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there is suffering and I was waiting
like 297 pounds and I had to make a

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change in my life you know I was at
all-time low and I wasn't going anywhere

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and I was exactly what everybody said I
was going to be which was nothing so I

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had to make a change

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you're scared kid and the only way I
could find myself was to put myself

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through the worst thing possible
I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what

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the world today's world is saying in the
end like what would your advice be to

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that 16 year old kid of staring in the
mirror does not like what he sees but is

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still running from adversity well my
biggest advice to him is that first of

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all he won't like what I say to him and
I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what

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the world today's world is saying so we
read a bunch of books nowadays as humans

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we we want to find out how to be someone
else what we don't do we don't go inside

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so literally turn yourself inside out
read the book that says like we're

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writing a book every day of our lives
but we never read that book so what I

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would challenge this young man or young
woman to do is you have to look inside

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of yourself and see what you really want
what are you passionate about we use

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these words and these little phrases of
only the strong survive and also the

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crap they're all just fucking words I
get so tired of hearing people just

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talking that right now someone may think
Gaga is just talking you don't know me

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so when I speak I speak from Pasha I
speak from experience I speak from

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suffering I want to tell this young man
and woman that the only way I believe

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this is just my experience in life the
only way you're ever going to get to the

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other side of this journey is you have
got to suffer to grow to grow you must

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suffer
and some people get it so they won't

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so long story short what I realized was
no one was here to help me in the

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feeling I had every morning I started
saving my hair now 16 years old and the

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feeling I had every morning I looked in
the mirror was horrible and I don't

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wanna feel like that anymore and how I
felt was a kid going nowhere a kid that

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was scared and most kids will accept
that and look for help but the best

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thing that happened to me no one helped
me no one felt sorry for me no one

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looked at me and said like this day and
age they'll they'll take you in and

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it'll tell you bye stop picking on this
person back then any care we're all we

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are all great no matter if if you think
you're dumb and maybe think you're fat

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no matter you are fat or have you been
bullied or no matter if you got back

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from Iraq or Afghanistan and you have no
legs or your arms or whatever man we all

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have greatness it just you got to find
the courage you got to find the courage

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to put your Bose headphones on and
silence the noise out of this world and

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to find it and the funding comes out
there but it's going to take hard work

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courage self-discipline it's going to
take all the non-cognitive skills all

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the non-cognitive skills to be great you
know smart is good all the stuff is good

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that's all cognitive it's the
non-cognitive skills that sets you apart

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from everybody else and and that's what
it's all about

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I I lied for people to accept me because
I did accept myself so I would make up

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stories so that you would accept me into
your world I would uh everything I did

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was for someone else to like me it was
until I started reading my own book

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about how pathetic I was as human being
I could blame my dad I can blame kids at

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school I could blame having health
issues ATD my mom not being around great

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mom but she was doing her thing I could
blame a lot of people and that's the

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book I was reading and I put it off on
everybody else they wouldn't try so you

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know what for me to fix this I get a
read what the hell what the fuck is

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wrong with David God wasn't going to be
a punk kid all my life so in a way I

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could turn around was to suffer
I had to build calluses in my brain the

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same way I built calluses on my hands so
I brought the Guinness Book of World

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Records for pulse a long time ago but I
felt at it twice and I did 67,000

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pull-ups and trying to break this record
so to do four thousand thirty pull-ups I

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had to do 67 thousand for training for
that Wow

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and so what I realized is for me to
become the man I want to become I saw

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myself as the weakest person God ever
created

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but I've never blamed God for anything
he did to me so I wanted to change that

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to be the hardest man ever created in my
that I don't know but he had to have a

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goal and my goal when I was sitting
there not going to school being bullied

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being at having no self-esteem my goal
was the only person that's gonna turn

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this person around it's me
you know like Anna turned around has put

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myself through the worst things possible
a human being can ever endure and I'd be

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the only way that I can build this brain
to handle anything that comes in front

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of it callus in my mind do pain and
suffering

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but they have to see what their journey
is to start their journey several people

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live to be a hundred years old and they
have great lives and they have great

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kids the kids go to college and all sort
of stuff but somewhere in their life

