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Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.20,0:00:15.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Hello, my name is Cecilia McGough.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.08,0:00:18.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm an astronomy and astrophysics major\Nhere at Penn State,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.80,0:00:20.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the founder and president
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.62,0:00:24.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the Penn State \NPulsar Search Collaboratory.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.08,0:00:28.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In high school, I was lucky enough\Nto have co-discovered a pulsar
Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.31,0:00:30.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through the Pulsar Search Collaboratory.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.39,0:00:32.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A pulsar is a super dense neutron star
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.61,0:00:35.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that emits dipole\Nelectromagnetic radiation.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.88,0:00:38.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Basically, think of a star\Nmuch, much larger than our sun,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.88,0:00:42.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,blowing away its outer layers, \Nleaving behind a dense core -
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.98,0:00:45.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that core could be our pulsar.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.14,0:00:49.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This discovery opened some doors for me,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:49.30,0:00:51.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such as helping represent\Nthe United States
Dialogue: 0,0:00:51.46,0:00:54.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the International\NSpace Olympics in Russia.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.33,0:01:00.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And also, being a Virginia aerospace\Nscience and technology scholar.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.56,0:01:02.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know what you must be thinking:
Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.40,0:01:03.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What a nerd!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.65,0:01:05.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Nerd alert!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.23,0:01:09.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, for the longest time, \Nthis nerd had a secret.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.87,0:01:14.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A secret that I was too scared\Nand too embarrassed to tell anyone.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.64,0:01:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That secret is that I have schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.81,0:01:20.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But what is schizophrenia?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.51,0:01:26.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's important to think of schizophrenia\Nas an umbrella-like diagnosis.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.53,0:01:32.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,NAMI shows these different symptoms\Nas a way you could diagnose schizophrenia,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.04,0:01:37.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such as delusions and hallucinations\Nbeing the hallmark characteristics.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.69,0:01:43.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it is very important to know\Nthat a person could have schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.06,0:01:46.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and not have delusions\Nand not hallucinate.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.10,0:01:51.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Each person's story with schizophrenia\Nis unique to their own.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.72,0:01:55.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Today I'm going to be talking\Nabout my story with schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.12,0:02:00.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It has been thought \Nthat I've had schizophrenia all my life.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:00.57,0:02:04.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it became very prevalent \Nin my junior year of high school,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.64,0:02:07.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then it just snowballed into college.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.29,0:02:13.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,February of 2014, \Nmy freshman year of college,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.21,0:02:15.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my life changed
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.35,0:02:18.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I tried to take my own life\Nthrough suicide.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.56,0:02:20.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Why?" you ask.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.97,0:02:23.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because my life had become\Na waking nightmare.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.38,0:02:30.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The following images have been edited\Nusing Microsoft's artistic effects
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.08,0:02:32.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because they are just\Ntoo triggering for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.96,0:02:40.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At this time, I had started hallucinating.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.94,0:02:46.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I started seeing, hearing and feeling\Nthings that weren't there.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.77,0:02:50.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everywhere that I went, \NI was followed around by a clown
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.75,0:02:55.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that looked very similar\Nto the Stephen King's adaptation of "It".
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.86,0:02:57.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everywhere that I went,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.09,0:03:00.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he would be giggling,\Ntaunting me, poking me,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.34,0:03:02.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and sometimes even biting me.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.62,0:03:05.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would also hallucinate spiders,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.70,0:03:06.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sometimes little spiders.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.95,0:03:10.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And these are actually\Nthe most obtrusive sometimes
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.32,0:03:12.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because we see\Nlittle spiders in real life.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.75,0:03:16.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, sometimes this is the only time\NI ever have difficulty
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.40,0:03:19.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,discerning whether it is \Na hallucination or real life.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.06,0:03:24.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm very good at knowing \Nwhen I'm hallucinating
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.13,0:03:27.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know that it is \Na chemical imbalance inside my head.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.46,0:03:30.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't even give \Nthese hallucinations names.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.46,0:03:34.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I also hallucinate giant spiders though.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.59,0:03:38.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One spider, in particular, comes to mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.73,0:03:44.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was rather large, leathery skin, \Nblack legs and yellow body.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.39,0:03:50.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No voice ever came out of its mouth.\NHowever, when it moved its legs,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.13,0:03:53.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the creaking of the legs sounded like\Nyoung children laughing.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.26,0:03:56.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was very disturbing.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.29,0:04:02.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it started becoming unbearable\Nwhen I started hallucinating this girl.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.57,0:04:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She looked sort of like \Nin the movie "The Ring".
