[Script Info] Title: [Events] Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.51,0:00:03.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[ Music ] Dialogue: 0,0:00:04.05,0:00:09.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> So, it was a month before my nineteenth\Nbirthday and it was just your typical, Dialogue: 0,0:00:09.71,0:00:14.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,run of the mill, getting drugged, dragged\Nback to the fraternity house date rape. Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.31,0:00:22.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The next thing I knew, I woke up and I was in\Nhis bed with no clothes on and he got on top Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.12,0:00:28.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of me and rapped me and I started to say\Nno and then he put over to silence me. Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.34,0:00:32.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I was sexually assaulted by a stranger\Nwhile I was walking alone in my neighborhood. Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.84,0:00:35.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I was assaulted and robbed at\Ngunpoint in my own neighborhood. Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.97,0:00:39.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I was in an abusive relationship\Nfor two years. Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.33,0:00:44.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It started out with verbal\Nassault and escalated to physical. Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.85,0:00:50.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He would take a knife and cuts the parts\Nof my body that he thought were too fat. Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.14,0:00:55.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I was sexually assaulted in high\Nschool by an older woman that I knew. Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.05,0:01:01.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She had her friends hold me down by my\Nshoulders while she like peeled off my clothing Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.13,0:01:05.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and basically groped me wherever\Nshe felt like it. Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.54,0:01:08.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I was assaulted right\Noutside the door to my home. Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.05,0:01:11.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Growing up as an athlete and\Na physically strong woman, Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.10,0:01:15.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I thought that I might be physically\Nprepared for a situation like this, Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.80,0:01:20.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,should it ever happen, but by\NGod, I was not mentally prepared Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.39,0:01:22.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for a weapon being put in my face. Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.30,0:01:24.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> How do you build up your\Nfeeling of self-worth? Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.87,0:01:26.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it's been stripped from you in an instant. Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.88,0:01:30.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I didn't want to talk about it too much,\Nbut it was a big thing happening in my life Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.67,0:01:33.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and some people just didn't even\Nwant to be associated with me. Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.61,0:01:37.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Being treated like you're just\Nnothing really messes with you. Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.98,0:01:40.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It makes you think about things\Nin different perspective. Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.55,0:01:46.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> When this happened to me and I decided to\Nopen up to others about it, I was so surprised Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.39,0:01:50.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at how many of my friends and family\Nmembers had experienced assault Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.50,0:01:52.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but had never talked to anybody about it. Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.70,0:01:55.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> For a long time, I was just afraid of people. Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.79,0:02:00.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I think it's necessary to speak about\Nthese experiences, just to create awareness Dialogue: 0,0:02:00.36,0:02:04.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because there are so many people like\Nyou who have experienced the same thing. Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.68,0:02:08.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> Sexual assault attacks\Nyour body in one instance. Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.52,0:02:14.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It really also attacks your feelings of\Nself-worth and that's a lasting repercussion Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.12,0:02:17.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that needs to be taken more seriously. Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.75,0:02:23.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I think because I'm a male survivor, a\Nlot of people invalidated my experience, Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.24,0:02:27.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as if like what happened\Nto me didn't really happen. Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.52,0:02:32.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, I think for a long time, it was\Nhard like for even me to believe Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.47,0:02:34.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that what happened to me actually happened. Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.69,0:02:38.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is so important to not\Nsuppress what you've been through. Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.36,0:02:45.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you don't process it, then you're basically\Ngiving your assault permission to run your life. Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.61,0:02:53.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> Everyone's first reaction is to ask why\Nyou stayed and it's because I felt so ashamed Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.62,0:02:57.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and isolated and embarrassed because\Nno body likes to talk about it Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.42,0:03:00.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and if you bring it up, it\Nmakes people uncomfortable. Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.55,0:03:04.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It took me about a year to be\Nable to look in the mirror again. Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.18,0:03:07.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There are more of us out there than you think. Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.66,0:03:09.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, open up and reach out. Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.68,0:03:13.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor,\Nnot a victim, a survivor. Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.36,0:03:15.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor, but I'm not a woman. Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.64,0:03:18.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor, but\NI'm not going to let the actions Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.66,0:03:20.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of someone else dictate the rest of my life. Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.07,0:03:22.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> But I am not any less of a man. Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.01,0:03:25.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> But that doesn't mean\NI am a weak little girl. Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.17,0:03:26.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> But I am not afraid. Dialogue: 0,0:03:26.48,0:03:29.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor and I'm so much more. Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.18,0:03:32.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor\Nand I'm married with two kids. Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.62,0:03:36.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,>> I'm an assault survivor\Nand it wasn't my fault. Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.61,0:03:40.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was not my fault. Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.52,0:03:53.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[ Music ]