we have it's this is a time of incredible Victory and right in the middle of that we have sin in the camp it's it's it's humili I mean you don't that's you can he said what can I say I'm just going to rip out my beard rip out my hair I'd rip out my hair if I had any left but but we have um but it's it's just you see him reacting now after he does that then he goes into this long the basically all the chapter 10 the last chapter is him making a judicial process so I'm not against judicial we're doing you have to do that that's the right thing to do he said now we're going to set up we're going to interview each person we're going to come through this and we're going to we're going to check it we got got to hear the evidence because remember um Nicodemus said he said how can you have righteousness if you don't hear both sides of the story whenever you hear one side of the story it doesn't matter what the allegations are on this side or this side if you've only heard one side of the story you're wrong you be before you start you've got the process you got to hear both sides you got to compare them you got to work it out and he says no we're going to do all that the people said yeah that don't we're praying first of all we tear our heart we tear our garments and then we go through this process we've got to go through this process to work and he said they said it's going to take some time for us to hear everybody work person by person name by name this in every situation make a decision make a judgment you have to do that and all I'm saying and we for who so dedicate ourselves to do that all I'm saying if we go right to that and skip over the part of tearing our heart and tearing our garments and say oh my God what's happened this is humiliating and people are hurt people are hurt on all sides it's interesting I noticed that that when he did this they said in vers in chapter 10 he said it was the 20th day of the 9th month and he did he said in three days from now it'll be the 20 so he did this three days before the 20th day of the 9th month which is in the Hebrew calendar today amazing huh this 3 days before the 20th would be the Shabbat this is the three days it's the ninth month of it been so I was realiz I just felt like the the anointing of this the revelation of this chapter we're living it you know not just the date but you know what I'm saying I'm just realizing we he there's both the part of the broken heart and it's tearing our hearts and then there's the part of the judicial process you have to do both you know but um but what happens is because everybody's scrambling because of the allegations and people are heard on all different sides people are trying to you know what I'm saying kind of justify themselves we haven't even gotten to the point we all need to just stop and start crying and just humble ourselves and say got a little humility Holiness and and a brokenheartedness to be in the right process is wherever it goes people say to me what do you think about this situation this situation you know I'm talking about a whole bunch of famous situations and and I say I I they don't have an opinion because I'm trying to serve the process of trying to be trying to be humble and objective and we we we're hurting for everybody and and people have been wounded you know I just want to say um one more thing about the story of of um uh David and Beva I used to say that uh was the only passage in the Bible my wife and I don't agree about you know as a man I read I said can you believe that girl taking over Clos in the front of the king's window how could she do that my wife said are you what are you talking about I sure God the king came up and you know abducted her what are you talking about so and I realized that um maybe there's a little truth on both sides but Betty was more right than me because when you look at after it God's judgment comes more on him than it was on her you know so it's it's so he was more responsible you know she can't well she flirted well okay but you're the king you know you have to you have to deal with it so it's a it's a heartbreaking situation and in the history of Israel the the the sin repeated itself over and over and over and over and over again and it caused the murder and adultery and it just it seemed to destroy the kingdom of God every time the kingdom of God would come to a high point it would get destroyed by these things it's a heartbreaking chain of events for that to happen now um let's skip over all that for a moment I want and let's let's come up to the um the story of the conception of our beloved Messiah who is the son of David the great great great great grandson of David look what it says here this was the angle I mean there's so many good things to speak about the conception of the Messiah but uh here is one it just jumped out at me was Luke Chapter 1:35 of course I read this all the time I just kind of went over it but notice the word holy is in this verse twice it says Luke Chapter 1:35 and it says and the angel answered this is Gabriel comes to me said it's said you know Miriam is there and she says to him well how how am I going to be with child I mean I'm I'm a virgin you know and and you know when if if she's coming from an ultra Orthodox Jewish background she probably was she may have never even talked to a man before she definitely never touched a man she never been in the same room with a man before I mean what what are you talking about you know and the angel answered and said to her the holy spirit will come upon you and the power of the most high will overshadow you and therefore the holy thing which will be born in you shall be called The Son of God here's a different angle that I want us to look at this they she is the great great great great granddaughter and Joseph is also the great great great grandson basically of of David Bash and we're talking about what how many generations it is 14 by 14 Generations coming up till you get to them of generations of of sexual sin that has been doing huge damage to the kingdom of God and she wins she wins she breaks the curse and she says look I've kept myself holy and you can see it then you can try to get the purp purpose of she say look I'm the I'm the