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.66,0:04:11.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The thing with her was she was able\Nto continue conversations with herself,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.52,0:04:15.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and would know exactly \Nwhat to say and when to say it
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.09,0:04:18.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to chip away at my insecurities.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.72,0:04:22.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the worst was, she would also\Ncarry a knife around with her
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.44,0:04:25.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she would stab me, \Nsometimes in the face.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.58,0:04:31.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This made taking tests, quizzes,\Nand doing homework in general
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.29,0:04:35.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,extremely difficult to impossible \Nwhen I was in college.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.13,0:04:39.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sometimes I wouldn't even be able \Nto see the paper in front of my face
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.55,0:04:42.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I was hallucinating too much.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.94,0:04:48.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't usually speak so openly \Nabout my hallucinations,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.99,0:04:54.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because people usually look at me in fear\Nafter I tell them what I see.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.42,0:04:58.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the thing is, I'm not much different\Nthan the rest of you.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.81,0:05:03.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We all see, hear, and feel things\Nwhen we are dreaming.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.19,0:05:08.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm just someone who cannot turn off \Nmy nightmares, even when I'm awake.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.18,0:05:17.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been hallucinating now obtrusively\Nfor about over four years.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.62,0:05:18.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, I have gotten very good
Dialogue: 0,0:05:18.94,0:05:22.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at just pretending \NI'm not seeing what I'm seeing,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:22.48,0:05:24.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or ignoring them.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.39,0:05:30.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I have triggers, such as seeing\Nthe color red is very triggering for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.82,0:05:32.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know if you guys \Nnoticed this or not,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.97,0:05:36.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but they changed the carpet that I'm on.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.12,0:05:38.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They changed it\Nto a black carpet instead of red.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.63,0:05:43.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I sort of laugh at my life a bit\Nlike a dark comedy, because, of course,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.21,0:05:47.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the only color combination \Nthat I have issues with is red and white.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.22,0:05:49.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What are TED's colors?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.24,0:05:50.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.48,0:05:51.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Really people!
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.97,0:05:54.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But, I have issues with those colors
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.73,0:05:58.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because those are the colors\Nthat the clown has:
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.14,0:06:00.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,red hair and white skin.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:00.70,0:06:05.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And how I'm able to ignore him\Nis I just don't look at him,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.38,0:06:06.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I'm able to know
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.38,0:06:09.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where that hallucination is\Nin my peripheral vision,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.74,0:06:13.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because of the bright colors\Nof red and white.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.02,0:06:17.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you would never know \Nthat I'm hallucinating.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.33,0:06:20.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The clown is actually\Nin the audience today
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.05,0:06:21.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you would never know.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.53,0:06:25.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,On a lighter note, \Nwho is looking forward to the Oscars?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.31,0:06:27.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Hands up!
Dialogue: 0,0:06:28.67,0:06:30.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I knew you guys would be interested!
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.82,0:06:37.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, if there were nominations for people\Njust acting "normal" in everyday life,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.14,0:06:42.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people who have schizophrenia\Nwould definitely be nominated as well.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.82,0:06:46.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I first became open \Nabout having schizophrenia,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:46.29,0:06:49.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it was a shock to even \Nthe people closest to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:54.07,0:06:57.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It took me eight months,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.60,0:07:00.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,eight months after my suicide attempt
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.65,0:07:04.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to finally get the treatment\Nthat I needed.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.08,0:07:08.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't even have \Nthe diagnosis of schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.72,0:07:10.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And because of that,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.37,0:07:14.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what kept me from getting help\Nwere conversations like these.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.71,0:07:17.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember very distinctively\Nwithin that time
Dialogue: 0,0:07:17.54,0:07:19.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on the phone with my mother.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:19.68,0:07:21.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would tell my mum,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.06,0:07:23.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Mom I'm sick,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.20,0:07:25.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm seeing things that aren't there,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:25.45,0:07:29.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I need medicine, \NI need to talk to a doctor."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.79,0:07:31.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Her response?\N
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.04,0:07:32.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"No, no, no, no.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:32.87,0:07:34.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can't tell anyone about this.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.52,0:07:36.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This can't be on our medical history.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:36.30,0:07:38.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Think of your sisters,\Nthink of your sisters' futures.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.98,0:07:41.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People are going to think \Nthat you're crazy,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.35,0:07:45.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they are going to think you're dangerous\Nand you won't be able to get a job."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:46.70,0:07:48.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What I say to that now
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.40,0:07:53.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is "Don't let anyone convince you\Nnot to get medical help.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.07,0:07:55.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not worth it!
