there is suffering and I was waiting like 297 pounds and I had to make a
change in my life you know I was at all-time low and I wasn't going anywhere
and I was exactly what everybody said I was going to be which was nothing so I
had to make a change
you're scared kid and the only way I could find myself was to put myself
through the worst thing possible I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what
the world today's world is saying in the end like what would your advice be to
that 16 year old kid of staring in the mirror does not like what he sees but is
still running from adversity well my biggest advice to him is that first of
all he won't like what I say to him and I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what
the world today's world is saying so we read a bunch of books nowadays as humans
we we want to find out how to be someone else what we don't do we don't go inside
so literally turn yourself inside out read the book that says like we're
writing a book every day of our lives but we never read that book so what I
would challenge this young man or young woman to do is you have to look inside
of yourself and see what you really want what are you passionate about we use
these words and these little phrases of only the strong survive and also the
crap they're all just fucking words I get so tired of hearing people just
talking that right now someone may think Gaga is just talking you don't know me
so when I speak I speak from Pasha I speak from experience I speak from
suffering I want to tell this young man and woman that the only way I believe
this is just my experience in life the only way you're ever going to get to the
other side of this journey is you have got to suffer to grow to grow you must
suffer and some people get it so they won't
so long story short what I realized was no one was here to help me in the
feeling I had every morning I started saving my hair now 16 years old and the
feeling I had every morning I looked in the mirror was horrible and I don't
wanna feel like that anymore and how I felt was a kid going nowhere a kid that
was scared and most kids will accept that and look for help but the best
thing that happened to me no one helped me no one felt sorry for me no one
looked at me and said like this day and age they'll they'll take you in and
it'll tell you bye stop picking on this person back then any care we're all we
are all great no matter if if you think you're dumb and maybe think you're fat
no matter you are fat or have you been bullied or no matter if you got back
from Iraq or Afghanistan and you have no legs or your arms or whatever man we all
have greatness it just you got to find the courage you got to find the courage
to put your Bose headphones on and silence the noise out of this world and
to find it and the funding comes out there but it's going to take hard work
courage self-discipline it's going to take all the non-cognitive skills all
the non-cognitive skills to be great you know smart is good all the stuff is good
that's all cognitive it's the non-cognitive skills that sets you apart
from everybody else and and that's what it's all about
I I lied for people to accept me because I did accept myself so I would make up
stories so that you would accept me into your world I would uh everything I did
was for someone else to like me it was until I started reading my own book
about how pathetic I was as human being I could blame my dad I can blame kids at
school I could blame having health issues ATD my mom not being around great
mom but she was doing her thing I could blame a lot of people and that's the
book I was reading and I put it off on everybody else they wouldn't try so you
know what for me to fix this I get a read what the hell what the fuck is
wrong with David God wasn't going to be a punk kid all my life so in a way I
could turn around was to suffer I had to build calluses in my brain the
same way I built calluses on my hands so I brought the Guinness Book of World
Records for pulse a long time ago but I felt at it twice and I did 67,000
pull-ups and trying to break this record so to do four thousand thirty pull-ups I
had to do 67 thousand for training for that Wow
and so what I realized is for me to become the man I want to become I saw
myself as the weakest person God ever created
but I've never blamed God for anything he did to me so I wanted to change that
to be the hardest man ever created in my that I don't know but he had to have a
goal and my goal when I was sitting there not going to school being bullied
being at having no self-esteem my goal was the only person that's gonna turn
this person around it's me you know like Anna turned around has put
myself through the worst things possible a human being can ever endure and I'd be
the only way that I can build this brain to handle anything that comes in front
of it callus in my mind do pain and suffering
but they have to see what their journey is to start their journey several people
live to be a hundred years old and they have great lives and they have great
kids the kids go to college and all sort of stuff but somewhere in their life
there was a point where they had the decision to make they can go left or
right on this path left was the easy route right was a hard route a lot of
people take the easy route and they had a good life that way but the better life
was going to the right side a human being is not so human anymore we have
the ability to go in such a space if you're willing to suffer and I mean
suffer your brain and your body once connected together can do anything
motivation comes and goes when you're driven whatever's in front of you will
get destroyed and you may have twenty years of pain and suffering to get past
it but a lot of us die never truly starting our journey and I would tell
this young person you got to start your journey it may suck but it will it will
come out the other side where you're coasting
they stopped listening to people who are calling you fat gay transsexual nigger
everything that is makes no sense all these insecure people putting their
insecurities on you you gotta flush it out you got to just be whoever the hell
God or whatever the hell you believe in if you believe in nothing but yourself I
don't care what it is you're gonna take everything and throw it away you have to
believe in one thing and that is yourself
my biggest advice to give everybody in the world is like I say we live in an
external world everything is is you got to see it touch its external if you can
for the rest of your life live inside of yourself
and people may listen to this and say this guy is sadistic he's crazy
no if you know how I came up you realized I was just a scared kid
that found Drive and passion to be something much better than what he
thought about that's all it is
even the hardest men in times of suffering what we do was we forget how
far we really are that's what suffering is suffering is a
test it's all of its suffering is a true test of life
self-talk can visualization with two keys
the very bestest did I leave everything inside of me out there so attacking is
not like all what a wind there's a wind matter be the best the best is I'm
learning to get himself in everything I'm here that's that's my attack I
attacked myself I'm always questioning myself
so the things that we run from we run it from the truth we're running from the
truth man so the only way I became successful was going towards the truth
as painful and as brutal as it is it changed me it allowed me to become in my
own right Who am today
when you look in the mirror that's the one person you can't lie to so every
morning I would shave my head thank God I reflect back on some of the lies I may
have told somebody or some of the ways I acted I ain't feel comfortable doing and
I did it to impress other normal people the key word there is normal everyday
people I was trying to make other people like me how pathetic is that
your skin become more of a human being don't be afraid of the reflection in the
mirror because that's all you can be afraid of once you overcome the
reflection in the mirror you've done it
but if you can get through to doing things that you hate to do on the other
side is greatness that's what people are saying by me running I am callous in my
mind I'm not training for a race I'm training for life I'm training for the
time and I get that two o'clock in the morning call that my mom is dead or
something happens tragic in life I don't fall apart I'm training my mind and my
body my spirit shows all one so I can handle what Michaels gonna throw at me
because the life I've lived it those are old blunt actions and if you're not
physically immensely prepared for that you're just gonna crumble
good for nobody
but the mentality of a warrior is very different you know mentality you must be
that person on that door Oh get ready to open it thinking to yourself if I die so
be the only way you can go in that door there's no there's a great chance you're
gonna die open your motherfucking going home
because they're gonna remember you by slowly opening and peeking in so if
you're gonna open it and you made them on to open it don't crack it open open
the fucking door go in that's with life if you choose to do if you're choosing
to do something attack it because they're gonna remember you as not
attacking it so I want to be remembered you can hate me but one thing you can't
say about me I didn't attack it so that's them attire you have if you're
gonna do something you might as well attack it hopefully I can help people
that believe that they're much less than what they truly are help them find
greatness in themselves and greatness isn't running towards it miles at a time
or doing 4,000 flips to being a seal greatness is whatever the hell you
dreamed of in your own mind you got to first see it you got first create this
vision in your mind and then that's when I come into play once you create this
vision in your mind it's how am I gonna get there and that's we're not coming to
play but first you got to create your own vision and it's not externally it's
the the busines created is inside of you so until you create that I'm nobody to
you