great great and if we understand it correctly on her mom's side she was from the the tribe of the Cohen family and in the father's side from David and probably from Joseph was on David David's family so she says she said I'm like the I'm the great great great granddaughter of of the of the Kings and the priests of our people and I have determined that I am going to keep myself holy in this perverted generation and she's looking back at that angel and she's like saying I mean you know I'm not taking any of this promise from you you know I'm I'm watching out for my Holiness I don't need your promise I'm watching out for my Holiness and you could almost feel him smiling so yeah you know yeah you won you won girl now I don't believe Mary was born of an Immaculate Conception that's not what I'm talking about I'm talking about a plain old Jewish Israeli girl here that fought against all the forces of sexual immorality and stood before angels and the forces of Heaven and Hell and said I'm going to maintain my Purity he says yes and the holy spirit's going to come upon you and the child that will born will be born of you will be holy because you have maintained yourself holy and this this holy child is going to come and save the universe and it's partly because of you dear Miram this is the great great great great granddaughter of Betha he said I want you want and and Joseph being the great great great grandson of David also saying well what am I supposed to do here and he says well just you know get married get betr while you're betr we'll have the child born and then you can get married and then it'll be it'll all work out well but what a victory the the victory of the conception of the Messiah is the victory of a people walking in Holiness overcoming the carnality and the sinfulness of the world around him wow what an encouraging thing what a way to look at this story look at this in the light of Holiness and victory folk this is good news good news but despite us messing this up all over the place Hallelujah Yeshua is a holy Child conceived in Holiness by the way you know there was as I can tell there's nothing miraculous about his he had a regular birth the miracle was the conception that was when the miracle that's why we believe this holiday was not his birth but actually the conception but that's when the light came into the world and she received it as a holy vessel the Holy Light came into her cuz she maintained herself maintained herself holy what a victory and she and you got she she went the rest of her life being mocked at by everybody in her City yeah Virgin Mary you know they looked at her her reputation was a girl that had said got pregnant outside of marriage you know and she kept her Holiness in the light of all that an amazing thing all right one last thing I want to share and that has a relationship our relationship to the world um both John and James speak of not loving or not being a friend of the world it's in 1 John 2 and then James 4 let's look at one of them let's look in the uh in James 4 um I think it may be a little more relevant for although it's the same part Point James 4 verse4 he says um you adulterers and adulteresses do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God whoever therefore would be a friend of the world is an enemy of godo that's a pretty tough verse the verse in first John 2 which says something similar is but it says a little different in verse in 1 John 2 it says don't love the world we know a little everybody knows a love Greek to know that love is agape so he says don't Agape the world the world out there but in but in in James he says don't be a friend to it which is the fil so he's saying in in and and I so I was thinking for most of us I'm I'm I'm using the James one because I'm saying most of us we don't love the world I don't love the things of the world even love the things world I don't I don't desire them love them but there's a part of us you know I'd like to be friends a little bit you know I mean I want to be have friends I want to be part of what's going on you kind of want to be friends with human society you want to be you know I'd like to hang out with the with the synagogue in my my neighborhood but I've been kicked out of more synagogues than you've ever ever been to you know I'd like to be friends with the the Israelis around us but what you know not we what are you going to do you know I'd like to watch a TV show every now and then you get about 2 minutes and then you got to turn off the TV you can't watch it it's all it's I don't love it but I'm confessing you know I'm saying I don't love it but I'd like to at least be friends a little bit he says no no no no no no you want to be friends with this world you're an enemy of God oh no I'm sorry Lord you know and what so it comes to the place where we have to realize if all this is true that that we we can't be friends with this world we're you have to live as kind of a reject you know it's not going to work out you can be nice you can smile at everybody and you can have grace and favor that doesn't mean you want to have grace and favor people will appreciate us because they see us walking with the Lord but it we can't be buddies with him you know and uh I'm I'm working on that one I really I have no love for the world I have no desire for the but I kind of would like to you know just be friends with them want to be friendly people you know but it doesn't that doesn't work out you know you can show them love you can show people you can be friends to them but you can't be friendly with them you know and it's it's a different thing you know I'm not saying don't be friendly don't be loving we we pour the love and friendship of Yeshua to the people around us but we can't go down to try to be accepted on in what they're doing and we can't be with them on that level as Yeshua said you got to be in the world but not of the same spirit and and you know that I'm just confessing that that's a little it's a little because there's something about it we're people of love we want to have friend we want to be friends with the people around you it doesn't work so um looking this and and I'm I'm also thinking of the the the the sexual sins that have