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.91,0:08:00.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is your choice\Nand it is also your right."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:01.77,0:08:06.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Getting medical help was the best decision\Nthat I have ever made.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.74,0:08:09.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I am confident\Nthat I would not be here today
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.92,0:08:12.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I didn't get the proper medical help.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.50,0:08:18.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This led into my first hospitalization.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.45,0:08:24.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had been in the psych ward four times\Nwithin the past two years.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.41,0:08:29.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I still was not open \Nabout having schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.72,0:08:34.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until my second hospitalization, \Nbecause the police were involved.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.21,0:08:41.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One evening I realized I needed \Nto check myself back into hospital,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:41.80,0:08:44.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I needed some changes\Nin my medication.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.11,0:08:49.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I admitted myself \Ninto the emergency room.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.13,0:08:50.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I talked to the doctors, they said,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:50.89,0:08:54.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"OK, let's fix the meds,\Nyou can stay here overnight."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.65,0:08:56.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was all good.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:57.29,0:09:01.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After the brief one-night hospital stay,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.97,0:09:05.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I came back to my dorm room\Nhere at Penn State,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.82,0:09:08.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to very concerned roommates,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.87,0:09:10.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which I understand\Nwhy they were concerned -
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.94,0:09:14.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I was in their shoes, \NI would have been concerned as well -
Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.05,0:09:18.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but also the RA and a CANHELP person.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.85,0:09:25.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We all talked and we decided\Nthat I needed another psych ward stay.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.05,0:09:30.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was OK on going,\NI wasn't at all refusing,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:30.22,0:09:32.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was willing to go.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:32.94,0:09:36.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But what happened next was inexcusable.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:36.74,0:09:39.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They brought police officers\Ninto my dorm room,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:40.17,0:09:43.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in front of my roommates,\Nthey padded me down
Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.63,0:09:47.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I had to convince them \Nnot to put handcuffs on me.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:48.09,0:09:52.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They then brought me,\Nescorted me into a police car
Dialogue: 0,0:09:52.30,0:09:53.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was parked on the road
Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.90,0:09:58.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,next to one of our dining\Ncommons: Redifer,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.73,0:10:02.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where friends were passing by\Nand seeing me put into a police car.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.80,0:10:08.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By that time, when I came back,\Nthe cat was out of the bag.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:08.97,0:10:13.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People knew something was up,\Nso I had to set the story straight.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:13.86,0:10:17.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I opened up about my schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:10:17.39,0:10:18.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through a blog,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.72,0:10:22.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I posted\Nall my blog posts on Facebook.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.12,0:10:25.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was amazed by how much support\Nthere was out there.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:26.11,0:10:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I also realized
Dialogue: 0,0:10:27.80,0:10:31.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that there are so many\Nother people just like me.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:31.10,0:10:32.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was actually amazed!
Dialogue: 0,0:10:32.53,0:10:38.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A few of my friends opened up to me\Nthat they had schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:39.70,0:10:44.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now I am dedicated to being \Na mental health advocate.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:44.92,0:10:49.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not going to wallow\Nin self-pity about my diagnosis.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:49.39,0:10:52.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Instead, I want to use it\Nas a common denominator,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:52.81,0:10:56.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I can help other people \Nwho have schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:56.69,0:11:03.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I'm not going to rest until anyone\Nwho has schizophrenia worldwide
Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.33,0:11:05.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is not afraid to say the words:
Dialogue: 0,0:11:05.91,0:11:08.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I have schizophrenia."
