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Is this what you want?

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he asked.

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and I said yes.

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so he took his skin off for me

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It happened just before dinner

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I'd bought a fresh cut of lamb for a recipe I wanted to try

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he always liked it when I cooked

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I could see everything

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he was beautiful

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some things were no different

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lovemaking, for example, was the same

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just two people showing each other what they really look like...

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but of course, some things were new

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the sheets needed to be washed each day

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they took in the smells of his open body and released them long after he'd gone to work

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I had to clean the house more often too

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a few hours a day if I could

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it was the least I could do

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at night he'd get cold so easily

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I'd say to him, 'at least it's not winter yet'

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and we'd smile...

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but we both knew it was coming

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I tried to be understanding, but me? I was boiling

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and gas didn't come cheap

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he said he wasn't having much luck with clients

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I told him they were the wrong clients

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the right clients won't care, I said

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the right clients will understand

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he said we'd run out of money if we waited for the right ones

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I said he'd figure it out

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some of his old friends came by

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they asked him about his skin

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just the normal questions you would ask

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do you miss it?

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does it hurt?

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he'd answer yes, or he'd answer no.

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simple answers

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it was unlike him

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he loved words

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loved to use many when a few would suffice

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but either he had less to say now

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or he felt he was already saying it