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there was a point where they had the
decision to make they can go left or

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right on this path left was the easy
route right was a hard route a lot of

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people take the easy route and they had
a good life that way but the better life

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was going to the right side a human
being is not so human anymore we have

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the ability to go in such a space if
you're willing to suffer and I mean

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suffer your brain and your body once
connected together can do anything

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motivation comes and goes when you're
driven whatever's in front of you will

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get destroyed and you may have twenty
years of pain and suffering to get past

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it but a lot of us die never truly
starting our journey and I would tell

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this young person you got to start your
journey it may suck but it will it will

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come out the other side where you're
coasting

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they stopped listening to people who are
calling you fat gay transsexual nigger

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everything that is makes no sense
all these insecure people putting their

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insecurities on you you gotta flush it
out you got to just be whoever the hell

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God or whatever the hell you believe in
if you believe in nothing but yourself I

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don't care what it is you're gonna take
everything and throw it away you have to

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believe in one thing and that is
yourself

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my biggest advice to give everybody in
the world is like I say we live in an

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external world everything is is you got
to see it touch its external if you can

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for the rest of your life live inside of
yourself

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and people may listen to this and say
this guy is sadistic he's crazy

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no if you know how I came up you
realized I was just a scared kid

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that found Drive and passion to be
something much better than what he

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thought about that's all it is

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even the hardest men in times of
suffering what we do was we forget how

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far we really are
that's what suffering is suffering is a

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test it's all of its suffering is a true
test of life

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self-talk can visualization with two
keys

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the very bestest did I leave everything
inside of me out there so attacking is

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not like all what a wind there's a wind
matter be the best the best is I'm

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learning to get himself in everything
I'm here that's that's my attack I

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attacked myself I'm always questioning
myself

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so the things that we run from we run it
from the truth we're running from the

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truth man so the only way I became
successful was going towards the truth

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as painful and as brutal as it is it
changed me it allowed me to become in my

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own right
Who am today

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when you look in the mirror that's the
one person you can't lie to so every

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morning I would shave my head thank God
I reflect back on some of the lies I may

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have told somebody or some of the ways I
acted I ain't feel comfortable doing and

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I did it to impress other normal people
the key word there is normal everyday

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people I was trying to make other people
like me how pathetic is that

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your skin become more of a human being
don't be afraid of the reflection in the

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mirror because that's all you can be
afraid of once you overcome the

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reflection in the mirror you've done it

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but if you can get through to doing
things that you hate to do on the other

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side is greatness that's what people are
saying by me running I am callous in my

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mind I'm not training for a race I'm
training for life I'm training for the

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time and I get that two o'clock in the
morning call that my mom is dead or

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something happens tragic in life I don't
fall apart I'm training my mind and my

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body my spirit shows all one so I can
handle what Michaels gonna throw at me

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because the life I've lived it those are
old blunt actions and if you're not

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physically immensely prepared for that
you're just gonna crumble

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good for nobody

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but the mentality of a warrior is very
different you know mentality you must be

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that person on that door Oh get ready to
open it thinking to yourself if I die so

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be the only way you can go in that door
there's no there's a great chance you're

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gonna die open your motherfucking going
home

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because they're gonna remember you by
slowly opening and peeking in so if

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you're gonna open it and you made them
on to open it don't crack it open open

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the fucking door go in that's with life
if you choose to do if you're choosing

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to do something attack it because
they're gonna remember you as not

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attacking it so I want to be remembered
you can hate me but one thing you can't

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say about me I didn't attack it
so that's them attire you have if you're

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gonna do something you might as well
attack it hopefully I can help people

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that believe that they're much less than
what they truly are help them find

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greatness in themselves and greatness
isn't running towards it miles at a time

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or doing 4,000 flips to being a seal
greatness is whatever the hell you

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dreamed of in your own mind you got to
first see it you got first create this

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vision in your mind and then that's when
I come into play once you create this

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vision in your mind it's how am I gonna
get there and that's we're not coming to

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play but first you got to create your
own vision and it's not externally it's

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the the busines created is inside of you
so until you create that I'm nobody to

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you