Dialogue: 0,0:11:09.04,0:11:12.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because it's OK to have schizophrenia,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.44,0:11:13.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it really is.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:14.99,0:11:21.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because 1.1% of the world's population\Nover the age of 18
Dialogue: 0,0:11:21.17,0:11:23.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,has some sort of schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:23.78,0:11:28.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That is 51 million people worldwide
Dialogue: 0,0:11:28.19,0:11:33.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and 2.4 million people\Nin the United States alone.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.49,0:11:37.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But there's a problem.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.08,0:11:41.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because one out of ten people\Nwho have schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.93,0:11:44.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,take their own life through suicide.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.12,0:11:50.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Another four out of ten\Nattempt suicide at least once.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.15,0:11:52.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I fall into that statistic.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:53.85,0:11:58.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You would think that there would\Nalready be a nonprofit
Dialogue: 0,0:11:58.06,0:12:03.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,focused on empowering college students\Nwho have schizophrenia,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.25,0:12:08.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,especially since the peak age to have\Na schizophrenic break is early adulthood -
Dialogue: 0,0:12:08.83,0:12:12.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the same age range\Nas a typical college student.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:13.21,0:12:14.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But there isn't.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:14.39,0:12:17.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There is no nonprofit\Nin the entire United States
Dialogue: 0,0:12:17.99,0:12:19.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,focused on that.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:19.70,0:12:23.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And a general nonprofit\Nfocused on mental health in general
Dialogue: 0,0:12:23.24,0:12:24.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is not enough.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.56,0:12:27.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because even in the mental\Nhealth community,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:27.34,0:12:29.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,schizophrenia is shied away from,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:30.37,0:12:33.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it makes people \Nfeel "uncomfortable".
Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.88,0:12:39.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That is why I have decided
Dialogue: 0,0:12:39.24,0:12:43.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to found the nonprofit\N"Students With Schizophrenia",
Dialogue: 0,0:12:43.28,0:12:48.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where we will empower college students\Nand get them the resources that they need,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:48.52,0:12:51.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so they can stay in college\Nand be successful.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:51.32,0:12:55.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because you could be successful\Nand also have schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:55.34,0:12:58.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We need to change the face\Nof schizophrenia,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:58.05,0:13:02.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because the representation \Ncurrently is inaccurate.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:03.14,0:13:07.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Don't let anyone tell you\Nthat you can't have a mental illness
Dialogue: 0,0:13:07.74,0:13:10.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and also not be mentally strong.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:10.76,0:13:14.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You are strong, you are brave, \Nyou are a warrior.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:16.10,0:13:20.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Unfortunately, this nonprofit \Nis too late for some.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:21.78,0:13:24.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Since I've become open \Nabout having schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:13:24.80,0:13:27.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am asked to come\Ninto different classrooms
Dialogue: 0,0:13:27.24,0:13:28.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,here at Penn State,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:28.60,0:13:32.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and talk to the class about my experience\Nhaving schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:33.38,0:13:36.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One class stands out in particular.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:37.51,0:13:40.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Earlier in the semester\None of the students
Dialogue: 0,0:13:40.36,0:13:43.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,opened up to the class\Nthat she had schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:43.82,0:13:46.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I commend her for her bravery.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:46.50,0:13:52.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,However, by the time that I came\Nand talked to that class,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:52.43,0:13:55.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she had taken her own life\Nthrough suicide.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:56.75,0:13:58.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We were too late for her.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.79,0:14:00.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was too late for her.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:02.84,0:14:07.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Here at Penn State, we have to make\Nan example to the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:07.09,0:14:09.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because this is not just happening\Nhere at Penn State,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.62,0:14:11.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's happening globally.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:11.100,0:14:14.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But here at Penn State, we have to show
Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.46,0:14:17.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that we are here for our students,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:17.54,0:14:20.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we are talking about mental health,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.34,0:14:24.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we are not afraid\Nto talk about schizophrenia.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:26.66,0:14:29.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My name is Cecilia McGough,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:29.55,0:14:31.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have schizophrenia
Dialogue: 0,0:14:32.13,0:14:34.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I am not a monster.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:35.24,0:14:36.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:36.60,0:14:37.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:14:37.94,0:14:39.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheering)