there is suffering and I was waiting
like 297 pounds and I had to make a
change in my life you know I was at
all-time low and I wasn't going anywhere
and I was exactly what everybody said I
was going to be which was nothing so I
had to make a change
you're scared kid and the only way I
could find myself was to put myself
through the worst thing possible
I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what
the world today's world is saying in the
end like what would your advice be to
that 16 year old kid of staring in the
mirror does not like what he sees but is
still running from adversity well my
biggest advice to him is that first of
all he won't like what I say to him and
I'm gonna say the exact opposite of what
the world today's world is saying so we
read a bunch of books nowadays as humans
we we want to find out how to be someone
else what we don't do we don't go inside
so literally turn yourself inside out
read the book that says like we're
writing a book every day of our lives
but we never read that book so what I
would challenge this young man or young
woman to do is you have to look inside
of yourself and see what you really want
what are you passionate about we use
these words and these little phrases of
only the strong survive and also the
crap they're all just fucking words I
get so tired of hearing people just
talking that right now someone may think
Gaga is just talking you don't know me
so when I speak I speak from Pasha I
speak from experience I speak from
suffering I want to tell this young man
and woman that the only way I believe
this is just my experience in life the
only way you're ever going to get to the
other side of this journey is you have
got to suffer to grow to grow you must
suffer
and some people get it so they won't
so long story short what I realized was
no one was here to help me in the
feeling I had every morning I started
saving my hair now 16 years old and the
feeling I had every morning I looked in
the mirror was horrible and I don't
wanna feel like that anymore and how I
felt was a kid going nowhere a kid that
was scared and most kids will accept
that and look for help but the best
thing that happened to me no one helped
me no one felt sorry for me no one
looked at me and said like this day and
age they'll they'll take you in and
it'll tell you bye stop picking on this
person back then any care we're all we
are all great no matter if if you think
you're dumb and maybe think you're fat
no matter you are fat or have you been
bullied or no matter if you got back
from Iraq or Afghanistan and you have no
legs or your arms or whatever man we all
have greatness it just you got to find
the courage you got to find the courage
to put your Bose headphones on and
silence the noise out of this world and
to find it and the funding comes out
there but it's going to take hard work
courage self-discipline it's going to
take all the non-cognitive skills all
the non-cognitive skills to be great you
know smart is good all the stuff is good
that's all cognitive it's the
non-cognitive skills that sets you apart
from everybody else and and that's what
it's all about
I I lied for people to accept me because
I did accept myself so I would make up
stories so that you would accept me into
your world I would uh everything I did
was for someone else to like me it was
until I started reading my own book
about how pathetic I was as human being
I could blame my dad I can blame kids at
school I could blame having health
issues ATD my mom not being around great
mom but she was doing her thing I could
blame a lot of people and that's the
book I was reading and I put it off on
everybody else they wouldn't try so you
know what for me to fix this I get a
read what the hell what the fuck is
wrong with David God wasn't going to be
a punk kid all my life so in a way I
could turn around was to suffer
I had to build calluses in my brain the
same way I built calluses on my hands so
I brought the Guinness Book of World
Records for pulse a long time ago but I
felt at it twice and I did 67,000
pull-ups and trying to break this record
so to do four thousand thirty pull-ups I
had to do 67 thousand for training for
that Wow
and so what I realized is for me to
become the man I want to become I saw
myself as the weakest person God ever
created
but I've never blamed God for anything
he did to me so I wanted to change that
to be the hardest man ever created in my
that I don't know but he had to have a
goal and my goal when I was sitting
there not going to school being bullied
being at having no self-esteem my goal
was the only person that's gonna turn
this person around it's me
you know like Anna turned around has put
myself through the worst things possible
a human being can ever endure and I'd be
the only way that I can build this brain
to handle anything that comes in front
of it callus in my mind do pain and
suffering
but they have to see what their journey
is to start their journey several people
live to be a hundred years old and they
have great lives and they have great
kids the kids go to college and all sort