been part of the the body not just in the leaders but in in everyone it you know the people that I know they they wasn't people that were looking for sin it wasn't that kind of things it was just that we live particular the western church it's kind of like we're Believers but we're also just friendly with the world you know it's kind of like we're cool we're hip we're going over it doesn't work the people weren't looking to sin you know they were but we were trying to be friendly with the world and when you're doing that you don't realize that you're slowly getting stuck in the in the honey and the mud and you're getting and you don't realize it and you're getting and then all of a sudden you say what happened and I realize that we we have to have another step of just really coming coming to a deep understanding that we can't be friends with the values that are in the world and we in Israel for instance if we go toward the 90% of the Orthodox Jewish World they hate Jesus even though they don't know who he is but I'm saying and we can't be Messianic Jews in it and the world the rest of Israeli Society is saturated in sexual sin and Rebellion because we we got to walk in a holy Lane in between that and and love everybody around us and be a witness you know what I'm saying but we have to wake up that that we we can't relax in that environment and um so that's it I just want to um pray and let me just go over those points again we have to have a deep brokenheartedness Holiness and the fear of God and humility when we look at the sexual sins around us on whatever the sides are particularly realizing how damaging that could be when those of us and all of you were all being trained for leadership there's nobody that's a Believer that's not being trained for leadership you got to realize the more you're trained in leadership the more prices it's going to have the more bad effects it's going to have and it's come to ruin the kingdom of God all this time but thank God Joseph and Mary and the people in their generation overcome that she beat the World by saying pure and then when she gave Yeshua to the world then Yeshua is the light he is the he is the Holy One she's not the Holy One she just maintained her her sexual Purity but he's the Holy One and he's coming we have Holiness that comes from him and the and the the story of of Christmas of the conception of Yeshua is also part of the victory of the Holiness of God over the sinfulness of this world hallelujah hallelujah but we have to watch out not to just try to be friendly on the same level as the world around us and I was just uh so I want to pray I just want to also pray for this generation the younger generation Believers or not Believers as I've been tell we've been talking about this with our family members with their that know the age of our children and grandchildren already that that that they've been come become totally um I'm not trying to overstate something but dysfunctional in the ability to have any kind of interpersonal relationship they they nobody can figure out how to get married because the young boys and girls today can't even talk to one another they don't even know what to do well let's just get a dog you know I mean just it's just it's a it's a difficult world because the the generations of this sinfulness and worldliness has caused a dysfunction not only in not only in gender confusion but just in men and women don't know how to talk to one they're afraid to get married they're afraid to have children they're afraid to it's nothing the the whole thing is falling apart but not with us we need to pray for the Holiness of God that can result in help healthy normal relationships what are you trying to be super holy go I'm trying to see if we can have some normal relationships Hallelujah and um okay these were some heavy things so let's just pray Lord God just pray with me and Heavenly Father we ask you for humility for Holiness and for brokenheartedness in the light of the worldliness around us Lord God and I realize Lord that none of us has walked through this pure there none of us that haven't been affected one way or another no we we're not pointing fingers at everybody Lord we're just saying I we all of us Lord we just need to as Ezra did just tear his shirt tear his heart pull out his beard pull out his hair just hey God lord we are humiliated and humbled before you we're more than humbled Lord we're humiliated but God we thank you that somehow in your sight that's a good sacrifice you like that you say hey you got the point Lord we just thank you that we would not be afraid as a Community of Faith to Humble ourselves to admit we've all blown it and we all just have to have a a broken heart and give it to you in this season when we talk about this holy child being conceived Lord I ask you for right now in this week 10 days during hanuka lighting the light of hanuka and talking about the conception of the of the holy Child Lord that we would just let that Holiness touch us and that we could just have the Heart of Mary and Joseph that we can just walk in Holiness in this world because that holy child is in our hearts we don't have to be pregnant we just have to have him in our hearts and we thank you for Lord that we are walking and above all Lord I'm so so sorry God that we have embarrassed your name in front of the world oh God bad enough Lord that we would embarrass ourselves but Lord we've cause embarrassment to your name thank you God in all your Holiness and your power we tremble in fear at your word but Lord we also know that your grace is there to forgive us to heal us heal all the people that have been hurt on all the different sides Lord all the people that have been victims all the people that have been defiled all the people that in Lord we just pray for your Holiness to come and cleanse us and heal us and humble us restore us that we can Worship You from this heart of Holiness and humility brokenheartedness that you can restore unto us the joy of our salvation Lord don't take your holy spirit away from us don't cast us away Lord but restore us Lift us up with A Generous Heart Lord restore unto us the joy of our salvation and the Holiness of this season in yeshua's name anden