Feride! Feridee! Feride come down! Feride! Feride come down! Feride! Feride come down! You ganna fall! Feride come down! Feride! Come down! Come down Feride! You'll fall! Feride! Come down! Feride come down, you gonna fall! But I have some errands to run ma seur. You get to sleep I think. Believe me I'm come down in a couple of shakes I promise, please. She have some errands to run, on the treetop at this time of the night. What are you in there Feride? İmmediately come down Feride! You may go and get sleep. leave me alone. Feride! Off you go, she're not coming because of you. I'm telling you go along. I'm not come down! Feride! Call the guard, put the ladder! Feride! Mother! Feridee! No no, this is not a kid, in fact she's a Calıkusu This diary of a school girl that... ...incomplete on time. It's a homework to remember, reason, anger I was only 11 or 12 years in those days Our French Teacher give a mission for us. She says ''Try to write first memories in your life. Especially, it's about your mam, dad, sister and brother. It'd be a good practice for you. What would I write? I checked my memory. My most real memory about my mother consist of apricot and halva. Those days, We were in Beyrut because of my dad due to was a cavalry major. Feride enough, you ganna have stomachache. Ok. This is the last one. I've a job tonight, I think you shouldn't wait for me for dinner. I'll come to you in the morning. He's a shot in the arm. It's getting cold at night, don't get cold, ok? . . . You know what if you plant them instead of threw, you'd have a huge tree that have hundreds of apricot. Why do? Ok. Throw them honey. Well, Come on and hold it. Take it, ok, stuff it now. Hah! That's the water called a lifeblood honey. I can't feel hungry mama. Look at the time, come and sit down honey, What happened your clothes? I see nothing mam. Go and change your clothes, wash your face and hands, then come and sit for dinner. I won't eat anyway. Feride! I don't wanna eat, my stomach heart. I won't eat. Of course you have eaten lots of apricot. . . Mom, why have your candle run out? Mom? Mom? I won't eat it, Ok? My stomach hurts very bad. I can do it like you. The one shuting the eyes first lose. Dealed? Mom! I have broken the vase my father bought for you. Are you angry with me? . Look mam, I'm a dancer boy. . . . . Mam I'm afraid. Dad, whay happened my mam? . My father decided o bring the funurel directly in İstanbul to the mention of aunt Besime. . But some fathers have different ways to tell her mams that to their daughters. My father found very special way. I want to water my mother. Please! Stop it! Stop Feride! Stop! If my father was able to explain that was terrible mistake I wouldn't have tried to fill I thought we plant it mother. So, every mothers in the world tell me daugher. Will mam grow quickly? It will be very funny when she becames like me. We play together I tell stories to my mam. When she becames like me, will I call her mam? Feride, my honey, It's not like you suppose thing. But how? I don't know how can I tell you. My dear daughter.. Your mam... Nizamettin Efendi, It's time for pray. I'm coming. . . No one came back from the dead. The rest will ruin with their sarow. She is a little girl. She has been without mother at her age. My poor little Feride Really, how will live among these soldiers? She will be a young girl, grow, be woman. Besime says she won't abandon Feride. Besime says Güzide entrusted her to Feride. Aunt is already half-mother. What does mean half-mother? My honey, you are here? Come. . Can I eat it? Do you like halva? It is my best. Come, come, come. Wait. Now, take it honey. It's too hot! I will give you when it will be cold. Go to aunt Besime. We will bring it to you, Ok? Ok. Come on, run. Listen to me, Besime Hanım wants Feride stays here, what about Nizamettin Bey? If he's smart enough, he accepts. So, the mansion is Feride's no longer. It is true. True. . I brought you fondant. Why? Because you are sad. Me? What? Brother, don't ever touch her ! Her mother died. She will infect us Her mother died. It's that simple and stronge. Necmiye and Kamuran could do that my great cavalry father couldn't. I have learned what death means. . After that day, I remember I wore mom's death as infectious disease during a long time. Whoever I touch, as if their mother die. It's absurd. If you eat it, it will infect you. I was a girl who yearns for mom's halva. I forgot my mom's face when she went. I remember I fell asleep looking her sallow until morning. Who does delete those memories from inside of our mind? From our eyes, who? Brother, are you leaving tomorrow? I have to be in Kerbela before ending of this week. Me? Nizamettin Bey, you allow to stay Feride, my sister's trust, in here. I always take care her. Dad! Mom! Brother, actually you know best, but she is a little girl. But what to do thıs girl with so many soldiers? And you migrate so often from there to here. If you want you can come with us. You and Mujgan will be like sisters.It will be nice for you. My sweet girl. She'll visit you in summer holiday. Thanks. But, I think of sending her to boarding school. What? School? God sake she's a girl? She doesn't burden, also she'll be educated well. She'll spend holidays here, in this mansion, Ok? As you wish Nizamettin Bey. But, of course, Feride is like our child. To send a girl to school, is it proper? What'll people say? Her father will make the final decision. Her father knows the best for her. Dad, Will I see my mom again? You'll see. You're lying. She is dead. You're not telling me! There is no such thing like death. It's not real. The dead are die If alive people forget them. So, you'll keep your mom your heart. But I forgot my mom's face. Then look at the stars. Surely you'll see her. Which one? Let's look under the hood. Look dad! My mom is flying. Look. Can you see there? Yes! Well done. You'll not go while I'm sleeping, right? No my honey.We'll go to school early in the morning. So, sleep sweetly. we'll get up early. Ok. Ok? I'm in downstairs. I'll hold the door open. Ok? Have a nice sleep. Are you busy? Come brother, come. Sit. You said I'll go tomorrow, this is part of When father in law is died, Man alive! You can't placate through him (kızgınlığını gidermek) Both of you were obstinate, and still obstinate He put somebody through hell (çok çktrmk) Why? He could'nt her daughter to soldier. How could I get her? I got her but lost early. Amen. Surely, the late would want to the same You have to think your daughter's future. I'm her dad. I'm thinking of course. I couldn't tell my goodwill brother. You're taking it as a matter of pride. Look. You have money. If you want you can retire and make a good life for you and your daughter. Maybe one day you will marriage again neither I don't touch that money nor I say my wife to another woman than Güzide. Look brother. Your daugher lose her mom when she's need If you go also... So I'm giving her to school! She'll hasn't time to think us. Also Feride is not girl like You can see her status. She's like a boy. That's true brother. She's really rude girl than Kamuran. whatever turns you on Feride? Honey? Feride? honey? Come. Feride Okay okay. It's not important. Let's talk honey. LEts To say '' Hi'' to teacher. Sorry. She is friendly kid in reality If you want, we can record her Come honey. Iwanna stay here. Why you are so grumpy? What? Could we make it little easy? I'm like you FEride. Come on, don't make me sad. Can she stay here? Of course. She can see school while we make the enrolment. Madam Beatrice... Stay here. What is written, here? Our Dad who is in the sky. My mom is in the sky, too. Do you want to eat? For my sake. I'm sure, you will be a succesfull student. Feride, honey, I'm going. But I'll come to you often. Promise? Feride? Welcome. Thank you? How are you? I pray for your health. Thank you, my dear. Kamuran and Necmiye wait for you. They have missed this week If you know what Dilber kalfa cooked for you.