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Dear Momma. I’m trying to remember you.

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You come to me in parts. Never the whole of[br]you at once. Just parts.

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Like your eyes. I remember your eyes. Those[br]impossibly big, round, sad eyes.

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The first thing I ever was those eyes. I opened[br]mine for the first time and met yours. I could

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see myself reflected back in those eyes. I[br]could see my own eyes, and my face, brand

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new and so small.

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And I could see them. I could see them coming.

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They came and they took me away.

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And that’s when I started forgetting you.

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Momma, I remember your tongue. As big as my[br]head, that tongue. So rough but so gentle.

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I was born slick and wet and you cleaned me[br]with that tongue. Or at least you started

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to. That tongue was the first thing I felt.[br]And it felt like love.

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And then I felt them. I felt their hands grab[br]me. Rough but not gentle. No love in those

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hands.

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I remember your smell, Momma. Warm and earthy.[br]My first breath was of you.

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But there were other smells. Filth and fear.[br]And them. I could smell them. Their scent

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overpowered yours. They took you from me in[br]more ways than one.

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The sound, Momma. I remember the sound of[br]you breathing. That was the first thing I

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heard, that breathing. Deep and steady. Measured[br]but labored.

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It seemed such a task, breathing. A low, rasping[br]hum, in and out. The whole of you expanding

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out and collapsing again. I could listen to[br]you forever.

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But then there was yelling. So loud, that[br]yelling. It hurt to hear it, Momma.

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And then they were there. The Takers. They’d[br]come for me with their loud yelling and their

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strong smells and their rough but not gentle[br]hands.

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They came and they took me, Momma and I started[br]to lose you.

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And now I don’t know where I am. It’s[br]small and dark and I can’t move. There’s

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something around my neck and it hurts. I can[br]hear others around me. They’re hurting too.

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We’re all hurting.[br]The Takers come sometimes with their rough

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not gentle hands and their yelling so loud[br]it hurts to hear. And they take again. They

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take some of us away. I don’t know where[br]they go.

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I’m trying hard not to forget you, Momma.[br]Please know I’m trying.

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My dear child. I’ve lost you. They came[br]and they took you. It’s happened again and

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I can’t stop it.

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I carried you inside me, just like your brothers[br]and sisters before you. I could protect you

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then. I wanted to keep you there forever.

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But then you came. You came and you were beautiful[br]and you were mine. So small and brand new.

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So fragile.

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I cleaned you up for your new world. I tried[br]to keep you close and quiet. But they knew

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you’d come. They always know.

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I wanted to hide you back inside me and keep[br]you safe always, but they came, my child,

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the Takers came for you. They always come.

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My body’s so tired, my child. I couldn’t[br]fight them away. I tried the first time. And

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the next. And the next. And the next. And[br]the next. And on and on and on. And now, my

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child, I have nothing left.

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I’m empty again. And I’ve lost you. Again.[br]And soon they’ll try to fill me back up.

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But I’m so very tired.

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I cried for you, my child. I yelled your name[br]for days. Did you hear me? I wanted you to

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know I was here. I wanted you to find me.[br]But now I have no voice left. And you’re

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not here.

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You must be hungry, my child. I have milk[br]for you but they take it. Every day they take

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it.

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It hurts so bad. The cold, hard suction. I’m[br]swollen and aching. And I’m empty.

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What will I feed you when you come back?

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I have nothing left to give, my child. I’m[br]so sorry.

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They’ve taken everything. My children, my[br]milk, my fight, my life. The darkness is coming,

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my child. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.[br]Please know I tried.

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Momma I’m tired. They’re coming again.[br]They’re coming and this time it’s for

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me.

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I see them, Momma, with their small cold eyes.[br]They’re coming.

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They take me again with their rough not gentle[br]hands. And I think of your warm tongue.

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I’m upside down, Momma. We all are. I smell[br]blood and fear. Something’s wrong.

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I’m moving, Momma. There are Takers all[br]around us. And the noise. It’s so loud.

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I can’t even hear my own scream.

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Can you hear me? They’re coming for me,[br]Momma.

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The Taker has something shiny. And there’s[br]blood. So much blood. I’m getting closer.

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And I can see myself, Momma, in the shine.[br]My own face, still so small and brand new.

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And I think of your impossibly big, sad eyes,[br]the first thing I ever saw.

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And then, Momma, and then…darkness.

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