of stuff but somewhere in their life
there was a point where they had the
decision to make they can go left or
right on this path left was the easy
route right was a hard route a lot of
people take the easy route and they had
a good life that way but the better life
was going to the right side a human
being is not so human anymore we have
the ability to go in such a space if
you're willing to suffer and I mean
suffer your brain and your body once
connected together can do anything
motivation comes and goes when you're
driven whatever's in front of you will
get destroyed and you may have twenty
years of pain and suffering to get past
it but a lot of us die never truly
starting our journey and I would tell
this young person you got to start your
journey it may suck but it will it will
come out the other side where you're
coasting
they stopped listening to people who are
calling you fat gay transsexual nigger
everything that is makes no sense
all these insecure people putting their
insecurities on you you gotta flush it
out you got to just be whoever the hell
God or whatever the hell you believe in
if you believe in nothing but yourself I
don't care what it is you're gonna take
everything and throw it away you have to
believe in one thing and that is
yourself
my biggest advice to give everybody in
the world is like I say we live in an
external world everything is is you got
to see it touch its external if you can
for the rest of your life live inside of
yourself
and people may listen to this and say
this guy is sadistic he's crazy
no if you know how I came up you
realized I was just a scared kid
that found Drive and passion to be
something much better than what he
thought about that's all it is
even the hardest men in times of
suffering what we do was we forget how
far we really are
that's what suffering is suffering is a
test it's all of its suffering is a true
test of life
self-talk can visualization with two
keys
the very bestest did I leave everything
inside of me out there so attacking is
not like all what a wind there's a wind
matter be the best the best is I'm
learning to get himself in everything
I'm here that's that's my attack I
attacked myself I'm always questioning
myself
so the things that we run from we run it
from the truth we're running from the
truth man so the only way I became
successful was going towards the truth
as painful and as brutal as it is it
changed me it allowed me to become in my
own right
Who am today
when you look in the mirror that's the
one person you can't lie to so every
morning I would shave my head thank God
I reflect back on some of the lies I may
have told somebody or some of the ways I
acted I ain't feel comfortable doing and
I did it to impress other normal people
the key word there is normal everyday
people I was trying to make other people
like me how pathetic is that
your skin become more of a human being
don't be afraid of the reflection in the
mirror because that's all you can be
afraid of once you overcome the
reflection in the mirror you've done it
but if you can get through to doing
things that you hate to do on the other
side is greatness that's what people are
saying by me running I am callous in my
mind I'm not training for a race I'm
training for life I'm training for the
time and I get that two o'clock in the
morning call that my mom is dead or
something happens tragic in life I don't
fall apart I'm training my mind and my
body my spirit shows all one so I can
handle what Michaels gonna throw at me
because the life I've lived it those are
old blunt actions and if you're not
physically immensely prepared for that
you're just gonna crumble
good for nobody
but the mentality of a warrior is very
different you know mentality you must be
that person on that door Oh get ready to
open it thinking to yourself if I die so
be the only way you can go in that door
there's no there's a great chance you're
gonna die open your motherfucking going
home
because they're gonna remember you by
slowly opening and peeking in so if
you're gonna open it and you made them
on to open it don't crack it open open
the fucking door go in that's with life
if you choose to do if you're choosing
to do something attack it because
they're gonna remember you as not
attacking it so I want to be remembered
you can hate me but one thing you can't
say about me I didn't attack it
so that's them attire you have if you're
gonna do something you might as well
attack it hopefully I can help people
that believe that they're much less than
what they truly are help them find
greatness in themselves and greatness
isn't running towards it miles at a time
or doing 4,000 flips to being a seal
greatness is whatever the hell you
dreamed of in your own mind you got to
first see it you got first create this
vision in your mind and then that's when
I come into play once you create this
vision in your mind it's how am I gonna
get there and that's we're not coming to
play but first you got to create your
own vision and it's not externally it's
the the busines created is inside of you
so until you create that I'm nobody to
you