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Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.69,0:00:12.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(melodious music)\N(computer keys tapping)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.32,0:00:26.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I write my movies, and books,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.52,0:00:28.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and performances, and everything,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.80,0:00:30.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,obviously here at this table,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.72,0:00:33.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but then also sometimes here.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.90,0:00:36.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I put this cushion on my lap.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.67,0:00:40.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, this is over\Nthe course of 19 years,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.71,0:00:44.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I've got all these systems for like,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.49,0:00:46.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making it feel like everything's new.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.29,0:00:48.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I write at this kitchen table,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:49.53,0:00:51.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I just feel like...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.44,0:00:54.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I feel like a woman at her kitchen table,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.57,0:00:56.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, there's a kind of like a
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.30,0:00:59.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,timeless writer, woman writer feeling.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.11,0:01:06.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, I started so young,\NI started when I was 16,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.15,0:01:08.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,writing and directing my first play.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.28,0:01:12.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I can't say it, I can't say it in words
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.39,0:01:14.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and there's no way you can know.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.97,0:01:18.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can't know how I feel\Nunless you can read it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.26,0:01:21.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And that had an audience reaction to it,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.57,0:01:24.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which was quite a high.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.21,0:01:26.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, I knew that the play wasn't perfect
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.88,0:01:29.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and like, the audience was,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.67,0:01:32.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, maybe confused, whatever.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.01,0:01:36.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But just that experience I'd\Nnever had before, of that high,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:36.12,0:01:41.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I kind of lived my life for that.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.32,0:01:47.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you agree to live here with\Nme in this theater forever
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.40,0:01:50.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and form a new society, aye!
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.23,0:01:51.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- [Audience] Aye!
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.01,0:01:56.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- In a certain way, like, okay,\NI will retreat into myself,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.31,0:01:59.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,work really hard to make something,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.55,0:02:04.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sometimes with a lot of misery\Nin my life or in the project,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.22,0:02:07.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I'll come out\Nand I'll present it.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.80,0:02:11.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And because I am also a\Nperformer, that's part of my work,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.40,0:02:13.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that is this kind of\Nbeautiful altered state.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.80,0:02:16.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do it with the reckless\Npart of your heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.23,0:02:19.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, do it like you're drunk,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.26,0:02:22.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause that is the only way\Nthis sort of thing ever happens.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.92,0:02:25.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, it's not by\Nlike, thinking it through
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.26,0:02:27.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and, oh, but what about the dog?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.24,0:02:29.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And, you know...\N(audience laughing)
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.47,0:02:30.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.30,0:02:33.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, it's always with anger, and lust,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.66,0:02:35.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and hope like an anthem, you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.97,0:02:38.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We can have an anthem, we can do that.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.69,0:02:41.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(computer keys tapping)
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.43,0:02:46.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then with the pandemic\NI remember thinking,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.45,0:02:48.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Oh, if that could not happen,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.99,0:02:52.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that you could not have that moment,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.20,0:02:55.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then the rest of my\Nlife has to be better."
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.82,0:02:59.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, just my daily life.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.40,0:03:02.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, it's like living\Nfor heaven, you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.67,0:03:04.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, it's all right if\NI'm miserable in this life
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.92,0:03:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause one day I'll go to heaven.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.00,0:03:08.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, I can't live like that.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.25,0:03:13.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I actually made some\Nhuge changes to my life
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.07,0:03:14.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because of that.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.14,0:03:19.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)\N(birds chirping)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.49,0:03:23.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I write often in\Nthis bed here, you know,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.46,0:03:26.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and this is the bed where I\Nsleep on Wednesday nights.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.19,0:03:28.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.68,0:03:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided I would spend one\Nnight a week in this studio,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.00,0:03:35.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that on Wednesday nights,\NI would sleep here,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.40,0:03:36.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I would wake up here,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.42,0:03:39.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I would spend the day here.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.36,0:03:41.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(computer keys tapping)
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.67,0:03:43.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which doesn't sound like much,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.23,0:03:45.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but keep in mind, like I have a child
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.81,0:03:48.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who at that time was eight,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.44,0:03:52.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a partner who also has a busy life.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.56,0:03:53.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so it seemed like...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:53.76,0:03:56.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I haven't heard of\Nthat, I haven't heard of...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:56.16,0:03:58.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, the other moms aren't\Ndoing that, you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.62,0:04:01.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the other artist moms,\Nfrankly, weren't either.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.83,0:04:04.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So it was one of those\Nthings where it's like,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.43,0:04:06.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this is no big deal.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.66,0:04:09.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, my partner didn't\Nthink it was a big deal.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.27,0:04:11.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My child was like, "Yes!
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.52,0:04:13.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We're gonna have pizza on those nights."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.02,0:04:16.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, you know, they just\Nliked the variation, sort of.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.48,0:04:19.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so I had to be like,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.45,0:04:22.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Well, why does that feel so dangerous?"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.02,0:04:25.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I think it's dangerous\Nbecause if you're gonna do that,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.71,0:04:28.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then what else might you do, you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.88,0:04:31.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, I think what would happen is
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.71,0:04:34.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the pandemic started and\NI'd be on these Zoom calls,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.92,0:04:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I would just throw on\Nsomething for the call, you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.99,0:04:42.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'Cause you could do that so easily.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:42.27,0:04:45.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I'd be like,\N"Well, this was a costume,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.63,0:04:47.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but who is this?"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.31,0:04:52.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just start to like see,\Nyou know, like what...?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.82,0:04:56.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, what is this?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:56.03,0:04:58.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.28,0:05:08.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then once you have\Nthis new perspective
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.91,0:05:11.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on your life and your family,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.85,0:05:13.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how these things interact,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.73,0:05:16.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, it just goes on from there.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.69,0:05:18.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)
Dialogue: 0,0:05:18.57,0:05:21.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Come around. Yes, that's it.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.15,0:05:22.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Come around.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:22.59,0:05:25.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Come forward, forward.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.56,0:05:29.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will not hurt you. I will not hurt you.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.19,0:05:33.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I may hurt you, not very badly.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.33,0:05:36.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No one will be injured today.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.49,0:05:40.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not in this house, not by me.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.41,0:05:45.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I work so hard to keep\Nasking every day, like,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.93,0:05:50.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,no, but, really, like,\Nwhat really is interesting?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.70,0:05:54.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.92,0:06:07.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember being in my twenties and like,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.71,0:06:11.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shaking myself and being like,\N"You're asleep at the wheel."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.16,0:06:14.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, "Remember, you're absolutely free."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.40,0:06:17.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, "What do you want to do today?"
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.44,0:06:20.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(gentle music)
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.87,0:06:23.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And like, "Wake up."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.49,0:06:26.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, "You're here. You're actually here."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.01,0:06:29.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,New as the day is young. As a babe.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.37,0:06:35.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I doubt anyone would\Nbe able to catch that
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.19,0:06:36.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as the running theme in my work,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.81,0:06:40.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but maybe it'd be nice if someone did.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.54,0:06:47.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(melodious music)\N(computer keys tapping)