Is this what you want? he asked And I said yes So he took his skin off for me It happened just before dinner I'd bought a fresh cut of lamb for a recipe I wanted to try He always liked it when I cooked. I could see everything he was beautiful Some things were no different lovemaking, for example, was the same just two people showing each other what they really look like of course, some things were new The sheets needed to be washed each day they took in the smells of his open body and released them long after he had gone to work I had to clean the house more often A few hours a day if I could It was the least I could do At night he got cold so easily I'd say to him, at least it's not winter And we would smile But we both knew it was coming I tried to be understanding, but I was boiling. And gas isn't cheap He said he wasn't having luck with clients I said they were the wrong clients the right clients won't care, I said the right clients will understand he said we'd run out of money if we only waited for the right ones I said he'd figure it out some of his old friends came by they asked him about his skin just normal questions you would ask do you miss it? does it hurt? he'd answer yes or no simple answers it was unlike him he loved words loved to use many when a few was enough but either he had less to say now or he felt he was already saying it